Here's Chapter 13, enjoy :)

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Bella's POV

Being in Edwards arms whilst I slept somehow managed to keep the nightmares away and for the first time in almost 6 years, I was able to get a good nights sleep. I did however wake up in quite a lot of pain. My ribs felt like they were on fire as well as the rest of my body. This filled with me pure rage knowing how much he had actually hurt me. For so many years I have let him use me as his own personal punching bag but this was where it ended, I wouldn't let him hurt me anymore. I always held on to the hope that maybe one day the loving father he once would return but I now knew he wasn't coming back. He had turned into a monster and deserved to be alone for the rest of his life. I didn't realise I was crying until Edward wiped the tears away gently looking at me with concern in his eyes.

'What's wrong Bella? Are you in pain?' he asked me. I was in pain both physically and emotionally. I don't know why it all of a sudden hate me so hard but I wanted nothing more than to not have to live through all of this pain. I wish I could of had a happy family where my mother was still alive and my father actually loved me.

'I just wish I was a normal teenager with an normal family. I miss my mother so much and it hurts a lot' I said breaking down in his arms. I felt stupid crying so much but all of the emotions were just too much for me to handle. I cried for my mother, I cried for the pain my father caused me, I cried for all the cruel words people have said to me over the years. The pain consumed me, I didn't understand how I had survived so much pain.

The thought of everything I have been through over the years was horrible and I felt weak that I hadn't done something to stop him from hurting me. I should of done something to stop it but what could I of done? he was such more stronger than I was.

'Bella look at me' Edward says and when I refused to meet his eyes, he carefully put his fingers under my chin and raised my head up so I was looking into his eyes. 'You didn't deserve anything you have been through. I can't even imagine what you have been through Bella and I'm not going to say that everything will be okay straight away because it won't be but I promise from now me and my family will do everything we can to make up for all those years. I know you don't know us well but we consider you part of this family now and we will help you through this' Edward said whilst wiping some more tears away with his thumbs. His words made me feel a sense of hope that I could finally have a family which cares about me.

'Thank you Edward. You always seem to know how to make me feel better' I said and wiped the last few tears away. I go to sit up but stop when a sharp pain shoots through my ribs and I wince. Edward noticing gently helps me to sit up against the headboard before getting off the bed.

'I will go get Carlisle, you need some painkillers' Edward says and leaves the room. It was true I really did need some, the pain was getting extremely uncomfortable especially without Edwards cold body there to sooth it. Laying next to him was the same as placing an ice pack on my ribs. I took the time to take in my surroundings. The room was very musical, one of the large walls was covered from floor to ceiling with CD's which suited the room perfectly. Almost half the room was filled with floor to ceiling windows which let the light into the room which made it feel homely. I was disturbed from my thoughts by a gentle knock on the door and Edward and Carlisle came into the room. Carlisle give me a small smile and gently sat down on the bed.

'Good morning Bella, How are you feeling this morning?' he asked me.

'A bit sore but im fine' I tell him looking at my lap feeling nervous all of a sudden.

'Well I'll get you something for the pain and then if you want Alice can help you have a shower and put some clean clothes on, it might make you feel a little bit better' Carlisle said with nothing but kindness in his voice. He was such a nice man and I can clearly see where the rest of his family get their good manners from. The idea of having an nice hot shower was so appealing to me right now after all the crying I have done.

'If she doesn't mind then yes please' I say not wanting to cause any inconvenience to them.

'I'm sure she won't sweetheart then after your we will get you something to eat, I'm sure your hungry' he said and at the mention of food my stomach rumbled loudly making me blush and Edward and Carlisle to chuckle.

'Well I think that's your answer' Edward said laughing lightly causing me to giggle which shocked me, I couldn't remember the last time I laughed.

'It sure was. How bad would you say your pain was from 1-10 Bella?' Carlisle asked.

'About a 6' I tell him.

