A/N: Thanks for the reivew guys...I would love to tell you right now about the whole Christian and Carla thing I really want too, but don't worry, it will all be explained in the next few chapters. I'm glad you guys are not to mad at me for not posting in awhile. I want to get a few chapters done this weekend. I will be posting at least 2 chapters a day maybe 3 depending on how things go. Keep up the review guys. Thanks for sticking with me as well. You guys will not regret it. This is only book 1. I still have 2 more to do till this story is finish, and I'm hoping you guys will love what I am writing. So with all that being said: On with the Show:

Chapter 20

Christian POV:

"Ana..." That is all I can say. The look of shock, fear, disgust, hurt, is all over her face before she gets up and runs into the bathroom. I see Taylor come running into the cafe. The look on his face says he wants to beat the living shit out of me right now. So dose Sawyer. They have grow very found of Ana, and would do anything to protect her, even from me.

I am still trying to figure out how the hell Carla knew all that about me. Elena must of told her. But if she is saying that she has tapes of us fucking, then I have to find those tapes and see for myself. Although I think i would remember if I ever fucked her. And I would never ever even if my life depending on it, I would never fuck Carla. This has to be some mistake. Has to be. Both Taylor and Sawyer walk to where I am sitting at and take a set on the other side of the table.

" Christian, if I were you, I better start talking, and now." Taylor says through greeted teeth. His hand balled up into a fist, and his face red. Sawyer is just sitting there looking at me like he is going to punch me any second now.

" I swear to you, both of you. I have never fucked Carla. I don't know how she knows all that information like that. Elena must of told her. That is the only way she could know all that. But i swear, I would never do that. I have so much hate for her, how could I fuck her."

As much as I hate Carla for what she did to Ana and how she just left her, I didn't think I could hate her anymore then I did, but I am wrong. I hate her even more. I also hate Elena. I can't believe she would tell Carla all that. I knew something was up when she came in here. I knew she was up to something the moment she called Ana. Oh my god Ana! I take off running to the bathroom pushing the door open not caring if anyone else is in here or not. I just need to get to Ana. I hear someone throwing up in one of the stalls.

" Ana? Ana baby are you ok"? I walk over to the stall knock on the door, and push it open a bit to peek inside. What i see almost kills me. I see Ana on the floor holding onto the toilet crying so hard her whole body is shaking. I kneel down and start rubbing her back, but she pushes me off of her.

" Get the fuck away from me Christian. How could you? How could you fuck my mom then fuck me? Did you want to see if I was as good as my mother? Did you want to make sure I was good enough for you? Tell me"?

She is crying, not wanting to look at me but her voice says it all. It is full of hurt, hate. I don't know what I can do or say to make this better. I have to find out if Carla was telling the truth. I have to get my hands on those tapes.

" Ana, please baby, look at me. Ana please." My voice is creaking. I know if she looks at me I will lose it. I being sobbing. "Ana please look at me."

She turns her head to look at me. The look in her eyes tells me all I need to know. She hates me. I begin to cry. I cry in a stall in the lady's bathroom on the floor in front of the love of my life, because she thinks I have fucked her mother. The only other person she can't stand. The other person who she hates with such passion. I cry right along with Ana.

" Baby, please believe me. I have never fucked your mother. I think i would remember. Please Ana, please baby. I would never do that to you. I could never do that to you."

" Christian, she knows. She knows things about you that only someone would know if you have fucked them!"

" Elena could have told her all that. Come on, baby. You know how I feel about her. So why would I do that"? I say now getting mad now. Not mad at Ana, but mad at the whole thing. I am going to have a nice long talk with Elena about this. But if I do, and Ana finds out it will only make things that much worse. I need to get Welch and Barney on this fast.

" Christian, she knows you were a Dom, she said that you fucked her while you were that bitches sub, and while you were training to be a Dom! Come on she knows...she knows it all! And what's worse is it's my mother, and and, oh god"

At that she turns her head again just in time for her to throw up again. God I hate seeing her like this. I try to rub her back again, but she wont let me touch her. The hurt I feel when she did that, feels like I have died. My Ana won't let me touch her. I need to fix this. I need to prove to Ana, that once again Carla is nothing but evil and lying again. I stand up from the floor just as Ana is finishing up and she stands as well. She brushes past me over to the sink where she washes her mouth out, and splashes water on her face. She looks at me in the mirror then heads out the door.

