A/N: Hello! Here is a new Chapter and and me that much closer to starting to update the actual story! I think I can finish it by tomorrow. Not a lot changed in this section. I like how I wrote it and added one or two things. But, here you go!

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Chapter 13: An Unexpected Guest

June 22nd:

I wake up feeling that someone is at my door. They are only sitting there and not moving.

I get up and get dressed. I put on some food, ready to invite the person in to eat if they hadn't already. I go to my door and open it. I don't know what I am going to find on the other side of the door, but I don't think it will be pleasant.

I see Neji sitting, as though thinking. He doesn't turn around with the door opening so I lean against the doorframe and wait for a moment. I let him sit there thinking for a few more moments as my mind wonders as well. What the hell could Neji want? From my knowledge he isn't much of the social type of person, and right now he looks like he wants to say something to me.

I shift and sigh, I should get this over with now. I should say something first. I think Neji knows that I am standing outside. I don't understand why he is here though. But I should find out. Kakashi would be mad if I didn't treat all of them the same. I would have invited Kiba in so fast.

I look at Neji a little longer. I feel so… I don't know. I guess out of place with him. Neji is one of the smartest people but he is also someone who comes across as having their life together. Something that most people are just staring to get together now, he looked like this since they were younger.

"Hey what brings you here Neji?" I ask, he looks up at me and has this look of determination.

"A lot. Hinata told me about the great time you guys had," Neji says.

"Why don't you come inside? We can talk over some food," I gesture inside.

Neji gets up and walks inside. I show him to the kitchen and finish up cooking.

There is a moment of silence after I give Neji his food. I look at him and wonder why he has come to visit me. Does it have something to do what I talked to Kiba about yesterday? I am concerned about all of them. But, maybe I shouldn't worry so much. I need to understand that everyone has a reason, just as I have my reason for letting him in. I know that I should just hear him out.

"I bet you're wondering why I'm here," I nod in response, "Well, I was talking to Naruto and Hinata last night and they both think we should help you with Shikamaru. I want to know what you even want with him since you did come out of nowhere. I don't know what you are planning but you better not hurt him. It seems forced the way you came into his life you know."

"What makes you think I would hurt him?" I ask.

"Who even are you? None of us know and it seems suspicious for how you have just come in. Shikamaru refuses to tell us anything. We just want to know." Neji states.

A pause. I don't know what to say to him. I want to avoid the topic of being ordered to become their friends. How Kiba reacted yesterday proves that. But I need to tell Neji something.

You shouldn't have to explain yourself so much to people. That's Kakashi's job.

"I came because of circumstances," I carefully say.

"That doesn't convince me," Neji retorts.

I shake my head, "I don't want to hurt him, or any of you."

Neji pounders this for a moment. He looks away, "It's just, try to understand Tooru. You seem like a really nice girl but I am only about trying to make sure that no one gets hurt here."

I see now, he is worried about his friends getting hurt. I don't know how I can ease his mind seeing as I don't normally deal with people all too well. I guess that he is making sure that I am here only to work and maybe become friends. But what is the point in friendship if no one trust me?

I don't want to tell Neji anything. So far Kiba and Shikamaru know the most about me. There is nothing else for me to do about it. I shouldn't be telling people about myself.

But Kakashi told me to be their friend.

IS this what friendship is about? Every time I think I understand what someone is telling me they go against their word. I don't understand this. I am trained to look at how enemies act, not how people who should have my back are acting.

I don't want to tell him.

"I know. I wish I could tell you more only I can't. You have to take my word that I won't hurt anyone," I say.

"I don't know if I can," Neji looks at me; catching me off guard.

I pause, not knowing what to say to him at all. I only look at him confused, I don't know what to say to him since he clearly does not trust me. And he has every right to. I can tell them anything.

But with this feeling I don't want to. I feel like I did when I had to first tell Lady Fifth about me. How she acted was so different and I didn't want to tell her. I wanted to be as far away from her as I could.

Unlike the time Saskue caught me watching them play ninja. It was a month or two after Itachi left, and Saskue even invited me to play. I ran away though, always. I remember the glare he had. I could not bring myself to ever approach them again; so I slipped into the shadows even more. Now, here I am being told off. So disrespectful to do to someone in their own home.

I don't know how to tell them everything. I shake my head. I was ordered though.

There is a need for me to tell them. I have to tell them.

I don't want to tell Neji.

"I don't know anything about you. Not even a clan name or even how long you've been in the village," Neji codly says.

