"Well it is going great as we practiced, isn't it, wasn't it?"

"Hmm, it is" I answered as we changed our rhythm to match the ever changing songs playing in the background.

As we reached the climax of our performance I noticed his grip had become somewhat more firm nor tight but it was enough to tell the difference.

"Well in that case, maybe …. nevermind" he said hesitantly.

Not going to feign as it got me curious but if I have learned something in my 3 years it was to never get my hopes up when Hayato was in question.

But still it could be last time we share a moment like this. I don't think we will never meet but but… it could be one last moment in which we could have had formed a bridge or relation.

As close we are I just don't have enough confidence about if we would be able to share moments like this. As optimistic and social I am I knew these next years will definitely make us farther from each other. Not because of our fault.

It was reality, everyone here has their own aspirations, to achieve something, to become something. And it was DIFFERENT for almost everyone.

We have grown, and we have to grow more. And at some moment we had to make compromises, because we can only walk the same path for a time being until we have to choose our own.

In younger days, I too had many aspirations, mind you too many at that, to become doctor, teacher, astronaut and many other filmsy dreams. That excitement, that intensity, that curiousness looks so charming right now. Not to say I am depressed but along the way you can say I crashed many times. In some cases very hard.

At some point in time, I was playing at perfecturual level, at another point I was giving the entrance test to Soubu.

It was tuberculous phase in my life, where everything was just working out by itself and I just had to do what I was doing.

I had my first crush, new friends, new experiences. It was …. steady and peaceful. Just same old routine, mt smaller goals to impress someone, to have fun with my friends.

But Alas! It all came down. It came down hard during my second year. When everyone was choosing their goals at the end. I sat there, having no idea what to do. For some reason I decided to still remain in that bubble of myself. I decided to follow someone to think I could still cling to this steadiness. So I chose the one whom I followed for two years, but he was just as hesitant as he was right now.

I did everything, I begged to service club and I got what I wanted but, some reason I stalled more time. At the end during 2nd proms' preparations, at a moment it clicked, it clicked to me everyone here was growing, everyone. They were changing. They were trying, contemplating, asking advises. But most importantly they had found their path.

And then it crashed to me, how naive I was to take this all time for granted? Still to take a step at right direction I chose the Sciences as I had better chances in that. When the first semester of third year began, I had somewhat cooled down, I had come to terms that past cannot change.

I mean yeah, I wasted that time I had no idea but what to do now? But It was still better late than never.

If had to grow I have to start from somewhere, no?

Yeah, I had to work harder than anyone as I am late at starting line but at least I still have a chance.

So yeah I vigorously studied, contemplated, struggled but I had a sense of direction a vague one, still is vague nonetheless it had narrowed down so I could chose a college.

My fear of separating were also somewhat came true. But it was coming, we all knew. It wasn't like we never met or ignored each other, but our paths have diverged. We still have our fun, and will have it in future. Albeit at some point it will decrease significantly.

As hesitant I am right now, as hesitant is the man at my right is. Or As hesitant we all student are of what to come after this night. We have to grow.

And that's why I think we may…no we should at least enjoy this night.

This night where most of us will ultimately diverge. So have this night as a symbol that we were here at some point in our time. We were together at this night.

And maybe we may have the chance to meet once again to reminisce all of it.

Reminisce our YOUTH

A/n

I told you will not leave until I finish what I started. It is just I am busy with my own studies, matters and many other things.

At the end i will just stay be healthy.

As for last chapter which I was going to be a oneshot, I will try to post it in June and July if possible.