Lost in the land of the rising sun
Cursing the day I was born to the one
Who would turn my life into hell on Earth
Plagued by this monster from birth
I never knew what was inside of him
Until he knew what was inside me
How could I succumb to so much sin
But deep inside my heart I still believe
In heaven's shores
I have seen the light and it shines on me
My unholy war
Lost in the night where it's so hard to breathe
I'm crying out
Can't someone come and help me break free
My lonely doubt
Has forced me to run to where I'm meant to be
Home is hell from where I stand
Look at me and take my hand
You will not prove me wrong
We just won't last that long
Home is near but so long gone
And I fell for that long con
Am I worth all this grief
Laying dying in the street
Now I live in the gutters of hell
Is this real, I can't even tell
Still I rise to challenge each day
And one day, once again, I will pray
Awake in the land of the dying race
Our Human kind is such a disgrace
If only I could, oh what I'd erase
Breaking away from this work I deface
If only I knew what I would become
If only I saw what would cause me to run
How can I reach for help in such pain
When all that remains is the burning rain
In this discourse
I thought I was right, but now I can see
It feels so forced
Not ready for the fight, but it's ready for me
I'm on my knees
The world is my cage, I belong in the trees
I want to flee
Though I kick my legs, I just sink in the sea
Hell is home in my eyes
I can wear no disguise
I am just burning up
There's just poison in my cup
Desolation my crown
And I'm throwing it down
I will lift up my voice
One last time, hear my voice
Now I live in the gutters of hell
Is this real, I can't even tell
Still I rise to challenge each day
And today, one last time, I will pray
Here I stand on the streets of my city
Only fury by my side
I have no pride left to retrieve
So I step into the light
Inhale every contagion that plagues this broken land
And consume all the darkness around where I stand
I will take up the mantle of angel in this game
And return to the place where I should have remained
Now father I'm ready to see you once again
I have been through the fire and walked through the flame
Open your arms and tell me I'm no longer alone
And so now my Father I will be coming home
Once I lived in the gutters of hell
So unreal but now I can tell
All I lost that most evil of days
Leads me to where I can kneel down and pray
For I lived in the gutters of hell
I was raised in fires, oh who can tell
Still I rose to the challenge each day
And for one last time I pray
Still I rose from my knees just to pray