SATURDAY AT lunch
"you guys have been here all week, Tori doesn't understand why" says Trina
"are you assuming she doesn't know or did you actually ask her" says Jade
"hey I didn't say she didn't like it, she just wants to know why" says Trina
"Cat had a fight with Sofía about privacy, Cat likes to keep an eye on them, Sofía doesn't like it and spat on Cat on Wednesday, Cat needed time to cool off, she was scared that Tori was getting worse after the freak-out on Wednesday, that's why we had the movie night" says Jade
"Tori is getting worse Jade, the lawyer meets with the judge on Monday to see if he'll let aunt Sabrína overrule the prescription and take her off of it so Tori doesn't get even worse" says Trina
"Cat and Marissa have been talking to Tori, Marissa said Tori's gotten better today" says Jade
"please don't call her Marissa, she doesn't like the name because her classmates would call her Marsissa, as if she was a Martian and not human, she prefers rissa, rissy or missy" says Trina
"fair enough, has Tori actually gotten better or is rissa lying" asks Jade
"Tori definitely has improved, at least back up to where she was on Wednesday morning, rissa wants to be a therapist so she's been looking up therapy methods to keep Tori's brain working as close to normal as possible, it's actually been quite effective, her speech isn't any better but you can tell she's more there, like she's not as distant" says Trina
"rissa seemed to talk gibberish, how could that help" asks Jade
"it's rissa's nerd language, her and Tori used to speak it all the time to one another, Tori used to sing speak actually, it's actually a beautiful language" says Trina
"what's it based on" asks Cat
"Spanish, old school Latin and a bit of French, rissa is that much of a nerd, she borrowed speech patterns and accents from each, which is why it sounds like gibberish, fortunately it activates Tori's brain enough to help combat the medication" says Trina as she gets a call from Valerie and she answers it
"hello Trina, I have some news" says Valerie
"good or bad" asks Trina
"good, the judge fit us in after the LAPD told him how dangerous they were, your aunt can take Tori off the forced medication on Monday" says Valerie
"why not now" asks Cat recognizing Valerie's voice
"because she took the weekend off to spend with Abby as she wasn't expecting a response from the judge till tomorrow, the police have the ward locked down to only nurses Sabrína vetted all weekend while they get testimony from the female patients so she can't be there anyway" says Valerie
"but can't she tell the pharmacy to cancel all future doses of those meds" asks Trina
"technically yes but the judge wants a solid case, he feels that Sabrína cancelling that treatment while not working at the hospital where she works would give the doctors a good defence by saying that she meddles with other doctors treatments while off work" says Valerie
"he's not the same judge that's expected to take the case though is it" asks Jade
"no, though he did advise the panel of judges that will likely oversee the case of the situation, he said the panel agreed it was the right move because they would need Tori's testimony" says Valerie
"I'm glad she'll be off the meds, it was about to get bad, she took a mood dive on Wednesday and if it weren't for rissa she'd absolutely have gotten worse" says Trina
"yes she told me, that girl sure cares about her sister" says Valerie
"you don't think she has feelings for Tori do you, I mean she denied it when Andre asked but their connection seems like more than sisters" asks Cat
"if someone like Marissa has feelings for Tori, being her sister she'd likely hide it, she wouldn't let anyone see it, not even accidentally, she'd be on her best behavior at all times, I know you have suspicions Cat, being Tori's one and only girlfriend but even in this lower state of mind that Tori's in I don't see Tori accepting any sort of sibling romance from either Marissa OR Trina" says Valerie
"what's that mean, those words don't make sense to me" asks Cat
"she's saying that she'd avoid Tori to avoid the feelings, that her having feelings for Tori would be obvious to us" says Trina
"more or less Trina, however having said that I do feel that Marissa should be talked to about this issue one on one, Trina, it is still possible that you could end up with Tori falling for Marissa because of the medication" says Valerie
"I don't understand" says Trina
"that medication has a checkered past, I looked into it, it messes with emotions and hormones, it can create false attraction, especially at that high dose, it also has a habit of creating false memories when abused by doctors" says Valerie
"explain" says Jade
"this girl a few years ago was on the high dose Tori's on, she was on it for six months and all of a sudden she started making accusations that her father was raping her, rape kit after rape kit proved that it wasn't her father but her brother, he was arrested and went to trial, only for the brother to have proof she was coming onto him, he'd recorded it because he found it extremely out of character for his sister, the charges were dropped but six months after stopping the meds the girl killed herself because she couldn't make sense of her memories, it turned out that a doctor would sedate her as they were screening her for cancer while she happened to be on the medication and he made a passing remark about not liking her father, which is when the idea was planted in her head, the medication is dangerous in high doses and should never be taken at that high dose" says Valerie
