CHAPTER 5 - FRUSTRATIONS

L was sitting in his cabinet and he was reading through case files again. The numbers were getting alarming. Fifty wizarding pairs in the last 4 years died together, in the same moment. And most of them were not even in the same place when it happened. L was seriously happy that politicians helped to keep the information off the press this time. If the public knew about this, it could start waves of panic.

The reason why L wanted to put someone to Hogwarts was simple: the last 7 murdered pairs were all Hogwarts absolvents. It was the only connection between them. It wasn't a strong lead and that's why L wanted someone of his colleagues to take the job while he would work on the strong ones instead. But things happened as they did and the task was his to do now. At least he decided to unleash identity at the school instead of teaching under his pseudonym. He hoped he might attract Kira to himself. It was risky. Especially in the school full of younglings. But even Roger and Quillsh were willing to take the risk. Everyone who knew about this was willing to take the risk. Because this Kira thing was getting too big and too much of a threat.

Quillsh and Roger also thought L might be able to arm students with his DADA knowledge fast enough to prepare them for what might come. But no one really could. If they didn't know the kind of magic that was doing it, they had no way to defend themselves against it.

All L could really do was teach them all he knew and hope they will never come across a dark wizard with Kira's power.

He couldn't imagine the pain of knowing the one you love is dying with you, must have been… he didn't know. He couldn't find the word for that.

But he knew how it felt watching someone die like that. And that was something he really didn't want these kids to go through. He didnt want any of these kids to be left behind a murder like that.

L shook the memory away and looked into his schedule. That made him smile a little. He was enjoying teaching much more than he could ever admit out loud. He was having the 7th year's again tomorrow. From all his classes this one was hardest to handle. They were almost adults but still teenagers on the other hand. And they were acting like that.

L smirked.

Teasing 7th years and pulling them out of their dreamy, imaginary universes became his favourite activity lately. Half of them were dreamers. Totally unprepared for the reality of the world. The other half was more pragmatic. Unsurprisingly, it was the part coming from old wizarding families.

If I was Kira, who would I choose as an ally? Naive half-breed or pragmatic wizard with a strong family name?

His thoughts were interrupted by knock on the door.

"Come in." he said and put his legs down from the table.

His old man appeared at the door with a bottle of a bubbling potion.

"Aaa Watari… Is it time for the potion again?" He asked and stood up.

Watari looked at him through his glasses: "My boy, how many times do I need to remind you, that you can't call me Watari here."

L shrugged: "Force of habit… sorry."

"And yes, it's time for your medicine… How is your leg?" The old man asked and showed L to the chair. L moved there and took off his trousers: "Some days are better than others…"

"That's a good sign. Looks like the potion is finally working the way we wanted." Watari said and started pouring the potion on the L's wound.

L hissed in pain and closed his eyes tightly: "Yeah...but if it would work steady I'd be happier."

Watari frowned: "Are the differences that big?"

"Well… Some days I feel like I never had any injury and then the other it hurts with every step."

"Hmmm… That's strange. Maybe the effects of the potion are influenced by something here in Hogwarts. It might be good if you started making notes on how you feel each day and we might find the cause."

"Alright...I can do that…" L said and leaned his back into a chair. He had a moment to relax a little, because Watari was pouring the potion in small doses. It was also the perfect opportunity to ask him was was on his mind for a few days:

"About the side effects of the potion… do you think it's possible it might somehow influence the effects of my suppressant charm?"

Watari shook his head and started pouring the potion again: "That's highly improbable L… charms and potions are affecting one another very rarely… Why are you asking me this?"

"Aaaaa…." L voiced his pain again before he continued: "Well I got the feeling that some omega students are able to smell me…"

He used plural. On purpose. Because he wasn't sure if there were more of them. He had a suspicion on two or three but he was sure with only one. But he was not going to tell that to Watari.

Amusement appeared on the old man's face: "Really? And isn't it just that they are a bit impressed by you?"

L tilted his head: "What are you implying?"

"You are an alpha L. In a good age, well situated with a good career… and you are not ugly either. It would be surprising if a few omegas wanted to catch your eye."

L threw his hands in the air and rolled his eyes: "Oh come on Watari… They are still practically children… I can't believe you are hitting on this topic."

Watari gave him a scolding look and poured a little more potion into his wound to torture this behaviour out of him: "Don't act like you're older than I am L. There are a few pretty omegas in 7th year… And 7 years of age difference is not that much. You might get to know them and once they finish studies…"

"I can't believe we are having this conversation…" L cut him off and he started massaging the bridge of his nose.

"You can't be alone forever L. It's not even healthy for an alpha…" Watari told him with a fatherly tone and L noticed that he was finally out of potion so he abruptly stood up, took his trousers back on and started pacing across the room. Well more limping then pacing.

"We were discussing this 100 times over Watari… I am not bonding anyone."

"Alright then perhaps some beta… They are not so eager in bonding like omegas are and they are usually very good companions. I noticed that a certain blonde beta from 7th year cant take her eyes off you…"

L was getting seriously annoyed by this conversation: "Really Watari, if you are paying so much attention to 7th years perhaps you should bond one yourself."

