p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"Here's chapter 39, enjoy! Sorry for the long wait guys, been really busy! Honest opinions of this story please :) I don't know whether to continue it as I feel people are losing interest so please review x/p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"Bella's POV/p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"When I wake up I found myself alone in the room I had grown to feel more safe in than I have felt in a long time well apart from when I was in Edwards arms. Nothing could beat the feeling of having his arms wrapped around me in such a loving way. I still couldn't get used to the feeling of finally having someone that loves me. It had been such a long time and I was beginning to think it would never happen again. Then again I had never felt anything so strong as love for another boy like I do with Edward. The butterflies I get in my stomach when he touches me is the best feeling ever. If I didn't have Edward and the others I don't know what I'd would of done yesterday. I didn't even want to think of that man, to blame me for the way he was./p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"As much as I didn't want his words to hurt me, I still couldn't stop the pain of them. You would think after such a long time, I would get used to it but the truth is you don't ever really get used to it. One thing I know is I would love to meet the person who came up with the stupid saying 'sticks and stones may break my bones but words can't hurt me' because they do hurt more than anything. Some words more than others but each one hurts none the less. How the hell I was able to handle six years of his words and the people at school is truly beyond me. Back then I was able to deal with it but now I feel like all those years are piling up on me. At times i felt like I could cope but others it felt like the world was falling apart around me. So much had happened in the past few weeks and I didn't have a clue how to even start to process any of it. One thing I was sure of now, was that Charlie was no longer my father and will never be again. As far as I was concerned, he was dead to me./p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"I never thought I would feel like that, I guess I had still felt hope that my dad was somewhere in there but yesterday proved to me that the man I used to look up to was well and truly gone. I couldn't hold any hope any longer for a man that doesn't exist anymore. He would always be my dad but after everything he had out me through, he could rot in prison./p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"I wonder where edward was? I thought he would be here with me when I woke up like he normally is. I could really do with him being here right now. I know it is selfish of me to want him here all the time with me but there is nothing I want more than to be in Edwards arms and feel his fingers run through my hair like he always does to relax me. I don't know what is was about his presence but him just being there made me feel so better. I hated being alone, it give me far too time to think and I didn't want to anymore. I couldn't stand seeing the flashbacks that always came every time I thought of Charlie. Especially everything that happened when he kidnapped me not that I could forget that at the minute. The pain going through my body every time I so much as moved was reminder enough. I knew I would most likely have to tell the police what happened just like I had to tell them everything else but I hadn't even talked about to Edward or the others yet. I know they probably want answers definitely after the injuries I had suffered. I knew this was probably quite bad, well it definitely felt worse than it ever has been. How I even had the strength to get out of there is beyond me./p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"I wanted to go find Edward but I knew I wouldn't be able to make it very far without passing out from the pain. I could really do with some painkillers, the pain was really beginning to get bad. I felt the tears coming and there was nothing I could do to stop them. They came hard and fast. Why couldn't I just get a bloody break? Why did my life have to consist of nothing but pain and hurt./p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"A few minutes after I had started crying, there was a quiet knock on the door before it opened. When I looked up, I was surprised to find jasper there and I could see the concern on his face. I was still confused, jasper was the last person that I had expected to see. We hadn't exactly gotten close like I had with the others. I've always felt that he was staying back and didn't want to get too close to me. I couldn't blame him really, who would want to be close to me?/p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"'Bella, are you okay?' Jasper asks me. You could hear a southern drawl to his accent and I think it suited his personality perfectly. I still had some tears falling but I could feel myself slowly relax and was able to calm down enough to reply to him./p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"'Not really, everything just hurts a lot' I told him not talking about just the physical pain. It felt like my head was going to explode with so many different thoughts running through it right now./p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"'Well the others had to go out but Carlisle left some painkillers for when you woke up. So I'll be right back and I'll get them for you. Do you want something to eat and drink?' He asked me kindly giving me a small smile. I could see nothing but kindness In his eyes and I was happy I got this time to finally talk to him properly./p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"'Yes