"Is it just that one story or are there more" asks Cat
"there's hundreds, that's just one that made the news" says Valerie
"how long will it take for Tori to be free of the medications effects once she stops taking them" asks Trina knowing Cat wants to know the most
"your aunt said it can take a few days to a week or two at that high dose and that she recommends Tori stay at home while she recovers, though I have a question, has tori ever asked for sex from Andre while on the medication" says Valerie
"yes the first day Andre was back in the house, he and our dad had a talk about consent, Andre said he didn't feel that 'yes pwease' was enough to make an argument that she was consenting, just before Beck arrived she'd said it twice in response to Andre asking if she felt dad was sincere, which wasn't the answer Andre was looking for, Andre told me she was definitely looking at his lips when she said it" says Trina
"then all isn't lost, her brain should recover quite well" says Valerie
"you can't seriously be saying that with such certainty, that moment scared all of us when Andre told us about it" says Cat
"again Catarina, it's sweet and adorable that you're concerned but in the cases that mental stability became a serious issue most patients were asking for things, sometimes sex, while staring off into space, she was looking at Andre therefore she understood what she was asking and who she should be asking for it from, it also means that she understood the conversation Andre and David were having and saw her chance to ask, it means that the medication had not yet started affecting important brain functions, that would be evidence of what happened on Wednesday, the medication finally took a shot, it's not usually that slow in affecting the brain, also the fact that Marissa's attempts at helping have actually made a difference means the Tori you guys know isn't gone but lost, she might need to relearn some things as well as learning to trust water again" says Valerie
"what about walking, she had trouble getting up this morning, she almost fell" asks Cat
"was it like her muscles kicked in at the last minute or did her legs just seem weak" asks Valerie
"I don't know, I was asleep, she almost fell on me" says Cat
"Andre said it looked like her legs were weak, she hasn't done a lot of walking this week, she stayed home Thursday and Friday because she was scared" says Trina
"it's probably just fatigue and pain, it will subside" says Sabrína
"how can you be sure" asks Trina
"because it's the progression you'd expect for this medication when people who don't need it are told to take it, it first attacks the ability to focus, then it attacks the body's energy reserves then it attacks the muscles, making them weak, next comes breathing issues and risk of heart attack, thankfully she isn't there yet and won't get there" says Sabrína
"when Andre hears this good news he's going to want to stop her from taking her next dose, is that good or bad" says Jade
"technically he can take her off it now but we will have to do a slow detox starting Monday, meaning she will miss school for a few days" says Sabrína
"but she'll be back to normal after that right" asks Cat worried
"it will take some time for her brain to adjust back but chances are high yes but Cat you need to understand something" says Sabrína
"ugh what now, did I miss something else" asks Cat
"not likely, remember how you and Jade offered to invite her into your relationship" says Sabrína
"yeah, she said her dad wouldn't approve, I understand that" says Cat
"David is my brother, our parents were in a polyamorous relationship with two other people, so he's open to the idea, it's what happened to those people that scares him about Tori being open to the idea of loving multiple people and why he told her that in no circumstances could she accept your offer" says Sabrína
"what happened" asks Cat
"they were arrested, they were first generation African Americans, they didn't understand all the American laws, they'd been pulled over for a broken tail light and because they were black they were arrested, three days later they were killed by police, it was extremely traumatic for us, he's a police officer because he wants to make the force better and accountable" says Sabrína
"ok that makes sense but she was so depressed, everyone was worried" says Cat
"and she will remain depressed but it's manageable" says Sabrína
"but it scares me, she means a lot to me, I don't want to lose her" says Cat as Valerie hangs up
"Cat she still loves you, she's depressed because you're not in her bed with her every night, she connects with those she has crushes on well let's just say a deeper level than Beck, Jade or I would" says Trina
"but she helped me be with Jade, why would she do that if she still loves me" asks Cat
