Eyes that see into Infinity
Part 1
Chapter Five
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Alexander…
Alexander…
Alex…
The name echoed in his head as his lover stood by his bed encouraging the king to awaken. His eyelids twitched but still they did not react.
Alexander your people need you.
The man stayed asleep.
Get up love.
Get up Alex…
The beautiful general touches his lips to his king's soft ones and slowly the blonde man opens his eyes, playing upon him a childish smirk followed by a childish chuckle.
I'm awake Hephaistion. What is it that you need?
The king whispers lovingly sparing himself the much love he was already feeling as his general kissed him more.
Your people need you. Stop teasing me Alexander.
Do they need me as much as you do?
The general shakes his head. No. I need you much more.
Do I need them as much as I need you?
The general shakes his head and brown hair spreads across the kings' smooth but hard battled chest as his lover lays much more wet kisses down his stomach. You need me much more.
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Alex felt someone gently push him from behind.
"Alex you're holding up the lunch line." Roxanne annoyingly voiced as the boy was unresponsive.
He slowly looked behind him and smiled evilly. "Whoops." He continued to move leaving the other kids angry. He sighed. Another day at school and he still wasn't exactly quite where he wanted to be with Phai but he also knew patience was a virtue. All in good time he thought. Accept the king in his dreams had no patience and maybe he was approaching this situation way to slow.
He saw Tolem talking to Phai and the rest of his friends crowded at another table.
"Oh it's the loser's table." said Roxanne smiling talking to Alex. "Anti social much." She continued dissing the brunette haired boy.
Alex followed after her as she approached the table seeing Cassy, Crater and Phil teasing Phai once more and Leon doing his best to tell them to leave him alone.
Phai only sat calmly in his chair eating his sandwich not looking up at the boys who he could hear teasing him.
Phil, the dirty blonde haired boy smiled and turned to Phai leaning his chair back. "Hey Phai, did your mom pack your lunch?"
The boy didn't answer.
"Are you deaf?" asked Crater annoyed because he seemed unbothered.
He still didn't reply. Cassy smirked his green eyes piercing like a snake strikes.
"Oh Phai, I got something of yours."
Phai then glared at him always Cassy being the one to get on his nerves more than the rest.
Cassy removed from his pocket the lock to Phais' locker.
"How did you get that Cassy?" Phai asked standing from his seat.
"I memorized your locker number." Cassy replied hiding it behind his back after stepping up to Phai with an accountable look to his face proud that everyone knew he was the one to blame.
"Can I have it back please?" Phai folded his arms and dared to challenge staring back at Cassy with his deep blue eyes. He even asked nicely, not like that it would turn Cassy into a sudden angel with wings and hand them over.
Cassy always struck one of his nerves but he wasn't afraid of him.
"Uh no I think I might hold onto it." Cassy smirked again and placed the lock back into his pocket while Crater and Phil were laughing about it.
Roxanne first gave Phai a stuck up look before sitting down with the others with her tray of food.
Leon and Tolem shook their heads thinking this all pointless.
"Just let him be." Said Leon abruptly only to be laughed at like it was the stupidest thing they heard. Leon just shook his head and went back to eating.
"Hand it back to him Cassy." The voice was stern and demanding.
They didn't notice the voice but when they looked up they saw Alex looking at them with a harmful look in his eyes but with a smile that they didn't understand.
Cassy laughed and then slumped in his chair testing Alex. "Why?" he questioned as Alex didn't act like his normal self or what they thought was his normal self.
"Because I said so." Alex walked up to him holding out his hand just giving Cassy a dangerous smile that he wouldn't have expected coming from a middle schooler. This was more of a high school 'I am going to shove you in the locker' smile.
Cassy grinned, reached into his pocket and gave Alex the locker.
Alex handed it to Phai and looked back toward his group of friends. "I'll be back."
Roxanne had eyes wide open mouth dropped and the rest looked around at each other not expecting Alex to be so commanding with his approach.
"That was unexpected." Leon uncomfortably mentioned.
Roxanne glared as she saw him walk with Phai.
Alex went to go sit with Phai at the table, the brown haired boy stunned just as much as the others.