Watari stood up and shook his head: "I am afraid none of them is having a crush on me… You on the other side, are quite a catch from what I've heard."

L gritted his teeths: "Oh my God these teenagers… Let me guess. Misa Amane."

Watari smiled at him and gave him a supportive smile: "Correct. She is watching your every step… Yesterday I heard her talking about your… I quote: sexy ass."

"Jesus Christ Watari stop! I dont wanna hear it!" L hid his ears in his hands.

Watari started laughing out loud. It was a resonant sound and L was not used to hearing very often. He let his hands of his ears and folded them on his chest:

"You are enjoying this, aren't you?"

"I must admit I find the situation very refreshing…" the old man said while laughing.

L rolled his eyes again and sat on his table: "Really Watari, I can't believe you are thinking this way in the current situation. You must realize how dangerous bonding with someone might be right now."

The old man finally stopped laughing and came closer. He leaned against the table next to L and his hand went over L's shoulders fatherly: "I know L… I am just making fun of you. It's really amusing seeing these teenagers fangirling over you. But you know I couldn't really support any relationship between you and a student… At least not while you are teaching here."

"That makes two of us."

L stepped away from him again and turned to face him: "Anyway… can we somehow make sure the potion is not affecting the suppressant charm? I want to be sure. I don't want to get sued for using my scent on students without even knowing it."

Watari rubbed his mustache: "Hmm… if something would have this effect it would have to be a different charm not a potion. And God knows you have enough of them on yourself… Maybe some of them have contradictions."

"Can you figure it out?"

Watari nodded: "Yes… I can use a special form of revelare spell. It can show me all the spells and charms you have on right now. But then, we would have to cancel every single one and conjure it again. Because revelare is only able to show contradictions in the first few minutes after the spell is conjured. So doing it now would be pointless."

"Damn...isn't there another way? I have at least 100 charms and spells on myself."

Watari shook his head: "This or reading research on contradictions… And as we both know, some of the spells and charms you are using are not even officially invented yet… So it would be no use anyway."

L scratched the back of his neck: "Can we make it during the weekend?"

"No… If you have so many charms on we wouldn't make it in time. It will have to wait until autumn break. That will give us a week."

L let out a long sigh: "That's another two weeks… Let's hope no one will complain until then."

Watari smirked again: "I think you are just reading the signals wrong young man... You should spend more time with young betas and omegas… Maybe you'll figure out that they don't really need a scent to be into a teacher."

L gave him an annoyed look: "You are starting again? Seriously Watari it is not funny! I would wanna see your reaction if someone was talking about your ass."

Watari shrugged: "I would be flattered! And I must remind you again not to call me Watari."

L bit his lower lip: "Sorry…"

Light was trying really hard to stay away from Lawliet after the wand discussion more than 2 weeks ago. And he was doing good at it. He never really saw him anywhere except classes and occasionally dinner. He was happy about it. Light didnt want to deal with his disgusting scent.

Classes were hardest to handle. Lawliet was mostly helping other students but wherever he came to Light, he scolded him and gave him a really hard time. It was like Light was doing all wrong. He couldn't help but think that Lawliet picked on him. Why else would he be this tough on him?

Light seriously started rethinking his whole plan. Because no matter how good teacher Lawliet was, for the last two weeks he was failing getting something better from Light. He was only stressing Light out and he felt constantly tensed during DADA classes. If things continue like that, Lawliet might even say something against his admission to Auror's office and Light's career would end before it even started. He needed to do something.

Maybe to talk to my father?

Or headmaster?

No… hell I cant act like an omega in trouble. That could damage my public image.

But what should I do? Light was asking himself as he was entering the tournament arena again. His heart started pounding in his chest and he felt a wave of anxiety. He wasn't happy to be there. His most favourite subject was slowly turning into living hell.

L would lie if he said that conversation with Watari didn't change his perception of his students. Next week he caught himself 3 times checking betas and omegas in 6th year and 7th. And some of them were disturbingly pretty.

Damn you Watari…

What the old man told him woke the alpha in him. And the alpha missed sex. L was able to live without it. He didn't need anyone in his life and he was happy. But the alpha part of his personality didn't feel the same about it. But why was he surprised? He was an alpha and to be in sync with your inner alpha you had to fulfil its needs… at least from time to time.

Anyway… checking chicks at school was no use. It was not like he could have sex with any of them.

How long was it? Over half a year? More?

Yep. It was January when that red eyed bastard betrayed me and let me be tortured.

Thank God I didn't bond with him.

Not that he would ever do that. BB was fun, and good fucking buddy but thats where it ended. He simply didn't feel anything more than affection towards him. And he never wanted a mate anyway.

L shifted his eyes to the class again. He needed to focus. Thinking about sex, bonding or BB won't do him any good during the class.

He had 7th years again. They were currently working in pairs. One was doing the offensive magic and the other one defensive. L was walking through the pairs, giving them advice. Some of them were still a complete waste, some were getting a little better.

