A/N: Hello all! I want to say thank you for the wonder comments you guys left! Never did I think this would go anywhere. Never did I think I would have people read and like my story! You guys are awesome! I hope everyone had a wonderful Easter yesterday. So with that being said...on with the show:
Chapter 5
Ana pov:
As I turn away and run his office, I can hear Christian yell something at me, but not sure what it is, not wanting to listen to anything he has to say. I make it to the desk to grab my things and get the hell out of there as fast as I can I look up and see Andrea giving me a sad and worried look.
" Ana? What happened? Are you ok?"
" I'm sorry Andrea I..I just can't be here, I'm sorry, but I have to go."
" It's ok Ana, just go. I will take care of everything. But if need me, for anything even just to talk, I am here. You know that right?"
I nod my head yes, and she pulls me into a tight hug. I go to get the rest of my things and look over to see an evil smile spread across Olivia's face. I know she has something to do with all this, but not sure how. I can't think about any of that right now I just have to get out of here and as far away as I can. I make it to the lobby and start running towards the exit. I look over and see Miss Blonde give me a sly look...What is up with all these fucking blonde? I am so glad Andrea is not like them.
I make it to my car open the door and get in. The first thing I do is call Kate. I am hoping she is still at home and has not left for day with Elliot yet. On the 3rd ring it goes to her voice mail.
" This is Kate. If I did not pick up then I am either in the middle of a story, I don't like you and don't want to talk to you, or I am just busy, So leave a message and I will get back to you. Thanks." Really Kate? You need to change you voice mail already.
" Kate it's me." I try to sound like I'm not crying, but it dose not work." Please call me back when you get this. I really need you right now. Oh and please don't tell El about this message either, because he will just call Christian and it will only make things worse. Please just call me when you can. I love you."
I hang up and start to head out of the garage. Now I just need to think where I can go. I can't go home because that is he first place he will go. I can't go to my dad's. Not like this. He will know something is up,then he will call Carrick to find out what is going on, then he will call Christian and...I just don't need this right now. I pull out into traffic, still thinking of where to go, then it hits me! Heaven! I turn off my phone so Mr. Stalker can't trace and find me. Although knowing him he will figure out where I am eventually, but for now I can be alone.
As I get onto the highway heading towards Belview to the only place I feel safe and where only Christian and myself know about. I think back how I found this place to begin with. I was about 8 years old and my mom and Ray were fighting again. But this time, Ray found out that my mom was cheating on him. I sat on my bed with my hands over my ears trying to drown out the sounds of them yelling, screaming, and my mom crying. Seeing that is how she always got away with things, is when she would brake down and cry and Ray would stop and feel bad. He hates to see his girls cry as he once said to me.
I sit here and try to think about something else. I can't the yelling is to much. I go to my window, open it and climb down the tree. I run, I run as fast as I can, but I don't go over the the Grey's like I normally do. I just can't this time. So I keep running. I run till I hit the shoreline. I run down the beach till I see this little mini forest. I run inside and keep going till I come to this meadow type place. I sit down against a tree bring my knees up to my chest and begin to cry. I never heard Christian calling out for me. I didn't know he was there till his hand reached out and touched my hands. I looked up and he sat back opened up his arms, and I just threw myself into him. He never asked me what happened, as he knew it was something to do with my mother. He just rocked me back and forth, rubbed his hands up and down my back. Kiss the top of my head now and then. Neither of us saying anything. We just sat there and he let me cry.
I am pulled out of my thoughts when I see the lake come into view. The ride here was not very long, seeing how there was not much traffic this time of day. I park my car, get out and start walking the direction of my Heaven. As I walking I scan the area around me to make sure I was not followed. I just don't want to deal with Sawyer right now. I know this has nothing to do with him, but he dose work for Christian, and he would call him and tell him where I am at, and I am not ready to face that lying bastard!
I'm walking with my arms wrapped around myself. Thinking how could he lie to me? He told me he was done with that life over 2 years ago. He told me everything. He told that was not what he wanted or needed anymore. Was it all a lie? Was he really done with it? Did he need it again? I am never going to be what he needs or wants. I make it into the forest, and find my spot. I sit down at the tree, bring my knees up to my chest, lay my head on my hands and begin to cry once again. I remember when he told me. How could I not see it back then? How could I not see it this time? Oh god, if I was such a great friend I would have. What dose that say about me? Maybe he don't need me in his life anymore. At that thought I cry even harder. I think I cry harder this time, then when he told me his secret 2 years ago.
Flashback:
I step off the elevator into Christian's penthouse. It's Saturday and I will be here for a week because we have not seen each other for a bit and he wants to make it up to me. I see Jason smiling and standing there waiting for me like always.
" Jason!" I walk up and give him a big hug. He has become like an uncle to me these past few years. I know Christian dose not like his staff to get close to his family, but he knows that won't fly with me.
