Ben looked down as if he had been scolded. Rey had a point. He had not been here. He may not have remembered most of being dead, but he knew that he had missed her. As soon as he became self-aware he knew he was not complete, and immediately remembered why. However, Rey never had a period of not exisiting. She had gone every day with the reality of him gone and their bond broken. He sighed and took his seat on the bed once again. Rey wiped a few stray tears from her eyes and walked forward. She knelt down and picked up the ring that had laid on her left fourth finger. She took her seat on the chair again, but kept her contemplative look on the gem.

"He had the gem made from the sands on Jakku," she said noncommitally.

Ben looked at her in annoyance. "If you're about to tell a romance story, then I really don't want to hear it."

Rey finally looked over to him. "I'm about to tell you a survival story. Because that's what I did Ben, survive."

Ben waved his hand as if to say 'go on.'

"After you faded away and the Resistance celebrated, I made my way to Tatooine. I had your mother's and Luke's lightsabers on me. Since I had no one to bury, I decided to burry the lightsabers there. Say or feel what you may, but to me they were the closest thing I had to family. Ever." The roll of Ben's eyes did not go unot-
iced by Rey, but he said nothing. "While on Ach-To Luke had mentioned something about making my own lightsaber at some point. He knew I would not have time to go hunting for a kyber crystal with everything that was going on at the time, so he told me he had left some behind at his uncle's house. Reason two for coming to Tatooine."

Rey held out her hand, and with a silent command, her lightsaber flew to it and she clasped and ignited it. Ben lifted his brows as he noticed the color of the lightsaber.
"Its yellow," he stated needlessly.

"Right you are. I am neither Jedi nor Sith. Not a lightsider nor darksider. I am just me. I have emotions as I have a moral compass. I feel indignant for those treated badly as I do for those who wrong me. I dictate my actions. Not the Force, not the Jedi teachings, only me."

Rey powered down her lightsaber and hid it away again. "It was after I made the lightsaber that I found myself lost. So profoundly disoriented and without purpose.
I didn't know who I was anymore or what to do. More than that, I didn't know why I felt that way in the first place. On Jakku I was alone for years and never felt this way."

"Your purpose was waiting for your parents. That's what kept you going," Ben supplied.

Rey nodded. "Perhaps. Then when I ran into BB8, it led me to my new purpose. You," Rey said with a smirk. "Big bad Kylo Ren turned out to be my other half."

Ben grinned. "So I was big and bad huh?"

"Oh yeah," Rey said with an are-you-kidding-me tone. "When you interrogated me that first time I was completely intimidated. You were fierce."

"And you were courageous. In a way I hadn't seen in awhile," Ben said quietly.

Rey smiled, and then let it slip. "But then you were gone too. Unlike my parents though, who I thought would come back, I knew you weren't. It was like being lost at sea, but having all the water and supplies you need. Only, you're never going to stop drifting...Then there was the pain from the bond. It felt like leg or arm had been cut off, but never cauterized. Just a bleeding stump of raw nerve endings. Always in pain."

This is where Ben could understand now. He knew that feeling. "Where does he come in?"

Rey mentally smirked as she felt the soft waves of jealously through their bond. "Here. It had been about 2 months since Exogol, and I hadn't talked to anyone. Not Finn, not Poe, not Maz...no one. I had stayed here on Tatooine in Luke's old house, but I was a shell. One day I sat on the steps in the patio and just looked at my lightsaber. I had made it, but it held no purpose, like me. Unless I gave it one," it was at this point that Rey's eyes became unfocused. "I wanted nothing more than to join you Ben."

Ben's eyes widened as the magnitude of that simple statement impregnanted the moment. Ben immediately got to his knees in front of her and clutched her knees tightly.

"I want you to know that no matter what happens to me now, that should never be a thought in your mind do you hear me? We may have this bond, and share the Force between us, but you Rey are the universe. Even without me, it is because of you that the galaxy revolves."

"It didn't feel that way Ben. It felt like nothing. It felt like every second was a burden to get through...but then Finn found me. He came to check up on me, and found me in time. Had he been one day later..." she let that taper off, the ending unneeded.

"He never even gave me the option to stay there. He picked me up, loaded me on his cruiser, and took me to where Poe and the rest of the Resistance were. Little by little, day by day the people would talk to me, ask me how my day was going. Then they started to ask for my help with simple tasks. Eventually Finn started telling me about the missions he and Poe go on. They would look for groups of stormtroopers and First Order supporters and would try to disband them.
The stormtroopers were offered a chance to be deconditioned and taught vocations. Other missions consisted of pushing back against local gangs that wanted to take advantage of the First Order being gone. Through these types of missions I found myself starting to heal."

