-Hiccups POV-

After I asked my question, Both Gobber and My father went pale.

I couldn't tell what was on there minds, I just asked the most awkward and possibly life changing question EVER.

"Uh...Well you see...Uh...Hiccup... Umm...I-I...uhh" My father was trying to awnser my question but he just couldn't.

I saw the expression in his face.

It showed pain and regret. It showed pity and confusion. It showed love and kindness. I can only imagine what is going through his mind.

That's kind of weird, I thought everyone, including my dad, would be very upset is I wasn't dead.

There's something weird going on.

"Hiccup, son, maybe it's best if Your question is answered by the people who saved your life." My father said.

So it was more than just 1 person...It was a group of people... I wonder who? When I went to Raven point I made sure I wasn't followed...

"Alright" I said in in a soft voice.

If only I could go inside my fathers mind...I want to see what he thinks about this.

-Stoicks POV-

I have no idea what to think...My own flesh and blood asked me why is he still alive.

This is the worst day of my entire life...Hiccup is the single most important thing in my world, and I'm ashamed for not realizing it sooner.

"Well, I'll be heading out, I'll go tell the village that you're finally awake. They'll be thrilled with the news" Gobber said as he go up and exited the room.

Alone with my Son..This is Immensely awkward. I've never really been this close to him.

"Hiccup...why did you do it...why did you attempt to take your own life. You scared me to Death" I said to him.

He lowered his head. I could see that he docent want to talk about it. He docent want to answer my question but I need to know.

"Hiccup Please forgive me for everything I've done to you, I know I caused you a lot of pain. I know That this situation was partly my fault, And I know that I'm one of the people that pushed you into doing this. I recognize my mistake. And I'm willing to change...Change everything for you" I said in a soft worried voice.

Hiccup looked kind of surprised to receive my answer... I guess he's not use receiving this much sympathy or affection by anyone.

If only I could go inside his mind.

-Hiccups POV-

Wow. Just Wow.

That was both unexpected and random.

For a second there I actually belived that what he said was true. Even if my father does mean it, it doesn't change the fact that I had tried to take my own life. Even if my life would get 100 times better it doesn't erase the fact that my depression got the best of me. I don't know if what he said was true, but I do know a couple of things that aren't.

1. My life will not get better. I will get worst. MUCH worst.

2. This little incident will just double my teasing and name-calling. For example

("Hey look there goes Hiccup the Useless: Snotlout.

"Yeah just look at him he's such a disappointment":Tuffnut.

"Haha, you said it bro. The boy that couldn't kill anything, not even himself":Ruffnut

"Please, that runt will never survive, if only he could have just died:Astrid.

"I'll be surprised if he even makes it pass 20: Fishlegs.)

And last but not least

3. My father now has more than enough to reasons to take Snotlout as his heir.

For a moment there was a silence in the room.

As my thoughts increased, I felt a raging anger towards them, Towards everyone.

My chest got tighter and tighter. They don't care. They feel guilty. They don't care. They feel responsible. They don't care. They feel bad.

I had mixed feeling about everything. My head started spinning and looking into my memories the only thing I saw was pain and regret.

This anger it's getting more and more intense. I feel walls closing in on me. I feel like my whole world just took a dead end.

And it was all there fault.

"Go" I said a bit to loud.

My father just looked at me with concern in his eyes.

"W-what do you mean" he said. I could tell by his voice that he was a bit worried.

Damn right he should be.

"Get out, I want to be alone" I said a bit louder.

"No Hiccup, I will not leave your side"

"Just get out, Gods Dammit, I want to be alone, just go away and leave me in peace!" I was in full volume now.

My father took a step back he was in shock.

We looked at each other...

My father just sigh and said...

"If it's what you wish then I'll leave you alone, for now" he said as he left the room.

My brain snapped back to reality... I realized what I just said to my father.

Oh Thor.

I didn't know what came over me. All I felt was pure anger against...Everyone.

My mind just stopped working and all I felt, all I could think of was how incredibly mad I am.

I laid back in my bed. Just thinking of what happened.

How could I have let this strange feeling take me over. I don't know what that was and I don't know if that's a secret hidden side of my personality, but that person that just yelled at my father was not the real me.

My eyes started getting heavier and my body started shutting down.

And without a second to spear I drifted away into a deep sleep.

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Again sorry for not updating In a while. I've been really busy with school and the whole Job thing.

If you like what you saw, that is Hiccups secret Dark side. That side has been hidden inside him for a very long time.

My fans you have asked for a Hiccup that will not easily forgive... And by Thor's mighty hammer I gave you one.

Trust me what you just saw is only the beginning...

(evil laugher) BWHAH-HA-HA-HA...Wow I'm so evil, sometimes I scare myself.

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