please, if you don't mind' I said giving him a small smile In return./p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"'Of course, I won't be long' He told me before leaving the room and me to my thoughts once again. As soon as he had left the room I felt the sadness and loneliness feel my body again. I didn't understand why I was feeling this way all of a sudden. There was a time when I once thought that I was a strong person, I mean I had to be. Before I had no other choice too I suppose get on with life. When with Charlie I wasn't allowed to cry, it would only make the beatings even worse. Flashback after flashback filled my mind and fear creeped up my spine. I could hear Charlie's parting words flash through my head over and over./p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"I was so lost in thought I didn't even hear the door open until jasper walked In carrying a tray with a sandwich and a glass of orange juice. Something about my face must of showed how I was feeling as he placed the tray on the cabinet next to the bed before sitting carefully down on the bed next to me but kept a distance between us./p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"'What's wrong bella? I know we haven't talked much but your part of my family now and I care about you. You can talk to me' he told me. I searched his eyes for any dishonesty but saw nothing but kindness. He had the same look In his eyes that I see with the others and I don't why but that just made me cry harder. As my tears grew, jasper carefully reached his hand out and placed it in mine and squeezed it showing me he was here when I was ready. when was this going to end, i was sick of my emotions. one minute i feel happy then the next i feel like my whole world is collapsing around me. I don't know how long it took but i finally managed to calm down enough to actually form a sentence./p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"'I'm sorry' I told him. He shouldn't of had to deal with that./p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"'Why are you applogising?' He asked me./p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"'For crying all the time' I told him./p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"'You don't need to applogise, your allowed to cry as much as you want. What you've been through is something nobody should have to deal with but your stronger than you think you are because if it was anyone else they wouldnt have made it but you have, to me thats very brave and you should be proud of yourself just like we are all proud of you' he said still holding my hand. he was right in a way, i dont know how the hell i got through it and the way i was feeling at the minute, it certainly didn't feel like any of it was over. For so many years, I have had to be strong and now i guess it was all coming out and i guess in a way that was a good thing to happen but it still hurt all the same. Yesterday seeing Charlie and hearing him say those things to me had obviously been too much and I needed to deal with what happened before I could move on with my life. I couldn't just pretend everything was okay when deep down I knew it had all affected much more than I cared to admit. The pain felt just as bad as it did when my mum died. I guess in a way, I still couldn't believe anything that had happened. More importantly, I don't think I really wanted to believe it. How do you even begin to deal with that kind of betrayal from your own father. I had grown up thinking the man that hurt me more than words could ever explain hurt me in the worst way possible, How was someone supposed to deal with that?/p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"'I'm really trying, I really am. I just don't know what i'm supposed to think or feel. I always thought I was strong but now i just feel more weak than i have ever before. I don't know how to even start dealing with what happened, it physically hurts to even think about' I told him honestly. Crying all the time made me feel like i was being pathetic and i guess in a way i was just waiting for them to get tired of it. I wouldn't blame them either, who would want a girl crying 24/7./p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"'Bella don't be so hard on yourself. I know it doesn't feel like it right now but from now on things will get better. im not saying it's going to be easy and i cant even begin to imagine what you must be feeling like right now but one thing i do know is you will get through this. I know it's going to be hard but with time and the right support we will all help you begin to get your life back and we won't let you fall. You don't have to be so strong, if you want to cry then cry. I promise you, we won't anything happen to you ever again' He said giving my hand a squeeze before letting go and handing me a tissue to wipe my face. I don't know how these cullens do it but they always know how to make me feel better. I honestly don't know where i would with any of them. In a sick way im actually happy that what happened did actually happen because if it didn't i wouldnt of met this wonderful family who i loved and cared about so much. Being here with them means the world to me and I couldn't survive without any of them./p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"'Thank you Jasper, it means alot to know that i have you all. I don't know what i'd do if i didn't have you all' i told him which earned me a kind smile and felt love radiate through my whole body making me feel relaxed and like i could get through anything./p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"'Your welcome Bella, I know I haven't been there for you totally like the others but i was scared that i would hurt you. Im new to the