A/N : Wow two chapters in less than a week ! I couldn't keep you waiting...
Enjoy this chapter, I'm so proud of it and consider it to be the greatest thing I've ever wrote ! if you loved it please review !
TW : rape mention
CW : The last section is M rated !!
After a few seconds of deafening silence, Anna gasped. Her hand flew to her mouth and she shared a shocked look with John, who seemed as shaken by the news as she was. He stroked her thigh as a way of comforting her. She quickly gathered herself. She needed to be strong for her best friend. Anna wasn't the one whose boyfriend's life was on tenterhooks.
"Mary, we're coming right away !", She told her best friend with as much confidence as she could muster at this moment. John nodded. He went into the kitchen to tell his mom about what happened.
"O-okay" Mary managed to say shakily.
"It's going to be okay, Mary. Matthew's going to be okay" Anna reassured her but no answer came from Mary. She quickly hung up the call and rose from the couch.
Margaret came into the room. She went to hug Anna who had warm tears rolling down her cheeks. John had readied the car and took Anna's hand to lead her outside. They said goodbye to his mother who told them she would wait for them to keep her updated on the situation. They drove back to Downton, their heart heavy with the thought of what awaited them there. Anna told John she was sorry they had to cut short their time with his mother but John shrugged it off, replying that it was only fair. Both of them liked and cared about Matthew but above all, both of them were worried about Mary. They couldn't help but think of what state they would be in if they were the one in that difficult position.
John had never driven that road from London to Downton so quickly. Eventually, they arrived at the hospital. Anna ran to the emergency aisle. John was following behind. He forgot the throbbing feeling of his knee as he ran down the hospital's hall. They saw Mary sitting outside of Matthew's room, her head bent down and her hands clasped on her chest. Anna sat next to her best friend in silence, just wrapping her arms around her. John was watching from a distance, letting them have their moment.
"He's going to be okay" Anna whispered in Mary's dark hair. The other woman who had cried silently until then left out a loud sob. Her body was wretched by her sobs and Anna felt her heart tearing. After a few minutes, Mary raised her head toward Anna, her eyes red and puffed.
"T-thank you for coming", Mary sniffled.
"Of course I came, Mary, we're best friends" Anna said, her voice heavy with unshed tears. "W-what happened ?"
"H-he told me he had…a-an errand to run. T-there was too much snow…" her friends tried to explain.
"Oh…Mary…" Anna's heart tightened.
"It's my fault…" Mary whimpered.
"No, don't say that, what would it be ?", Anna whispered in a soft voice, holding Mary closer.
"H-he had this in his hand…" she showed her the little red box that was in her hands. It was an engagement ring box. Anna was astounded. She looked at her best friend whose tears had doubled.
"It's not your fault, Mary. It was an accident" said a deep voice behind the two women who looked up to see John. He offered a little smile.
"I can't lose him, uncle John. I-I can't…" Mary cried and John sat next to her. Anna released her best friend from her embrace to let her boyfriend seek his goddaughter.
"You won't, love" he sought her, in a gentle voice.
In the following hours, more friends of Matthew came to visit : Tom who seemed in real distraught at his best friend's appearance - Matthew had been badly bruised in the accident - with Sybil who couldn't bear to see what she thought of as her brother in that state, Robert and Cora also came to support their daughter in that terrible ordeal and even Edith was there to show sympathy to her sister, with little Marigold in her prawn. The most heartbreaking moment had been Matthew's mother, Isobel. She usually was a strong woman but seeing her poor boy in a coma state was too much for her and she crumbled in Mary's arms, both crying for their boy to come back to them. John went out for a moment to ring his mother and tell her about what had occurred. Margaret shared her sympathy with him and told him to get the message through to Isobel and Mary. John knew that the two women were too shaken at the moment but he recognized his mother's huge heart at that moment. After four hours spent at the hospital with still no sign of Matthew waking up, people started to scatter. John and Anna were the last to leave, only Mary and Isobel had decided to stay the night (and probably every other night until he would wake up). Anna had a great difficulty with leaving her best friend but in the end her boyfriend convinced her she needed rest and to give Mary a moment alone.
