Here's chapter 26, enjoy and vote and comment please! Xx
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Bella's POV

The rest of the school day went by pretty fast and no more major drama occurred which I was so grateful for. I could still hear people talking about me but it wasn't as bad as before. I think my speech actually made them realise that what they were doing to me was wrong.

It still felt like I was in the middle of a dream as I still couldn't believe that everything that had happened today had actually happened. It had been the most emotional day of my life so far and by far the happiest day of my life.

The best part of today was finally telling edward how I felt about him. I didn't really expect him to make the first move but I was so so happy that he felt the same way and that kiss was the best feeling in the world. It surprised me how truly amazing it was. If I could I would kiss him all day long. He really has been my hero this past few weeks.

I never in all the six years of abuse I had received from my dad and the bullies thought I would meet such amazing people and fall in love with the most handsome man I have ever met. He made me feel things that I never thought was possible until I met him. No matter how things got he was always there to hold me and make me smile.

Looking at him now whilst he was driving us home I still couldn't work out how someone as amazing as Edward could possibly want someone who was wasn't no where near as pretty as half of the girls in this town. He could quite easily get anyone he likes yet he chooses me. That thought scares me, all my life people have just hurt me how do I know he isn't going to do the same thing I couldn't help thinking.

I know I was probably just being stupid because deep down I knew that edward would never hurt me but when you spend six years getting hurt by someone who was supposed to love and protect you its kinda hard to trust someone else not to do the same definitely as my dad was once an ordinary loving father. I still couldn't work out how everything went so bad. How could he blame me for my mothers death.

The amount of pain and hurt he has caused me over the years you would think it would make me hate him and yes I do for the pain he caused me but at the end of the day he is still my dad and I will always love him and I think that was what I was struggling with most out of everything.

I wished more than anything that I could go back in time and have my father back. I missed the old Charlie so much and would do anything to have him back and for my mother to still be alive so that we could all be happy again.

But I know now that even though my real parents are out of my life for good, I still have two amazing people that want me to become part of their family and who consider me their daughter.

Carlisle and esme had done everything they could to help me these last few weeks and I truly considered them my new parents. I had missed an motherly touch and esme definitely provided that for me and Carlisle has become the father ive always wanted and is always there for me when I need him.

What still worried me was the fact that Charlie was out there somewhere and I wouldn't be able to move on until he made his move or he was finally found. Every minute he was the out there I was in danger aswell as the cullens. I wish he would just get whatever he is planning over and done with, I can't handle living in fear anymore.

This is another thing I hate, one minute I will be happy the next I can't help thinking about the past and end up wanting to cry! When will this end? I was sick of my emotions being all over the place. I didn't know whether to feel upset and sad about the whole situation or to be angry at him. I guess I was both because even though he wasn't here, he was still causing me stress and pain.

'Everything okay, love?' Edward asked me pulling me out of my thoughts and I didn't have a clue what to say. One thing I did know was that everything was definitely not okay and I didn't know if things would ever truly be okay.

'Yeah, everything's fine' I told him and tried to smile but I can imagine it didn't come out very convincing. I didnt want him to worry about me anymore than he was probably already was.

'Bella you know you can talk to me you know. I love you and I will always be here for you so please talk to me' Edward pleaded with me. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath to try calm down. I nodded at him.

'I know I can Edward but right now all I need is to go home and have a nice hot shower then we can talk please' I almost begged him. I would talk to him but I wanted to do it when we are at home but most of all I wanted to curl up in his arms where I felt the most safe.

'Of course love' He said and give me one of his gorgeous smiles before putting his foot down and going even faster than before if that was even possible.

The hot water felt absolutely amazing against my skin and helped me to relax which is definitely something I needed after today. It had definitely been a very tiring day and it wasn't even over yet. Edward still wanted to talk and I was still trying to work out what I was going to say to him.

I felt like I was being pathetic for thinking some of the things I had today yet to me they made sense. If you had been hurt as much as i have im sure you would feel the same way and find it very hard to trust anybody. All I wanted to do was move on with my life but no matter how hard I tried I couldn't forget the pain and hurt I had been through.

I was angry at Charlie for doing this to me but I was angry more at myself for letting what he has done affect me the way it has and is still affecting me. I want to be able to have my family touch me without me flinching away, I want to be able to go to sleep at night and not have to relive it all over again. Overall I wish none of it had happened.

God the amount of times I had dreamed that everything was okay and I had a normal family my whole life with an loving father and that my mother was alive. I still wished more than anything that it could of happened.

Of course being with the cullens had been the best thing to happen to me in years and I did love every single one of them especially Edward but they will always be a part of me that wishes it was my proper family. Yes they had made me feel as welcome as they possibly could and I could tell that they cared for me but I still felt like I was a intruder. Like I was a burden to them especially with the danger of Charlie still being out of there.