way the others live you see and i didn't want to risk it but i want you to know from now on, i will here for you no matter what and if you ever want to talk i will be here' he said which made me smile and kinda of relieved. i kinda felt like he didn't like me because of the fact he was keeping his distance from me but the fact he was doing it to protect me made me feel kinda happy to know that he cared about just as much as the others./p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"'I understand and thank you i'll keep that in mind' I told him knowing that one day i would need someone to talk to but right now i dont think i was completely ready to deal with that just yet. I know edward thinks it a good idea that I talk to someone about what has happened to me but in truth the whole idea scared me. I knew i needed help to be able to move on but all i knew is i just wasnt ready to./p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"'Anytime i mean it Bella. Now let's get you some painkillers and something to eat then you can get some rest and by the time you wake up im sure edward and the others will be back' he said standing up and grabbing the tray and placing it down next to me. I thanked him and he told me if i needed him to just shout before leaving the room. I drank the orange juice quickly not realising just how thirsty, i really was before digging into the sandwich which tasted amazing. Once i finished the sandwich, i picked the painkillers up and swallowed them with some water that was next to me. They must of been quite strong as i felt the effect of them almost immediately. The pain was still there but it wont as bad as it was before now it was just a throbbing feeling instead of the exhuriating pain it was. The only thing that was missing right now was those ice cold arms being wrapped around me, always keeping me safe no matter what./p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"He made me feel things that I never thought possible and it was both frightening and amazing at the same time. When I was upset, he is always there for me and I know that no matter what he would be there to comfort me whenever I need him. He really was my lifeline and I have never felt such strong love for someone like I do with Edward. I never thought over the years I spent in fear and pain that I would meet someone as amazing as him and being here with him and the others fills my heart with so much love and gives me hope for the future and I know the next few months will be so hard and I know that I will have support threw it all. Knowing that made me feel so much stronger than I ever thought I would feel and I know that I would get through it. Its like that saying what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Right now I believed that more than ever! I am ready to face whatever the world has to throw at me./p
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p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"Thank you for reading. Please review :)/p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"Bella's POV/p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"When I wake up I found myself alone in the room I had grown to feel more safe in than I have felt in a long time well apart from when I was in Edwards arms. Nothing could beat the feeling of having his arms wrapped around me in such a loving way. I still couldn't get used to the feeling of finally having someone that loves me. It had been such a long time and I was beginning to think it would never happen again. Then again I had never felt anything so strong as love for another boy like I do with Edward. The butterflies I get in my stomach when he touches me is the best feeling ever. If I didn't have Edward and the others I don't know what I'd would of done yesterday. I didn't even want to think of that man, to blame me for the way he was./p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"As much as I didn't want his words to hurt me, I still couldn't stop the pain of them. You would think after such a long time, I would get used to it but the truth is you don't ever really get used to it. One thing I know is I would love to meet the person who came up with the stupid saying 'sticks and stones may break my bones but words can't hurt me' because they do hurt more than anything. Some words more than others but each one hurts none the less. How the hell I was able to handle six years of his words and the people at school is truly beyond me. Back then I was able to deal with it but now I feel like all those years are piling up on me. At times i felt like I could cope but others it felt like the world was falling apart around me. So much had happened in the past few weeks and I didn't have a clue how to even start to process any of it. One thing I was sure of now, was that Charlie was no longer my father and will never be again. As far as I was concerned, he was dead to me./p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"I never thought I would feel like that, I guess I had still felt hope that my dad was somewhere in there but yesterday proved to me that the man I used to look up to was well and truly gone. I couldn't hold any hope any longer for a man that doesn't exist anymore. He would always be my dad but after everything he had out me through, he could rot in prison./p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"I wonder where edward was? I thought he would be here with me when I woke up like he normally is. I could really do with him being here right now. I know it is selfish of me to want him here all the time with me but there is nothing I want more than to be in Edwards arms and feel his fingers run through my hair like he always does to relax me. I don't know what is was about his presence but