I walked out of Tess' room as Kit was coming back into the house. Kyle had been waiting outside Tess' door. I gave him a small smile, thanking him for the privacy.

"How are you doing?" Kit asked me as Kyle and I walked back towards the door. His anger seemed to be gone.

"Fine," I shrugged.

"I talked to the boys," Kit said. "They won't push you around again."

I nodded and looked down, walking outside. I didn't mean to get them in trouble. I sat down in my seat, Kyle leaned against the table like he was before. It was silent out here.

Simon was the first to speak up, "We're sorry for pushing you Chloe."

"It's ok," I said quietly.

I bet they wanted to argue that their actions weren't ok but it continued to stay quiet for a while.

"Are you going to tell them your decision?" Kyle asked me.

I shook my head. I was too anxious to talk about it. Right now I needed to focus on not changing from my anxiety. The last thing I needed right now was to be a wolf.

After a while, the tension loosened up. Jeremy suggested another bonfire since it was starting to get late, I jumped at the opportunity to do something other than sit in the silence. Simon excused himself to go check on Tori and Liz. Derek quietly helped me gather wood. We were mostly taking from the pile of debris from the house. Pieces of the walls that were broken and useless.

"Are you ever going to say anything?" I asked him.

"I don't know," he spoke. "I'm just trying to do whats best for you and that upset you."

"You didn't stop to factor in how I felt about the situation," I replied.

"How do you feel then?" Derek asked.

I took a deep breath first, expecting backlash, "I think giving in a little bit might be a good thing. Because it will allow me to satisfy the vampire and keep it at bay. No more attacks or hybrid changes."

Derek didn't yell at me like I expected. Instead his voice was low and quiet.

"That scares me Chloe. I can't lose you."

"You wouldn't," I said.

The fear glinted off Derek's eyes, he wasn't kidding.

"You know drug addicts?" He said. "At first a little is enough but over time you need more and more. Bloods going to be the same way. Maybe you can keep the instincts or whatever at bay for now with just a little but it will start to take more and more."

I placed my hand on his chest, feeling the beating of his heart.

"Derek. As long as I can do this, I am alright. I know us, we'll find a cure before it gets to that point. This is just me trying to do my part. Be less of a threat." I bent down and picked up some wood to carry back. "I love you Derek. I'm not going to do anything to jeopardize us."

Once again I heard his breath get caught in his throat. Derek really wasn't used to hearing people say that they loved him.

"I love you too," he said back.

Derek grabbed some wood as well and we came back to the fire pit. Kyle was watching Jeremy try to get it started.

A few hours later, we were all too cold to keep it going outside. The nights were starting to get chilly. I wanted to go to bed but my bedroom door was locked and Simon and Tori were in an intense hushed conversation. Whatever Liz and them were talking about, they did not want to be interrupted. Derek tried to convince me to sleep in the boys' room but I didn't feel comfortable with the idea of sleeping in the same room as Kit. Nothing against him, it just felt weird.

Derek, Matt, and I watched movies until we all fell asleep. Once again I was surprised by Matt using technology but ever since that vampire nest was killed off, he seemed a lot more relaxed. Plus Matt didn't have much of a choice to watch it or not. He had been camping out on the living room recliner at night lately. He gave Rachel and Jeremy his bedroom. I don't know exactly when the others fell asleep but I was out about halfway through the movie. I fell asleep during a commercial for dolls.

A few hours later I jolted awake. It took me a minute to realize what exactly scared me. My...fangs?... I guess had come out and I bit my own lip. I wiped the blood off on my sleeve. As I did, something dawned on me and I don't know why it had taken so long to; where would I get blood from? If I was going to control this I would need somewhere to get blood from. Its not like we can go to a blood bank like it was fast food. Not that there was around here anyways.

Quietly I got up and slipped outside. I wasn't scared of being outside at night, I was the scariest thing out here. A vampire werewolf necromancer. A genetic impossibility. I was the thing that would go bump in the night.

I didn't know what I was looking for until I saw it. A rabbit was bouncing by and my fangs poked my lips again. Animals. There was no way I would feed off of one of my friends. That was horrifying to think about. Animals on the other hand; no one would ever have to know.

I was horrified that I was actually thinking about this.

When I looked down at my hands, I found the rabbit already in my hands. My vampire autopilot had snatched it. I didn't want to do this, with all my heart I did not want to. But my stomach growls turned to sharp pains. Crippling me to my knees. If I didn't force myself to get blood from somewhere, I wasn't going to have control much longer. Or maybe life much longer.

I closed my eyes until it was over.