Here's chapter 34, enjoy! Please vote and comment :)

Edward's POV

Bella was absolutely right in what she was saying and immediately I felt guilty. She had told us so much about what had happened in her life and you could see how she trusts us yet she doesn't know the biggest secret of this family and I know it will dangerous to all of us for her to know but she is part of this family now and deserves to know the truth.

So I had promised we would talk to her once she was better and the thought made me feel dizzy if that's even possible for vampires. I don't have a clue how she will react, I just hope she still trusts us! She knows none of us would ever hurt her, well at least I hope she does. She had so many people hurt her in her life and that's definitely the last thing I want to happen again! I wan't nothing more than to make her as happy as she can be because that is absolutely what she deserves. To have a loving family and to be shown how good life could be without the constant abuse she had to endure.

When I thought about that animal, I wanted nothing more than to go to where emmett and jasper was holding him and kill him. He deserved as much pain as possible and he was going to get one way or another but first we needed to discuss what Bella wants to do about Charlie because at the end of the day it's her choice. I know what I'd like to do but its not about any of us.

The most important thing in this situation is making sure Bella gets better and remains safe and I'd be damned if I let anybody ever hurt her again. Seeing her scream out in her sleep caused more pain than I thought was ever possible. Nothing in the world hurts more than seeing bella in pain and knowing I can't do anything but be there for her. Having her in my arms right now was such a relief because even though shes in pain atleast she is safe. She was finally having some rest and so far it seemed to be filled with no nightmares and for that I was grateful.

I don't even want to know what she dreamt of earlier, the way she screamed told me it was bad. Anger surged through me once again, it seemed to be the one emotion I was feeling alot lately. She shouldn't have to go through more pain than she already does! I think she has suffered more than enough.

Over the past two weeks I had seen the pain that seems to be permanently in her eyes slowly begin to fade and now it was back again and I felt that I was to blame for it no matter how much Bella kept saying it wasn't our fault but we should of been able to protect her. She shouldn't of had to deal with that foul excuse for a man all over again.

I would make it my life mission to ensure I never see her in pain ever again. It hurts too much to see her looking so upset and not being able to stop it. All we can all do now is be there for her and hope that it helps her to move on as best as anyone in her situation can. I want her to be able to experience life to the fullest and see the good things that life has to offer instead of all the bad stuff. She suffered so much hurt and abuse for such a long time, its about time she gets to experience the good side of life and I will make sure she does.

Bella's POV

At some point I must have fallen asleep again in the comfort that edward's arms always bring me. It still surprises me how close we have come in such a short time and a little scared about how good it feels. After everything that's happened, I never thought I would be able to relax and fall In love with someone.

Well I never actually thought I would meet someone as amazing and kind hearted as Edward that excepts me even after he knows everything I have been through. Being in his presence makes me see life more clearly and for a small amount of time I can enjoy the moment without the pain of the memories that keep coming to me Everytime I become relaxed and start thinking.

The pain is one thing I don't think I'll ever be able to forget but I need to find a way to deal with so that it doesn't have me constantly in tears. I'm so sick of crying all the time and feeling the pain of everything that has ever gone wrong. It's like a delayed reaction to everything. Yes don't get me wrong I felt the pain and sadness when I lived with charlie everyday but now that I have sense of what is classed as normal it feels so foreign.

Being so used to spending every waking minute in fear and being hurt it so different to all the emotions I am now starting to experience. The main one being love. Love for edward mainly but also love for my new family because without any of them my life would be worthless. They give me the much needed strength everyday to carry on and have hope of a happier and better future filled with nothing but happiness and I wanted that more than anything.

I hadn't given much thought to what the future will hold for me. I don't even know fully what I want to do career wise. I guess I was just focusing on getting through each day. My grades in school are good anyway so whatever I decide to do in the future I will be sorted hopefully. Schoolwork was the one thing that was a constant in my life and it might sound nerdy but I enjoy learning new things.

'Whats got you thinking so hard?' Edward asks me coming in the room with a glass of orange juice and some tablets in his hands. He comes over and sits gently on the bed and hands me them. I take them gratefully and thank him.

'Just the future. Ive never given much thought of what I want to do with my life and Im just trying to work out what I want' I tell him looking into his gorgeous golden eyes that always makes my insides melt. It amazes the effect he has on me.

'Don't worry about that Bella. You've got plenty of time to work it out, just focus on getting better that's the main thing right now anyway you will be brilliant in whatever you decide to do' he says with his signature smile that lights up his whole face. I know he is right but I do need to start considering what I want to do with my life before its too late. Its a major step of moving on with my life which I really need to do. I will never forget what I had been through but I don't want it to ruin the rest of my life.

God my emotions are all over the place lately. One minute I can't think straight and all I see is the bad stuff in life then the next minute I'm thinking about what I want to do with my life. Alot had happened the past 24 hours and I hadn't even begun to fully process what happened and after that dream I had earlier, I don't think I particularly want to either. I know Edward and the others will probably want to know what happened but right now I don't even want to think about what happened. One thing I couldn't stop thinking about no matter how hard I tried is what Edward is keeping from me. I can't help thinking its something bad yet I know no matter it is I wouldn't think any different of any of them. I love them all and nothing will change that. I hope Edward knows that. I know he says he wants to wait till I'm better before telling me whatever he is hiding but I can't wait I want to know. I want him to know he can trust me.

'Edward do you know you wanted to tell me something, can you just tell me now please. I want to know' I told him looking into his now anxious face.

'Bella I really think we should wait till you are better' he says which makes me frown.

'Please Edward you can trust me just tell me please' I say quietly. I know I shouldn't push him about this but I just want to get it out of the way.

'I do trust you Bella. Okay ill tell you but I want to do it with the whole family if that's okay with you' he says and I nod. Nerves bubble inside my stomach, what could be so important that he wants the whole family here. I guess I'm about to find out.

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