DPOV

I am a well respected Guardian or should I say I was at least. I am a full grown man, and here I am feeling like I am a teenager all over again. The thought of Rose just did something to me and the thoughts that became so foreign to me have all come flooding back. I miss her and understand how cringy that sounds, she'd be telling me that herself.

I've always known she was a defiant woman, however we never really got the chance to explore our relationship. So this flirty side is completely new to me, but a pleasant new. At the same time the words "Rose is pregnant," keep flooding my mind and I can't help the reaction it causes. My whole stomach clenches with the thought. Everyone knows the unspoken fate of Damphir/Damphir couples, as rare as they are, that we cannot have children together. The mere thought makes me ache, we both are obviously aware that it can't happen but it doesn't stop it being something you eventually crave together. Usually it's the natural next step when you love someone. I do love her, I mean there's no other way to explain the hold this woman has on my life. I just don't know how to repair the relationship breakdown I have somewhat caused with the events of my restoration. I can't help the voice in my head screaming that it's my fault that she's pregnant. If I hadn't pushed her into the arms of another this wouldn't have happened. I wonder if the father is happy about it? What if it's Adrians? I don't think he'd let her go so easy. Another selfish part of me hopes that maybe I can win them both over and be apart of the babies life, even if it may not biologically be my own. How can I not love Roses child? My thoughts are running wild. She hasn't even wanted to talk to me yet and now I'm planning on adopting another mans child, all without even being in a friendly relationship with Rose. Calm down Dimitri, you're a million miles ahead of yourself.

I also can't believe I agreed to her terms, don't get me wrong I love my family more than life itself but I haven't been relieved of all my guilt. I'm not too sure if when the time comes I will have the strength to go ahead and tell Mama the story or everything I've done. Here I am with a billion thoughts in my head but the one that stands out the most is that in just a couple of hours I will be face to face with the woman that can bring me to my knees. So here I wait on what feels like the worlds longest flight even though it's not, so I shut my eyes hoping to pass the time a little faster. When I open them it is due to our descent, and if I was nervous before it's nothing compared to now. Here I come Roza.

RPOV

What have I done? All this time I've created distance between us, just to throw it right out the window the first time he calls. My resilience is wavering and the selfish part of me misses him while the other part of me wants to make him suffer. This explains why I'm hiding up in my room, waiting for Mikhail to alert me to Dimitri's arrival. I definitely can't blame the baby for this sickly feeling. Harden up Rose, you're a badass remember, you can take him.

Oh I could take him, that's a whole other issue, I need to work on my willpower with these hormones. Preferably before he gets here and I either punch him or jump him.

"Rose, we have a visitor." Mikhail interrupted my inner rambling. He has a weird look on his face that I can't interpret.

Well I guess it's showtime…let's get this over with. I follow him out of the room and can't help but falter. I quickly straighten up and keep walking until I'm a couple of metres away from Dimitri. I'm not going to let him see how much he affects me but damn he looks as good as I remember, this really isn't helping. Okay horny Rose go away, I need tough Rose now. I can't help but move my lips in an upright position as I spot his duster, I guess some things never change despite everything that's happened.

"Belikov." I greet him and his face is hard and I feel like he's staring into my soul.

"Roza." Oh god that voice. If that didn't stun me enough, I sure as hell wasn't expecting him to grab me and close the gap by hugging me tightly, as if I would bolt the second he let go. I mean it was a possibility but damn, his tight embrace was the last thing I thought would happen and it's like my brain short circuited.

"Um…Dimitri?" I tried to laugh it off in case this was a mistake, an old reflex he couldn't help, not that I can remember this every happening. My hands were awkwardly pinned to my side and I slowly brought them up and around his back leaning in. I was enjoying the scent of his aftershave, that smelt extra amazing at the moment, it's like the baby knows. Traitor.

"Sorry." He cleared his throat awkwardly and took a step back.

"Miss me that much?" I laughed off my rhetorical question, next minute I know he actually answered back.

"Yes." Okay now I feel awkward. It's like I've forgotten how to have a normal conversation. Joking seemed to always be the way to save myself, now I have nothing.

"So you must be tired after your flight, you rest and in the morning we might discuss our plans for Sonya. I'll show you which bedroom is yours." I had to diffuse this awkwardness somehow and get some space.

I walked down the hall and showed him a spare bedroom and where the bathroom was. Just as I turned to leave he tried to ask me something.

"Rose?"

I stopped and turned around, not liking where this could go.

"Is there something else you need? If not I will be getting ready for bed also as we've got our work cut out for us." I tried to ramble something believable. I honestly don't know how safe it is to be alone with him just yet.

"You know we have to talk eventually." Two can play at this game.

"Talk about what exactly?" I tried to play dumb but he wasn't buying it.

"Everything that's happened over the last few months."

"There's not too much to say, I think I got it off my chest before I left don't you think?" He doesn't give up.

"Goodnight Dimitri." Just as I thought I'd gotten away I heard his voice one last time.

"I know you're pregnant Rose." Crap.