A/N: Thank you all for the comments. I hope you would stand behind Ana. She did what she thought was best not just for herself, but for Christian as well. She loves him, and for him to finally wake up and see what the Bitchtroll is doing, she needed to walk away. She told him she will always be his best friend but for now, she just can't be around him alone. So now here is Christian's take on it. I hope you all like this. So with that being said...On with the show:
Christian POV:
She left...Ana left. Wait...she told me she loves me! Oh Fuck! What have I done? I grab my hair and start pacing the room. I can't believe what just happened. Things were finally starting to look good for us, we were laughing and joking then Elena had to come here and bring that girl with her. Damn you Elena! I need to get to Ana, but she told me she did't want to be around me unless it was with family. Shit she's also quitting! Andrea is going to kill me. I go to my office where I need to call Taylor so we can change the codes to the penthouse. I can't have Elena just walking in like she owns the place.
" Taylor, please come to my office, we need to talk about a few things."
" Yes Sir."
I wait a few mins then there is a knock on my door.
" Come in."
" You wanted to see me sir."
" Yes, I want you to change all the codes to the penthouse, to the elevators, the garage. I don't want Elena coming walking back in like she did tonight."
" Yes, sir I agree with you." I notice Taylor has something on his mind with the way he is holding him self and the sound of his voice I can tell he is not happy.
" Speak freely Taylor."
" Are you sure sir? You may not like what you hear."
" Yes I am sure, please."
" Very well sir. I have to agree with Ana, both myself and Gail do not understand why you let her keep coming around. If you say you are out of that lifestyle, then she has no business bringing girls like that to your office or home. How and what she did, not only disrespected you, but also Ana. I myself am proud of Ana how she stood her ground with her, and you. What Ana did needed to be done. She told you how she felt, and you did not say anything back. She gave you a choice either her or Mrs. Lincoln, and well when you did not answer, I saw the hurt in Ana's eyes. You made the wrong choice, but not saying anything. Now you may have lost her forever. I have known Ana for a while now, she is like a niece to me. Both Gail and I love her. She is good for you. She calls you out on your shit, she don't take any shit from you either. She is a strong, tough, young women, but what I saw when she left, she was none of those was broken and you sir, broke her."
I have never heard Taylor speak that like. I knew my staff cares for Ana, but he is right. Taylor and Gail have to come to love Ana like their own. She is their family. I need to fix this, and I need to fix this now. I feel myself getting chocked up, it's getting hard to breath. My light just left me, and the darkness is coming back full force. I need help.
" Thank you Taylor."
" Sir?"
" Thank you, thank you for telling me how stupid I was. And your right, Ana is right. I have been a fool. If Elena was a true friend she would be happy for me, she would not be pushing me into that lifestyle again, she would not be bringing subs not only to my office, but to my home. I need to fix this with Ana, she told me how she felt, and I...I just stood there and said nothing back. I was wrong. I should have choose her. It has always been Ana, and always will be. She is the most important person in my life. She is the only women i want to ever be with. I want to spend the rest of my life showing her that I love her."
" Well sir, you better get on that then."
" How Taylor? How when she told me she was done. She left me. She wants nothing to do with me. How can I get her to talk to me?"
" Well sir, may I suggest, that you give her a few days to calm down. Then I would start by telling her how sorry you are and tell her everything you just told me."
" How do I even get her to talk to me?" I run my hand through my hair and start pacing my office floor. I have to get her back in my life. I have to. I need her, I love her, she loves me, but I didn't get to tell her how I felt. God what a fucked up asshole I am. Ana told me I needed to get Elena out of my life. We have a business together, I can't just stop. Maybe if I get Ros to take over and deal with her then that should work. Right? I mean we will still have the business, but Ros would be handling everything from now on. I would just sign off when I needed too, but Ros would be the one handling Elena. It could work. It has to work.
" Ok Taylor, this is what we are going to do. First, I want all the code changed as of tonight. I also want you to let the front desk know, that she is not allowed up here without them calling and asking if it's ok. Second, I want you to put someone on both Elena and Leila. I don't trust them not to do something. Third, I want Sawyer to keep a close eye on Ana, she is not going to like it, but i need to know she is safe at all time."
