I Love You No Matter What
Set in the middle of the season 2
The characters are not mine are by Martin Gero
Chapter 1
The team was undercover to catch drug and gun traffickers supplying Sandstorm; their leader, Nicolaj Socolov, was known for his ruthlessness, rumor had it that he had tortured and killed one of his clients because he had not been able to pay him immediately.
Kurt and Jane would have to arrest them and Reade, Tasha and Patterson would have been backups in case of need. Yes, there was also Patterson on the field, she had insisted on coming too and Weller had not objected, he knew that he would not win a conversation with the blonde.
Jane and Kurt were inspecting the complex, they had found no one, only a few kilos of amphetamines and some machine guns, right down to the last door.
when they entered the room, it was dark, they thought they were alone, perhaps the traffickers were replenishing their arsenal; suddenly Weller heard a male voice.
"Don't move or she's dead!" the voice warned.
A second later the lights went on and Kurt found himself with four men holding him at gunpoint, but this was the least of her problems: in front of him Socolov was holding a gun aimed at Jane's temple while holding her pinned against of itself.
"Are you cops ?!" he asked him screaming.
When neither of them answered Nicolaj pressed the gun harder against Jane's temple.
"We're with the FBI, we ended up by accident," Weller lied, he had to make sure Jane was safe.
"On your knees!" one of the criminals ordered him, not wanting Jane to get hurt, he followed the order.
"What do we do with them boss?" one of the men asked.
"Do we kill them?" asked another.
"Yes, I don't want witnesses, but first ..." Nicolaj began as his hand crawled over Jane's stomach.
"I want to have some fun with this little bitch" he concluded with a disturbing smile printed on his face, while his hand moved further down to the hem of the tattooed woman's shirt.
Jane's eyes were fixed on the void, when she was at the CIA she joked about her but that man seemed to be serious, her thoughts were interrupted by Kurt's voice.
"Jane, look at me, it'll be fine." He tried to reassure both her and himself.
Socolov's hand crawled under Jane's shirt, the woman gasped as she closed her eyes.
Weller could sense Jane's fear, he could understand it even though her emerald eyes were closed.
"You said you wouldn't hurt her!" Kurt yelled.
"I said I wouldn't kill her, not that I wouldn't touch her," the head grinned in response.
Jane was afraid, she was so afraid, it was not difficult to understand what the man's intentions were, she was afraid for herself, for Weller that she would see everything and she could not do anything otherwise they would have killed them both.
the man's hand went further up her until it reached her breast, Jane jumped when Nicolaj began to squeeze, laugh and make comments.
"Oh, I really think I'll have a lot of fun"
The tattooed woman would have liked to rebel, but the man's grip on her was too strong, even if he could free himself they would not be able to get out of that room alive.
"stop that!" Kurt's anger flared up when he saw the man's filthy hand reach Jane's chest.
Socolov grinned and brought his hand up to the hem of the woman's trousers and began undoing them.
"You still haven't understood that whatever you say or do I won't stop until I get what I want!"
"And what is it you want?" Weller asked, hoping that he would be able to save Jane from this suffering.
"You see, my men and I have been working for days ... and we need some fun ... and your friend is just right for us" retorted the boss.
Her filthy hand slipped under the elastic of Jane's pants, she tried to shake it off but couldn't.
Jane felt her hand go even lower, under her panties, she felt him touch and fill it between her legs, at which she visibly winced and a single tear ran down her cheek.
"NO! JANE! " he heard Weller scream in despair "LEAVE HER ALONE!"
"shut up!" said a man hitting him in the face with his gun.
"Jane, please look at me" Kurt pleaded, when she finally looked into his eyes, he could see her fear in her gaze.
"Jane, I'm here, everything will be fine," he said, even though he didn't believe it either.
Suddenly Nicolaj slammed the tattooed woman to the ground, two of his henchmen went to help him keep Jane immobilized on the ground.
