"Lovers break your heart, friends let you down - that's just life - but the disappointment a parent's failure gives you is an extraordinary pain."

I wrote that in an email addressed to my mom after she dropped the bombshell of a lifetime on me. At the time, it was true. People come and go, and it can suck depending on if they're important or not, but the pain caused by family hurts like no other, and it's anyone's guess if they get a second chance. I still haven't taken the effort to hear her out like Dr. Collins wants me to. I'm not interested in doing that. Not yet, anyway.

But now, it's not just the pain from a parent that hurts. It's also the pain from a supposed best friend. So congrats - you get to join my mom on my "Do Not Interact" list.

I'm not going to sit here and vilify you; that's not my style. I know there's good inside of you: you're strong-willed, protective, and loving to those you care about. However, the more I tried to convince myself to focus on the good, the worse the bad got. I used to think of you as loyal and considerate, but after what just happened, it would be in such…poor taste to look at you that way.

You're a lot of things, Josslyn Jacks. It looks like "cruel" is one of them.

I get that relationships end, I get that people change and grow apart. The revenge porn Esme made of you and Cam definitely put a lot of dents in your romance, but I always thought you two would persevere. You guys have been best friends for your whole lives; that bond was never going away.

At least that's what I thought.

I don't get it - what did Cam do to earn such heartbreak? What did he do that somehow allowed you to dump him so brutally? It's not making sense to me, no matter how many times I think about your justification. Cam is our best friend: one of the most hard-working, empathetic, compassionate men out there. Nothing about him warrants such heartless treatment, but you behaved that way anyway.

I'm not sure what's more pathetic: you dumping an amazing man because you think you can do better, or you believing that "better" lies in another man who isn't all that into you.

Maybe I'm blind, but when we've gone to Charlie's, I've never seen Dex make eyes at you like you claim he does. I've seen him try to avoid you while making eyes at his gorgeous bartender girlfriend, though. That's right - his GIRLFRIEND! Did you forget about that, or are you choosing to ignore it? He's with Kristina, not you. He likes Kristina, not you. No amount of "wishful thinking" or lamenting "what could've been" will change that. And honestly, if you want Dex to like you in any capacity, maybe you can respect his relationship with your stepsister for once? That could go a long way.

Man, I'm so glad to get that off my chest.

And that's the thing here: your disrespect of Cam is gross, your harassment of Dex is gross, but they don't match up to how you've treated me. I know we've fought in the past, and we've usually made up after the fact. These arguments happen in small bursts, a sudden change in the happy monotony we usually had. This time, however, was the result of a ticking time bomb.

I talked to Dr. Collins about you recently. I brought up how you treated Cam, how you've been treating Dex, how frustrated I was getting over it, and so much more. At some point, he cut me off and asked me if I've ever fought with you before. I told him yes and that we've worked through them, and he asked me to name the most recent fight we had. At the time, it was Esme & the Molyneux art book.

After tonight, I remember it like it was yesterday.

I explained the incident to Dr. Collins, and something he focused on was how I felt. Apparently, I was too fixated on you and your good intentions than on my reception to those intentions. I was genuinely annoyed with you when you talked about the book; it wasn't your place to mention it and you knew it was confidential, explicitly stated or not. You kept defending your position and insisted your intentions were good, but Dr. Collins let me in on a nugget of wisdom that's really colored things between us:

It's the actions that matter more.

You wanting to shut Esme down doesn't really matter all that much because you did it at the expense of something I cherish. I was right when I called you out for it at Kelly's, and I was still right when I kept that energy at PCU. I shouldn't have forgiven you so quickly, I shouldn't have forgiven you at all, but that was just the beginning.

News flash, Joss, I don't need you to speak for me.

I don't know where this savior complex came from, where you feel the need to speak up and step in to the point that I get drowned out, but I don't appreciate it and I should've never let you do that. You can say that it's out of love, that you're just being a good friend, but a good friend would know that I can fight my own battles and knows where to draw the line. A good friend wouldn't make themselves the center of my ongoing struggles. Cam is a good friend. You aren't.

What has gotten into you? What happened to the Josslyn that was loving and fierce? Did that Josslyn even exist? Was I wearing blinders the whole time? I don't know how to answer all these questions you left me with. I'm barely handling the heartbreak you've left me with. I used to think of you as a passionate woman with a number of endearing faults, but now you're a self-absorbed girl who pretends her flaws are other people's problems. How the mighty have fallen, with you and our friendship as a whole.

It's been about an hour since I got home from your mom's place, and my blood is still boiling. I had some hope you'd be open and honest with me, admitting how arbitrary your reasoning for dumping Cam was, but nope! When I asked you why you thought dumping your loving boyfriend for your stalking victim was a smart idea (in a much nicer way), you got incredibly defensive. You deflected and kept on saying "things changed" when it was you who changed and thought we'd just go with it. I didn't, and you hated that. You told me as much, and frankly, accusing me of being a "bad friend" and determining that I was uncaring just because I questioned your flawed logic really hurt. You know what also hurt? You having the gall to ask me to comfort you because you felt heartbroken that I was heartbroken. YOU hurt ME, and you have the nerve to act hurt in turn?! AND to expect me to comfort you?! Absolutely not.

You and I are no longer friends, and I don't want us to be friends for the foreseeable future. I should've recognized sooner just how self-involved you are, and I kind of hate how much I gave you the benefit of the doubt over all of it. I'm disappointed in you, Cam is absolutely heartbroken over you, Dex is uncomfortable around you, but all you seem to care about is how YOU feel wronged by all of us. The audacity is laughable.

I hope Cam finds a woman who will love him for the amazing man he is, and I hope Dex gets a restraining order the more you decide to force yourself on him. I hope you get the karma you so genuinely deserve for being so horrible, and most of all, I sincerely, genuinely hope that one day, in the not-so-distant future, you end up being a much better human being than you are now.

A/N: Considering the Mon & Tues GH episodes, this chapter couldn't have been more perfectly timed! Also I hope you enjoyed the (very) minor Destina - I'll be publishing some fics on them soon enough. :)