" Yes sir, anything else?"
" Yes, when your in the doghouse with Gail, what do you do to get out?"
" Well, flowers are always nice, maybe a nice dinner. It just all depends on how bad your in the doghouse."
" Well i'm pretty much in the pound right now. What do you think I should do.?"
" Sir, with all due respect, you need to figure it out on your own. But like I said, flowers are always a great start."
" Thank you Taylor. You can go now."
" Yes sir, good-night."
With that Taylor leaves my office to get started on what needs to be done. Now I just need to start on how I can win Ana back. Flowers, where do I even start. Maybe I can call mom. She will know what to do. Yes, but I can't give anything away.
" Hello?"
" Hey mom."
" Christian, dear. I was just getting to call you and once again remind you of dinner on Sunday. You do remember didn't you?"
" Yes mother I did."
" Good, and you reminded Ana right?"
" No mom, I didn't get a chance to. umm we kinda had a fight and she left."
" A fight? Christian what did you do?"
" Hey! How do you know it was me?"
" Really Christian?"
" Ok it was my fault. That is why I am calling you. I wanted to tell her sorry, and Taylor suggested some flowers, but I am not sure where to start on that. Do you think you can help me?"
" Oh my sweet boy. Yes of course I will help you. Can you tell me what the fight was about?"
" I rather not. I'm sorry mom."
" It's ok dear. Well you can always start by going online and checking out the local flower shops and seeing what they have to offer. Then I would get her the biggest bouquet of her favorite flowers. Maybe get a stuff animal, maybe write her a letter telling her how sorry you are. A hand written letter can go a long way."
" Thanks mom. Your the best."
" It's what mothers are for son. To help their children out how ever we can. Just win her back Christian. I know how much you care for her. I have always seen it. I also know how much she cares for you too."
" I do care for her mom. In fact, I I love her." I hear my mother grasp and I know she is crying. She has also hoped one day I would find someone to love, and help me throughout life. If she only knew how long I have been in love with her.
" Oh Christian! Finally! Have you told her yet? Dose she feel the same way? Oh darling."
" No mom, I haven't told her. In fact, she was the one who told me she loves me, and like a jerk I am, I didn't say anything back. Mom, I love her so much. It feels like I can't breath when I'm not around her. She is the light to my darkness, the other half of my heart. She is my whole world."
" Then you go after her. You fight for her, and you tell her how you feel."
" I can't mom. She told me that she didn't think it would be a great idea for us to work together anymore, or hang out with each other unless it was around family. She doesn't want to see me." I chock up on that last part. I feel the tears beginning to fall down my checks.
" Don't worry darling, leave it to me. I will call her about Sunday dinner, and tell her she has to be there. You just work on what to say and how to tell her how you feel. If need be write it down. It always seem to help your father out."
" Thanks mom, I need to go. I will see you on Sunday for dinner. And please don't tell anyone about this."
" Of course not dear. I will see you Sunday. I love you Christian."
" I love you too mom. Good-night."
I hang up with my mom, take out a pad of paper and a pen and do what my mom suggested. I write her a letter, I write my feelings down. I only hope I am not to late and she will read this and will give me a chance to talk to her. I begin to write my love letter to my one and only love.
My Dearest Ana,
How to start this off? Well first I would like to tell you how incredibly sorry I am. How much of a stupid fool I am. You told me how you felt. You told me you loved me, but yet I didn't say anything back. So I would like to tell you how I feel. I know by telling you on paper is not the same as telling you in person, to see your face as I tell you my feelings, but I am hoping after you read this, you will be willing to give me a chance.
Ana, I have loved you for 5 years. I couldn't find a way to tell you. First it was with our age difference that put me off. Thinking you were to young at the time. Then as you got older that couldn't work anymore. I then thought, well how can this sweet, kind, caring, amazing person, love a fucked up guy like me. A guy that got off on beating and whipping girls. So Knowing that you could not love someone like me, I just let that thought go. I kept telling myself it was for your own good that I did not tell you. I was keeping you safe from me. But my feelings for you kept growing and growing.
Ana, you are the reason why I left that lifestyle. Every time I had a girl, I only saw your face. I saw myself beating and whipping you and I could not take it. I could not cause you pain like that. You are the reason why that lifestyle did no longer bring me joy. How could it, when all I saw was you tied up?