The woman felt her pants slip off, everything was blurred, as if she were underwater, she could barely hear Weller's desperate screams.
Jane screamed in pain when Socolov thrust her member inside her, she wasn't ready, it hurt like hell, the three months of torture by the CIA paled in comparison.
"NO!" Kurt yelled, his eyes full of tears.
The pain increased as he started moving inside her and she couldn't help but scream, she was crying for the pain, for the humiliation, and for the knowledge that Weller would see it all.
"Jane, look at me," he called softly but frantically, she looked at him.
"Focus on me, Jane, I'm here" and so he did, Jane never took her gaze away from Kurt's shining eyes, as the boss moved faster and faster inside her, jolting every time he hit her hard.
Weller wanted to hold her in her arms and keep her safe, comfort her.
They maintained eye contact the entire time, while the five traffickers raped Jane in turn.
When the last man was finished with her, Jane was bleeding and in pain, her face stained with tears as well as Weller's, the woman curled up on her side in a vain attempt to protect herself from another attack.
"So boss, are we going to kill them now?" asked a trafficker.
"I don't know ... he definitely, but she could be our personal whore" replied the boss with a grin.
Kurt saw Jane stiffen and shake more than before, her eyes focused on her bloodstained thighs, but he quickly looked away from her, he couldn't bear to see her like that.
"well!" Nicolaj suddenly exclaimed.
"You're going to die," he said pointing to Weller.
"And you, you'll have a lot of fun with us," he continued, pointing to Jane.
The men prepared to shoot the deputy director, his team chose just that moment to break in with the Alpha team.
"FBI, freeze!"
Kurt rushed to Jane, still curled up on the ground, and hugged her in her arms.
The Alpha team arrested the traffickers and took them in the van bound for federal prison.
"What the hell took you so long ?!" Kurt yelled, red with anger.
The team's eyes focused on Jane, in Weller's arms as she cried, blood dripping from her inner thigh.
"What happened, Kurt?" Patterson asked in horror, ignoring Weller's outburst.
"we need an ambulance, she need to go to the hospital" ordered the deputy director.
"I've already called it, it'll be here shortly," Reade retorted.
kurt noticed that Jane was motionless in her arms, in fact when he looked down to check her he noticed that she was passed out.
"Jane!" she tried.
"JANE!"
"Where is that ambulance!" Weller shouted in concern.
"Kurt is coming quietly," Zapata tried to reassure him.
A minute later the paramedics entered the room carrying a stretcher, on which they put Jane.
"There's space for one person in the ambulance," announced a paramedic.
"I'll go, see you at the hospital," Kurt announced.
When the team arrived at the hospital, Weller was in the waiting room, sitting with his head bowed and his hands covering his face.
"Hey, how is Jane?" Patterson asked.
"I don't know, they took her to a room to visit her," he replied.
"What the hell happened Kurt?" Reade asked.
"Those sons of bitches raped her in turns and made her bleed, scream and I had to watch, but I couldn't do anything or they would kill her," Weller cried.
"OMG! No! Not Jane! " Patterson was shocked.
"She'll be fine, she must be fine, she's Jane," Tasha said, more to reassure herself than the others.
Reade put a hand on Kurt's shoulder trying to comfort his friend.
"Why didn't I do anything ?! I should have stopped them! I should have… "Kurt was interrupted by Natasha.
"They would have killed you both"
"Kurt, Jane needs you to be strong for her," Reade said.
Weller nodded thoughtfully, he must be strong for Jane, his Jane.
The conversation was interrupted by the arrival of a nurse.
"I'm Carol, Miss Doe's nurse, I'm looking for Kurt weller"
"Yes, it's me, is she okay?" he asked worriedly.
"Could you please follow me"
kurt turned to the team and they exchanged a knowing look, he followed the nurse to Jane's room.
"what's happening?" he asked more worried than before.
