The four of them retreated back up to the land that Hades had envisioned as Storybrooke. Emma had explained to Hades and Nadri that one of the entrances they had come down was actually built inside of Emma's home as Hades probably deemed it fit that the entrance to hell would be suitable for the Dark One. Well, ex-Dark One now. Nadri was still helping Killian stand up straight, Emma's eyes shooting up over her every now with a suspicious stare.
She had to remember Nadri's attack was completely under Hades control. She couldn't imagine that Rumpelstiltskin's control was going to be much better, but hoped that he would follow their deal through to the letter nonetheless.
When they headed through the doorway that led out into the building that replicated Emma's house, Nadri was met with strange and obscured looks. Regina and Snow looked down at Nadri with distain, as if she should be hanging her head in shame. David Charming, Robin Hood and Henry Mills were awaiting with the women, being introduced to Nadri as she came into the room uncomfortably and Emma had explained a rundown of the situation.
Emma told them that they had lost Milah to Hades and Nadri had found them after breaking free of Hades' control hell bent on going after Killian, without her they wouldn't have been able to bring him back to the group. She continued to get obscured glares from some of the fairy tale characters around her.
Nadri felt the glances and stares too much to handle, stepping out of the room and into a separate dining room, standing at the wall length window and staring out into the neighborhood that the house was situated within. Killian glanced over to Nadri, helped up by Emma as they discussed Rumpelstiltskin's ruse for the pirate to give up his power back to him, Nadri taking it all in silently. This was what she feared, Killian was back with the Living determined on bringing him back up to the top, whilst Nadri was to be left roaming the realm running from Hades all over again.
"We don't have a way out, but we didn't have one before anyway. My magic's working now." She heard Regina's voice, Nadri still listening as she crossed her arms over her chest and stared out of the window. "So let's do this heart split. That way, when we find an exit, we can get through it." The words peaked at Nadri's curiosity, turning her head slightly to see what was happening in the corner of her ear. Emma was looking at Killian with an assured look, the poor man still barely able to stand as she discussed splitting her heart with him.
"A heart split?" Killian repeated, Nadri could hear his voice was thick with confusion as if he knew nothing about it. Nadri exhaled and moved her eyes back to the window when she felt Killian's blue eyes suddenly start burning a hole through the back of her head. "I don't-"
"It can be temporary until we find a new plan." More muffled voices continued through the doorway, beginning to sound like voices of disagreement. Nadri felt the like she could have been swallowed and eaten whole.
She had been discarded.
"Nadri, right?" Nadri sniffled, hearing a boy's voice from behind her. Nadri turned around and looked up at the Henry. It was hardly fair that she was smaller than a half-grown teenage boy. She cursed Nathaniel internally. "The Lonely One?"
"I guess it still fits." Nadri agreed, clearing her throat as Henry approached her. She wiped the tears away with her sleeves and forced a bittersweet smile. "Getting ready to go home?" She referred to the raised voices that continued in the other room, knowing an argument was beginning to ensue about what was going to happen next.
"Hook doesn't want my mom's heart and he's pretty pissed." Henry answered as he came and sat down at the ebony dining room table in his mother's Underworld home. Everything in the home was of a monochrome finish, it was sleek, contemporary but too modern for Nadri's tastes. A mountain or a lush forest would suit her just fine.
"Are human children allowed to curse?"
"Not really." Nadri couldn't help but let out a lilted laugh at Henry's obvious tone. Very few laughs had been shared within the Underworld and it was another one she could add to her list. "I know your story. I've read it before." Henry continued, looking at Nadri as she leant against the dining room table.
"No offence, mal gein, I would be surprised a boy of the modern realm would be able to read my fable." Nadri shook her head, her black curls flopping around her shoulders and Henry pulled a face that clearly indicated otherwise.
"Nadri the Lonely Dragon was captured to protect a mountain full of riches and jewels. The dragon met a traveler who was trying to steal the sword of the King and helps free the dragon. The traveler turns out to be Nathaniel, a renowned dragon slayer from a faraway land, who tricks the dragon and takes all of her power and confining her into a human body to use her for bad." Henry outlined the basic backstory of her fable, memorizing the entirety of it. Nadri stood there with her jaw dropped a gap. Only very few people knew of Nadri's fable and fewer people knew the circumstances of how it came to be.
"How do you know of this?"
