A/N: Hello! Another chapter for your reading enjoyment! I hope you enjoy. I must be spoiling you guys... not really. But I hope that the story is looking better. Reading it again and again, I've seem why people might have gotten confused and that I clearly messed up some where in my time line. Only now I am trying really hard to make it right.

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Chapter 7: Confusing Heart

June 8th:

The next day I am training and trying to make sure that I know what fighting style I should use in case I must fight. One can never be too ready. I just hope that I do not have to fight anyone. I hate fighting, I have since I was little, so I try to avoid it. Watching my uncle fighting, and watching the others fight, it leaves a bad taste in my mouth. I try to be quick and cleaver with when I fight.

The Chunin exams. In the second stage, I could never forget the moment my teammate cut down the ninja from the Sand. How much blood there was and how he did it without a second thought. How I cried, cried because I thought that was how the rest of my family went. Cut down without a second thought.

I shake my head.

I look at the training post. I quickly pull out three stars and throw them at it. Each one hits the target and almost cuts through the wood. I did not even infuse chakra into the shuriken, yet my power is very strong. I trained hard, but I focused on my mind way more than the physical aspect.

Looking around I think about how I should maybe train, knowing that it is too hard to only train by myself. I decide the try chidori with sharingan. The one thousand chirping birds that can and will kill anyone in its part. I haven't tried this one in a very long time.

I take in a deep breath and begin the jutsu, I feel the power around me and the chirping begins. I lock my target and swiftly I move to the post, destroying it within nanoseconds of impact. I keep my arm through the hole that I made for a moment. I breath out, slightly frustrated.

Since when can you do that?

I keep thinking about how Shikamaru seemed to be so awkward yesterday. What could have they guys said to him? Are they probably pulling us together? It was odd and I thought I did something wrong. Based on what the girls talked to me about, maybe the guys did the same thing. I know I felt weird talking about relationships, mostly because I should be arranged with someone else soon.

But when Kiba came over early this morning… it wasn't even a time to hang out. But he said he needed to talk to me. So I allowed him in. He asked me about the future, and I gave him the answer of wanting to protect the village. I learned a lot about Kiba. Kiba isn't so bad, he really does love Tamika. I think he said that she is coming into the village in a few days. And he is really excited to see her.

But, why am I worried so much about it? This is something that I should not care about. Though, he is the first person that I have actually had a conversation with; only we have only known each other almost a month and a half at this point. I sigh and release the sharingan.

Since when do I have… right I copied it. Just as Lord Third asked of me.

I jump back from the post and look at the hole in it. It is choppy and has splinters coming from it. I look up at the clouds, there aren't that many. I sigh and sit down, looking at the scrolls I brought with me. What else can I try to train? I could try… no that only works with a partner. Most of these things only work with someone else around. I should see if Kakashi will let Tenzo train with me. That would require me to hold back though, just as bad as having no training partner at all.

But I shouldn't need to train with someone.

If I am ever to have to fight against the group I would not know the full potential that some of the moves I have been working on. I close the scroll and seal put them back in my bag. I look up at the sky and try to think about the group but the group has not come back into my mind.

I lay down, why can't I think correctly? I knew having friends was a bad idea. I can't make any progress on the group and I am wondering what Kiba and Shikamaru talked about yesterday. But I shouldn't be. The group should not be out of my mind. They should be the only thing that I think about.

"Well, look who is being alone," the familiar lazy voice says bringing me out of my thoughts.

I look up to see Shikumaru looking through the hole in the post that I made. He seems shocked by it. He looks at me as though he has seen this kind of thing before. I only look at him. Wondering why he hasn't been scared off yet. So many people have, and Shikumaru should not be here. I haven't trained with another person in years, I stopped because they would either get badly injured or I had to fight at about 50% efficiency.

Doesn't matter. He shouldn't be here anyway. I need to focus and he won't help me with that.

"I'm trying to train here you know." I reply, a little ruder then I meant it.

"Did you do this?" Shikumaru points to the hole. I respond by nodding. "And you're training by yourself?"

