AUTHORS NOTE: I absolutely loved the immediate comments on here, so next day here I am starting to write. Hopefully I can get through this pretty quick. I want this to be a longer chapter though. So it probably will take about a week. But thank you so much for the comments. And here we go.

CHAPTER 5: IS THIS REALLY LIVING

Moments later, Jacob had returned back into the living room. Seeing my state, he ran over to me, wrapping me in his arms once more. I couldn't do this alone I knew this much I had been ravanized in much the same as Angela had been but in my case it was my heart. I had lost so much in such a short amount of time I felt like I may implode.

As if reading my mind Jake sighs saying "You don't have to do this alone" he knew exactly what to say. His warmth so different then the Cullen's. I was so angry at them! They could have stopped this! They could have protected us all but instead they left us as live bait!

They were selfish, even if they hadn't wanted me. Alice should have seen this. She should have stopped this. What were they playing at? Heat boiled through me, fueled by my personal sun.

"They all leave" I hiccupped into his shirt. "I won't!" He vows with a light kiss to my head. I wanted to believe him. No, I needed to believe him. Because if I didn't. I didn't think I could make it through this again.

"I saw the day they left you." Jacob stated. Shaking my head, I let him know this was a taboo subject. And we just rested into a peaceful silence, me laying in his arms On the couch until Charlie showed up. With excitement, he looked at me And Jacob. "Bella, is everything ok?" He asked as he saw my tear stained face. "Ya dad everything's fine" I said softly. Pushing my head into Jacob's shoulder.

"Just a really long day" I sighed. If only he knew. But he was safe now and I could relax. As the TV began blaring the sports channel I nodded out wrapped in Jake's hot arms. The nightmares that plagued me were full of the Cullen's and Angela's terrified face.

The next day

I awoke to the annoying ringing of Charlie's phone. "Chief swan" he answered groggily wiping sleep from his eyes. "Mmhmm" he answered listening to the voice on the other end. "Ya I'll be right there" he said quickly hanging up, he looked at me sadly but deciding I had enough going on he didn't say anything as he quickly donned his shoes and jacket running to Billy's room to let him know he was leaving. My heart started beating rapidly as Jake snored beside me.

When would this all end, when will it just stop. He wanted me to live in a world where he didn't exist but try as I might, reminders kept shoving me back down on my ass. And I was truly beginning to hate him for it all.

Later Jake woke and made me breakfast. Blueberry waffles and bacon. For the first time in months it seemed, I wanted to eat something. There was something about Jacob. Maybe because he had protected me or maybe it was the fact that he was my only tie to the supernatural world. The tie that made me believe I hadn't quit yet gone completely insane after all.

After breakfast Jake took me to a little makeshift garage where he had his rabbit parked and was working on I also saw two disassembled motor bikes that he walked over to and began working on using a little remote to start playing music from a speaker set in the corner of the room. I recognized the song without me by Halsey and couldn't help but think of Ed…. Him. I hope he was suffering as I was but I highly doubted it, after all I was just a distraction. I pictured another brown haired girl innocent and ready for life being swept up by his majestic appearance. Another innocent throwing her life away for all his false promises. He was a liar and us humans were nothing more than distractions. I just pray its not the same with Jacob.

I stayed a couple days at jakes with Charlie. Charlie as chief had been working a lot and I couldn't help but wonder if he was looking for Angela ,yet he hadn't said anything to me and I had a gut wrenching feeling that was the cause of all his overtime. But I wasn't for sure until he called me one day asking me to come to the station and meet with him and a deputy. Knowing how bad of a liar I I was began to hyperventilate, this had been happening a lot lately thankfully Jacob was there through every time.

But even I knew it couldn't stay like this. I told Jake about having to go to the station, scared I didn't know what to say. Thankfully he spoke with Sam his second in command and they went over a believable but not far off from the truth, story. Angela had ran me home sick from school. No Cullen's house no nothing. She hung out for a few minutes and left, and I haven't heard from her since. I hated this all. I hated them.

Moments later I arrived at the Forks police station and paced back and forth at the front door forgetting about the windows and how if someone turned their head they would see me. I went to put my hand on the door but someone beat me to it. A big hand beat me too it. It was Jacob.

"You forgot your jacket Bella," he said with his smooth and reassuring voice.

I grabbed it from him and gave him a fake smile not thinking he would notice it. His hand placed on my face warm and soft. He smiled at me and opened the door then was gone like someone I thought I loved… Edward.

