SCARLETT TEAR DROPS chapter 2: oh lonely heart how you bleed Last time: revving my truck to life I let the monster growl as I peeled out of the school parking lot deciding to head to the one place I never thought I would return to. The Cullen mansion if I was going to end it all then might as well go out with a bang in the one place it all should have ended.

I entered the empty house, all was silent and calm. Honestly though I was quick to run in as the overgrown lawn and massive forestry made it look like a true vampires lair especially with no lights welcoming. The mansion looking even more massive empty, a few pieces of furniture left behind but covered in plastic. my small, shallow breaths echoed as they bounced off the walls. I went to the kitchen remembering the first time I ever came here and how they made food for me, smiling at the thought of Rosalie crushing a bowl out of anger and the smiling faces. The hole twitched in my chest wanting to shake the numbing sheet off and burst with pain. I walked to the stairs and felt the railings smoothly, gone were the graduation caps and other unique decorations.

It made me wonder just when they had decided to leave. Wondering if that's what they were doing in the two days absence before I saw Edward the day in the woods. Slowly I pushed the door open of Edwards room… eyes closed at first I took a deep breath through my nose. Everything smelled older , stale, opening my eyes I first noticed that the journals and books were all gone his sofa remains on its side against the window it too covered in a thin sheet of plastic, remind me of the numbing sheet covering the hole in my heart. "Why me ," it seemed to be the one question that always laid in the back of my head like it was tattooed on my brain, why did they every come into my life. Why was I the one little human they found interesting enough to play with. What if Jessica and Lauren were right. If he had gotten with someone as pretty as them, then maybe just maybe he would have stayed. Because then he wouldn't have to worry about shaming the vampire name by making the first ugly or plain vampire.

Walking towards the newly replaced window I noticed Pieces of glass lay on the floor forgotten ,I picked up a shard and started to do the one thing that soothed me and my broken thoughts. "Bella please don't " my Edward illusion shown kneeling beside me as I had slid down the wall. The hole shaking threatening to drop the sheet of numbness. Taking my hoodie off I looked at the paper towel soaked and dried to my arm. Dropping the glass I stood up and walking towards the bathroom leaving my blood soaked hoodie behind.

Once I got to the empty bathroom the vanity void of life I flicked the switch surprised to notice the electric still worked. I peeled what I could of the paper towel off my arm throwing the paper in the toilet. The deep puncture wound on my arm still seeped blood in places it had yet to Coagulate. Pressing my thumb against the wound as hard as I could without shoving the digit inside, I hissed through my teeth at the immensely stinging painful sensation.

The stinging of the hole in my chest beginning to numb once more as the physical pain drained the energy from it. Grabbing toilet paper and covering the cuts I made my way down to midstory as I walked until stopping at Carlisle's study hoping beyond all hope that he had left some medical supplies. To my great surprise opening the doors to his study I realized nothing had changed since my birthday party besides he had discarded the used medical supplies and bowl of blood and glass splinters. Still lay were the stitching material and a bag full of what looked like the ultimate first aid kit.

Thankful I dropped to my knees searching for what I needed. It only took seconds before I found some medical glue, medical tape and some large gauze pads, also pulling out a liquid bottle of morphine. Looking around I placed the items on Carlisles Quant little leather sofa before sitting with a sigh. If anything this place would make a perfect little getaway to escape the world. It's not like anyone would ever come here again. At least not in my lifetime. I glued shut the deep puncture wound and wrapped my entire lower arm in the gauze before latching it with some medical tape. The pain was stronger now and I sat back reveling in it wishing I could make everything just go away. Remembering the bottle of morphine I grabbed it looking at the bottle. I had no medical knowledge but I was pretty sure you could only inject it and it that was the I didn't like needles.

Setting the medicine lightly on Carlisle desk I grabbed a folded hospital blanket from a box in the corner and decided to explore. I had been here many times with Edward but never truly saw all there was to see of the massive home. Walking down the stairs I couldn't help the chill in the air and the sence of foreboding I felt. 'you shouldn't be here' that little voice whispered in the back of my mind. "I know" I whispered back, but I needed to escape the world and I had no where else to go. I had no friends I could trust with the otherworldly secrets that had been thrust upon me. I was trapped in this world in my own mind. I was a prisoner and the Cullens had locked me up with their secrets then thrown away the key when they left.

"I didn't deserve this!" I cried to no one. I didn't deserve to be thrown away like I was nothing, mere trash. But I would show them trash. When they came back to this house in 100 years or so. It would be unrecognizable. They owed me that much. I needed an escape. Slowly but surely, I gathered my thoughts and left the cullen mansion behind with plans for the next day.

Sorry for the short chapter and sorry it took so long still struggling with where I want this to go next. Cause it was just going to be a one-shot. But let me know what you think1.Bella stays the night at the Cullen mansion just to have Laurent find her there2.Bella happens upon some of Edwards things and attempts suicide3.Bella begins numbing her pain in other ways (drugs and partying) and begins getting in trouble after using the Cullen mansion as a party place. 4.Bella cuts and accidentally goes to far, Alice sees it and rushes back to save her friend.

Let me know. This story is gonna be a bit different I want my fans to help choose the outcome so let me know so I can start the next chapter