Rey brought the ring back to her attention. "Eventually Finn confessed his feelings for me and asked to begin courting me. I assented only because," Rey looked directly into Ben's eyes, "you were not coming back."

Rey put her hands on Ben's face and stroked his cheeks with her thumbs. "Nothing ever at all was going to be you. I had reached perfection, and I knew that I was never going to get it back, so why bother waiting for anything else?"

She let her hands drop and hugged herself. "I was still alive and no longer wanted to die. Neither did I want to be alone. Finn is a friend, and probably the only person that I could confide in completely. So to answer your question from before more accurately: Yes I love him, but as a friend. Because never have I, will I, or could I love anyone as profoundly, completely, and perfectly as I love you Ben Solo."

Ben both saw and felt her sincerity at those words. He wanted to say something, but what could he say? Everything she said was truth. He could understand her not wanting to be alone. That was a very human sentiment. What he could not understand was her loving him profoundly, completely, and perfectly. He knew with absolute certainty that he loved her like that. He just couldn't see anyone doing so with him. But her eyes on him full of love, truth, and so open were telling him that she did. Her hands on his face that were still rubbing him gently told him that she did. The fact that she had not demanded that he take her back to her fiancée told him that. Him coming back from the dead told her that.

So why were they waiting?

Ben grabbed her face quickly, and crushed his mouth to hers. Rey made a surprise squeak, but welcomed his advance. She was pushed back in the chair, while Ben was on his knees, but considering his height, they met perfectly. Rey let her hands roam to his hair, and pulled. Ben kissed her hard. His passions were running high, but there was still a part of him in control of certain things. He kept one of his large hands on her knee while the other came up to cup her face. Her mouth was as he remembered it. The heat of his lips, the shape of his body were like she had dreamed. The bond thrived.

Ben slowed and pulled back only slightly, keeping their foreheads pressed. "I love you," he whispered and he spoke through kisses, "and I want you," he skimmed his lips lightly against hers, "but I don't want to...intimidate you."

Rey was caught up in the maelstrom of lust, emotion, and rapture that she was barely processing was she was being told. "Intimidate?" she asked breathily.

"Hmm, yes. You see Rey, the darkside may no longer have a hold of me, but I have always been an eager man. I can be...demanding of a lover. My passions run high, but with you let's just say its hard to stay in control," Ben said in her ear, his voice rough. His hand left her face and started to lightly dance down her jaw towards her neck. Rey said nothing as her body took over and became an instrument that Ben was learning to play.

"If you're not ready or if just want me to stop, let me know," Ben murmured as the hand on her knee began to climb slowly higher, bringing the hem of her dress with it. Rey felt the cool air on the newly exposed skin of her leg. Ben's other hand had trailed from her neck to the top of her back where the fastening to her dress was. Her core began to throb and her she shifted slightly as her sex spasmed in want. It was a feeling she had not had in months...It was addicting. Rey opened her eyes and looked at Ben as he watched her enjoy what his minimal actions were doing to her body. His gaze was voyeuristic and his grin verging on predatorial.

Rey licked her lips, swallowed, and nodded. She dared not talk. She knew her voice would come out in breathy, shaky stutters. Ben grinned and while his hand finally reached the goal of her panties, Rey felt something move on her upper neck. Her dress fastening was being pulled down slowly; Ben kept his gaze on her while he fingered the elastic of her panties. Rey's breath hitched as he finally began to pet her lips. Ever so slowly his finger reached more towards the middle, the straps of her dress were being pulled down, and now she felt a graze on her nipples.

"You look exquisite like this," Ben complimented. Rey arched her back as the Force pulled her dress passed her abdomen, and Ben finally sank one of his long fingers into her core. "I like knowing that you react like this to me. That you get wet because of me. That's you'll come because of me."

Rey moaned as her dress laid at her ankles and the cool air grazed her heated body. Ben was being achingly tortuous with his teasing. His finger was not going fast enough, not deep enough. He was using the Force to stimulate her nipples. And on top of all that she was almost bare to him. He was fully clothed and she was almost naked save her underwear. Somehow this made things more erotic.

