Here's chapter 32, enjoy! Vote and comment please :) Bella's POV

Pain... Pain...Pain. Was the only sensation I could currently feel. It felt like I had been run over by a train. God I have experienced alot of pain in my life but nothing as bad as this. He had really gotten me bad this time, from the feel of it. My head was pounding and I felt like I was going to be sick. My ribs were on fire and every time I breathed a spiral of pain shot through my chest. What hurt the most through was my back, it felt like someone had gotten a knife and stabbed me multiple of times. It hurt like hell and flashes of Charlie hitting me with the belt came flashing before my eyes.

I remember everything, God I really wish I could just forget it all but I knew I was never going to be able to forget this. The pain, the things he did. The sound of the belt hitting my skin will forever be in my mind. Over the years of living with him, he had done some pretty horrible stuff but I think that was the worse. I wanted to scream and cry. I hated myself for actually ever thinking their was even the tiniest bit of hope that my father was still in there somewhere and at one point I thought what I was saying to him was finally sinking in.

I remember feeling the rush of adrenaline and running for the stairs why the whole time I was praying that I would be able to get up the stairs without falling down them again. I remember feeling the fear sweep through me at the thought of what he would do to me if I didn't get out of there and quick. I remember my last words to him when I closed the basement door 'Goodbye Charlie'. I remember his threat that I would never be free of him. I remember limping away from the building and coming towards a road that was deserted. I remembered how weak my body became and the fact I couldn't go any further. I remember falling to my knees and then I remember hearing Edwards gorgeous voice call my name. Was that really him or was my mind playing tricks on me? Where was I now? I needed to open my eyes but I was scared of what I would find, what if Charlie had found me? what if Edward really was there and Charlie had found him and killed him.

my heart speed up at that thought and clenched in pain.

'Bella, sweetheart? Can you hear me?' came an mans voice. Was that Carlisle's voice? My eyes shot open and I was meet with the eyes of an worried and guilty looking Carlisle.

'Carlisle' I choked out, my throat burning with unshed tears. I could feel them gather in my eyes as I look at the man I have come to love as my father. He smiles at me when I say his name. Why does he look so sad and guilty? Looking around the room I see Esme and Alice standing by one of the wall and they both give me worried looks.

'Bella I want to say how sorry I am. We should of protected you better, this shouldn't of been allowed to happen and for that I'm really sorry' Carlisle says. So that's why he looks so guilty. I don't want him or any of them to feel like that through. It wasn't their fault.

'No Carlisle. Please don't blame yourself for this, I don't blame you for what happened so don't blame yourself' I told him. I didn't want him to feel guilty over something he had no control over.

'Thank you Bella that's very kind of you but I am still really sorry this happened. Can you tell me, how are you feeling?' Carlisle said. His voice is so gentle and caring nothing like what I'm used to. It still feels so foreign this kindness and I don't think I will ever get used to it. However I almost want to laugh at his question.

'Truthfully I feel like I've been run over by a train' i told him truthfully. my whole body was screaming at me with the pain and I was scared to move knowing it would only cause me more pain. The slightest movement caused pain to shoot to every single part of my body. It hurt like hell and I was founding it hard to stop the tears from coming.

'I'll give you something to help soon. I would like you to try and eat something first before giving you something else, do you think you can do that?' he asked me. At the mention of food, my stomach flipped. I felt a little sick but I was also hungry at the same time. I nodded willing to atleast try to eat something.

'Will tomato soup do?' Esme asked me from the corner of the room. I met her eyes and saw nothing but worry, concern and love with seemed to seep into my body.

'Yes please' I told her and with that she smiled at me before leaving the room. The room fell into a comfortable silence and I closed my eyes to try to relax but one question that kept popping into my head was 'Where is Edward?'I really needed to see him. I couldn't get the thought of him being killed by Charlie out of my head. Before I knew it the tears starting flowing down my cheeks. I heard Alice move and when I opened my eyes I was meant with the worried eyes of Alice.