"she did that BECAUSE she still loves you, not in spite of it kitty, she understood just how much you love her and how much she loves you, however because of David it wasn't possible so she went searching for someone who loves you as much as she does, though I don't think she realized just how much it would hurt her to let you go" says Jade
"then we must live in a house big enough for all of us so she can spend time with us out of reach of her dad, I'm certain VV can manage the money side of things" says Cat
"she is getting a huge advance but she has to keep most of it for tax season, until then we will have to deal, you're welcome to stay for as long as Tori is ok with it" says Trina
"but won't your dad get mad, he didn't trust me last time, I don't see why he'd trust me this time" says Cat
"as long as Jade's here and you don't go kissing Tori on the lips he can't say no, see Andre doesn't feel secure in the relationship" says Trina
"because of me" asks Cat
"no like how Jade was with Beck, there are tons of boys willing to take his place as you know Cat, many girls too actually and he knows that, it scares him, he's so insecure that he would literally walk away if he felt someone better than him was waiting in the wings for a chance to date Tori" says Trina
"but Tori doesn't like most people, her scope is narrow when it comes to love, there is only one other person who Tori has feelings for and they don't live in California anymore, they moved to England several years ago and Tori's certain that this girl doesn't love her back, there is no convincing her otherwise" says Cat
"you talking about Ariel Hailey Gonzalez" asks Trina
"yes, why" says Cat
"because she's Tori's number one fan in England, also she didn't move away because she didn't have feelings for Tori, quite the opposite actually, her parents got a job in England, she had the option of staying with an aunt but she declined, telling her parents 'I can't stay here and not hate myself for loving Tori, there is no way in hell she loves me back', unfortunately distance hasn't weakened her love for Tori, if anything it's made it stronger" says Trina
"wait you said she's the biggest fan of Tori not VV, does she know" asks Cat
"about Tori being VV oh absolutely, but only because her and Tori had used to joke about being big music stars, after the first song was released there she called me and asked if it was actually Tori, I confirmed that it was but that she didn't want anyone to know, her response was and I'm quoting here 'nobody would believe me anyway, they think I'm absolutely nuts for still absolutely loving a girl I haven't seen in seven years, they'd probably say oh right the girl you love is somehow famous, yeah right, nobody you know is famous', she's been bullied on and off since she moved there with her parents seven years ago" says Trina
"what would happen if she were back here" asks Jade
"she'd likely plot Andre's death, she's insanely talented musically but she's not exactly stable either, one doctor said she could be schizophrenic" says Trina
"I doubt that Trina, the way Tori used to talk about her, I think she might have dissociative identity disorder" says Cat chewing on the last few words as she sits down so as not to fall for the twentieth time this week
"you know Cat that would absolutely make sense, we're you about to fall again, you were chewing on Dissociative identity disorder, when you chew on words you usually fall shortly after" says Trina
"yeah, my feet are a bit sensitive, I have a week left on this medication and I'm literally tingly all over, it's why I had to sleep in rissa's room last night, I needed to take almost everything off to be able to sleep and rissa doesn't mind, she's got her eyes on someone else, Sabrína said it would be like this as my nerves begin working again" says Cat
"yeah rissa had a hard time not staring actually and dad doesn't care about nakedness in our rooms, that includes you, as long as it's not intended for Tori he has no problem with you being less dressed in her room" says Trina
"but she likes Andre's cousin Beatrice" says Jade
"that much is true Jade however she will take a glance at any pretty girl she gets a chance to look at, besides Cat is like THE model that rissa bases other girls off of, it's best to leave as much to her imagination as possible or she will give up on Beatrice" says Trina
"that can't be love then, you don't give up on someone you love because some hot person is near you" says Jade
"unfortunately rissa isn't like that, rissa is the unstable mirror image of Tori, she's more unstable than Tori, where Tori has few she truly loves, rissa easily moves on, she'd take a thruple offer in a heartbeat as she doesn't care about what dad says, that's the main thing that, sets Tori and rissa apart, they're identical twins but being in Sabrína's care has altered many things about rissa but it has also been a safe space for her, just know that she will continue to look at you in a romantic or sexual way unless you or Jade say to stop" says Trina
"will she do anything or is she just going to look because I don't mind her looking" asks Cat