You are the one good thing in my life. You bring light to my darkness. You bring joy to my life. My whole world lights up when you walk into a room. Your smile warms my heart. Your touch brings me such comfert. When I'm stressed, or having a bad day, just the sound of your voice calms me down. You are my whole world Ana. Without you, I would have nothing.
You have always believed in me. Right from the start. You were there when I started GEH. You have been there our whole lives. You are my best friend. The love of my life. You are the only one I want Ana. Just you. I would give up everything just to have you, to show you how much you mean to me.
Ana, my love, you are my whole world, therefore I want to give you the world as well. Please tell me there is still a chance for us. For us to start over. Please tell me that I have not lost you. I know this whole Elena thing got out of hand, and I am taking care of that. She is out of my life. I am cutting all ties with her. I won't be dealing with her anymore. I am giving everything to Ros to take over. Yes I may still be in business with her, but please believe me when I say that I will no longer be dealing with her. You made me open my eyes. If she was a true friend then she would be happy for me. You were right Ana, I have been blind for so long. It took you leaving to show me what I had all this time.
My darling, please say this letter is not in vain, and that I still have time. Time to tell you how I feel in person. To show you my love for you. Ana, I love you with all of my heart. A heart that I never thought I had. You are the only woman I want in my life. Your the only one I love and will ever love. You are it for me Ana. Just please say you will give me a chance to tell you all this in person. Call, text, send me an e-mail do whatever, just let me know you will give me a chance to talk to you again. Sunday dinner at my family's house is coming up. Please say we can talk then. I will be waiting to hear from you. Take care my sweet Ana.
With all my love,
Your Christian.
I seal up the letter and stick it into an envelope to send with her the flowers I will be sending her. My only hope is that she will read the letter and respond back to me. I don't know what I would do if she tells me there no chance. At that thought, my chest beings to tighten and not in the good way. The room feels like it is running out of air. I have to stop thinking like that. She has to give me a chance. After all we are still best friends, we have done and gone through so much together. She can't just throw all that way because of tonight.
I get up from my desk, turn off the lights and head into my bedroom, where i head to take a shower. My whole body is tense and taking a hot shower will help relax me, take away all these thoughts. As i strip from my clothes and turn the water on, I think about what it would be like to take a shower with Ana. To feel her naked body up against mine. I step under the water and let the heat hit my body. It feels good, I can feel my body starting to relax, the stress of the day is washing away down the drain. As I continue to stand there my mind keeps thinking of Ana, and how good her body feels up against mine. I am becoming hard. It has been awhile since I had some release, so I take my cock in my hand and start stocking it. I imagine my hand as Ana's mouth. Her tight lips wrapped around me. She is on her knees, looking up into my eyes as she sucks me. The way her tongue flicks the head and licks up all the pre-cum from me. I move my hand faster now. Ana is not deep throating me. Taking me all the way in. Moving her had faster as she plays with my balls. I grab the back of her head, she is moving faster and faster and faster I cum so hard in her mouth she takes it all.
I look down and see that I have cum all over the shower wall. I have never cam that hard before. My god, I need to get Ana back. I need her to be mine. Not just for the sex we could have, but just because my life would be empty without her. I finish my shower, grab a towel and dry myself off. I head back into my room, grab a pair of night pants and get into bed. As I lay up staring up at the ceiling my mind drifts back to the letter I wrote her. I say a silent prayer asking Ana to give me a chance. That night I fall asleep dreaming of what my future might be like with Ana as mine, as my wife and mother to my kids one day. I dream of a copper hair little boy and a brown hair little girl running around a field of flowers with Ana and I walking hand in hand behind them.
A/N: Well all what did you think? Do you think Christian has a chance to win Ana? Do you think she will read the letter and talk to him? How do you think he did with the letter? I was not sure about this at first, but i think i am feeling pretty good about it. What about the shower scene? LOL...Next chapter will be a bit of a time jump to the family dinner and a flashback or 2. Also more drama coming up...what do you think is going to happen at the dinner? Dollface...this is your chapter hope i can make you proud with it. Untill next time.
Much Love,
Allie