They took the car and drove home. Anna knew she wouldn't be able to go back to her flat and stay alone with the thought of her best friend spending the night at the hospital. Tonight she needed John more than anything. John sensed that she wasn't doing well as he pulled into their street. He stopped the car in front of his flat and before he could get out of the car he felt a trembling hand on his shirt, then he was pulled into a kiss. He felt the salty taste of hot tears on his lips and he quickly opened his eyes to see Anna's closed ones filled with tears. As she pulled away, she circled his middle with her arms, nestling herself on his chest, her head close to his heart in his ribcage. She listened to the reassuring song of his heartbeat before whispering : "Stay with me tonight". John whispered his agreement back and tightened his hold on her.
Moments later, they entered his flat. None of them were hungry tonight. They had eaten a quick sandwich at the hospital and all they longed for now was to be in each other's arms. Anna forgot any of what she wanted to tell him hours ago, all her thoughts went back to her best friend whose greatest love was fighting for his life at the moment. Mary would need all of her support in the next few days - or even weeks -. Anna wanted to be there for her. It was only fair when Mary would do the same for her if their roles were reversed. That was something Anna wouldn't try to imagine. John was like her oxygen. She had been so miserable during that time where she had avoided him, she couldn't begin to imagine truly losing him. That night, as they were in each others' arms, they had a hard time finding sleep. Around one in the morning, Anna was staring into the void. John had his arms around her waist, his front to her back. He felt that she was awake.
"Anna" he softly called.
"John. Did I wake you ?" she whispered.
"I'm an insomniac…A-are you okay ?", he hesitantly asked. She turned around in his arms to face him.
"I can't help but to think about what happened…about that ring…It was supposed to be a happy day for them" she said weakly.
"The happiest of all" he agreed, trying a smile.
"Oh John…I pray to God he's going to be alright. Mary doesn't deserve this…" she shook her head.
"I pray for that too, my love. I can't begin to imagine her pain…We just need to be there for her, though. She'll need us" he caressed her arm gently.
"Yes, you're right" she agreed with a nod. She tried to look strong but he could see the tears gathering at the corner of her beautiful blue eyes even if he couldn't distinguish their heavenly color in the dark.
"But it's normal to be in pain, Anna. Matthew is our friend too. You have the right to crumble" Anna cried again. John said nothing but stroked her back. He knows that Anna had a great heart and she liked Matthew a lot. Of course she was in pain. She always tried to be strong, though.
John and Anna spent Boxing Day together too. They didn't do much other than watching TV. Anna would check on Mary through calls to know if there was some news but Matthew was still in the coma. Anna had known Mary for almost a decade and had never known her best friend to be pessimistic. But this event had shaken her and she was at the bottom. Thankfully, they were still on holidays until the end of the year. John wondered about the New Year, he doubted there would be a party to celebrate it with Matthew in that state. He couldn't imagine anyone would have the heart to party. Yesterday, Cora sent a message on the school's whatsapp group chat to inform everyone of the tragedy. They all sent their prayers to him, even O'Brien which could come as a surprise from the sour woman. John guessed that death and life mattered more than any ill feelings.
The day after Boxing Day, Anna went back to the hospital to check on Mary. When she arrived there, she was frightened by the sight she was confronted with. Her usually very neat best friend probably hadn't showered for two days, she had the same clothes her parents brought her when they came on Christmas and she looked as if she hadn't slept during those two days either. Anna mentally slapped herself, of course she hadn't slept a wink since that day. Would she rest even a minute if John was in Matthew's place ?
Anna had brought some food prepared by the school cook. Mrs Hughes came by in the morning with a few Tupperwares filled with hot and savory meals prepared by Mrs Patmore whose solution to any ailment was always food. Anna had been so happy to see the school keeper that she just crumbled in her arms. She felt bad for being the one to cry when it was Mary who was hurting but Anna was easily overwhelmed when something bad happened to someone she cared for. Elsie knew that she had that bad habit of wanting to comfort everyone. She had never liked seeing her friends crying or such. The older woman had known Anna for more than a decade, acting like her mother when her own had rejected her. She was over the moon to see her girl finding a boyfriend as kind and loving as John. She didn't know much about him but he struck her as a great guy.
Anna dragged her friend away from Matthew's room long enough to have her shower, change into new clothes and eat something. They went to the hospital hall to eat what Anna had brought. It had been two days since Mary had had proper food - vending machine's crisps couldn't be considered as such-. Anna was relieved to see her best friend eating even if she was only nibbling on the steak Mrs Patmore had cooked.