him just being there made me feel so better. I hated being alone, it give me far too time to think and I didn't want to anymore. I couldn't stand seeing the flashbacks that always came every time I thought of Charlie. Especially everything that happened when he kidnapped me not that I could forget that at the minute. The pain going through my body every time I so much as moved was reminder enough. I knew I would most likely have to tell the police what happened just like I had to tell them everything else but I hadn't even talked about to Edward or the others yet. I know they probably want answers definitely after the injuries I had suffered. I knew this was probably quite bad, well it definitely felt worse than it ever has been. How I even had the strength to get out of there is beyond me./p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"I wanted to go find Edward but I knew I wouldn't be able to make it very far without passing out from the pain. I could really do with some painkillers, the pain was really beginning to get bad. I felt the tears coming and there was nothing I could do to stop them. They came hard and fast. Why couldn't I just get a bloody break? Why did my life have to consist of nothing but pain and hurt./p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"A few minutes after I had started crying, there was a quiet knock on the door before it opened. When I looked up, I was surprised to find jasper there and I could see the concern on his face. I was still confused, jasper was the last person that I had expected to see. We hadn't exactly gotten close like I had with the others. I've always felt that he was staying back and didn't want to get too close to me. I couldn't blame him really, who would want to be close to me?/p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"'Bella, are you okay?' Jasper asks me. You could hear a southern drawl to his accent and I think it suited his personality perfectly. I still had some tears falling but I could feel myself slowly relax and was able to calm down enough to reply to him./p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"'Not really, everything just hurts a lot' I told him not talking about just the physical pain. It felt like my head was going to explode with so many different thoughts running through it right now./p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"'Well the others had to go out but Carlisle left some painkillers for when you woke up. So I'll be right back and I'll get them for you. Do you want something to eat and drink?' He asked me kindly giving me a small smile. I could see nothing but kindness In his eyes and I was happy I got this time to finally talk to him properly./p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"'Yes please, if you don't mind' I said giving him a small smile In return./p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"'Of course, I won't be long' He told me before leaving the room and me to my thoughts once again. As soon as he had left the room I felt the sadness and loneliness feel my body again. I didn't understand why I was feeling this way all of a sudden. There was a time when I once thought that I was a strong person, I mean I had to be. Before I had no other choice too I suppose get on with life. When with Charlie I wasn't allowed to cry, it would only make the beatings even worse. Flashback after flashback filled my mind and fear creeped up my spine. I could hear Charlie's parting words flash through my head over and over./p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"I was so lost in thought I didn't even hear the door open until jasper walked In carrying a tray with a sandwich and a glass of orange juice. Something about my face must of showed how I was feeling as he placed the tray on the cabinet next to the bed before sitting carefully down on the bed next to me but kept a distance between us./p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"'What's wrong bella? I know we haven't talked much but your part of my family now and I care about you. You can talk to me' he told me. I searched his eyes for any dishonesty but saw nothing but kindness. He had the same look In his eyes that I see with the others and I don't why but that just made me cry harder. As my tears grew, jasper carefully reached his hand out and placed it in mine and squeezed it showing me he was here when I was ready. when was this going to end, i was sick of my emotions. one minute i feel happy then the next i feel like my whole world is collapsing around me. I don't know how long it took but i finally managed to calm down enough to actually form a sentence./p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"'I'm sorry' I told him. He shouldn't of had to deal with that./p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"'Why are you applogising?' He asked me./p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"'For crying all the time' I told him./p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"'You don't need to applogise, your allowed to cry as much as you want. What you've been through is something nobody should have to deal with but your stronger than you think you are because if it was anyone else they wouldnt have made it but you have, to me thats very brave and you should be proud of yourself just like we are all proud of you' he said still holding my hand. he was right in a way, i dont know how the hell i got through it and the way i was feeling at the minute, it certainly didn't feel like any of it was over. For so many years, I have had to be strong and now i guess it was all coming out and i guess in a way that was a good thing to happen but it still hurt all the same. Yesterday seeing Charlie and hearing him say those things to me had obviously been too much and I needed to deal with what happened before I could move on with my life. I couldn't just pretend everything was okay when deep down I knew it had all affected much more than I cared to admit. The pain felt just as bad as it did when my mum died. I guess in a way, I still couldn't believe anything that had happened. More importantly, I don't think I really wanted to believe it. How do you even begin to deal with that kind of betrayal from your own father. I had grown up thinking the man that hurt me more than words could ever explain hurt me in the worst way possible, How was someone supposed to deal with that?