"Miss Doe was certainly a victim of a sexual assault, we offered her to make a rape kit, she said that before answering she wanted to talk to you, Mr. Weller," explained the nurse.
"Thanks, I'll come get you when she's up to something," Kurt retorted.
The nurse nodded and left.
Her heart skipped a beat when he entered her room, Jane was still wearing her bloody and torn clothes, her eyes red and shining with tears, the bruises on her pretty face and on her body were even more visible in the hospital lights.
"Hey, Jane ... the nurse said you wanted to talk to me" he said softly.
"I'm-I'm sorry, I didn't-didn't want to bother you"
"Jane, don't apologize, you don't bother me, I'm here for whatever you need" he said, he would like to take her hand to comfort her, but then he thought better of it, the last thing he wanted right now was to scare her .
"I - I am – I just wanted to ask you if I need to make the rape kit to frame ... these guys" she said hesitating at the end of the sentence.
"You don't have to do anything if you don't want it"
"I know" she interrupted abruptly.
"What I'm asking you is if making the kit would help send them to jail"
"Well yeah, but ..." Weller was again interrupted by Jane.
"Ok, then ... okay, I'll make the kit"
"Are you sure Jane? You must not…"
"Yes, I'm sure"
"Ok, then I'll go and tell the nurse" he went out to communicate Jane's decision to Carol and immediately went back to her room.
"The nurse is on her way, so now I ..." he began, moving towards the door.
"Please don't go" she pleaded, she hated how weak and pathetic her voice sounded, but she didn't want to be alone during the procedure.
"Okay, I'm staying, I'm not leaving," he assured her, trying to take her hand.
"Can I-can I hold your hand?" he asked her.
Jane nodded, so Kurt slowly slipped his hand into that of the tattooed woman.
"I'm sorry, I don't want to force you to stay here with me," she apologized again.
"Jane, stop apologizing, I'm here for you and I want to be here" he reassured her, Weller sent a message to the team to inform them that he would have some for a while.
"Ok, here we are, we're ready," Carol said as she entered the room.
Kurt felt Jane squeeze his hand tightly at the sight of the cart with the medical tools.
"It's okay Jane, I'm here" he tried to reassure her.
"Does your friend stay or do you want him to go out?" the nurse asked Jane.
"He stays," she said, then she seemed to think about that and looked at Kurt for confirmation and he nodded.
"Ok, then let's get started, are you ready Jane?" Carol asked, Jane answered positively.
"Okay, then you can start by taking off your clothes, so I can pack them, then I'll give you a hospital gown"
Weller helped her out of bed, she took off all her clothes and the nurse packed them, then Kurt helped her put on her gown.
"Now you can sit back and I'll move on to the evidence collection"
Carol collected evidence in her mouth, under her nails, on her skin… she ran the luminol, took her blood, hair, body hair, she documented all her wounds; she had many bruises, on her wrists, ribs, back, legs, inner thigh, a hand-shaped bruise on her neck.
"Now I'll pass the internal exam, you can lie down on the bed and put your feet in the stirrups" Carol instructed.
Kurt helped Jane stretch out on the bed, when he put her feet in the stirrups he felt her shake and squeeze his hand tightly.
"It's okay, I'm here" he reassured her stroking her hair, when she didn't flinch or dodge, he continued.
"Okay, you can stop me at any time, if you need a minute don't hesitate to tell me" Carol had run numerous rape kits and she certainly knew how to deal with victims.
"Jane, I'm going to insert the speculum, you might feel some ache"
Jane gasped and closed her eyes tightly when the nurse inserted the speculum.
"I'll collect some evidence with a stick you might feel a little pressure" the nurse informed, she collected traces of DNA, blood, sperm.
During her procedure Jane squeezed Kurt's hand tightly and cried, he would consequently stroke her hair and brush away the tears that slid down her cheeks.
"I'm done with the collection of the evidence, but you will need stitches, will I have to somministrate you a local anesthesia, if that's okay with you?" Carol asked.