Ben was looking down at his finger that was going in and out of her moist cunt. Her juices intrigued him. They were evidence that she liked this, that she was lusty for him. He stopped and hooked his fingers in her underwear and pulled. Rey looked frustrated that he has stopped until she felt her panties slide off. Ben spread her legs apart at the knees and looked at her glistening sex. She was clean. There was no hair there much to his surprise. Again, she was a creature of the desert and thus did not think about such things as personal grooming. At least he logically assumed.

"I was about to be married," Rei supplied at this last thought. "I thought I should do something to entice." She left out 'him.' She had groomed to entice her, well, groom. This has been for her fiancée.

"So he has not seen this?"

Rey shook her head. "You're the first." She licked her lips as he continued to stare at her sex. "Is it having the desired effect?"

She was soft, pink, and dewy. Her mound was tight, pristine, and kissable. He could see her clit begging for attention, nestled between two pink lips that beckoned to be ravaged. With their bond wide open Ben said nothing, but merely showed her what he was going to do. Rey gasped as she took in his mental images, then she felt the first lick of his tongue on her. Rey threw her head back and moaned. Ben swirled, licked, sucked, and kissed her lips making sure that Rey felt his desire for her.
He paused briefly but only to spread her lips; he had a new target to attack. Rey moaned filthily when he reached her clit. His roughly textured tongue felt sinful against her. She made to grab his head, but it felt as though her wrists were tied to the chair. She opened her eyes and look at the man between her legs. He looked right back at her with a twinkle in his eye.

'You don't get to touch yet,' was all she heard in her mind when he slipped his finger back in her wanton cunt. Ben was enjoying this. Hearing her hitched breaths, feeling her soft skin, tasting her plump vaginal lips. He had been certain this would never happen, on account of him having died. Yet, here he was worshiping Rey how she should be worshiped. And solely by him.

'Possessive much?' her breathy thought came interrupting his musings.

'Absolutely.'

His attack on her cunt became more frenzied. He wanted to hear her scream. He flattened his tongue and licked her nether-lips gently all around in an O, before pointing his tongue and darting at her clit. Rey was fighting against his Force hold on her wrists. She was aching to hold his head, run her hands through his hair, push and grind against his delectable mouth. Her pussy was starting to clench and spasm deliciously. Ben felt it around his finger and through their bond; she was close. He added another finger to her sopping sex. She seemed to clench her eyes briefly in pain. Ben wondered...was she undefiled? He increased the speed of his fingers and the pressure of his tongue until finally-

"Force, Ben!" he heard Rey finally scream as she rode out her orgasm. Ben smirked against her pussy lips. He retreated his fingers and gave her mound one last kiss as he let go of his Force hold. Rey breathed deeply as she watched him lick his fingers that had just been inside her. She sat forward on the chair, and went to stand bringing him up with her.

"Now that was worth you coming back from the dead," Rey said huskily. She kept her eyes on his while her hands went under his shirt. She touched around lightly and felt the bumps and groves of his muscles and scars. Ben worked his jaw in an effort to keep a lid on his impulses. He felt Rey's Force caress his and he closed his eyes and shuddered. She was teasing him as well. She could feel the very weak grasp he had on his control. She continued to reach her hands further up brining his shirt along. Ben opened his eyes and and raised his arms. Rey threw his shirt to the floor. She let her hands come down the length of his arms towards his neck and they rested on his pecs.

"I want you to let go," Rey said softly, "I can feel you want to do more." She began to kiss from his clavicle up to his neck. Soft, teasing kisses that made him tighten his fists.

"I want to feel how alive you are. Take me," Rey said with a last light kiss to his lips. Rey felt the mental snap in Ben. Quickly, the grip of one hand was in her hair and smashing her lips into his own. The kiss was feral, not sweet or sensual. It was possessing, forceful, and dominating. His free hand gripped her lower back and smashed the rest of body to him. Rey felt the prodding of the Force under her legs raising her up to wrap them around him. Ben continued to assault her mouth, now introducing his tongue to hers. He walked them over to the bed. He stopped kissing her abruptly and gently threw her on the bed.

Rey lay nude on the bed, her lips swollen and her libido in overdrive. In front of her was the sexiest man she had ever seen. The only one she had ever loved. Will love. Tall, broad shouldered, dark piercing gaze, and solely hers. His large hands were at his buckle, his gaze never wavering from her. He began to lower his pants giving Rey a glance at the V of his obliques that led like an arrow to his cock. Rey mentally gasped. He was...apt. Force he was going to rip-

"Rey if you're truly concerned, I told you all you have to do is say the word," Ben said picking up on her thoughts.

