AN hi I'm sorry it's been so long. I have been struggling with the the story , the day headings that I will be using for a while denote what day of bellas pregnancy we are on with the day bellas period was due (that got discussed between the chspters to clarify dates) being day one so the last chapter was set in day 3. I will be writing more for some days than for others and some days will be skipped, days 4 and 5 will have chapters to themselves but after that I will proverbly have a few days in each chapter. And I will. BE flashing back to events at the Cullen house at some point but I'm not sure when,Thank you for all the favourites and follows its nice to know people like my work.

Day 4
I woke up early. The clock on my bedside table said 5 am, I knew I wouldn't be getting anymore sleep so I decided to get up. As vampires don't sleep I knew there would be people downstairs. I hadn't been able to sleep very well because I was nervous about the baby, in a little over a month I would be a mother. It was a lot to get my head round. when I first decided I wanted to be a vampire i had accepted the fact that Iit meant I would never have children and even before that when children Had been a possibility I had been too young to really think about it much. I had never pictured myself with a child but very soon I would have one. Also I was worried about meeting Hulien and Nahuel even though they wouldn't arrive until tomorrow, I Couldn't get my head round the idea of good vampires that hunted humans., the two things had kept me awake most of the night. After spending some time in the shower I decided to go and find Tanya.
I walked into the kitchen to see Carmen sitting at the table looking deep in thought
"Good morning Carmen "
"Good morning bella how are you"
"Tired and hungry but I just know I won't keep anything down if I eat "
we had tried three more times to get me too keep some food down the previous evening but nothing had worked even water came back up. Tanya decided in the end that it was the baby making me intolerant because it wasn't receiving sufficient nutrients, it seemed we would have to wait for Hulien to being the blood before I got any food, tanya decided it would be best to feed baby before we tried human food again.
"Where's Tanya?"_
"She and The others except for Jacob have gone to anchorage hospital to get the blood she watched there, Tanya doesn't want to wait till Hulien arrives she is worried that you will lose weight and get weak if we don't get some nutrition into you today"
I was disappointed that Tanya was out but I was quickly distracted by what Carmen had said,
"Oh could I really go down hill that fast?"
"Tanya isn't sure but she doesn't want to take the risk"
"Fair enough. You looked deep in thought a minute ago may I ask what you were thinking about."
"Of course. I was thinking about my gift. "
"You have a gift? I didn't know"
"Yes Kate Elazar and I all have gifts"
"What is your gift"
"Well it's to do with true mate bonding. But I'm not exactly sure how it works yet"
"Why not"
"We'll usually with our gifts it takes a long time to understand how they work and how to use and control them. And I am only 10 months old."
I was shocked
"seriously?!"
"Seriously"
"But I thought it took years for a newborn vampire to learn to control themselves.?"
"Usually it does. Usually young vampires are wild and out of control. But I have never had a problem controlling myself around humans, it was excruciating to be around humans in the beginning and for a while control was hard work but I have never been out of control."
"Why was it different for you,
" Tanya has a theory, she thinks its because I chose to become a vampire that I knew what was happening, she thinks it's the pain of the transformation and the smock of awakening as a. A life without knowing what's happening or being prepared for it that makes the newborns go wild. I'm sure if you ask her she will tell you all about it"
i made a mental note to ask tanya soon i was intreuged and for some reason the fact that it was tanya who had the information made asking more appealing