"How are you doing ?", Anna said without thinking.
"How do you think I'm doing, Anna ?" Mary replied harsher than she intended to. Anna wasn't upset with her, she knew where her best friend was coming from. She saw the puffy eyes from crying and heard the husky voice from a lack of sleep.
"Sorry, silly question" Anna said gently and Mary felt instantly bad for behaving badly.
"I'm sorry, Anna. I didn't mean to be short with you. I just don't know w-what…I'm completely lost" Mary apologized but Anna shrugged.
"What are the doctors saying ?", she asked tentatively.
"He apparently has no severe damages but he's still in the coma. They're saying they don't know when he will wake up…." she broke into sobs. Anna came next to her and circled her shoulders, resting her head on her best friend's. It was funny to see the small Anna towering over the tall Mary.
"You're a strong woman, Mary. The strongest woman I've ever known. You can bear it. In no time Matthew will be on one knee proposing to you"
"What would I do without you Anna ? You have always been there for me, like when you pretended you were the one who dropped that mocha on Edith's dress or when you helped me cut classes to go to that Backstreet Boys concert" Mary said with a small chuckle that made Anna a bit relieved.
"You were a bad influence on me, Mary Crawley. I was a very scholarly student before I met you" Anna joked and Mary smiled weakly. "I will always be by your side, darling"
Mary rested her head on Anna's shoulder for a moment before resuming to eat. At the end of the day, Anna convinced her friend to come back to their flat for the night. Mary reluctantly accepted as Isobel was keeping an eye on Matthew tonight. His poor mother, Mary thought, her heart tightening.
Mary just slept the next day away. Anna took it as a chance to clean the flat. She made sure her best friend was eating and drinking enough but she let her rest seeing how much she needed it. Once she was finished, she decided to call John. She was missing him already. They had spent so much time together lately and she was finding it difficult to be without him. It was six in the evening. When he picked up the phone, she felt a jolt in her stomach when she heard his husky voice. It was crazy how his voice alone could make her weak on her knees.
"Hello, sweetheart" he rasped through the phone. She felt herself blushing.
"Hello my love. How was your day ?" she inquired.
"Lonely. It seems I can't live without you anymore, Miss Smith", he said in a voice that was so soft she felt like she would cry.
"I missed you too" she just replied, her heart warming at his words.
"How's Mary ?" he asked.
"Resting. She's holding on. Oh John… Why is life so cruel ?"Anna felt her tears gathering up.
"I know, my darling", he comforted her sweetly.
"I want to help her, help them but I'm so…powerless", she sounded tired and desperate.
"It's not your fault, love. You're being a good friend to Mary. It's what she needs at the moment", he assured her.
"You mean it ?" she asked in a small voice.
"I would never tell you something I don't mean, Anna", he replied softly.
"Thank you, John. I love you", she told him.
"I love you too," he replied. Mary heard their conversation and she felt a pang of jealousy. She missed Matthew so much. She would give anything, even her own life for him to be well. Yet she felt so incredibly happy for her best friend. Anna deserved the whole world and she had found her own in John. When their call ended, Mary made herself known. Anna turned around.
"Oh you're up !" she said joyfully.
"I was hungry", Mary answered simply.
"I'm glad you're eating", Anna smiled brightly.
"Well, starving won't bring Matthew back" she said sadly. Anna winced a little.
"You shouldn't lose hope" Anna squeezed her best friend's arm.
"I know" Mary smiled weakly "Is John okay without you by his sides ?"
"We don't live together so he is used to it" Anna replied shyly. She didn't want to rub her happiness in her best friend's face. Not with what was happening. Mary felt it and smiled.
"I want to keep my mind off what is going on at the hospital. I need to…or else I'll breakdown" she admitted.
"So, tell me, how is it going with your charming prince ? Is uncle John up to the task ?" Mary inquired with a little smirk.
"Mary !" she chided her friend. "I've never been happier," she admitted with a bright smile.
"I'm glad for you, Anna. I really am. You deserve to be happy more than anyone" Mary told her genuinely, though her face showed sorrow and self-loathing.
"So do you. Don't go thinking what happened was karma, Mary. I know you and you're a kind person. Matthew knows that, that's why he is marrying you", Anna assured her.
"I didn't even get the proposal yet -'
"But you will. Because he's definitely going to wake up. He loves you too much to die", she said boldly.