" Sawyer let's go please." Ana says in a voice that is full of pain, but anger at the same time.

Ana stops at the table to grab her purse then heads out the door with Sawyer right behind her. I go to follow, but Taylor stands up stopping me from going after her.

" Taylor I would suggest you move out of my way before I fire your ass." I growl at him. His face shows anger.

" Then fire me. But I am protecting Ana. I have known her for 5 years. I love her like a daughter, I am looking after her. And after what I heard, your lucky your still standing."

I have never heard Taylor speak like this. I know my staff all love Ana. What's not to love. I respect him for protecting her, but I am still his boss.

" Taylor, right now I will back off, but talk to me like that again and your ass is gone do I make my self clear"?

" Not if I quit first." He says like he wants me to dare him. I back off. I stand there watching out the window of the cafe as Ana gets into the SUV and takes off. I have no idea where she is going, and I don't think they will tell me either. I don't blame them. Hell I wouldn't tell me if I was them. All I know is I need to get to the bottom of this, and I need to do it now and fast before I lose her forever.

" Welch, call Barney and meet me in my office in 30 mins." I hang up and walk out of the cafe towards Grey house. To find out if my life is over as I know it. To find out if I have lost the only Love I will ever have.

Ana POV:

I am sitting in the back of the SUV with no place in mind. I just got in and Sawyer just started driving. Luke is one of my best friends. He is like an older brother. I know he heard everything, and I know he is just as pissed off as Taylor and the rest of the guys. I wonder if he Taylor knocked him out? What do I care right now. I keep looking out the window watching the buildings pass us by. I see Gray House coming up and I lose it. I start crying this hurts so much. The pain in my chest feels like I am dying.

" Ana, come on please stop crying. I can't do anything right now. Please sissy. For me?" Sawyer says in a soft voice. I look up and see him looking at me in the review mirror. His eyes are pleading with me to stop. I try to calm myself down the best I can. I start to think about all the shit I have had to deal with the past couple of months. Jose and is stalking and he is still missing, moving in with Christian, Elena bringing a sub to not only GEH but to his or our home. His at the time, but still. Then Elena using Miss Pigtails at the family dinner, then Christian finally telling his family about what that bitch troll did to him. Then Carla coming back into my life. If it's not one thing it's another. Will we ever get a brake?

" Ana, where do you want to go? Do you want me to take you back home"?

" No I don't want to go back there, I can't I don't think I can right now. Please just keep driving."

" Sure sissy." Luke started calling me that about 6 months after he started working for Christian as my CPO. We have became so close. Christian knows that we think each other as brother and sister so he knows not to question it. Luke has been there for alot of this shit. As Luke keeps driving my eye begin to get heavy so I close them. The next thing I know I am being lifted up and carried. I am to tired to try and open my eyes to see where I am at, but I can hear voices around me. It sounds like Grace's voice along with Mia.

" Luke carry her up stairs to her room please. I will check on her in a few mins, I need to make a phone call."

" Yes Ma'ma."

Next thing I know I am laid down and I am out of it again.

" Oh Ana, if only you would submit to Christian he would still be with you. How dose it feel to lose the love of your life to your mother? Just think, I had him first, and I have him again. You could never be as good as me. That is why I have him and you don't. How sad.

" If only you could be as good as your mom Ana, we might still be together. If you could give me what you mom can we could be happy."

" No, please you can't do this, Christian you said you love me, I love you, please."

" I did love you, but you can't give me what I need Ana, I'm sorry I don't love you."

" What Christian no please you can't do this please."

" Good-bye Ana."

" NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO" I screaming and start crying. I hear the door bust open and someone call my name.

" Ana darling shhh your ok, it's ok." Grace says holding me in her arms and rocking me back and forth while I cry into her neck.

" I'm going to kill Christian!" I hear Elliot say. That only makes me cry harder.