" Ana, how have you been? Have't seen you in a while. How is school going?"
" I know, that is because your boss is always working and no long has time for me." I laugh as I say this. " School is good. College is a lot like High School. Only bigger. How are you? How is Gail?"
" I'm good, just always busy, but can't complain to much. Gail is good. She was asking about you the other day. She's in the kitchen making lunch."
" Well I better go say hi to her first before I go off to find Christian. I take it he is in his study working like always?"
" Yeah you better or it will be both our asses again. Oh and fair warning Ana, she is here."
Great...my day went from great to worst. I smile at Jason thanking him and head off to the kitchen, while Jason went back into this office. I walk into the great room and head to the kitchen.
" Gail!" I say as I walk up to her.
"Ana!" Gail opens up her arms and pulls me into a motherly hug. I close my eyes and think this is what I have been missing all these years. Gail has become a mother to me. I have Grace, and have since I was a baby, and she is the best. But there is just something about Gail that makes me feel what a daughter should feel when hugging her mom.
" Ohhh let me look at you. I have missed you Ana. Are you eating? You are looking kinda thin." I laugh and roll my eyes at her.
" I have missed you too Gail, Yes I am eating, it's just that I burn it to fast for it to stay." We are both laugh by now.
" Well how about I fix you up some lunch as well. I am making Mr. Grey a chicken caesar salad."
" Sounds great Gail. I will just go and let Christian know I am here and I will come back and help you. And before you say anything, yes I know she is here."
With that I walk off towards Christian's study when I stop outside the door when I hear them talking.
Bitch: Christian, darling it's been a month since you got rid of Amy, let me find you someone new to help you. You are looking tense and I know you are in need of a good round in your playroom.
Christian: Elena I have already told you, I don't want or need a new sub. I done with all that. It dose not give me pleasure like it use to. I am just bored with it.
Bitch: Really Christian? You don't know what you're saying. It's been awhile and you are not thinking straight. I can have someone for you within the hour if you wish.
Christian: NO! Elena just stop. I told you and I am not telling you again. I am done with that. Why can't you just expect it and drop it already?
Bitch: Because I know you. I know how much you love the feel of taking charge. I know how hard you can make a girl cum. I know how you like to take her from behind. How rough you like it. I also know hard you cum, how you can last hours upon hours. She purrs that last part.
Christian: Elena, I am done. There is no changing my mind now enough is enough!
Bitch: Christian, think about this. You need a sub who has little to no hard limits. I will even offer myself to you again, till we can find you the right sub.
Again? Has Christian and Elena fucked? When? How long? She is old enough to be his mother. The thought sends chills up my spine. I get closer to the door to listen better as Christian lowers his voice.
Christian: I will never want another sub Elena. As for your offer, our time ended 3 years ago. You taught me what I like, how to take control, how to fuck and fuck hard, but that is not what I want anymore. I'm sorry. Please expect this.
Bitch: Darling, like I said you are not thinking straight. Let me call one of my better subs. I can have her here within the hour and you will feel so much better, I promise you.
Christian: God damn it Elena! I said no! Besides, Ana is coming over and she will be here soon.
Bitch: Really? I thought you would have given up that mousie little bookworm a while ago. Christian, forget about her. She will just hold you back. She's a child, and a child has no place in your life. You need to wake up and realize that.
Christian: She is not a child Elena. She happens to be my best friend. She knows me better than knows me better than I know myself.
Bitch: REALLY? She knows you better? I know you better! I know you in every way! Can she say the same? Like i said I know how hard you can cum, I know what turns you on, I know how rough you like it! It's me who knows you better than anyone and you best do to remember that!
I get closer to the door and I end up falling against it. I play it off and walk in. " Hey Chris, Oh, I'm sorry. I did't know you had company over. I just wanted to tell you that I was here and lunch is just about done.
" Ana." He smiles when he says my name. Oh how I love the sound of my name from his mouth. His very beautiful mouth. "Elena was just leaving, weren't you Elena?"
" Yes, I just stopped by to say hello on my way to the salons. You must come in sometime Anastasia. I can help you with your look." The way she said that makes my skin crawl.
" No thank you Mrs. Lincoln, I like my look. I don't dare try and look younger than I am. I am not scared of growing old."
I hear Christian snicker and try to cover it up as a cough, but it dose not work. Elena narrows her eyes at me and lets out a huff.
" Christian, I will see you Monday to continue our talk."
" I won't be there Elena, as I am taking a week off to spend time with Ana, and I believe we have nothing more to talk about."
As the day passes, I keep thinking about what I heard and how I am going to bring it up to Christian without him getting mad at me for eaves dropping. It's going on 8:00 pm and we are in the TV room watching Night Mare on Elem Street. Christian knows that we have to have a horror movie night or things will not be pretty. I look over at him and it's not or never.
" Christian."
"Yes."
" Um I have to tell you something, but you have to promise not to get mad at me ok."