'Bella, are you okay?' she asked me. Was I okay? Would I ever be okay again. This life just seemed to constantly be filled with nothing but pain and misery and I was sick of it. If it weren't for Edward and the other Cullen's I don't think I would be able to cope with any of it. Hell, I wouldn't even be alive right now. I needed to see Edward, I needed to see that he was okay. I wanted him to hold me in his arms and tell me everything was going to be okay like he has done so many times before.

'Where's Edward?' I asked her the tears coming again. No matter how much I tried, I couldn't control them. I felt like my heart was going to jump out of my chest.

'He's just popped out Bella but I promise he will be back really soon' Alice told me but something on her face just somehow told me she wasn't telling the complete truth but atleast if something had happened to him they would tell me wouldn't they? I didn't even have the energy to worry about that right now. My body feels so tired and all I want to do is go to sleep so I just nodded my head at her.

'Here you go sweetheart' Esme said coming into the room with a bowl of the best smelling tomato soup ever. It made my stomach growl and my mouth water. I really began to feel hungry then. I went to sit up but I hissed in pain, I couldn't move without my back burning with pain.

'Careful sweetheart' Carlisle cautioned me and helped me to slowly sit up and rested me gently against some really soft pillows that relived the pressure of my now really painful back. I smiled at him in thanks. One thing about Carlisle that I like is how no matter how dreadful you feel, he always make you feel better just by being there for you.

Once I was settled Esme came over and placed a tray with the soup and a nice cup of tea onto my lap. I picked up the spoon and eagerly started eating the soup not caring that I was being watched. I was so hungry. The soup was gone quickly and I quickly drank the tea that Esme had kindly made for me. It filled my body with warmness and was just what I needed. After I finished eating and drinking, Esme took my bowl and cup downstairs after I thanked her again. Now that I had eaten something I felt the tiredness become stronger and I wanted nothing more than to go to sleep and I was praying I would be able to sleep peacefully without any nightmares that I was positive were going to come.

I didn't even want to truly think of what had happened with Charlie, it was just too painful. I just wanted it to be over. I am just sick of being constantly hurt. I just want a break where I can be happy and care-free. I want to be a teenager. I want to experience what it is like to spend time with friends and have fun. I want to be able to laugh and not worry about what I was coming home to. So many times, I had dreaded even waking up knowing he was going to make my life a living hell. Then having to deal with school. God sometimes I can't decide which was worse home or school. Both were filled with nothing but pain and misery. But I don't want to drewl on that, I want to be able to move on but how can I when every little thing reminds of what I've been through. Knowing I can't even close my eyes without the memories coming back.

The last two weeks had been filled with chaos. So much had happened and so quickly, It will probably take ages for me to truly work it out in my head. I had gone from living everyday in fear and pain to being surrounded by people who had become like family to me. They are my family. I loved them all and they had done nothing but show me love and kindness but do I deserve any of it? I had been told so many times that all of what had happened was my own fault and that I was nothing but a waste of space. Was that true? God my head is truly messed up. I needed some rest and some time alone to think through everything.

'Do you mind if I go to sleep please?' I asked Carlisle who was still sat on the bed next to me looking at me.

'Of course sweetheart, I'll just give you some pain killers first. If that's okay with you?' He asked me kindly. Like I was going to say no, when I couldn't really think straight right this minute because of the pain. It was getting worse and worse by the minute and I would welcome any relief right this minute.

'Yes please' I told him. He smiled and went to get the medication. It took him not even a minute before he was back in the room and was injecting something in my IV. Ughh I really hate needles. Almost instantly I could feel the drugs taking effect. It felt bliss and I slowly layed down on my side and snuggled into the blanket.

'There you go sweetheart, you get some rest. We will be waiting for you when you wake up. I'm so proud of you Bella' I heard Carlisle say just as I fell asleep. His words bringing a smile to my face.

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