As Mary was going to reply, she received a call from Isobel. She picked up the phone with a shaky hand, Anna watching her with a worried look. She placed it to her ear and suddenly gasped, holding the phone out to Anna who took it. Isobel was crying happily on the other hand telling her that Matthew had woken up. Mary was on the couch where she had crumbled, sobs wrecking her body. For the first time in days, there were happy tears of relief. Anna felt her own rolling down her cheeks. This was a miracle. She quickly hung up the phone and dialed John's number. She asked him in a shaky voice if he could drive them to the hospital. John was happy to hear about Matthew's recovery.
John came a few minutes later and drove to the hospital. Once there, they ran to Matthew's room. There he was, sitting against his pillow with Isobel next to him. His smile grew larger when he noticed his girlfriend on the door's frame.
"Mary" he breathed and she smiled.
"Thank God" she cried and rushed to his side. She leaned to capture his lips in a lingering kiss. She was pouring all her love in it and clinged unto it as if her life depended on it. She had been so close to losing him. After a while, they pulled away. She carefully hugged him, crying more.
"Don't cry, my darling" he sought her.
"Oh Matthew, you idiot. I've come so close to losing you, of course i'm crying", she gently scolded him through tears.
"I'm here now, my darling" he comforted her.
John and Anna watched the scene from the door frame with tears in their eyes. John felt a small hand holding his, when he looked down Anna smiled at him. He bent a little to kiss her forehead. They left the lovebirds and Isobel alone. John texted the group chat to let them know and everyone was relieved. Anna couldn't stop crying too. She joked lightly to John that now they would have a proposal to wait for.
This great news renewed everyone's will to party so the New Year's Eve Party was still expected. Matthew was resting at home now, he had been discharged from the hospital not long after his recovery. Mary was looking after him in her flat. Tom and Isobel were sometimes checking on him. The Irishman was sorry he couldn't have been there more but he had to go back to Ireland for his sister's wedding. He felt like a really bad best friend but Matthew assured him all was well. Matthew had told him once that they were alone that he would make it up to him if he accepted to be his best man. Tom was surprised but agreed right away. Anna was at John's flat, wanting to let the couple enjoy their time together. John had to admit he couldn't be happier about that fact. He loved having his girlfriend with him. It made Anna wonder about what would happen when Mary and Matthew would be engaged. She would probably move out of the flat. Wouldn't it be too soon to live with her boyfriend ? Especially considering the fact they still weren't intimate. She had completely forgotten about that side of their relationship lately with her mind focused on Mary. She only knew that she had missed him terribly when she wasn't with him.
The party was to be held at Cora and Robert's house, not too far from the school. When Robert's family had turned their estate into a school, they moved in one of their family properties, what was at the time the Dowager House. It was a great house, still big enough for a common British family. John had spent many New Years in that house since his twenties. His Christmases were reserved for his mother but he came here for New Years. In the early years of his marriage he even went with Vera but his ex-wife had quickly stopped coming. This year would be the first time in twenty years that he was accompanied. What better company. Anna had spent some New Years there too - and John wondered how come they never met before - but more often she was spending the New Year at the Carsons. They were like her adoptive family and had welcomed her in their home for the year end's celebrations for a long time. Back when she was a teenager and had run away from her family. Cora and Rose - who lived at the Crawley- had been in charge of the decoration and what an accomplishment ! Everyone was present tonight, even O'Brien - Cora seemed to be the only one who liked that woman -.
Anna and John arrived at seven. John wore a blue suit, his hair unkempt - and a little bit messed up by his girlfriend who hadn't been able to resist the urge to kiss him senseless before they entered the house, it seemed Anna enjoyed blue on him -. Anna was wearing a strapless night blue dress with a bust covered with glitters, it was calve-length and the skirt was see-through. Some sections of her hair were tied and the rest of it was falling on her shoulders.
After a good dinner, everyone was enjoying the night. Some sort of karaoke was taking place in the main living room. Joseph Molesley was singing his lungs out on "Living on a prayer" by Bon Jovi. John decided to stay out of it, keeping company to Edith in the nursery while she played with Marigold. Anna and Thomas had a lovely duo on "Summer Nights" from Grease. Matthew dedicated "Just the way you are" by Bruno Mars to his girlfriend who was turning crimson. After a while, the karaoke ended and the living room was now a dance club. John came back by Anna's side, enjoying some slow dances with her, especially when they were playing Ed Sheeran's "Perfect" or Aerosmith's "I don't want to miss a thing" which he considered to be their songs.