L stopped by to watch Misa Amane.

She was a talented witch with good ideas. She wasn't a very good student from what he heard but when it came to practical magic she was a fast learner. L couldn't imagine her working in the field for the Department of Magical Accidents and Catastrophes. She was strong enough with practical magic and that department was in serious lack of pretty faces.

He could also imagine her in a bikini.

Wait... WHAT?

L clenched his fists because his inner alpha was seriously pissing him off. In the same moment Amane lost her wand because she felt L was looking at her. She turned to him and she was blushing furiously. L didn't change his expression but he was rolling his eyes internally.

"Concentrate miss Amane!" He told her a little threateningly and she nodded with panic in her face.

L rather moved to check on other students. He helped a few pairs before stopping in front of Yagami and Takada. Takada was holding her magic shield very proficiently and Yagami was using all his magic strength to get through it. But it was quite clear to L, that he was more fighting with his own wand than Takada's shield. It was really a shame that a student with such a potential was held back by his own head.

The whole problem with his wand wasn't about him being omega. It was about him not accepting being omega. He was fighting it. And that was the whole reason why his wand was not cooperating with him in offensive magic. He just needed to use the wand as an omega. Not as aggressive alpha. Which was exactly what he was doing now when he gritted his teeth and roared in effort. Two things happened at that moment. Takada's shield broke and Yagami fell to the ground.

Mikami and Takada hurried to help him on his feet.

L rolled his eyes and came closer.

"Leave him be. Mikami back to your partner." He barked at the dark haired student and got a murderous glare as an answer. But he obeyed. L turned his gaze to panting Yagami who was currently held under his arm by Takada, who was telling him supportive and completely useless shit: "You did good Light. You broke my shield! I couldn't hold it anymore."

"No.. he did everything wrong." L told them and got another two murderous looks.

"I broke the damn shield!" Light hissed at him.

"Yes and it took all your strength to the point you were not able to disarm miss Takada. In other words, if she was your enemy, you were dead."

Light clenched his fists at that and Takada was defensive off him: "You are not being a fair professor. Most of the class are not even able to make this spell. Not to mention this strong."

L tilted his head and brought his thumb to his lower lip: "Ohh… I am so sorry! I forgot that Mr. Yagami is okay with just getting a post of an auror. Not really becoming one. My apologies."

With that he turned and went check on another pair.

It is really a waste. So much talent for such a hard headed omega like him.

L could bet that Light Yagami, with his big loud dreams, will be the first to get knocked up when he gets off Hogwarts.

I fucking hate him!

Was the only thing that was going through Light's mind for the rest of the day. Kyiomi and Mikami were staying with him everywhere and tried to calm him down. Because it was quite unusual seeing Light in this state of distress. Light was always calm and easygoing. Until now.

But he was also so pissed off that he didn't even care. His emotions were totally clouding his judgement and his inner omega was getting the worst out of him. But he couldn't get Lawliet's words out of his head. And what was even worse, he couldn't get his scent out of his lungs. Because before the teacher left them, he was regretting him. He was pitying him because he was an omega. Light could fucking smell it of him.

"Don't let him get to you Light… he is an asshole." Kyiomi whispered to him while they were having dinner in the great hall later that night. But no matter how many times she or Mikami told him that that day, it wasn't any better. In the end he decided to leave them and headed to his room. But as soon as he got out of the hall, he heard a high voice saying his name.

"Hello Light!"

He turned around. It was Misa Amane. Light was surprised. She was not usually talking to him.

"Hello Misa." He answered and waited what's gonna come. Because this was not just a greeting. It was a conversation starter.

"I just wanted to make sure if you are okay, after the DADA class today. You looked angry." She told him with a shy smile.

Light clenched his fists.

Great. Another beta who wanted to calm him down. Was he sending some distress signals around or something?

"I am fine Misa, thank you for your concern." He said as calmly as he could and turned to leave. But it turned out that Misa was going with him.

"I just wanted to tell you that you are really lucky."

Light stopped in his tracks and turned towards her: "What?"

"That Lawliet thinks so highly of you…" she told him and smiled.

Now Light was seriously confused.

Is she making fun of me? No… she is just too stupid to understand.

"Misa, Lawliet surely thinks many things of me… but highly is surely not one of them." With that he turned around again and started walking away. But Misa was running after him:

"I think you are wrong Light! I think you just don't want to see what is right before your eyes."

Light turned to her again and this time the anger on his face was more than just palpable.

"And what is it that I fail to see, Misa?! Enlighten me!"

His tone seemed to startle the girl and when she recovered she gave him a hard look: "That he sees a great potential in you and he is hard on you because he wants to help you unleash it! But Mr. Oh-so-great-student-the-first-ever-omega-to-become-an-auror is just too blinded by his own ego to see it!"

With that she turned on her heels and angrily walked away.

Light stood there, staring at her back and felt like she just slapped him in the face.

Could she be right….? He asked himself in panic and then fastly shook off the question and headed to his dorm: Of Course she couldn't. Everyone knows she has a crush on him. She sees him through pink glasses.