"Come on in Bella" my fathers assistant maria said in her kind loving voice. I walked in dinning my jacket and slouching in a chair against the wall/ Looking depressed wasn't a hard feat being that's all I was anymore especially when Jake wasn't near. It took everything in me to control my breathing and not let the hole in my chest implode and bring me to my knees. The tears kept welling up in my eyes which I would then force to retract. "You got this" I kept playing Jacobs voice in my head over and over like a chant. "Bella?" a voice said I looked up to my father who was standing looking worriedly down at me. "Ya dad, um…. Sorry" I said rubbing the back of my neck head down. "Come with me Hun" he said turning on heel and heading down the dimly lit hallway into one of their cheaply unkept interrogation rooms. Or so I thought until he passed it by and instead went towards the brightly lit break room where I saw his deputy with a recorder and some snack cakes and a coke on the table which he handed the coke to me instantly the moment I sat. I took it grateful for the delay and began to take a large sip feeling the fizz trickle down my throat.

Charlie sat on my right I noticed he was no longer in police mode. But in father/defense mode. "Well Bella can you state your full name and age and date of birth for us please as well as the date?" I nodded mutely finishing taking my longer then normal drink and making task of screwing the lid back on before replying. "Erm… Isabella Marie Swan, I am 18 born on September 13th 1988" I said softly. "Can you speak a little louder" The officer replied all business like. I nodded and repeated my name and date of birth.

"Do you know what month it is?"

I nodded.

"February 6th, 2006, Monday" I answered.

"Do you know a miss Angela Weber age 17?"

I nodded again, but when he said nothing, I elaborated.

"Yes she , is my best friend from school" I answered trying to keep my voice emotionless

"When was the lkast time you saw Miss Weber?" he asked in the same masked tone as mine

This was an easy honest answer.

"After school on Friday"

"We were informed miss Weber took you home Friday. Is this correct?" he asked eyeing me, in police mode.

I nodded. But the detective pointed at the recorder. Stealing a glance at Charlie I noticed his eyes were dead set on his detective making sure he made not one wrong move with his only daughter. I was almost positive I saw a bead of sweat on the detectives forehead but he dare not remove it under these circumstances. I couldn't blame him. My father could be scary, (to humans anyhow) even when he wasn't the chief or your boss. This poor detective's entire career was on the line.

"Can you elaborate the circumstances please."

I nodded mutely once more gaining a small bit of agitation from the detective which earned him a hard glare from Charlie, and he immediately pulled in the reins a bit.

"Ya, um, I wasn't feeling well Friday and we only had one class left so Angela offered to take me home so I didn't have to drive sick" I answered

"What happened after she took you home from school, did you go straight home? Did she stay with you or leave?" he asked me professionally.

I swallowed. Memories of Fridays nightmare seeping in. the tears welling in my eyes I decided to use this to my advantage in my lie as they trickled down.

"She took me home and we ate some lunch and she left." I answered but added "Is everything ok? I thought she was mad at me or something I have been worried she hasn't messaged me at all since she left my house." I sounded convincing even to myself. I sounded like a normal teenager which got a quick glance from Charlie because he knew me better then most. But he quickly hid it with a small cough and went back to staring the detective down.

"MISS WEBER has been missing since Friday when she didn't come home her parents believed she was staying with you" he stated eyeing me.

"Oh my God I hope she is ok!" I said praying in all actuality that by some miracle she had survived. Even though the wolves told me strait out that there was no chance of survival with the amount of blood she lost. I couldn't help a small hope inside that maybe just maybe they had turned her instead of eating her as some midday meal. Laurent's eyes had looked solid not black as if he had just recently fed.

"Isabella!" "Bella!"

The officer and my father yelled in unison.

I didn't realize I had begun shaking and hyperventilating again.

I about fell from the chair they had me seated at. The pop in my hand full of fizz from being shaken. Better not drink that anytime soon.

"Were done here" Charlie commanded with authority helping me stand and walk from the room. We got nothing more then a nod from his employee as we walked out. Charlie led me to the cruiser making me realize my Truck had been stuck at the school since Friday and I prayed it hadn't been towed.

Words evaded me on our rainy drive home as I just stared blankley letting tears fall freely. "Everyone leaves" I said in a whisper. But I knew Charlie had heard me as he squeezed my knee. Lacking words and emotion to comfort me in my time of need. It made me miss Esmes motherly love as I swiped the tears angrily. Stupid vampires its all their fault! I hated them for every coming into my life and I hated them because I missed them and they just didn't care. I was nothing more then a distraction. I was worthless.

As we pulled into the drive Charlie walked to my door opening it much in the same way as….. him. Chivalry died when the real Edward had died in 1917! I wish I had gotten the opportunity to meet the real Edward to see the man before the lost soul. I believed they had a soul but now I truly questioned that because who with a soul could leave their soulmate to such a terrible fate. He didn't believe he was truly alive. But this. What I was doing as I trudged to my bedroom laying on my bed staring blankly at the ceiling begging the hole in my chest not to consume me holey. Was this really living?

Sooooooooo? What did you think? Kind of a filler chapter but I knew we had to get angelas disapearence brought to life in the human world but this only took me 2 days to write and double word count wow! Proud of myself not working that stupid job has really helped me focus on my writing soooo let me know in reviews what you think and would like to happen.