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"So with that in mind..." She pulled him into a wicked kiss and then he groaned into her mouth in surprised pleasure. She'd vanished her knickers, and promptly seated herself on his erect cock, her tongue traced his ear before nibbling it slightly as she spoke in a sinful whisper.

"Gentleman, Start your engine"

It was the most pleasant torture he'd ever experienced. He'd wanted beyond anything to impress her with his skill, because Merlin knows but he'd studied the theory, devouring books like 'the joy of sex and 'the female orgasm' in his ever voracious hunt for knowledge. He knew how to make her moan, where to find her clitoris, her G-spot and how to stimulate her cervix with the head of his cock, though knew that deep stimulation was something a woman either loved or hated. He knew how to read her body language to see when she wasn't enjoying something, and likewise knew all the tell tale signs that she was enjoying his attentions and approaching orgasm. He could tell from the pitch of her cries, the flush on her skin, the dilation of her pupils that she was approaching her release. He knew which sexual positions would give her the most pleasure, and which would allow her to orgasm quickest. He even knew all of the hidden erogenous zones on a woman, that were often overlooked, that would drive her into a sensual frenzy until she screamed out, hopefully his name.

He knew all of that , but for all his great plans, it couldn't stop him gasping his tortured release less than a minute after he entered her. Clenching his arse, gritting his teeth and holding onto her hips hard enough to bruise, did nothing to stop the inevitable and he was quickly crying out desperately into her neck as his body betrayed him and his traitorous cock lurched in rapture as he emptied himself within her.

Panting as though he'd run a marathon, he pressed his head to her chest in a desperate need to hide his face from her, hide his shame, but not being so dense as to push the woman off of him and run after he'd just received his own selfish release, while she was still wanting.

"I'm sorry, so sorry I-" But before he could fall down that familiar hole of self loathing, she'd pulled his head from her chest until his lips met hers. "Don't be sorry Severus, be here." She said and he instantly understood. So pushing back that easy and familiar urge to cloak himself with self hatred, he instead brought his focus to her. He knew how to please her, he knew how to work her body, and he didn't need his cock to do it.

Deepening the kisses she initiated, he continued to cradle her hip with one hand, as the other slipped between them. He was thankful that he was as one would say a 'show-er' and not a 'grow-er' as even flaccid his cock remained a decent enough length and girth to not slip out of her when he was spent, It wouldn't compare to the stiff thickness of his erect cock, he knew, but it would add to the sensations for her at least.

He got a buzz at feeling the wetness between her legs, knowing she was indeed aroused at their interactions even if his performance had been less than stellar so far. They were kissing deeply but he pulled back to light teasing touches as he found her clit with unerring accuracy. She gasped into his mouth and groaned in desire, when her next words were a breathless "Oh Severus". She rocked against him, making a little moue of displeasure when his hand held her hip firmly, restricting her movement. She was lost to the pleasure he knew, as he continued his assault on her little clit, but he refused to rush this, he knew every instinct she had was likely telling her to chase her release, but he knew that if he took his time it would be so much sweeter for her. So he held onto her hip, his superior strength and size meaning that even the one handed grip was too much for her to overpower, until he felt the moment she surrendered to him, and went lax in his arms allowing him to control her pleasure.

Once he was certain she would not attempt to gain control again, he widened his legs, as she was straddling him this widened hers too and it gave him much better access to her clit. His other hand, now free from her hip traced sensuous paths up her body, following the twitches and shudders from her neck, down her spine, up her ribs until he was caressing her breast and thumbing the nipple that was already a rouged hard peak.

With another gasped exclamation she threw her head back in pleasure, breaking their kiss but giving him access to her neck. His hand slipped from her breast to grab a handful of her arse as he felt her gently rocking her hips. She wasn't working against him anymore though, but working with his rhythm so he allowed it, pushing her back slightly with a hand on her shoulder, he broke his kiss on her neck, inordinately pleased with the mark he had left and encouraged her to lean away from him, placing her hands on his knees for support she leaned back as he bade her to and a pleased hum slipped from her lips as the thick base of his almost semi hard cock rubbed against her g spot. She was close now, nearing the precipice of her release and her hips tensed and twitched under his hand with the need to move and so he held her firmly once more, his other hand maintaining his devastating rhythm on her clit, no matter how much she begged and urged with her body language for more speed.

Her body was flushed and there was a fine sheen of sweat on her skin as her breaths came in deep gasps and high pitched moans. He could practically feel her pulse racing through her needy little button and as he looked at her, she was nothing short of perfection.

"You're so beautiful" Her eyes snapped opened at his words and met his , hers were so dilated they were no longer the golden amber he adored, but almost as black as his own. "A goddess...perfect" his words were deep and sensuous and her breathing quickened, one hand grasping onto his that held her hip.

