The drive back to Finn's apartment was made in silence; both men thinking about what had happened that night. Logan desperately wanted to go to the hospital to be with Rory but knew Chris wouldn't let him near her until he figured out who had sent the lawyers after her. All he wanted was to hold her and take care of her. There were so many things he had done wrong in his life, but his biggest regret were the three times he walked away from her, their fight in the pub, her graduation and New Hampshire. He should have never gotten involved in that arrangement with Odette but a part of him knew why he did. He wanted to push Rory to commit fully to their relationship but instead it pushed her away. From the moment he had woken up after Costa Rice he knew he wanted a life with her, children with her. Even during their time apart he would think back about what could have been, and when he saw her again those dreams came back but he was to scared to tell her what he wanted in case she didn't want the same.

Walking into the apartment Logan sat on the couch and Finn headed to the cart and poured them both a large glass of scotch. Finn sat down and handed him the glass before pulling out his phone, "We need to call Colin."

Finn made the call to Colin, telling him it was an emergency and that he needed to get to Finn's immediately. Logan's phone kept ringing and Odette's name kept flashing on the screen, but Logan ignored it, they were supposed to be going to dinner and some show tonight. A part of him wanted to turn the phone off but he was worried Rory might try and reach out, so he kept hitting ignore on the calls and read through the documents. These documents made him sick and he could see why they would send Rory to the hospital; it was a miracle she didn't lose the baby. There were threats to destroy her credibility, sue her for harassment, a child custody case with him requesting full custody; the more he read the sicker he got. After he read through all the legal papers, he handed them to Finn and downed the scotch before getting up for a refill. When he sat back down, he picked up the remaining page, a print out of an email she had sent him, an email he had never seen.

Logan,

I know we said good-bye, it was a perfect good-bye, and I don't want to tarnish the memory but there is something a need to tell you and I don't have the courage to do this face to face. I hope you read this, all of this because this is everything I wish I had the courage to tell you.

As I write my book, I have been forced to look back at my life and I have questioned so many of my decisions and I don't know why I made the choices I did. I think back to all the times I wish I would have done things differently… so many of those times are lost chances with you. I wish I could go back to the night at the pub after our first big fight and not let you leave me there or I wish I would have gone to you the next day to talk. We both handled that night and its aftermath horribly. For me, I was crushed you were another man that walked away from me. I was devastated that once again I wasn't enough for a man to stay. The bridesmaid incident just fed all of my insecurities that I could never be enough. You meant so much more to me than any other man, if I couldn't get them to stay how could I expect for me to be enough for you?

Being with you changed me in so many ways. For the first time I found myself straying from the path that was laid out in front of me. I found myself wanting to explore more of who I was, I wanted to break out of my shell. I found myself fighting against the life my mother pushed on me, the life my grandparents wanted me to have. You made me want a life for myself but I was so afraid that by accepting that life I would push away what I had always known and as much as I trusted you, wanted to be with you, I never trusted that I could be enough you for. But please know, that from the moment we jumped until now I have always loved you, I have always wanted you.

When you asked me to marry you after graduation I wanted to say yes, so badly I wanted to say yes. And as much as it pains me to realize this now… I said no because I was so terrified to stray from that path and disappoint my mother. So many of the decisions I have made in my life were always to please her and I never realized it until now. I guess you were right all those years ago, I am a little sheltered. No matter what I have done in my life, I am still that naive, sheltered small town princess that you met, I just never realized it until now. We have hurt each other so much but we have loved each other even more. You will always be the one that got away, the one no other man could ever compare to.

When you came back into my life in Hamburg it was the first time that I truly felt alive since you walked away from me at my graduation. I started falling for you again the moment our eyes. I wanted everything with you, I needed you. I hoped you felt the same, but you would never open up to me when I tried to talk. There were always pictures of you with super models and socialites and I realized you didn't need or want me the same way I needed and wanted you. I tried to come up with the words to tell you what I wanted, I tried to show you with my constant long trips to London. I had tried to plan the perfect night in your London apartment. I had finally admitted to myself that I was still in love with you and that would never change but before I could say the words you told me about Odette and the engagement. I couldn't let you see me breakdown, so I left the next day. I was devastated but I was selfish, I had to keep you in my life but you made it clear you didn't want me the same way I needed you so I tried to protect my heart and that's why I suggested Vegas. You had already walked away from me twice and seemed to move on so easily but I just couldn't let you go. When I found out Odette had moved in, I couldn't let myself pretend anymore. It was what I had feared along, I was just a side piece and someone to warm your bed. But when you showed up in Stars Hallow I let myself believe, if only for a moment you wanted and needed me like I want and need you. I wanted to tell you that I love you, I'm in love with you, but the night was the perfect good-bye and I decided to keep my words to myself and let you go. You deserve to be happy and have the life you want.

I'm sure your wondering why I'm writing to you now, telling you how I feel and I'm getting there. Before I tell you, I need you to know I am not asking for anything. I don't expect you to give up your perfect life with the perfect woman, but you deserve to know, and I could never live with myself if I didn't tell you. I'm pregnant, 7 weeks along. I tried texting and calling you from the moment I found out two weeks ago and while you have made it clear you don't want any further contact with me by not returning my texts or calls, I had to try and contact you one more time to let you know. I understand if you can't or won't be a part of this child's life and I will only ever tell them about the love I feel for you. Just please let me know if you want to know this child or not. If the answer is not, I understand and he or she will be loved by so many people.

Please have a happy life full of love. That's all I have ever wanted from you.

Your Ace

By the end of the letter tears were streaming down Logan's face. He remembered that night he had told her about Odette. He had been in meeting with his father all week about securing the future of the Huntzbergers. He had been on a few arranged dates with Odette and she was pretty enough, but she was an idiot. However, her family owned a few magazines and newspapers that they would be willing to part with if the two got married. Rory had come to visit and it was her that kept him sane when he came home in the evenings and he wanted to tell her he wanted to be with her but everything with his father and Odette had been bottled up. She had prepared a romantic meal and a few glasses of wine in he told her everything. The next day they had planned to spend the day sightseeing in London but when he woke he found her in the kitchen fully dressed and telling him she had changed her flights and needed to get back to the states. He was upset at her sudden departure, he needed her, and she left him. To him it was like her graduation all over again, whenever he needed her she wouldn't stick by his side. But now hearing her side of it he had pushed her away again. She suggested Vegas and he went along with it, he needed her in his life even if she wasn't willing to compromise to make a life together.

Finn reached for the letter and Logan let him have it. So many things were going through Logan's mind he couldn't focus, he could get his thoughts in order, so he focused on his scotch and tried to think about anything other than the heartbreak he just read.