-The Day of the Return- Day 3-

-Hiccups POV-

The last thing I can remember is everything going black and screaming voices coming from the outside.

I had no idea what was going on around me, it sounded like someone was trying to save me.

But thats impossible, everyone hates me, everyone would be extremely happy if I were dead, they would probably throw the biggest celebration of the year if i were deceased.

I have absolutely no idea how long I've been unconscious, all I can see is total darkness. I hear voices coming from the outside i recognize most of them but not all of them.

I wonder if I'm still alive. Oh Gods No. I don't want to remain alive I really want to die. Please tell me I'm dead and this is secretly Valhalla.

If I'm still alive then that means that someone rescued me. What i don't understand is why. Why in the name of Thor would someone even consider caring about Hiccup the Useless.

I really hope I'm dead, if I wake up I really want to be in Valhalla. All i can do is wait and see what happens.

If I really am dead I can only imagine how people must be celebrating in Berk. MY fathers parenting troubles are over. Gobber finally got rip of his useless apprentice.

The village finally got rip of the useless runt that always messed up every time I had the chance to.

Snotlout and the rest of the 5 nightmares got rip of the useless punching bag.

Seriously my death isn't really a big tragedy. When i wake up i rally want to see mom.

Everything in my life was going down never really up.

So it only make sense that I did this. The person that i will miss the most is probably MY father, Gbber and Astrid.

I know Astrid was one of the people that made me do this but i can't help but love her, she never was part of the beatings. EVER.

Well except that time when I was nine and I accidentally broke her axe. Well it was actually Snotlout. But I don't blame her for taking it all on me, I deserved it for being useless and for being a runt.

Wait now I hear something coming from outside, I think someone is talking to me, I the the voice is coming from a female.

Her voice sounds really familiar, I've heard it before.

She sounds like she's whispering, she's speaking softly to me. I can't understand a single word she's saying.

She sounds like a dying whale.

Now I hear her talking louder, but I still can't understand, ok I'm pretty sure she's yelling. If this is Valhalla, well, this isn't what I was expecting at all.

Now her voice if fading. I think shes gone. Who was she?.

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3 minutes earlier

Astrids POV

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I walked in his room, it looked the same s we left it, nothing looked out of place or disturbed.

I see him laying in his bed. He looked paler then usual. I'm finally alone with him.

"I read your journal...I know what you did after I accused you of breaking my axe, and I know it wasn't your fault, it was Snotlouts..." I paused wondering if he could understand what I'm saying.

"Hiccup...I've always thought that you just ignored the pain we caused you, I've always thought you were strong enough to face it on your own...I was Dead wrong...the pain we were causing you was destroying your life...I-I-I didn't know what to think the moment I saw you put that rope a-around your throat...I saw Y-you jump from t-that log and almost choke yourself to d-d-death."

I didn't realize that tears were forming on my eyes. I Attempted to wipe them away but it didn't work, they just kept building up and adding more and more...eventually I just let them pour out of my eyes freely...even warriors cry sometimes...NOT.

"Hiccup...I-I-I L-Love you"

I TOLD HIM.. I finally told him...These feeling have been kept inside for way to long.

"I never should have accused you of breaking my axe...you were obviously not the culprit...But...you were the victim. I punished you for something that you didn't do...I deserve MUCH worse then just a beating..."

Tears were pouring out of my eyes and sliding across my cheeks.

"When you wake up...PLEASE Forgive me...I don't deserve your forgiveness, and I'm not gonna blame you if you don't...but please...I Need you Hiccup, Eveyone does..."

I need to leave, the chief only gave me a few minutes, our time was limited, but I will come back and the next time I do or anyone does, I hope that he's awake.

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Presant time-Hiccups POV

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What was all that about. The female voice I heard sounded as if she were crying and she spoke to me. In Valhalla it is impossible to feel sadness...Witch means I must be in...OH GODS NO.

IM STILL ALIVE!...How is it even possible, I hanged myself and I'm pretty sure I blacked out after that.

HOLY THOR!... You know what this means...EXPLANING...I've got a lot of EXPLANING to do to everyone.

GRATE...Just grate.

Unless...

Maybe I could say that I don't remember anything, I could say that all my memory was erased...Yes, that could work perfectly, that way j won't have EXPLANING to do and I could just go back to normal...

But I don't know it's to risky...maybe I should try it first then if they explain to me what I tried to do I would say 'oh ok, I remember now' .

I really don't want to lie to everyone but if I try to do this and if it succeeds, it could save me a lot of awkward talks...I'll think about it... When the moment comes I'll decide.

Then something popped into my head.

MY CUTS. THE SCARS IN MY ARMS.

Oh my Thor. What if anyone saw them. I really hope not.

And Tbh considering Viking hygiene, they probably haven't even changed my clothes soooo... I have hope...

Now just one more problem left. How do I wake up?

I don't even know how long I've been in s coma. Maybe a couple of days...

I guess I'll just have to wait and see what happens

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GUYS, IM SO SORRY FOR NOT UPDATING IN 4 DAYS.

I PROMISE YOU GUYS I WILL NOT ABANDON THIS STORY!

If I'm late for a story, it's either beacause I'm SUPER busy orrrr beacause I'm

DEAD!

Anyway please RandR

And also a few spoilers: HICCUP WAKES UP IN THE NEXT CHAPTER WEEEEEE!

Love you all❤️❤️