"So amazing, beautiful...I love you"

"SEVERUS!" Her body bowed, and were his cock hard he would have worried about it's well-being in this position, with how much she seemed to arch from his touch, but even flaccid as he was he couldn't help but gasp at the feeling of her rippling cunt gripping his member, until the movement eventually unseated him. Her little button was as hard as a pearl under his ministrations and he continued to lightly tease her until he saw the signs that she was over-sensitised, then he pulled her closer into his arms as she had been perilously close to falling off his lap and onto the floor.

She was shivering in his grasp so he stood on slightly shaky legs and effortlessly carried her into the bed and under the covers, where she promptly wrapped around his like devils snare.

"That was amazing" She whispered into a gentle kiss, and he felt a little frisson of pleasure in his chest at her praise, even as he stamped it down.

"It was no less than you deserved, after my abysmal performance, I apologi-" But she was shutting him up with her mouth once more and kissing him as though her he had gifted her some great miracle.

"That was the most amazing...the best...I have never orgasmed so hard in my life Severus, thank you, you amazing man"

It was his turn to flush, the naturally pale pallor of his skin doing nothing to hide the slight pink tinge it had gained.

"There's something else though" She whispered, and her eyes were half lidded as she snuggled into his embrace. He said nothing but arched an eyebrow questioningly.

She pulled him down into a slow sweet and sensual kiss, it was delicious and utterly decadent and it made him think of the richest honeydukes chocolate, but when she broke the kiss, she pressed her lips against his and whispered gently "I love you too Severus" and with a cry that was part anguish part adoration he pulled her into a tight armed grip, and buried his face into her chest.

For a moment it shocked her, as she rocked and soothed and held him, he continued to whisper tearful adorations into her skin as his face remained cradled into her chest and she pressed kisses to his hair.

Though for all the great love he'd harboured for others in his life, she realised with startling and tearful clarity, as he continued to weep and worship her in equal measure, that this was the first time someone had offered it to him in return.

oOo

Over the next week they continued to explore this new level in their relationship, with varying repetitions of their first time. Severus still struggled with his body's responses, the next couple of times they engaged his release was premature like the first time and after that the nerves and self loathing meant he either couldn't get hard, or quickly lost it during their coupling without reaching release.
Hermione was nothing if not supportive and understanding, insisting that she didn't care how he pleased her, as long as he was attentive to her needs, which he always was. His touch was electric and they never finished an evening anymore without her coming at least once on his fingers, and once around them, when he'd been unable to get hard at all and had to resort to penetrating her with his long and talented digits. But when he once more was unable to rise to the occasion, he pushed her away for the first time and left her in the bedroom as he shut himself in the potions lab in the basement to "break something" as he'd choked out. Though when she ventured to the top of the stairs, she heard the basement door slam and realised in his emotional state he'd neglected to put up a silencing ward, and instead of the expected smashes, her heart clenched to hear him sink against the door and begin weeping in shame.
She wanted more than anything to go after him, to soothe and reassure him, but she allowed him his space. It must be so difficult for him, she understood that much, though she was honest that his struggles to perform did not bother her in the least, because as she had correctly assumed he was nothing if not a generous and attentive lover, she knew that in his mind it must feel like another heavy blow to his masculinity, and as much as she wanted to be there for him, show him how much she didn't care and loved him regardless, she would not follow him and add another to dent to his pride, if he was to be found weeping in the shame of his inability in front of her. She knew more than anyone, how cathartic it was to have a good cry, so with tears in her own eyes she silenced the hall so Rose wouldn't stir, ad went to wait for him in bed.

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He wept himself to an exhausted sleep and when he returned in the morning she wasn't in the bed, but there was retching sounds coming from the bathroom. He quickly came by her side and pulled her hair out of her face, resting a damp cloth against the back of her neck until her retching stopped. When she finally turned round, he was shocked at her gray pallor and the bags under her eyes.

"Did you sleep at all?" He asked, and she shook her head no.

"I was so worried, I wanted to go to you so much, but I wanted to respect your space. But I was tossing and turning all night, I don't think I can sleep anymore without being by your side" she whispered tiredly and another pang of guilt hit him, She had worried herself sick over him.

"Try to rest now, I shall see to Rose and make us a light breakfast. What say the three of us have toast in bed?"

She smiled at him and nodded and he kissed her sweat damp forehead. "I love you witch, I am sorry-"

"I love you Severus, you have nothing to be sorry for." She cut in, even as rotten as she felt, she wouldn't allow him to blame himself.

And then everything else stopped in an instant as with a deafening screech, the house wards were breached.

Yay for awkward sex! Who else is a big fan of 'awkward' or 'imperfect' or 'bad' sex scenes?
To me it's just that bit hotter because it's so much more real!
Feel free to shoot me some reading suggestions for awkward sex scenes between our favourite duo!
And what about that Cliffie? Sorry guys, you'll have to wait and see!
Love - Ems