/p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"'I'm really trying, I really am. I just don't know what i'm supposed to think or feel. I always thought I was strong but now i just feel more weak than i have ever before. I don't know how to even start dealing with what happened, it physically hurts to even think about' I told him honestly. Crying all the time made me feel like i was being pathetic and i guess in a way i was just waiting for them to get tired of it. I wouldn't blame them either, who would want a girl crying 24/7./p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"'Bella don't be so hard on yourself. I know it doesn't feel like it right now but from now on things will get better. im not saying it's going to be easy and i cant even begin to imagine what you must be feeling like right now but one thing i do know is you will get through this. I know it's going to be hard but with time and the right support we will all help you begin to get your life back and we won't let you fall. You don't have to be so strong, if you want to cry then cry. I promise you, we won't anything happen to you ever again' He said giving my hand a squeeze before letting go and handing me a tissue to wipe my face. I don't know how these cullens do it but they always know how to make me feel better. I honestly don't know where i would with any of them. In a sick way im actually happy that what happened did actually happen because if it didn't i wouldnt of met this wonderful family who i loved and cared about so much. Being here with them means the world to me and I couldn't survive without any of them./p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"'Thank you Jasper, it means alot to know that i have you all. I don't know what i'd do if i didn't have you all' i told him which earned me a kind smile and felt love radiate through my whole body making me feel relaxed and like i could get through anything./p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"'Your welcome Bella, I know I haven't been there for you totally like the others but i was scared that i would hurt you. Im new to the way the others live you see and i didn't want to risk it but i want you to know from now on, i will here for you no matter what and if you ever want to talk i will be here' he said which made me smile and kinda of relieved. i kinda felt like he didn't like me because of the fact he was keeping his distance from me but the fact he was doing it to protect me made me feel kinda happy to know that he cared about just as much as the others./p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"'I understand and thank you i'll keep that in mind' I told him knowing that one day i would need someone to talk to but right now i dont think i was completely ready to deal with that just yet. I know edward thinks it a good idea that I talk to someone about what has happened to me but in truth the whole idea scared me. I knew i needed help to be able to move on but all i knew is i just wasnt ready to./p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"'Anytime i mean it Bella. Now let's get you some painkillers and something to eat then you can get some rest and by the time you wake up im sure edward and the others will be back' he said standing up and grabbing the tray and placing it down next to me. I thanked him and he told me if i needed him to just shout before leaving the room. I drank the orange juice quickly not realising just how thirsty, i really was before digging into the sandwich which tasted amazing. Once i finished the sandwich, i picked the painkillers up and swallowed them with some water that was next to me. They must of been quite strong as i felt the effect of them almost immediately. The pain was still there but it wont as bad as it was before now it was just a throbbing feeling instead of the exhuriating pain it was. The only thing that was missing right now was those ice cold arms being wrapped around me, always keeping me safe no matter what./p
p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"He made me feel things that I never thought possible and it was both frightening and amazing at the same time. When I was upset, he is always there for me and I know that no matter what he would be there to comfort me whenever I need him. He really was my lifeline and I have never felt such strong love for someone like I do with Edward. I never thought over the years I spent in fear and pain that I would meet someone as amazing as him and being here with him and the others fills my heart with so much love and gives me hope for the future and I know the next few months will be so hard and I know that I will have support threw it all. Knowing that made me feel so much stronger than I ever thought I would feel and I know that I would get through it. Its like that saying what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Right now I believed that more than ever! I am ready to face whatever the world has to throw at me./p
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p style="margin: 20px 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"Thank you for reading. Please review :)/p