Eyes that see into Infinity

Part 1

Chapter Nine

End of part One

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It's funny that I can't say I woke up the next day because I had been awake the entire night hearing the steady breathing and watching the beautiful face of him. I closed my eyes pretending I was asleep when I felt Phai move around and get up and leave the bed. I heard that my parents had arrived and they were talking with Phai and his mother outside the house. It was a shame really, Phai and his mom didn't get the credit they deserved, and instead my parents were being assholes to each other as well as them. It became a blaming party. My mother blamed of course my dad for not being their. Phais mom tried explaining to them that he can't just be wondering off like that and he needs some sort of supervision and my parents blew up. They told her pretty much that she wasn't in charge or that who was she to give parental advice.

Denial evolves like a large glowing orb and once in its place it creates funny and scared people and my mother was scared and my dad was too. It was so easy to see but yet it was so darn easy for them to deny that anything was really wrong. They said they have it under control at this point. I could just see the expression on my neighbors faces. They either didn't ever want to have anything to do with us again or they were going to keep an eye on me just because I needed it desperately. I am not even going to deny the supervision because I at times felt myself almost drowning in a bath or, burning my hands on the stove top when I am making some hot chocolate and all because of my stupid dreams.

Let me correct that harshly. My dreams are not stupid. They are wonderful.

Alex heard Phai sneak back into the room. Alex shifted and made him self appear to awake carefully, keeping himself deep under the covers.

"Alex?" The browned haired boy whispered tiptoeing on up next to him.

The blonde still pale looking boy turned to him. "Yea Phai." He answered. Phai looked stealthily amongst him as his voice seemed to be aching.

"Your parents are home. My mother is talking to them right now. They say you won't be at school for maybe a week."

"Why?" Alex face turned weary.

"Obviously because of your health. They say it's best to keep you until you feel better."

"I just fell into a pond. I feel fine. I'm just cold that's it." Alex was upset removing his warm blankets off of him until Phai relaxed his movement by placing his hand calmly on his leg and looking deep into his eyes.

"I kind of agree with them Alex. Maybe you need some well rest." Phai suggested. "You don't look to good."

"I will look fine tomorrow." The other insisted.

The browned haired boy chuckled. "You don't know that."

"Yea I do." The blonde leaned up with confidence. "I have to tell my parents that they are being ridiculous about this all."

"Please Alex." Phai took his hand again calming him down. "Can you do it for me and my mom and my sister then? Don't do it for your parents."

Phai saw something in my eyes I didn't see in myself. It was like he already knew and felt my pain and understood where I was coming from. I didn't myself understand my situation even though I had it on my back for so long. But I was being stubborn again. I didn't want to stay in bed like a sick, needy child. I didn't want to stay locked up in my already boring house. I wanted to go to school because that is the only time I get any time with Phai. Now that my parents were going to be home and most likely stay for awhile I won't get that as much now.

We heard a door open still with my parents bickering and Phai stood and peeked out of the door and down the stairs. He turned back to me saying he had to go. I didn't want him to leave at all. His presence was better than anything I have ever had. Better than any Christmas or birthday present. I only needed him and the moment he walked out of my room I thought I might have never seen him again.

Alex stepped his cold feet onto his carpet and moved out from the room he had felt he'd been in for a lifetime already. That might as well be his dying bed. He moved slowly down the stairs as if he would fall any minute, holding tight onto the sturdy rails.

"Phillip I can't believe you!" His mother was so livid her eyes steamed like fire at her incompetent husband.

Phillip shook his head moving around the kitchen counter. "How was I supposed to know the boy would jump into a pond and drown himself?"

"He's a boy and boys do crazy things!" She answered teeth gritted and her hands were in deep fists, nails cutting through her pale-ish skin.

"Ha always giving him an excuse. We know very well the boy is worthy being home alone. It's not my problem he decided to do something stupid. Has that brain of his deflated." He flew his arms around in frustration at his wife.

Olympias only growled in devastation.

"Well there you go." Phillip slammed both his hands on the counter top. "You know I am right."

"Phillip I am sure he wasn't trying to kill himself. A boy his age wouldn't think of that?"

Well there you go. In order to keep the blame from themselves they accused my lucky performance of being suicidal. Suicidal is a strong case and I never had tendencies to even follow through with it even if I had thought of it. My life isn't worthless, I didn't care what they thought all I knew was that I was a young boy standing at the bottom of the stairs listening to my parents verbally abuse each other.

"I am going to school tomorrow." Alex said hands in his pockets of his striped blue and white pajamas. "Today I will rest and tomorrow I will learn. I am up to it." He told them as if they hadn't just had an argument in front of him. "I am sick of making up homework."

They both stopped mid bickering and Olympias trotted over in her heels to Alex taking him by his arm and leaning into him. "You are staying home until I say its time for you to go back."

"Four days won't kill you boy." Phillip answered and left the kitchen immediately going to his office and closing the door.

"I'm fine mom." Alex had gotten used to ignoring his Dads overkills.

"Don't ever attempt that again. Boys think they can do things they can not." She registered.

Alex looked confused. What was she talking about? "What?"

"Why were you out there in the first place?" she asked and was starting to tear up.

"Because I was thinking about something and my mind sort of wandered. I didn't mean to." the blonde shook his head, trying to unruffle whatever she had thought happened.

"You know how to swim Alex." She gripped him by both upper arms "to be at the bottom of the pond only tells me one thing."

Alex frowned. "I was not trying to kill myself mom."

"What else then?" she looked worried and caressed his soft face. "Have we not trained you to look after yourself properly?"

"I do fine looking after myself." The boy yelled getting angry moving her hands away. "If I was suicidal I don't even think you would notice to be honest."