A little before midnight, Dean Martin's "If you were the only girl" started playing. Mary gasped as she recognized the song that meant so much to her. It was the song to which she had danced for the first time with Matthew at Anna's 21st birthday party. Matthew liked old songs and had requested to put it on back then and then took his chance to ask Mary to dance. Now, Mary felt transported four years into the past as she danced with her boyfriend. He was singing the lyrics into her ear and she closed her eyes. Once the dance was over, she opened her eyes to see Matthew kneeling in front of her with a ring box in his hands. Mary gasped and her hand flew to her mouth.
"Matthew ! What are you doing ?" she let out a nervous look. She looked around her to see the happy smiles of her best friend, her mother and Isobel.
"This accident made me realize that life is short, Mary. I've been madly in love with you from the first time I met you on my first day at college. I love you - all of you - with all my heart and I've never been sure of anything more than about the fact I want to spend the rest of my life with you. Mary Crawley, will you do me the honor of becoming my wife ?" he asked with such love in his tone.
"Of course, I will !" she shouted, making everyone laugh. She took his head in her hands and brought him close for a kiss. They kissed for several seconds before pulling away. He then slipped the ring on her fingers and hugged her once more. Everyone around them applauded. Anna had happy tears in her eyes and John couldn't help but smile. He was so happy for his goddaughter.
"Everyone have a drink !" Robert yelled, already a bit tipsy, raising his glass.
"To the fiancés !" Cora said, raising her glass. Everyone echoed her speech and they drank the fiancés' health as the clock struck midnight. "Happy New Years" fused in the room, people kissing and hugging each other.
While everyone else was busy partying, John and Anna, who were both too joyous because of alcohol - John had allowed himself to drink a little, he knew he could control himself now, Anna had changed him for the good -, had found themselves in the courtyard. The night was freezing but the alcohol in their body kept them quite warm. They were both sitting on the bench there. Anna's nose was bright red - both from the wine and the cold - so John had suggested he would warm her. He had her hands in his and she was leaning on his side.
"Let's play a game. You tell me one of your biggest secrets and I tell you mine" Anna happily suggested, looking up at John.
"Why not. Hum" Alcohol and cold were altering his brain functions. "Wow, I remember why I quit drinking, I can't think clearly right now"
"Why don't you tell me how you got your injury, it's the only thing I don't know" She pouted and John had to suppress his urge to kiss it off.
"I told you, I got it when I was a fireman" He argued.
"Yes but you never told me the entire story" She countered, begging him with her ocean eyes.
"Alright, miss, no need to make your puppy eyes" He gave in, kissing the tip of her nose. "So, 20 years ago, when Cora was pregnant with Sybil, there was a fire at Rob and Cora's house. I wasn't on duty that night, but Rob's mom, Violet, called me and I came right away. When I arrived they had already got Mary, Edith and Cora out. Rob was still in the house. I ran into it to get him out of here. Thankfully I got him out but as I was leaving, a beam fell on my leg and injured my knee. I had to walk with a cane for a while after that"
"Wait a second. You saved Rob's life ?", she asked, confused.
"Well, we can say that…" John said then added, grinning at Anna "But he's my best mate, he would have done the same for me, especially if I had two children and a pregnant wife at home"
"Don't be humble, John. You saved your best mate's life. That was really brave and heroic" Her face conveyed her pride in him.
"I'm no hero", he waved off her compliment.
"Yes, you are. You're my hero" She stated, tilting her head to brush her lips against his bottom lip. John beamed. He couldn't wrap around his head how this young and amazing woman wanted him but he was proud of it.
"I've told one of my biggest secrets, now tell me one of yours" John said.
"I became friends with Thomas because he saved me from being raped", she blurted with a straight face, though you could see she was a bit tipsy.
"Oh" he said, looking at her.
"Bet it wasn't what you expected", she deadpanned.
"Not for you…" he replied.
"Everyone has their baggage, John. Me just like the others" She looked down, trying to shake off tears.
"Anna ?" John asked, worried, reaching for her hand.