Rey cleared her throat. "I may be just a little...hesitant. I know the mechanics of how this goes, but the actual hardware escaped my focus."

Ben smirked. "What concerns you about the hardware?"

Rey blushed and looked away. He was lightly mocking her. Ben felt her embarrassment and finally understood. His earlier musings were indirectly answered. She was a virgin. He now understood her hesitation. He took one of her feet in hand and kissed the inner ankle.

"I can't promise it will be painless," he then kissed her knee, "but after that, it will feel better," he kissed her thigh, "than what you just experienced."

Rey shivered as his dark hungry gaze was aimed at her now. Ben pulled her down by her leg he hand in hand. Rey squeaked as she was now flat on her back, her confident mood now gone.

"Rey...this, now, what we are doing...This is better than whatever Heaven or pleasant Force realm exists," Ben whispered he guided her leg to wrap around his back. His mouth kissed her jaw, then her neck, and made its way towards her pebbled nipples. Rey closed her eyes and arched her back. Her cunt spasmed around nothing, wanting to be filled. It was riveting. She knew that she would be experiencing some pain and she cared not. If anything she wanted that large cock that she had seen spreading her open-

"Rey your thoughts. They are loud," Ben ground out.

"Then make me not think."

Ben smiled wolfishly and nudged his hips forward grazing the tip of his cock against her apex. They both felt their bond hum and thrum in joy. Ben positioned himself to enter, but first began to stimulate her clit with his thumb. He took a second to take in her expressions of passion before pushing his cock in. Rey's attention was ripped away from the pleasure she was feeling, when she felt a pinch of pain. She opened her eyes and saw Ben's cock disappearing into her. The sight was so erotic, so salacious, so obscene that it stirred at something primal in Rey. Ben saw her eyes darken at the sight of their coupling. Her other leg came to wrap around him. She placed her hands on his lower back and with both her legs and arms, and some assistance from the Force, pulled him towards her until he was completely inside her. Ben groaned in pleasure, while Rey hissed in slight pain. The stretch was uncomfortable, but welcomed.

The bond exploded.

Ben and Rey simultaneously felt their link open. No barriers, no mental shields, nothing between them. The dyad was again one. Ben heard Rey's thoughts, felt her emotions, and could feel her physical pleasure. Rey felt Ben's need to move, to rut into her, and like a caveman, claim her. And she loved it. She moved her hips in encouragement. Ben looked at her and saw the want for him there.

'Fuck me Ben,' came her sensual command in his mind.

His mental strain broke just then. With one of his large hands he took both of hers and pinned them above her head. With his other he gripped her hip and began to thrust. Rey groaned lewdly as she felt him take her. She was overpowered by this man. Her cunt throbbed around him, it cried in delight. His grip was bruising, but so right. It added to the sensation of being debauched. Ben felt like he was running on pure base instinct. There was no human present in his mind or body. Just want driven by passion and physical pleasure. Their bond being wide open did nothing to abate this. He could feel Rey's feminine pride at being claimed so roughly. He heard her beautiful moans over the taps of the bed against the wall.

Neither knew how much time had passed as Ben took her. He would tire of one position, turn her, and continue in another. Ben and Rey were slick with sweat when he finally placed her on all floors and made her bottom pop out. Ben wasted no time in entering her from behind and continuing. Rey knew she was getting close again. Rey's eyes turned to Ben in surprise when she felt something prodding at her anus. Ben merely grinned at her and continued to tease the orifice with his finger. Rey laid back down and moaned. Her mind was blank of anything else save for the pleasure she was feeling until-

She let out a scream as her body was racked with the strongest pleasure she had ever known. Ben felt his balls coil, felt Rey's orgasm through the bond, and then felt his own climax hit him. He poured all of his come into her with manly satisfaction. Rey merely spasmed in pleasure as the warmth of his come swirled inside her once virgin body. Time stood still for a few seconds until-

CRASH!

Ben and Rey turned towards the chair where Ben had eaten her out. It had landed on the floor with a very loud sound. Ben smirked as he pulled out of Rey. Rey lay on her belly as Ben took the space to the side of her.

"It seems when our focus is otherwise placed, we make things levitate," Ben stated with mirth.

"So you literally fucked the Force out of me," Rey said turning to him and grinning.

"And I'll do it again," he said with a growl as he dove for his woman.