I could feel the tears coming already and that's before I even talk to Edward. I just want him to understand how hard this is for me and that it has nothing to do with him. I want him to know that I do love him and want to be able to tell him how I feel but its just going to take a while.

I didn't want to be a disappointment to Edward, he was really the most amazing person I knew and he deserved so much better than what I could offer him. He deserved someone beautiful and somebody who wasnt so broken. I was still a complete mess and he shouldn't have to deal with my breakdowns all the time. I just wanted more than anything to be happy.

With a deep breath, I turned the shower off and got quickly dried and dressed ready to face whatever the outcome of this conversation. I opened the bathroom door to find Edward sat on the end of my bed looking nervous which was something you don't see very often with him.

He was always so strong and never showed much emotion but in this moment you could see his nerves literally surrounding him. He looked up when he heard me open the door and I eyes met and It would always amaze me at the intensity of the feeling that shot through me looking into his golden eyes. You could see the same emotions reflected in his eyes.

I walked over to him and sat next to him not looking away from his eyes the whole time. His reached out and took my hands in his before placing his icy lips on mine once again. Each time he kissed me just seemed to get better and better and it made me forget everything that was happening in that moment apart from the wonderful man in front of me. He pulled away and looked deep in my eyes searching for something before taking a deep breath.

'Bella before you say anything I want you to know that nothing that you could possibly say will make me love you any less than what I do. You can talk to me about anything you want and I promise I'm not going anywhere ever. I love you Bella always' Edward said with so much love dripping in his voice that you couldn't really not believe his words. I had no doubt that he didn't love me. This had nothing to do with that.

'Edward, I know you love me and believe me I love you just as much and I need you in my life. I don't think I would of survived much longer without you and if it weren't for you I would be dead right now and I can't thank you enough for everything you have done for me. But I feel so messed up right now, I want to be happy Edward. I want to be able to be good enough for you, you deserve someone who is pretty and isn't messed up like I am. You or your family shouldn't have to be danger because of me.' I paused taking a breath.

'I feel stupid all the time for crying so much and flinching when one of you go to touch me. I know none of you would ever hurt me yet I can't help waiting for the blows that I know deep down aren't going to come. Edward all I want is to be able to move on from this but I can't not why he's still out there. Do you know I sometimes find myself still having hope that the old Charlie would come back and that everything that had happened was all a horrible nightmare. I feel so much pain from it all more than I felt at the time. It feels like its all hit me at once and I don't know how to handle any of it. Today felt amazing and I felt for the first time happy but the memories are always there. The flashbacks come back at the silliest things and I can't escape any of it not even in my dreams. I don't know what to do anymore Edward. How do I get through something like this' I rambled on and on.

By the time I had finished I was pacing around the room with tears falling at an incredible speed down my cheeks and I was getting more and more worked up. It felt good to get it all out but the emotions hit me all at once making me go weak in the knees. I crumbled to the floor but before I hit it I felt strong cold arms encircle me and pull me to his chest. The heavens seem to break once again and I was sobbing loudly and hysterically and Edward just held me to him and let me cry. He give me a few minutes to calm down before he pulled me away from his chest so he could look at me.

'Bella one thing you don't need to do is thank me anymore because I need you in my life just as much. You are more than good enough for me. Bella your perfect to me and I wish more than anything I could take away the pain he has caused you. As for being happy, I promise you that you will be happy and I am going to do everything I can to make you happy love. You are the most beautiful girl in the world to me and I know you probably don't believe me but that's just because of some cruel heartless people who are obviously just jealous of you. To me you are the bravest strongest most amazing girl I have ever met and you don't need to be embarrassed about crying because it's a normal thing to do. It shows that you have feelings and whenever you need to cry I will always be here to hold you Bella'. He took a deep breath before continuing.

'As for the flinching it won't last forever love and I don't want you to worry about that because we all understand that you have been through something most of us can't even begin to understand but one thing you can be absolutely sure about is that none of us is ever going to hurt you. You are completely safe here with us and all we want to do is keep you safe and protect you. I promise it will get better, I know the memories might never go away but I can tell you one thing you are not alone in this. We will there for you every step of the way and as for you still having hope sometimes that he will go back to the father that he used to be I can understand that because Bella if you didn't have that hope you wouldn't be here right now. One thing I want you to remember is none of what has happened is your fault and you didn't deserve any of it. I love you darling, we all do' Edward said in his silky voice that just made me want to melt.

God could he get anymore perfect like seriously! He always knows just what to say and you could tell by his tone of voice that he was telling the truth. I thought I couldn't love him any more than I already did.

'I love you Edward' I told him wrapping myself into his arms once more where I belonged and hoped I could stay for forever.

'I love you too sweetheart always' Edward said and in that moment I felt so happy. It felt like a big weight had been lifted off my shoulders and it felt amazing. I really hoped things will start getting better soon then again I couldn't imagine any better than being cuddled up in edwards arms.

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