"I write, it's what I do." The teenager said with a warm smile. "I know that the dragon thought she found true love with the dragon slayer but he betrayed her and broke her heart. After that, she was convinced that everyone was out to betray her and died
"Aren't you a little…um, what do you call it in your tongue?"
"A smarty pants?" Henry cheekily grinned, making Nadri smile further, exhaling with a soft laugh.
"I suppose I should thank-you of reminding me how tragic my past is, mal gein."
"I can only guess that things weren't great down here and no one will go into it but I know that Hook wouldn't betray you like the slayer did." Henry looked back through the doorway, getting a better view of Killian arguing with both Emma and David whilst Rumpelstiltskin sauntered around feeding off the energy in the fight. Killian's voice was raised, repeatedly declining her offer of a heart split. "I know that's what you're thinking." Henry told her, looking back towards Nadri and trying to bring her out of the negative and dark thoughts she kept slipping into. Nadri sighed, looking down at the boy sitting next to her. "Its true love right? That's why he won't take my mom's heart because he wants you to come with us. He just won't say that."
"You're very smart for your age, mal gein." Nadri commented, still holding her sad smile towards Henry but shook her head. "None of them trust me. I do not blame them. I could have killed your mother if Hercules hadn't stopped me."
"I don't believe that." Henry dismissed without a second thought. "I think they need to give you a second chance. Show them what you can do now you're free, that you love Hook." There was that word again love.
"I'm not free." Nadri shook her head, her mouth twitching as she felt sadness come up to her throat, trying to push her feelings for Killian aside. "I'm dead, mal gein. My powers are still somewhere in this realm that could help Hades bring me back into his control."
"Then we find it. We find it and we can bring you back with us." Henry reassured again and Nadri had to stop trying to disagree with him, she got the feeling that Henry was going to bat back every single reasoning she had with positive affirmations and ideals. "I have this for you, Hercules wrote it before he moved on."
"He did?" Nadri whispered watching as Henry dug through his coat pockets and pulled out a folded, crinkled envelope.
"He said to read it alone." Henry shrugged and Nadri held it to her chest, closing her eyes as another tear fell from her eye. "He meant a lot to you, huh?"
"Yes he did."
They continued to sit together in a comfortable silence between them, Henry's expression equivalent to someone who had just won a victory. He knew he was right and he wasn't going to let the dragonborn tell him otherwise.
The voices in the other room finally ceased the noise and Regina popped her head around the door to her son.
"Mom?"
"We have a problem." Nadri got up from the table, receiving a cold glare from Regina that she had to brush off, taking a breath and picking herself up from her and Henry's conversation. They both walked back into the living room, all of them standing around and Killian's eyes immediately laid on Nadri, his facial expression softening when he realized that she had been crying.
"We were going to do the heart split and Regina's magic repelled entirely." Emma started.
"I don't know what went wrong." Regina turned to Nadri, as if she was waiting on feedback. Nadri scoffed the magical being in front of her, bewildered that she was now finally asking for her advice or even acknowledging her presence in the room. "What?"
"Do not what me, lahiik." And that was it. "Did we forget who brought your raaviir back up from Hades' domain? Or did we forget that this Dovah willingly laid down her life in front of Hercules so you could escape safely?" Nadri couldn't help but let the words spill from her mouth, she was fuming. Snow and Regina exchanged regrettable glances, understanding Nadri's anger towards being misplaced like a forgotten ornament.
"Nadri." Killian reached out for her, never seeing her so pent up with anger and frustration to the point it was now bubbling over like a pot of water that was past boiling point. "It's okay, love."
"It's not Killy." Nadri shook her head, Kilian's hand reaching her shoulder trying to comfort her. She had become so fed up of being looked at like a bad person that they weren't trying to see her light. "I may look like a little woman with hurt feelings but I can assure you I am definitely not. I risked my life, happily, for Killian. I brought him back to you. I made a deal with the Dark One to be free of my bonds to make sure I could get him back to the Living world safely." Killian's eyes looked up to her when she had mentioned her agreement with Rumpelstiltskin, a conversation that still needed to be discussed.
"I can help you that's why I made the deal. That's my deal so for the Gods please – get over it and we can do this together." Nadri's voice began to break, cracking as she felt the anger in her words but she just couldn't stop. She could feel all eyes in the room on her, Regina staring at her like a gawping fish as she ranted on. It was like the dam completely broke and all hell broke loose, she was sick and tired of being trialed for actions that were not her own, she was sick and tired of being thought of as a villain when actually she was the opposite.