"I wanted to talk to you about something." Said Alex seriously, no shyness, smiles nothing that could have gave him a personality.
"Uh ..kay." Phai looked at him eyes a little traumatized still.
"So I had this dream and I need your advice about something."
"Okay." Phai munched on his sandwich a little still looking at Alex.
"What do you think about reincarnations?"
"I never think about that." The boy finished nibbling.
"Do you think it's possible?"
"Not really. Why?"
"Because, I think it's possible." Alex finally smiled, but it wasn't the shy boy smile. It was more mature.
It made Phai blush. "Did you have an epiphany or something?" he wished he hadn't finished his sandwich to distract him from staring at the blondes intense eyes.
Alex just nodded his head a smirk playing about his mouth. "What do you think of love?"
"Alex I am too young to be thinking about love." The conversation of love always seemed to be mentioned around him.
"You're never too young." Alex said eyes moving towards Phais' lunch. "Is that all you brought was a sandwich?"
"Yes!" Phai replied defensively. "I thought I wasn't going to be hungry."
"You can have my lunch. I haven't had much of an appetite for anything anyway."
"Okay...uh.. thank you."
Alex scooted his lunch towards the boy and smiled again.
Phai shifted, the blonde boy working his nerves. "Okay what do you think about it?" he asked Alex this time.
"I think its pointless and a waste of time?" Alex lied with a smile.
"Oh really?"
"Yea unless of course you could prove me wrong."
"Why are you asking me? Can't your parents give you advice."
Alex looked at him seriously. "Do my parents in any shape or form look like they know about love?"
Phai smiled remembering the brief moment of his parents arguing and it definitely wasn't a lover's quarrel. "I guess not. But what makes you think I know anything about it."
"I just want your opinion." he asked truthfully.
"Okay Alex here's what I think." Phai leaned up close to him. "I think love is pointless, it annoys me and I can never seem to find anyone that I am attracted to. Your turn."
"I think love is not pointless, it never annoys me and I just happened to find that one person I am attracted to."
"Roxanne?" Phai smirked forebodingly looking over at her.
Alex shook his head. "No."
"Who?"
"Someone in my dreams."
"So a fantasized person?"
They both laughed softly.
"Yea. I wish he were real though." Alex finally admitted even though it wasn't direct enough for Phai to know who he was actually talking about.
"He?" Phai blew a string of hair out his face with a smile fighting to curve.
"Uh huh." Alex nodded looking a little spaced out.
Phai laughed. "My god you are weird today. It makes me wonder how you're going to be like as a teenager."
"I never thought about it. But who knows? I might not live that long." Alex leaned back into his chair and giving Phai a quick shallow smile his eyes suddenly turning gloomy.
Phai moved the food to the side so he could lean in closer. Everyting about him turned somber. "Alex, we all live forever. When you find that right person you will always be with them. Death isn't even important. It's just a figment of reality that we all will succeed one day. It's there just as much as life. We are living through life which is hell. If life right now is hell then what is death? Death is heaven."
He tried to hold in a laugh seeing Alex nodding like he didn't understand him but agreed to it anyway.
"Thanks that's all I needed to know." the blonde replied.
"Your welcome."
"Alex hold up!" said Roxanne running down the hall to catch up with the boy.
"Hey Roxanne." He said smiling once she caught up to him.
"Don't hey Roxanne me. What was that back there? You never came to our table to eat with us."
"Sorry I had to talk to Phai about something."
"Something you couldn't talk to me about?" she stopped infront of him placing her hand on his chest.
"It's not a big deal Roxanne. I don't have to tell you everything." He told her hoping she would understand.
"I just don't understand why you would hang out with him instead of us."
"He's pretty nice. Maybe you guys should get to know him more instead of teasing him all the time."
Roxanne rolled her eyes with the disgrace of Alex's comment. "Cassy has been telling me something."
"Oh yea and what is that."
"He says that you have a crush on Phai, that's why you're staring at him all the time."
Alex turned tense and his eyes shown he was angry. "Roxanne let me lecture you about something. A crush is something that people eventually get over in their lives. A crush is nothing compared to what it is mimicking. It's nothing compared to the real thing. A crush is not love. A crush is supposed to be forgettable, something incorrectly fantasized. It's just feelings towards one person you can not have ever. I do not have a crush on Phai because he is not forgettable."