"she might get bold yes, Trace does like rissa however she's not currently single and rissa just learned that so she might be open to that thruple if you extend an offer to her" says Trina
"that offer was for Tori, if rissa is unstable I don't know if I'd feel comfortable with the thought of extending her such an offer" says Cat
"Cat she's on medication, she's more like Tori in every way than you realize, including romantic and sexual stuff, not much was actually changed personality wise as most has to do with her multiple disorders than anything else, Tori also has multiple conditions, most of which are managed by diet and exercise, rissa doesn't have such luxuries as changing her diet to help things settle down, the only true difference between Tori and rissa is that rissa doesn't do well when it comes to speaking in front of reporters or crowds, all but one of her school projects were presented as video, rissa has a waver in her voice due to being nervous, otherwise there isn't much difference between them" says Trina
"I don't understand" says Cat
"she's saying that rissa is available to take Tori's place and will likely act just as Tori would in bed" says Jade
"more or less, rissa might not say much though, at least at first, she has a desire to impress people first before letting herself get comfortable" says Trina
"so there's no chance of Tori accepting the offer, I'll only offer rissa a spot if you're absolutely sure Tori won't, Tori means that much to me" says Cat
"Andre came back after having doubts and he stayed with her even though who she is on this medication freaks him out, I don't see her walking away from him unless he simply can't mentally keep the relationship stable, he's stronger now than he was last week, not even Ariel would have stayed by her side after that, she'd have been scared that she was only adding to Tori's pain and suffering" says Trina
"ok, would you mind telling rissa about the offer, I'm starting to get a little nervous because I thought she didn't see me naked, I thought the blankets covered me, I don't know if I'd be able to get the words out" says Cat
"the blankets did cover most of you, you'd turned over and accidentally exposed your kitten, she'd gotten up intending to cover you back up but she found herself admiring it for ten minutes, she feels guilty about it, this offer will help a little but she'll likely still feel quite guilty for a few weeks" says Trina
"please let her know that she won't be exclusive to Cat if she accepts the offer" says Jade
"she'll think your joking, however she's definitely talked to Tori about you before, when you arrived she was in shock, she said 'Tori said Jade's chest pillows were big but I didn't think they'd be that big', she then drooled, remembering the kinds of things Tori would say" says Trina
"is that my best feature to her" asks Jade
"she doesn't really know you, all she knows is what Tori has told her, oh and you'll have to go to her, she won't initiate anything, it's anxiety inducing for her to initiate anything because she's afraid of rejection, which by the way is why she didn't ask Beatrice when she had the chance last month" says Trina
"I understand, please inform her about the offer" says Jade as Cat nods in agreement
With Trina in Marissa's room
"hey you still depressed about losing Trace" asks Trina
"I didn't just lose her in a love sense Trina, her boyfriend made her stop being my friend because I was 'too weird', which is odd because Trace is the weird one but that's why I loved her" says Marissa
"Jade and Cat have an offer for you, they'll accept you into their relationship with open arms, that is if you want to date them" says Trina
"but they won't like the real me, aunt Sabrína can't let me get my meds from the hospital during the investigation and I was only given three weeks worth of my meds, Cat and Jade will hate me as everyone at school has learned to do, I'd love to accept the offer of love they've extended to me but I can't let them know just how broken I am, what those doctors did….. It was evil I can't trust any doctor but Aunt Sabi, I will be quickly be out of meds and Cat is fragile enough, I can't risk hurting her or making Jade angry, there is only one place safe for me when I run out of meds and it comes with a straight jacket" says Marissa
"rissa aunt Sabi talked to Tori's doctor, he agreed to take you on, you won't run out of meds" says Trina
"but how can I trust him not to meddle with the doses" asks Marissa
"aunt Sabi made it very clear that everything is to remain as prescribed as it makes you stable and adjusting anything could mess with your stability so unless he has a very good reason to adjust your meds he's not to touch the doses" says Trina
"ok but does Tori trust him" asks Marissa
"she's like you, she doesn't trust many doctors, especially not after recent events, he's had to regain trust but he is a good doctor and a good person rissa, he's never intentionally harmed Tori medication wise, the one time he did, it was because Tori was uncomfortable with discussing period stuff, it's been all over the place, he gave her pain killers that were too strong and made things worse, only then did he realize the issue and remedy it, since then he's employed the California medical school to keep a female trainee doctor or nurse on site at all times for his patients that don't feel comfortable talking to him about some things, it's definitely helped me discuss a few things" says Trina