She headed for the front door. She didn't stick around for any responses or concerns from the room after her rant. Nadri was quicker than anyone who had tried to walk after her, slipping out the front door and slamming it behind her. The dark-haired woman paced down the steps and out onto the front garden, putting her hands to hair and ingesting a deep breath. She could have shouted until the entire world shook but she just felt it trapped within her chest, as a human she hated how she felt. She never had any of this horrible, powerful feelings as a Dovah.
"Why do I feel like this?" Nadri whimpered, taking her hands from her hair and running them over her face. She felt helpless, weak to her emotions. She crouched down, trying to take deep breaths as she felt the spiral of emotions continue to drag her through a rollercoaster. Nadri felt like she couldn't breathe, panting heavily as she tried to catch her breath. "What is this dark magic?" Nadri kept trying to breath but she just felt like her breath was getting away from her, struggling to catch her breath almost as if someone had a hand around her throat and she couldn't take in any fresh air.
"It's called a panic attack." Emma's voice was heard coming out of the porch, catching the last words of her conversation. She rushed down the steps towards Nadri, only for Nadri to put a hand up to indicate she didn't need any help. "Look, you're getting yourself into a state. Big bad dragon or not, you can't handle a panic attack." Emma sat in front of Nadri on the cold grass, forcefully taking her hands in his hers as Nadri kept trying to wave her away from her.
Nadri was met with the fluffy fur around the hood of Emma's coat that had almost covered her eyes, her blonde hair poking out of the wood as the wind continued to sweep up leaves around the house. She didn't notice how much the wind had picked up since meeting Hades in the forest, almost as if the weather had changed dramatically in the last 24 hours. It was beginning to sway her from her crouched position.
"Nadri, look at me, look me in the eyes." Emma's eyes stared at Nadri's violet ones, noticing the bursts of white and darker purples running throughout. "I need you to breath in and out, 4 seconds each, okay? 4 for 4." Emma told her, beginning to do the breathing exercises with her. Nadri kept tripping over her breath, feeling like she was going to choke on her own air. "It's okay, just keep breathing."
"Why are you here?" Nadri held her breath in.
"Because everything you said is true and we've all treated you like the bad guy when it's not you at all." Emma replied, half-apologising as she started breathing out with Nadri. "Killian doesn't want to leave here without you, he refuses to share my heart." They breathed in together again, Nadri feeling like her breathing was finally beginning to settle.
"He won't be able to leave here unless he leaves me behind, either." Nadri reminded her, breathing out her steady, calm breath. Emma helped Nadri up from the ground, Nadri's curls blowing around wildly in the wind.
"You feeling okay?" Emma placed a hand on her shoulder, genuine concern across her features. "Just keep breathing, I know it seems hard in the moment but you just need to remember 4 for 4." Nadri nodded, appreciating her help in the end. "We just need to figure out a plan, that's all."
"I have no heart to share with him in return, Emma. He needs to go back, he has a life left unfinished. My body is dirt within the Earth now."
"Well, by the looks of it, he doesn't want that life either unless you're in it."
Nadri had managed to calm herself down while the some of the group ventured to the cemetery when Killian had explained that he was forced to put three names on the tombstones in return for the souls they were helping to pass over. Nadri had now confined herself in one of the upstairs bedrooms, sitting on one of the beds as she pulled out the letter from the crinkled envelope that Henry had given her previously. It had been a long time she had been able to sit on such a comfortable piece of furniture, Nadri had only ever been dragged into Hades bed and kicked out again when he was done with her, she had spent her nights sleeping in a cold cell as a dragon, she had never experienced sleeping in a comfortable bed.
Nadri was unsure on opening the letter, she didn't want to get herself in a further state and she knew full well that the last time she had seen Hercules he was trying to keep her from giving into Hades' darkness. Nadri unfolded the letters and her eyes looked down the beautiful writing.
'Nadri,
I don't think that we will meet again in this realm.
I want you to forgive me for what I had to do to you to ensure your safety.
I want you to forgive me for not keeping you safe when I freed you from my uncle.
I know you can be free, I know it in my heart.
Please take with you my courage and my belief that I know you will be free.
I'm sorry, Nadri. I'm sorry from the bottom of my heart for what I had to do.
I don't want to remember you as being under my uncle's influence, I want to remember you as the woman that I met down at the docks and I asked you to lunch and you gave me the brightest smile that I had ever seen.