"It's okay. So, I was saying : Thomas saved me from being raped in the Uni's bathroom. When I was at uni, there was this guy, Alex. I don't really know how but we started dating, he was nice at first" she said and looked at John to see concern in his eyes "he made me laugh. But he was always convincing me to sleep with him, and each time I would surrender at his insistence" John's face was decomposed but she resumed "He never pleased me, my pleasure wasn't his concern. He would touch me when we were in public even when I told him not to. He liked being in control of things, treating me like I was nothing more than his sex toy"
She took a breath, looked John in the eyes and explained. "One day, we were at Uni and he wanted to have sex. I told him that I didn't want to and he slapped me across the cheek. I was so shocked, I surrendered. He dragged me to the boys' bathrooms, pushed me against the wall and trapped me with his arms. H-he was trying to, well…I started crying when I heard him unbuckle his belt. I knew what was going to happen. Thankfully, just a second later he was pushed away from me by Thomas who grabbed him by the collar and threw him on the floor. He started hitting him until he was unconscious then Thomas took my hand and we ran away from there. I think we cut classes the rest of the day and went to the mall"
"Oh Anna…", he circled his arms around her tiny frame.
"Don't pity me, John. I'm not a victim", she told him seriously.
"Of course you're not. You're a survivor. I hope that bastard is rotting in hell", he whispered, trying to hide his anger.
"He had been expelled after this and my lawyer got him a restraining order", she admitted weakly.
"You're so strong Anna. I couldn't be prouder nor love you more than now I know what you've been put through. I'm lucky to call you my girlfriend" He took her head in his hands and leaned to kiss her gently. Anna sighed through the kiss. She thanked God for her perfect boyfriend. Their kiss got more heated. She felt his tongue caressing her lips and let him access her mouth. Her own tongue quickly joined his. She let out a moan. Their tongues were fighting for dominance. Anna felt a jolt running through her lower body. She grabbed the back of his neck and tilted her head to get a better angle. She roamed her free hand over his chest. She felt his muscle under the fabric and knew at that moment how much she wanted to feel him entirely. She was ready to take that next step now that he knew her secret.
"I want you" she breathed and John thought he heard wrongly.
"What ?" He asked.
"Make love to me, John '', she said, hotly, resuming her kisses and John gulped. He couldn't believe it. Was this really happening ?
"Are you sure ?" John said breathlessly between kisses, as Anna's hands traveled on his body.
"Yes, John" she sighed, her hands drifting lower on him.
"We don't have to" he tried to counter but she seemed very adamant to take that next step now.
"I want you John. Don't you feel how much I do ?" She asked, leading his hand down to where she was already wet to show him how much she desired him. "What happened to me doesn't define me nor what I may feel for you"
"Yes but I don't want you to feel obliged to do this-"
"I've never desired so much like I desire you, John. You can't imagine all those times I've spent imagining this moment. I'm sorry I made you wait this long but I'm ready now. I really want this and it's not out of drunkness I swear. I love you John and I want us to be together in that way. Do you believe me ?"
"Of course, my darling" he said nothing more but grabbed her hips to push her close to him. He kissed her senseless and Anna moaned through the kiss. "However, I don't want our first time to be in a random room at a New Year's Party"
"I don't want to wait", she moaned, trying to kiss his neck.
"Then, let's go home" he whispered in her ear with the sexiest voice she had ever heard.
They quickly said goodbye to everyone. Congratulating Mary once again and sharing their best wishes for the New Year. Then they drove home. Anna had difficulty keeping her hands to herself, she so desperately wanted to feel him close to her. She was stroking his thigh. John felt himself getting hotter and harder. He tried to dampen her eagerness but her stormy blue eyes were full of fire.
At last, they were at his flat and Anna practically shoved him through the door. As soon as they entered the flat, he barely had time to switch on the light that she was already on him. Anna roamed her hands over his body, quickly discarding his jacket. She caught his lips with his, kissing him with all the passion her body contained. She trailed her wet kisses on his jaw then his neck. John moaned, his hands stroking her back up and down. He brushed her sides until he met the underside of her breasts. She whimpered when he did. John feared he was going too fast but when he looked at her he saw the expression of pure pleasure on her face. "Let's move to the bedroom" he whispered in her ear and she only kissed him as a way of agreement.
They made their way into his bedroom. Anna was once again on him, unfastening his shirt and soon attacking his belt and trousers as well.