"Excuse me!" her eyes widened not expecting to hear that from her little boy.

"You heard me. I don't care about anything right now or what you think of me but I want to go to school and that's the only thing I am asking. I honestly don't want to be in this house at all with you or dad. The fact is the neighbors saved me and you did not so just get over it already. I'm fine and it's over with." Alex went back up stairs and his mother looked stunned.

Okay so maybe me telling her that wasn't the best way to handle it because I did go to school the next day. It's not like they ever drove me anyway I always took the bus which I felt comfortable enough with. I arrived and went to my classes. My friends were happy to see me. Roxanne bothered me through out the day saying that she was the most worried and that she should have took care of me instead of Phai. Cassy was being his normal sarcastic self but it was a mask of his real worries, Cleitus offered me some weed to relax but I refused it. Everyone else couldn't drop the subject no matter how much I told them too. It was a whatever type of situation. Just move and ignore. Phai was the only one not happy to see me.

"Alex what are you doing here?"

It was during lunch period. He finally came to Alex to talk with him after being angry at him throughout the day. He sat across from the blonde boy and glared.

"Because I need to not be at home." Alex answered nerving at his glare.

I know how it is, when a lover looks you in the eye and you just know they are angry at you but still love you with all their heart but what has to be done has to be done. That's the look he was giving me.

"Being at home was probably for the best Alex. You look like crap." He said angry and worried.

"Sorry I haven't checked the mirrors lately."

"Are you aware then that your parents think you tried killing yourself?" Phai asked. "That's not good."

"Very aware" Alex responded looking down. He looked as frigid as ice and his hair was not so blonde. The red around his eyes made him appear older than he was.

Phais back outlined itself against the back of his seat. He stretched his arms out and sighing.

"Do you think me crazy?" Alex asked him just to be sure.

The boy shook his head. "No Alex. Anything could have happened. There is a bump on your head. You probably just fell, hit your head and sunk to the bottom. It happens. Come to a swimming meet sometime and you'll see."

Alex smiled at the response and noticed his empty table because he had forgotten to get food as did Phai. There was so much going on in their heads to even think about eating.

"So what are you going to do about your parents?"

Alex's head dropped and his hands started to slowly shake but he placed them flat on the table hoping to keep them still.

I went to school not because I wanted to but because I had to. I had something every important to tell Phai. I overheard my parents in their room the night before. I would have stayed home just because Phai wanted me too but I couldn't because this was the last time I might see him again. Not because of any death or a part of me that couldn't handle it anymore. This was literally based on my parent's decision and their decision alone. My mother found out about dad cheating on her because he decided to come clean to her. They fought and argued no surprise and then relaxed after awhile. You could imagine then what would happen next.

"Phai, there's something I have to tell you." Alex shifted nervously, his eyes still down.

The browned haired boy already looked as if he wasn't going to enjoy what was about to be said. "What is it Alex?" he asked.

"My mother is taking me with her to stay at a relatives place in Colorado Springs. My dad and she are finally getting divorced and he doesn't want her in the house. We would move back out the country but that's not really affordable at the moment or an option. The good thing about it is that they can keep their jobs but work for different companies. The bad thing about it is that I might not see you for a very long time."

Phai was unconsciously biting on his thumb nail looking off into space. He finally dropped his hands in his lap. "Then what? You can't stay with your dad or anything." He answered weakly.

"He wants nothing to do with me. Trust me I don't want this at all. I can't possibly think about leaving you behind even in my dreams you remain." Alex averted his strong piercing eyes to Phai.

"Did you tell them you don't want to go?" Phai was now becoming uneasy.

"I told them no. They didn't say anything in return."

"When do you go?" it was the question both he and Alex wished would never show up in the conversation but it was the main question they both needed to know.

Sadly Alex had an answer. "Once our semester ends. She already looked into a high school for me. She thinks its going to be better." Alex was obviously not happy talking about it, stuttering with words a few times.

Phai didn't answer for a long time, biting at his tongue. It was suddenly time for the afternoon classes to begin and the kids cleared out of their seats and pretty much scattered. Time around him and I seemed like nothing. Everyone moved in an eerie speed around us and we were in a complete and entire different time zone. The news was less surreal to give then it was to see the sadness on his face and the Goosebumps on his skin. I didn't speak and kept my head down. The next thing we knew is that the cleaning lady passed by us as she wiped down tables. It was weird because she didn't bother once telling us that we needed to get moving to our classes because we were late.

"So what are we going to do? Exchange numbers so you can call me, are we going to have to do a web cam or something stupid. Face book? Just tell me so I know what to do." Phai suddenly said as he unfolded his arms, bringing his hands to his face in order to hold back his tears.

"Phai, I know you don't like it and I don't like it as much as you, but I made a list of things to do." Alex and Phai smiled. "I am going to get a job, a good paying one, I am going to exceed everyone so that I will get promoted then I am going to buy a car and I am coming out here when I turn sixteen just to find you again."

"Alex you sound sure."

"I am sure. You just wait and see. If one doesn't follow there dreams then one can't put their dreams behind them.

"You're going to follow me Alex?" Phai grinned sadly.

"Yea. So that I don't lose you."

End of part one, now two begins.

Thank you so much Lysis for your inspiring reviews and your historical input. I knew that was the case with Cassander but again I like Cassanders' character and it just fits right now for my story. As you know I have this tendency to include as many of the companions as possible. Just something I am obsessed with. I think each one had their one uniqueness that shown with Alexander's life that was either inspiring for him or non stimulating.

As for my other reviewers I know a lot of you want more a/h moments and I promise you will get them.