"Are you ok with me so close? As your so young?"
"Yes don't worry bella in as much in control as the others"
"Ok, you said you don't understand your power much yet, what do you know about it?" I paused "if u don't mind me asking?"
"Of course I don't mind. it is to do with the true mate bond that occurs between some vampire couples. What do you know about true mate bonding,
"its like human soul mates isn't it?"
"yes and no, it is in the sense that it only ocours between two vampires who are exactly right for each other who are truly each other's other half. We all only ever have one true mate, but its a lot more powerful that human soul mates, when a vampire meets their true mate they are powerfully drawn to them sometimes they realise that they are true mates but sometimes they don't other emotions or opinions can cloud the initial bond attraction , For example Kate and garret. As soon as they met they knew that there was something between them the got close the true mAte bond formed and they haven't been apart since, yet Edward and Carlisle spent nearly a century as companions without realising the bond that existed between them, most likely because carlisle was so determined to be a mentor to Edward and that determination caused Edward to shield his own emotions from himself. But I. A cases once the bond is realised and established it is a very tangible thing the two react almost as one they can almost sense each others feelings they connect almost telepathically and one cannot live without the other the pain Of trying would be too great."
"Wow"
"Wow indeed"
"How does your gift work?"
"We'll I can sense if a couple share a true mate bond. I think it will work with any couple I can certainly sense the bond between garret and Kate, also I could tell when garret arrived and first met Kate that there was something there even though they dis not know what the connection was yet so I think I can pick up on wether two people are each others true may when they aren't yet bonded, although when I last saw the Cullens i didn't sense anything between Edward and Carlisle."
"That's odd why do you think that was?"
"I'm sure it's because my gift isn't very defined yet. I think when I have more control over it I will be able to sense existing true mate bonds or the absence of a true mate bond in any mated pair. And I think I will be able to tell if a person has met their true mate and if I know both people who their true mate is,"
I was curious I had to ask.
"Do you sense anything about me. ?"
"That bella is what I was contemplating when you walked in"
"Oh?"
"I sense something from you. But I have no idea what I'm afraid."
"Oh. That's odd and also interesting"
"Indeed".

Just then Jacob walked into the room.
"Morning bella. Tanya just got back with some blood for you I bumped into her in the hallway on my way downstairs,"
"Really that's great" I grinned and turned to watch the door waiting for her to come in. I didn't have to wait long Tanya used my scent to come straight to me.
"Good morning bella Kate garret Elazar and I have managed to acquire some blood for you"
"Morning Tanya that's good news. When do you
Want me to try some?"
"Well right now if you Don't mind. I'm hoping that by being proactive about feeding you both we can keep you strong enough to withstand the baby's growth and give you a guarantee of survival" her smile faded as she thought briefly of the alternative.
"Ok what do you want me to do"
"Well just stay there for a moment,"
"Kate" she called softly but loud enough for a vampire to hear anywhere in or around the house "what's taking you so long to bring the cool box in?!" There was an edge of impatience and annoyance to her tone"
"I'm here I'm here. " Kate walked thorough the kitchen door carrying a small picnic cool box "calm Down sister bella isn't going to emaciate in the next ten minutes. She handed the cool box to Tanya who placed it on the counter and took out a pouch of blood. She poured the blood into a china travel mug and put it into the microwave. Setting the timer she turned it on and stood tapping her foot impatiently. As soon as the dinger sounded Tanya had it out at vampire speed. She put a lid on the cup and placed a straw through the lid then joined me at the table. Putting the cup down In front of me.
"Sorry you have to do this bella it must seem awfully gross to you"
"It's all right. If it is what baby needs and if it makes me able to eat then It's worth it"
"How do you want to do this" she asked me
"Im thinking I'll just go for it"
I grabbed the cup stuck the straw in my mouth screwed up my face and sucked. The blood hit my mouth with a tangy coppery taste but to my surprise it wasn't unpleasant in fact I liked it. I let go of the straw in surprise. Tanya noticed my startled expression instantly
"What is it bella are you ok?"
"Yeah I'm fine. The blood tastes nice!?" Tanya's worried expression turned into a grin
"Hulien said that might be the case , your body has adapted to accept the blood as nourishment and adapted your taste buds as part of the process. It's a good sign" she smiled
Feeling reassured I put the straw back to my mouth. In a matter of moments I had drained the cup.
"How do you feel?" Tanya asked
"Not nauseous" I said grinning. "Which based on recent experience is a good sign"
"Perhaps we could try some human food now?" Tanya suggested.
"Ok I agreed. An omelette?"
"Sure" Tanya left the table to make an omelette and I sat and watched her cook
When it was ready Tanya and I joined Jacob in the living room I sat down between Jacob and Tanya and Tanya placed the omelette in my lap, I took a tentative bite while Tanya hovered over me I'm sure we was being prepared incase another emergency loo dash was needed, but to my great joy the immediate nausea I was expecting didn't cle, I ate a few more bites and when they stayed down too I polished of the rest at record speed,
"I think we have got the feeding us thing down" I said to Tanya grinning
"I agree" she replied relaxing back into the sofa next to me, we spent the rest of the day watching films. To Tanya's great pleasure a few hours later another cup of blood and another omelette stayed down without problem.