'Well I'll give you some paraceatamol for now and then once you finish in the shower ill give you some morphine' Carlisle handing me some paraceatamol. I put them in my mouth and took a sip of water to wash them down.

'Thank you' I say to him.

'It's okay, I'll go and get Alice for you and ill be back later to check on you and we also need to have a little chat if you're feeling up to it' Carlisle said and it immediately sent my heartbeat into a frenzy. I knew he would want to talk about Charlie and I didn't know whether I could.

'Okay' I say quietly. He gives me a small smile and leaves the room. Having Carlisle be so kind to me made me wish I had my old father back even more. I wanted to be able to talk to him about stuff. He should be there for me, to protect me from harm but all he has ever done is cause me pain. It hurt thinking about it. What did I do to deserve everything that has he has done to me? I used to dream when I was younger of Charlie walking me down the aisle on my wedding day and now I wouldn't have no one. I wouldn't have any family there on the biggest day of my life. A deep sadness settled inside when I realised i had no family apart from my dad but he stopped being my dad the day he starting hitting me. Tears ran down my face and Edward was instantly at my side and cradled me to his chest. It was like he knew just what made me feel better. What would i do when he left me like everyone always does.

'I promise you Bella things will get better. You will get through this' Edward said and placed a tender kiss on my forehead that sent shivers down my spine. I couldn't find my voice so I just nodded at him. I hoped he was right but right now things were so horrible and I couldn't help but feel like things were never going to be okay. How could anything be okay after getting raped by your own father not that he knows anything about that nor will he ever hopefully. I know that I should tell someone but I'm too ashamed, What if he thinks I should of been able to stop him. I didn't want any of them to think badly about me.

A few minutes later there was a light knock on the door and Alice came bouncing into the room holding some towels and toiletries. She placed them on the bed and came over to me and give me a gentle hug.

'I'm so glad your okay. I was so worried about you' She says and releases me.

'I'm fine thanks to your brother' I say and give Edward a thankful smile which he returns. God his smile makes me go weak at the knees.

'I'm just glad you called me Bella. I would of never forgiven myself if he had killed you, I should of never let you leave the hospital with him' Edward says and I can see by looking in his eyes how much he feels guilty about this.

'Edward don't you dare blame this on yourself because I will be very angry with you if you continue to. None of this is your fault, you had no idea what was happening at home and I had plenty of time to tell you but I was scared. If it wasn't for you and Carlisle I would be dead right now so please don't feel guilty because your the reason im here and alive and I will be forever grateful for that' I say feeling the tears coming back again. Seeing the tears coming again he gives me a gentle hug.

'Don't cry Bella. I'm sorry I just wish I could of stopped this from happening, all of it' he says.

'Edward there wasn't anything you could of done but none of it matters now because im away from him and safe' I say trying to assure him.

'Bella's right Edward there wasn't anything you could of done. Now come on out whilst I help Bella with her shower' Alice says. He gets up, gives me a kiss on the forehead and leaves the room. The moment he leaves I already miss him which shocks me. I have never felt this way about anyone before and the effect he has on me is shocking to say the least.

'Come on let's get you sorted' Alice says helping me up from the bed. My legs are wobbly at first and I nearly fall flat on my face but Alice steadies me before I fall. Every step I take towards the bathroom hurts like hell but I grit my teeth and make it there in one piece. When I take my clothes off with the help of Alice I hear her gasp and when I look in the mirror I see what she was gasping at. My entire body is covered in black and blue splotches and lots of scars. Looking at them all makes me want to be sick. I knew it was bad but I didn't think it was this bad. How could he do this to me. Without another word I got in the shower and let my tears mix in with the water. Fifteen minutes later im washed and had clean pyjamas on and was back in bed.

'Thank you for helping me Alice' I say to her not just for helping me with the shower but everything.

'Your welcome Bella. I'm going to go get Carlisle as he wants to talk to you and give you something stronger for the pain, I'll be right back ok' She says. I nod my head at her and she leaves the room. I take a few breaths and try to get myself ready for this conversation.

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