" Elliot now is not the time, please Ana don't need this."

" Mom, I know, that is what I am saying. Whatever Chris did to make Ana this upset is pissing me off." Elliot's voice is full of hate towards Christian.

" Elliot, we don't know what happened so we need to give him the benefit of the doubt." Grace says in a soft voice as she strokes my hair like she use to do when I was younger and upset about something Carla did. Thinking about that makes me start crying again.

" Ana, tell me what my brother did please, I can't stand it when you cry. Tell me please." Elliot is pleading with me to tell him, but I can't. I can' do that. I know they already know about him and Elena and his past, but would happen if they knew my mother was involved?

" I can't, I'm sorry I can't tell you." I say through my sobs.

" Yes you can Ana, tell me please banana."

" Carla called me waiting to meet me at a cafe with her new husband, she said they are moving back to Seattle, and that I needed to watch my tone with her because she was my mother. I told her no she wasn't that you were Grace. Grace smiles a loving smile at me for calling me her mother, I told her that you guys were my family along with Ray, and she went off on me, then Christian spoke up, and then she told him that she knew Elena taught him better than that, Carla is in that life style too, Her and Elena are friends, and Elena is the one who introduce Carla to Stephen, and left us. She told us that, that. oh god I can't." I am crying once again.

" Ana what did Carla say"? Grace asks.

" She said that she and Christian, has had sex, like him and Elena, and that Elena has the tapes to prove that he has had her. Grace, Elena has tapes that shows Christian fucking my mother." I say that just as Luke, Mia and Carrick walk into the room.

" My son has done what?!"

Oh this is not good...

"Ana, where is my brother so i can kill him!" Elliot roars. I have never ever seen Elliot this mad. I'm scared that if he dose find Christian he will kill him.

" I don't know. I left him at the cafe. I don't know where he went after I left. I'm sorry." I start to cry again. I don't know how much more of this I can't take. My head hurts, my chest hurts, my eyes are heavy,

" Don't worry Ana, I will find him." Elliot says as he turns and storms out of the room. Mia comes over and sits down on the bed next to me and puts her head on my back and wraps her arms around my waist and holds me while Grace continues to stroke my hair.

"Ana, I'm not sure I can hold much truth to what Carla says, but I will get to the bottom of this I promise you Ana. You can stay here as long as you like." Carrick says in a soft, but firm tone.

" Thank you guys," I start to say, but I am cut off by the front door being slammed shut and Elliot's truck speeding out of the driveway. Oh god, what have I done? Elliot is mad enough to really hurt Christian.

" Oh God, I should not have said anything, Elliot is going after his brother, and it's my fault."

" Ana, no, this is not your fault and don't think you did. If Elliot dose find Christian, well, I hope he has enough sence to calm down before he dose anything." Grace says, but her eyes say that she is just as scared as I am.

" Luke, call Taylor and give him he heads up about Elliot, but tell him not to let Christian find out."

" Yes Mr. Grey." Luke says with a hint of a smile on his face as he walks out of the room.

" Carrick Edward Grey! Why would you not tell Christian about Elliot? Do you know what happen if Elliot dose find him"? Grace says with a shock in her voice.

" Yes I do Gracie, knock him sence into that boy I'm hoping."

" Ana, get some rest ok. I will come back up in a few hours to check on you ok."

" Thank you Grace, all of you. Thank you for being my family and loving me." I tell them through my sobs.

" Ana, we love you like our own and have since you were a baby. You are our daughter no matter what happens between you and Christian, always know that we will be here for you." Grace says as she kisses my forehead. Carrick comes over and kisses me as well, and so dose Mia.

I lay back down as everyone leaves the room, I close my eyes and pray that Elliot dose not hurt Christian. Even though I am so hurt by what I found out, I don't want him hurt. I still love him, but this chances things. Dose it through?

A/N: Soooooooooo what all did you guys think about this chapter? Yes 2 chapters in 1 day! I said I was going to make up for not posting in a while. So leave a review and let me know what you guys think of this one. I will post again tomorrow. I am gonna get some food in me and try and spend more time with the kids.