"Anna, love, steady on" he chuckled, grabbing her wrists lightly.
"Sorry" she suddenly felt insecure.
"No, my darling, don't be sorry. I just want to take the time to appreciate how good this moment is" He assured her, punctuating his words with a kiss.
Their kiss retrieved his heat and he trailed down her neck, making Anna moan loudly. He unfastened her dress, caressing her hips as he did. He whispered in her ear how much he found her irresistible and Anna felt even more aroused. She took off his shirt and trousers and he was only in his boxers. She left an appreciative sigh at the sight of his taunted underwear. She moved her hand whispering over his hardened length hidden behind the fabric. He whimpered a bit and she smirked. God, what was this woman doing to him? He quickly turned the tables and undressed her to her underwear.
"You're beautiful" he breathed and Anna looked down. He put his hand under her chin to make her look at him. She smiled and he leaned in to kiss her. As they kissed, he let his hands travel to her bottom which he cupped. She led him to the bed, pushing him on it delicately before straddling him. John could feel her wetness through the fabric of his boxer and he just longed to be able to bury himself in her. He wouldn't rush it. This was too good to rush. He undid her bra letting it fall next to the bed, and cupped her breasts with his hands. Anna tilted her head back when his fingers grazed over her nipples. She bit her lips to contain her cries but John wanted to hear her. "Let me hear you, love. Let me hear how good it is"
"Oh John" she cried. John took it as a sign of enjoyment and moved one of his hands down her body, grazing the hot skin there, until he reached the place she wanted him to touch. He hooked his fingers into her underwear, slowly teasing her bundle of nerves. Anna swore under her breath. In an instant, he flipped them over so he was hovering over her. Their gazes met and he smiled down at her. She smiled back. He knew it was a sign of reassurance, telling him he could continue what he wanted to do. She helped him take off her knickers and she did the same with his boxer.
They were naked in front of each other for the first time and John wanted to enjoy that fact. His hands ran through her perfect body : her skin was smooth, her breasts were supple and her hips enchanting. He bent to press his lips on her breasts making her writhe under him. His lips traveled along her body, biting, kissing, licking and soothing her skin as he went through. While he was discovering her body with his mouth, his fingers stroked her bundle of nerves. She was a moaning mess, crying of pure pleasure. His caresses got faster, when he added a finger to prepare her for his next move, she cried. Feeling that she was nearly at her climax, she caught his hand and he met her eyes, they were full of love and passion.
"John, I'm ready. I need you" she told him lovingly and he nodded in agreement. He retrieved a condom from his bedside table and put it on. He brushed his hardened length against her and although she liked this sort of teasing she needed him desperately. She grabbed his neck to kiss him senseless and he finally joined them. Anna cried out and John waited until she was ready to move. He kissed her shoulder soughtingly until he felt her relax.
"Anna ?" he asked.
"Go ahead," she agreed. He moved, first slowly then quickened his pace. His thrusts were met by the roll of her hips, wanting to feel him even deeper. Cries and moans fused in the room. Anna left a few marks on his back with her nails. This felt so good. She had imagined her first time with John over those two months they had been dating but what she had dreamed of wasn't even close to how he truly felt like. She felt the love and desire she had for her boyfriend being multiplied. After a few delicious minutes, Anna felt her end taking over her. John, feeling it too as if he could read her mind, moved his hand to where they were joined to bring her to her climax which he managed to do. She cried his name as she came and he quickly joined her doing the same as he emptied himself into the condom he had used.
After they had managed to find their breath again, John moved away from Anna, rolling over so they were side by side. They turned to look at each other. Anna's hair was tousled and her cheeks were reddened by their activities. His hair was also tousled and Anna couldn't help but press a kiss to his jawline where she felt his growing beard.
"Hi," she whispered, looking into his greenish eyes.
"Hi," he whispered back. "How are you feeling ?"
"Never felt better. This was better than everything I had ever imagined" she admitted, blushing a little.
"Oh so you imagined it ?"He smirked and she rolled her eyes.
"Of course I have. Thank you for waiting this long" she looked at him with love.
"I would have waited a lifetime, especially considering how worth it, it was", he told her.
"Silly beggar" she chided him gently.
"I love you Anna" he breathed.
"I love you too John" they kissed once more before Anna nestled herself on John's chest as he wrapped his arm around her shoulders, pressing a kiss on her head.