" What Ana?"
" Promise me first Christian."
" Ok Ana, I promise."
" I kinda over heard you talking with Mrs. Lincoln before she left." I keep my head down, I don't dare look at him right now, I don't want to see how make he is with me. Next thing I know I feel his fingers under my chin to lift my head up so I am looking into his eyes.
" Oh Ana, how much of it did you hear?"
" Umm not much I don't think. Did you really have sex with her Christian?"
" It's complicated Ana." He lets out a sigh and drops his gaze from me.
" Christian, please just tell me. I won't judge you. You know me. Am I that type of person?"
" No Ana, your not." He sits on the edge of the couch and puts his head in his hands and begins to talk.
" It started when I was 15. Remember how I got kicked out of school again for fighting?"
" Yes. I thought your parents were going to ship you off to Military school."
He chuckles at that thought as well. " Yes so do I. Well mom was talking to Elena about what happened, and she told mom, that they needed some work done around the yard and that for punishment, that I should do it."
Christian gets up and starts to pace the room and run his hand through his hair. " One day, I was over there, I just got done moving some heavy stuff and was tired. Elena came out in a rob, with a tray of lemonade and I said something smart, like it's about time, and she slapped my across the face, then she kissed me. Then slapped me again. I didn't know what was going on. I have never been slapped or kissed before. She told me she could help me with my problem. I asked her what problem and that is when she started rubbing me through my pants."
I gasped, not know what to say, as I knew he was not finished with his story. He sat back down and told me everything. I could feel the tears run down my face, as he told me about being whipped, and gagged, tired up. Not letting to get to cum. I thought back to that summer and how much he changed.
" Is that why I hardly ever got to see you? Because you were with her getting to fuck and old cow?"
" Ana, it's not like that, please, she did help me. I stopped fighting, my grades got better, I stopped the drinking as well. Don't you remember?"
" All I remember was you were never around anymore. It felt like I lost my best friend that summer."
" I'm sorry Ana, I never meant to make you feel like that. You were were and still are my best friend. Please believe me, on that."
" I do. Are you still into all that?"
" No, Ana I'm not. And never will be again, It's not for me anymore. I want something more, just not sure yet."
End flashback:
My crying has slowed down, and I can hear someone calling my name. There is only one person who would be calling out to me and that's Christian. I look up just as he's coming into the meadow. He let's out a big sigh of relief.
" Ana, oh thank god." He takes out his cell phone and a number. He must be calling Taylor. " I found her she's here. You can call everyone and tell them she was found. Tell Sawyer to take Ana's car back as she will be riding with me. I am not sure how long we will be,but I will let you know." Without a good-bye he hangs out.
Christian moves slowly over to where i am at and sits down in front of me. He reaches his hand out for mine, but I pull back I don't want him touching me. I see the hurt in his eyes when I do this, and that makes my heart break. I hate seeing him in pain, but right now, I don't care. He hurt me so bad. He lied to me, and worst of it all, is I walked in on it.
" Ana, please. Let me explain. It was not what it looked like."
" Not what it looked liked? Are you fucking kidding right now Christian? It looked like you were about to test out your new submissive! So don't tell me it was not what it looked liked!"
" Ana, please. Just listen to me ok. Elena brought her on her own. I did not ask her to do that. You know I am not into that lifestyle anymore. I was done with that 2 years ago. I haven't done anything since. Please Ana, believe me."
I look into his gray eyes. His very beautiful gray pleading eyes. I want to believe him, but I don't know if I can. I shake my head and wipe a tear that has falling down my check. I take a deep breath in and let it out before i start speaking again.
" Christian, I want to believe you, but I know her, she is always pushing you and pushing you till you give in. I have seen it many times. Then to walk in and see what I saw. I..I just can't. I'm sorry."
With that I get up and try to leave, but Christian grabs onto my arm turns me around pulls me close to him wipes a tear from my check, puts a piece of hair behind my ear, brings my body closer to his, leans his head down where his lips are just inches from mine.
" Ana." He whispers...
A/N: HAHAHAHA evil laugh! this is just for you Dollface AKA Anonbishy! Miss Queen of cliffhangers...get your gloves ready girl! So I wanted you to know that with the help of my friend here on a daily basis, she thought I should write this into 3 books and I thought that was a great idea! So here is how it will lay out...Book 1: Tells the story of how Ana gets to where she gets's because of Jack. Sorry can't give that way...or you will know what happens without reading it...LOL..Book 2: Is the story of how Christian will fight for Ana and her forgiveness and what all it will take for them to get their HEA. Book 3: Is the story of their lives together, and them raising their kids...Yes this will be a HEA, they just have to work hard to get it...
So I hope you all will stick around and continue reading these stories of mine. There is will more drama to come, even in books 2 and 3 there will be. but also there will be a lot love. Also I will let you all know when you will need to bring out he box of tissues! Untill next time!
Much Love,
Allie