Alex then left the hall leaving Roxanne upset again.
India, fourth day
Hephaistion was feeling himself doing the pacing back and forth Alexander had gotten him hooked on. It made his thinking much quicker. But he didn't know what he was thinking about. Cassander had told him to move on and love someone else but he would never have thought about letting his Alexander go even in death. The picture of Alexander being buried dead was just as bad as him being buried alive. Alexander, who was his friend for a lifetime. Alexander, who was the first to ever speak to him. The king, who was his lover and would die for him, He simply couldn't think of anyone else he could possibly fall for that would die for him and put everything away just to put him first.
"Hephaistion?"
The brunette general quickly looked over at the voice of the person and calmed when he saw Leonnatus.
"Yes Leonnatus?"
"I hate to tell you this but since Craterus thinks he's in charge since Alexander is not able to rule, he wants you to eat and drink something and possibly go back to your tent to get proper sleep."
Hephaistion could tell the sandy haired general didn't want to give him the news. He knew he had been uptight lately and fidgety because of no sleep or any food and had been making the generals suffer because of it. He was pale in the face, eyes rimmed red from crying and no rest and his body had gotten thinner. Alexander was out already for four days not getting better or worse.
The generals all would come in some days and pray that the gods save him somehow but Hephaistion had been there and never left so it was a shock to the blue eyed general that they cared about his health, even Craterus who he hated and despised most.
"Tell him I'm fine and if he would like too he could come tell me him self so he's gets the message." His voice was brutal and then continued his pacing.
Leonnatus politely left the general alone and walked out the tent with Perdicas and Ptolemy standing right outside. Ptolemy was the first to ask how he was only getting a sorrowful shake of the head from Leonnatus.
"He's not doing well. You can see it almost clearly."
Ptolemy and Perdicas looked to each other. "Then what do we do. Are we going to force him to eat?" Perdicas questioned thinking of another way to encourage the stubborn general.
"Hephaistion is not like Alexander. He will eventually eat something," replied Ptolemy certainly." He just needs time."
"Yea until it's too late!" Perdicas responded harshly. "He's not himself and needs to eat something."
They heard footsteps approaching and noticed Roxanne was dressed in her red nightgown with a tray of food. "I wish to give this to Hephaistion."
The generals bowed respectively and let her pass through the tent. Ptolemy not trusting her so he waited by the tent incase of something.
Hephaistion frowned irritated that people kept coming through the tent. "What is it?" he asked completely bothered.
"Am I not welcomed in my own husband's tent?" she answered viciously.
The general glared at her. "What do you want?"
"I've come to give you some refreshments and to look at my beautiful king." She hissed and set the tray down on the desk.
The general ignored her words and pried on her as she gracefully moved to Alexander's side. She took his hand and kissed it looking up at the general who was watching her do it. "Love can be confusing can't it?' she asked.
"Love is no more confusing than the evil that makes it that way."
"Are you calling me evil you little brat. I love Alexander more than anyone ever could." She spat at him, eyes roaring like a panther. "He could bare me a child and he could not you. That's what makes me more of use than you."
She looked down at er king petting his face with little life. "Look at you." she whispered to the king.
"Does he love you though? He might not be able to grant me a child but he has nothing left for you. He feels nothing." the general replied accurately and pleasing to himself watching as she touched his king.
"How arrogant you are. You take my king away from me and then you try to tell me who he loves more." She laughed wickedly. "You're in denial. Who does he come to every night to make love to? How often did you see him enter your room? The night at the wedding I made him never forget my hate towards you as you stood there with my king sharing him a love ring and belittling me as your queen. How dare you?"
"You must not understand our bond then Queen Roxanne." The general looked down on her as he smoothly approached within inches of her. "We share something so much better than you and he."
She took her hand to slap him but he caught her glaring into dark eyes. "Get out of my sight and never come in unless I welcome you."
She had no words to say and left immediately. Hephaistion watched her go and when he knew she was gone for the night he went back to his pacing.