Dear Charlie
I know 2 years is longer than average for someone to reply to a letter but better late than never right? I wrote the letter to the family but I wrote you this separate letter because I felt there were some things that I needed to tell only you.
I said in my other letter that I couldn't tell you where I am, and I'm sorry but I really can't tell even you. But I'm safe. Don't feel bad for me, maybe this will turn out to be an adventure for me, I always wanted to travel the world, right? Although I'd always imagined you'd be here with me.
Honestly my life hasn't been the same without you, and I miss you more than ever. Now I'm away from home and on my own for the first time in my life, it seems so childish that I was never able to write back to you. I just couldn't admit to you how much you hurt me when you left, because it really did break my heart. But I feel like it's time for me to swallow my pride.
I still love you so much that sometimes I think the pain in my heart will kill me. It hadn't ever gotten better, not for a second, and now that I'm sitting here alone in this dingy old room in the middle of the night I miss you so much I could cry.
It seems bittersweet that I've finally found the courage and the words to write this letter now, as I really don't know if I'll ever see you again. I know I told everyone else I'd be home as soon as I could, but I don't know if that will be possible.
This wasn't how I wanted to leave Charlie. You deserved a real goodbye but there wasn't time for me to wait. I had to leave to keep you all safe, I hope you can understand.
I would give the world to be back together with you, but I don't think that it's in the cards for us. I realized too late that my career was never worth losing you over. One day you will move on with your life. Maybe one day I will be able to too. I suppose one day I will have to. But I just want you to know no matter what happens I will never stop loving you, I will never forget you and the way you gave me the best years of my life.
Thank you for being a part of my life, without you I know I wouldn't have made it when times were really bad.
Stay safe and happy whatever you do. Give me a reason to look to the sky and smile because I will know you're out there somewhere.
I always have loved you Charlie and I know I always will.
Always,
Arabelle.
Sorry for all the clichés guys.
Bare with me on this it will get better. Let me know what you thought of this chapter
Love Annie x