"Ok, okay" Jane replied.
"Then I'll go get the tools, I'll be right back"
Jane looked at Weller in embarrassment and pleading.
"Don't worry, I'm here, I'm not leaving unless you want to" he assured her.
The nurse returned, gave the tattooed woman local anesthesia and put the stitches on her: thirteen internal and seven external.
By the end of the kit Jane was exhausted, drained of all energy.
Carol gave her the pill to prevent sexually transmitted diseases "I'll let you rest, if you need anything do not hesitate to call me, we would like to keep you here until tomorrow to monitor your concussion, then you can go home if there is someone with you for the next few weeks " the nurse explained.
"No problem, I'll stay with her" assured Weller.
After Carol left Jane spoke.
"Kurt, I can't ask you to do such a thing"
"You're not asking me, I'm asking you, I'm not going to leave you alone after what you've been through, you will come to my house or if you feel more comfortable we can stay in your safe house" argued the deputy director.
"Kurt, I really don't…" she began but was interrupted by Weller.
"It's not debatable" he said firmly, but always kindly.
"I think your home is better, it would be more comfortable for you too"
"Then, alright, you'll stay with me"
Kurt's phone got a text, picked it up and checked.
"The team asks me if you are in the mood for visits, if you don't want to, I can tell them that ..."
"No-no, okay, you can let them in" Jane interrupted with a fake smile.
Kurt texted the team and seconds later the two heard a knock on the door.
"Come in" Weller said.
"Hey, Jane" Patterson greeted softly.
"Hey" Tasha said.
"Hi, Jane" Reade said, keeping distance from Jane, he didn't want to scare her, he knew that women who had been sexually assaulted could feel uncomfortable around men.
"Reade, you can come closer, I'm not afraid of you" the tattooed woman said, as if she had read his thoughts.
Edgar moved slightly closer.
"How do you feel, Jane?" Patterson asked genuinely concerned.
Seeing the looks of the team, Jane understood everything.
"You know, right?" she asked softly, ignoring her friend's question about her.
"Jane ..." Tasha said softly.
"It's okay" she interrupted, the room fell into an awkward silence.
"Jane will be released tomorrow and she will stay with me in my apartment, I'll take some time away from work" Weller informed them.
"Kurt, it's not ..." the tattooed woman began to say.
"As I said it's not debatable" he interrupted her.
The team stayed a while longer chatting nonsense and Jane was grateful, she needed to be distracted; they all left after a couple of hours to let Jane rest.
When Kurt returned with coffee and tea in his hands, Jane was confused.
"Why are you still here? You should go home,"she said puzzled.
"As I said, I'm not leaving"
"But you should rest" she retorted.
"You are the one who has to rest" he would not give up.
After they drank their drinks, Kurt noticed that Jane was struggling to keep her eyes open.
"Sleep Jane, I'm here" he whispered.
"I can't, I'm afraid" she retorted.
"There is nothing to be afraid of, you are safe" he tried to reassure her.
"No, I know… I don't want to have nightmares" she confessed.
"You won't have them, you don't necessarily have them" he told her.
"It is said instead, because I have already had them for months, but I have the impression that tonight they will be worse"
"why don't you tell me? What are the nightmares about? " he asked.
"they're about the CIA" she replied.
Kurt's heart sank to the knowledge that it was partly his fault as well.
"I'm so sorry Jane, what can I do to help you?" he asked genuinely concerned.
"I don't know-I don't know" she sobbed, as the tears were starting to fall on her face again.
"Hey, it's okay, I'm here ... can I hold you?" Weller asked, he would do anything to make her feel better.
When Jane nodded, he stretched out partly to her on her bed and wrapped him in her arms while he whispered reassuring words.
"It's okay, shshsh, you're safe"
After a few minutes Jane's breathing slowed and Kurt realized that she was asleep, that night he wouldn't sleep, he would watch over her all the time.
Continues…