"No one has ever wanted to train with me." I mumble.

"I'll train with you." Shikumaru states.

"And you aren't afraid of me? My powers and jutsu's are greater than Naruto's." I timidly mention.

Plus if I do fight him I know he will never want to speak to me again, which might be a good thing. This feeling that I have been getting around him is one I don't want to figure out. And with everyone talking I don't know what are mine and what are the thoughts they have implanted in my head.

Shikumaru shrugs, "No, I know that everyone should have a training partner and I need to try to improve some things with my jutsu. So why not train together."

I sigh. Getting up and signal for Shikumaru to attack me. I know I should not let him but hey he offered to be my training partner. If he gets hurt I guess that ends whatever is going on. I don't need the distraction of someone in my life. I need to be alone. I know I do not need anyone's help with this. I know that Shikamaru will only distract me when I am trying to figure anything out. This two day break is annoying when I could have made so much progress.

He begins his jutsu and I look at him with the sharingan putting him in a genjutsu. He looks around confused. He retracts his attack and tries to understand. I keep an even look across my face, I stop caring about what is going on through his head.

I shouldn't be doing this.

"What is this place?" He asks.

I look around to see a house. Nothing special about the house, one that a family can live in. There is a child running around, the kid looks like Shikumaru. Then Shikumaru walks out, yelling something. The words are lost to me, but they must mean something to Shikumaru. The kid stops, listening to him than runs inside almost hitting a woman. They begin to talk and after a moment they kiss and move inside.

I turn back to Shikumaru who looks shocked and hurt, "It's what you want most in the world Shikumaru," I sound so cold.

He snaps his attention to me, "But, why her? What's so special about… who is this woman?"

"Someone you know. Someone you care about." I state.

Slowly the ground shakes and I turn around to see his first fight against her in the Chuni exams, where only he passed and the village was destroyed. The fight unfolds as Shikumaru shows how he uses his ability to trap her and how close he was to winning the fight. The points where he tries to flirt with her are highlighted and when she does it back make his heart skip a beat. How he was hurt to learn that she was actually fighting to destroy the village and his reason why she would never like him. It melts away to when they were planning the joint exams. How he tried to do everything for her and show how he felt for her. The growth and development of his love for her.

"You fell in love over years, your feelings were hidden though." I mutter.

"It was… never going to happen." Shikumaru's voice cracks and I turn to him.

He is crying, I know he is heartbroken about her. He talked about it a few more times. But I know if I let him cry more things will only get worse in this.

I walk over to him, "Don't cry, it will chan-"

I never finish, the ground shakes violently and changes to a shadow figure and her. The man is attacking and trying to get the upper hand against her, only she is sitting back. It flashes to them talking about everything while laying down in the grass. Doing things that Shikamaru and her did, but what Shikamaru wanted more of. How the pain and regret of never being able to train with her was killing him, that it should have been him kissing her, not someone else.

I break it, something I never done before. Shikumaru is sitting with his head down crying still.

"What… what was that Tooru?" He asks with a shaky voice.

"It was a jutsu that puts you in your head and shows you what you want the most in life, weather you know it or not. Normally you would live there in the body you want, only you are now confused about what you want." I explain.

"Why would I be confused? I still love her…" Shikumaru mumbles.

Shikamaru never got like this.

"I can't answer that for you." I state simply, maybe just assuming.

"I've wanted her and she doesn't feel the same way about me, why couldn't I live in the world you put up?" Shikamaru asks.

"Again Shikamaru I don't know…" I trail off.

There is a silence, Shikumaru begins to cry more. I bring him in and hold him. He turns into me and lets me hold him. I can feel more pain from him than he wants me to know. Right now all he needs is to know someone wants to help him. After a moment he gets up and runs off.

Since when do you care about others? I thought Shikamaru annoyed you.

I look after him and get up to go home.

Maybe to think about plans that need to be made. That has to come first, I know he will meet me but only talk for a little bit then leave, like everyone else. For some reason that breaks my heart a little bit.