I want to remember that smile eternally.
Herc.'
Nadri brought the letter up, pressing her lips against it as she felt tears prick at her eyes once again. She didn't want for them to have parted this way, now Nadri would never get the chance to say goodbye. She just hoped that he was happy wherever he ended up.
A knock came at the bedroom door and Nadri quickly wiped her eyes to avoid more tears being spilled today. She hid the letter within her jacket, keeping it safe in her pocket.
"Come in." Nadri neatened her hair as the door opened, looking up to see Killian poking his head around the door. "Killian." She gasped, smiling sweetly.
He was no longer beaten and bloodied, his clothes were no longer torn apart from shredded from the three-headed beast that had chased him down. He was able to stand without cradling his ribs. His face no longer bruised and both of his insatiable blue eyes, enhanced by his dark eyeliner, were now able to take in her own breathless appearance. His hair was neatly combed and blood no longer saturated it or splattered his face, Killian could now give her his most charming, confident smile that would have made her heart flutter.
"You look..."
"Emma fixed me up." Killian walked into the room, shutting the door behind him. Nadri could now see that he now had his hook twisted back in and cleaned up. "I don't scrub up too bad."
"You look beautiful." Nadri moved up the bed for Killian to sit down next to her, no longer wincing and groaning as he went. He was still taller than her even sitting at the same height. Nadri stared at him fawningly, taking in how breathlessly handsome he was.
"My thoughts when I saw you." Killian replied smoothly, leaning over with his hand to take her own, bringing her hand to his lips so he could kiss her knuckles. He held her hand like he never wanted to let go of it again. Nadri returned his smile. "They are working out a plan, something we can use against Hades."
"Do they think it will work, vahzen?" Nadri raised her eyebrow, feeling doubtful. These Living Souls believed they could take down a God, all it would bring is terror across the realm and that gave Nadri a sickening feeling in her stomach that could only lead to her being captured by Hades again. "I can't go back to him, Killy."
"I won't let you." Killian promised her with a tone set in stone, clutching her hand more. "I won't let you out of my sight, love. I promise you that. This deal you made-"
"The deal I made was for you, Killian." Nadri told him, finally bringing herself to have the conversation, cutting him off. "In the heat of the moment I made that krolurend because I needed to save you. To save both of us." Nadri bit her lip, knowing that even making a deal in the first place was something that she had no knowledge of trying to get out of. She was only ever at the subject of a deal.
"I didn't think I was worth saving, Nadri." Killian said whilst shaking his head, the pain of guilt washing over his face. Nadri frowned up at him as if he had said something that had seriously offended her.
"Killy, if I hadn't made that krolurend, Hades would have come back for me. I don't think I would still be in this realm." She told him with certainty, there was no way that Hades would have found Nadri's rebelliousness so forgiving. Hades beat her within an inch of her soul's existence just for running away but for breaking free of her bonds? Well…that was something that Nadri never wanted to find out.
"If anything was to happen to you Nadri, if you were gone from existence, I wouldn't know what to do." Nadri realized that the pirate was trying to hold back tears, his teeth gritting together and clenching his jaw to try and not let the tears flood through his voice. She held his hand tighter, Killian trying to look anywhere that wasn't in her eyes to see the pain she held for him. "I didn't know it before but now bringing my friends here was the worst thing that could have happened. I've put you in serious danger with Hades. I couldn't bare it if-"
"Killian, my lokaal." Nadri spoke softly, cutting him off to stop him from getting worked up any further. "If you weren't here, I would still be a zaam to that man. You freed me. I only have you to thank, not blame." She reassured, slowly breaking at the sight of Killian beginning to break his walls down and wanting to let all of his emotions come out into a flood. "I have something to exist for." Nadri wrapped her arms around Killian's neck, bringing him down to her level as she held him tightly. He wrapped his arms around her, squeezing her small frame as he sniffled into her shoulder.
Nadri leant back on the bed, initially confusing Killian as she had left his embrace. She got herself comfortable, still finding the mattress and pillows foreign to her. Nadri opened her arms and Killian shyly crawled over the bed and curled up next to Nadri, resting his head on her and getting himself comfortable between the cushions that sat on her chest.
All he wanted to hear was her heart beat as she began to delicately play with his hair. Since the moment Killian had sacrificed himself as the Dark One and landed in this god-forsaken place, he finally felt peaceful in Nadri's arms.