"ok then I guess I can accept their offer" says Marissa
"there's something else on your mind isn't there" asks Trina
"Trace's boyfriend, he has a criminal record" says Marissa
"small things or a big thing" asks Trina
"several big things, he's raped his girlfriends before but he's also killed two of them, he's not quite eighteen so officially he can't be charged as an adult dad says, which I think is stupid, if he's old enough to think raping girlfriends is ok and killed two of them then he should be old enough to be charged as an adult, I know I would have been if I'd killed Tori after she hit me, some of the judges here in LA love prosecuting child killers" says Marissa
"ok I'll talk to her tomorrow, take a nap, I'll send Cat and Jade in in about an hour" says Trina
"but you're going to make her single, then I can't accept Jade and Cat's offer" says Marissa
"chances are that she'll be too traumatized for a relationship any time soon rissa, probably too scared to ask you out, what matters right now is that you have people who can match your romantic intensity, we can deal with what comes next when it comes" says Trina
"ok, as long as I can walk away if Trace wants to try dating me, she's important to me Trina" says Marissa
"I'll let them know" says Trina as she hugs Marissa
With Trina, Cat and Jade
"what'd she say" asks Cat
"she eventually agreed, her first concern was about seeing the 'real' her without meds, the hospital only gave her three weeks worth and she didn't have a doctor outside the hospital to prescribe her meds, thankfully Tori's doctor took rissa on last night, her other issue is that she wants to be able to walk away from you guys if Trace becomes available, unfortunately for her she told me Trace's boyfriend has a criminal record, he's raped several of his ex girlfriends and killed two of them, the law isn't willing to go after him until he's eighteen, I'm talking to Andre tonight about getting Trace out of reach of her boyfriend for the time being for safety reasons, if he's already abused her she's not safe and will be too traumatized to trust rissa enough, it could be a year or more depending on how abusive he's been" says Trina
"we're ok with that condition, it would be an open relationship anyway so she could still actively date Trace and be with us if she wanted" says Jade as Cat nods in agreement
"that's probably for the best to be honest, rissa can be intense, with self play anyway, aunt Sabi said the moment you walked into the house you could hear her moan and that you could tell it wasn't the first time that day, I'm not sure Trace could handle such intensity, though you two might have a chance" says Trina
"is Tori like that" asks Cat
"if she is she doesn't let anyone know, all I know is she takes too long in the shower on weekends, also that was kind of rude of you to ask" says Trina
"hey you answered" says Cat
"and you asked, honestly though if she wanted you to know she'd have said something to you Cat, you're the only one that she would tell that kind of stuff to, maybe she has in one way or another, she can be cryptic sometimes, especially with that kind of information" says Trina
"so when do we get to go in and snuggle with rissa" asks Cat
"in forty-five minutes, she needed a nap, her anxiety is through the roof" says Trina
"I've heard your aunt say that rissa can see the future" says Cat
"yes she can but only in her dreams and it has never involved people close to her or their immediate friends or family, she fact checks everything after one of those dreams, it's likely how she knows Trace's boyfriend has a criminal record, she'd have zoned in on him not Trace, she doesn't get these dreams all that often though, before you ask no Tori doesn't get these dreams, she was given the gift of the songbird" says Trina
"just to be clear she didn't agree just because we asked did she" asks Jade
"like I said earlier, rissa looks at all pretty girls given half a chance, it doesn't take much to convince her to ask one girl out, to essentially be asked out by two, well that plays right into her 'it'll never happen in my lifetime' realm of fantasies, just to be clear when I say it's in her 'it'll never happen in my lifetime' realm of fantasies I mean she believes that it would never be allowed to happen to her, she feels that she's not allowed to love one person let alone two, she feels that she's only allowed to have feelings for someone because dad's a cop, she believes that without dad she'd be locked up in a mental health care facility in Antarctica" says Trina
"what's her obsession with Antarctica, I've heard her say it a lot in the past week" asks Jade
"as already established she wants to be a therapist, a therapist that can travel anywhere to help anyone, that includes in the Arctic and Antarctic, she also has a fascination with Penguins and the extreme cold" says Trina
"oooh I have an idea" says Cat