I feel tears stinging my eyes, "I've been in the village a very long time."

"So you just want me to take your word?" Neji stands up, clearly trying to say he is in charge.

"It's something that you would never be able to understand Neji," I snap, standing up, "You always talked about how people cannot change their destiny. Yet, Naruto changed the fact that you were going to beat him! What about Lee becoming one of the greatest taijutsu user in the whole world? Have you forgotten that you have been wrong with people when someone else believes in them? You have no right to come in here and not want to trust me because of things that are out of my control. Neji I know you will become great but that greatness has a two way street that is you give but you don't receive then you will fail…"

I stop, finally seeing the look of shock on his face. I know I may have gone too far but Neji knows better than to come into someone's home and basically insult them. I know this will cause a rift between us. But I can't deal with these emotions. I feel like I am fighting with myself to get anything done with Neji. I don't like this feeling and I don't like how I am acting.

Yet, I cannot stand here and hear about how bad my intentions are toward the group that Kiba said wants to be my friends. I put my hand on my face and see that it is wet. Pathetic that I am crying in front of someone. Something I have not done since Itachi left. I feel so welcomed into the light of the village, led by no other than Neji.

Some warm welcome by Neji.

This makes me wonder again if having friends is really the best option for me at the moment. I don't think I should be friends with Neji. I don't like the way I am feeling right now. I feel, guilty?

Should I keep going with the orders?

I have to. It is the Hokage's wish for me to be friends with these people. I cannot disobey orders. That is something I have never done. I don't know what happens what I disobey an order, but Lord Third made me think it was awful.

Neji smirks, "Tooru, you have some good points, I've slipped into some old habits that should not happen. Only with you I feel like I should take the precaution."

Why did he just accept it though?

I cross my arms in front of me, clearly upset by Neji. I don't want to keep talking to him. I want Neji to leave. I want to be alone, something I haven't felt like in a long time. I don't want to feel this way.

"Just don't insult someone in their own home. That's what made me mad at you Neji," I say, trying to collect my thoughts again.

"I understand," Neji seems sincere with it.

I look away from him, embarrassed by everything I had just said to him. I know I should not have spoken to one of Shikamaru's friends like this but Neji sometimes needs to understand that not everyone thinks the way that he does. After a moment of looking away I realize that he has moved to a different spot in the house. I walk to the living room and see him getting ready to leave. I flash back to Itachi leaving that day when he left Saskue crying in the street. I know I should stop him, but what good would that do right now?

'become their friends.'

Kakashi's words echo in my head. I need to do this. I need to make things right.

But I don't think this can be fixed right away though. I don't want to fix it, but I have to fix this. By orders.

"I'm sorry Neji if I am pushing you out," I say.

"You aren't. I have training with Tenten and Kiba. But I'll see you around," Neji nods and leaves.

I stand in the middle of the living room, wishing he would have invited me. Training with people is what I've always wanted to do. Being able to have other see what I can do. I never fully trained with someone. I want to. Only I know that is not a good idea since they don't understand my powers like Shikamaru.

I miss Shikamaru.

I sigh and go and clean up the kitchen. I pick up the bowls of rice and see that Neji only ate half of his share I gave him. I put it away, saving it for lunch. I wash them out and hope that Neji isn't going to be a jerk about what he learned from me and how I didn't tell him anything about myself. I don't actually want to tell Neji anything though, I feel uneasy around him already.

How much I want to make friends with them only I can't for some reason since it was something that needed protecting according to Lord Third. I couldn't tell anyone. I was forced to be alone and separated from everyone. I never had a chance to talk to anyone else. Lord Third did this.

Damn Lord Third, he caused all of this. I wish I could not be in ANBU and actually have friends without all the secrets. I know that Lord Sixth and Tenzo are trying to break the seal but it's on the back of their minds with this new group. Even Lady Fifth could not break it with any medical tools she had. The constant trying of breaking the jutsu and not being able to get through any layer of it.

And them trying to break it hurts me. Every time there is a beginning to breaking the seal it hits me harder. I cry out in pain. The seal, when threatened begins to harm the person it is placed on. Last time we tried to take it off I was passed out for a day and a half. I was in a lot of pain. I could barely form a thought. That was a year ago about, and Kakashi hasn't tried to do it again.

Though we did figure out how I can tell one person every six months with permission. Only, I want the rest of them to know. I long for the others to know and actually trust me with missions and helping them with little things. And Lord Sixth can only grant permission once every six months to tell one person about my past. Although, I think the last time we tried to break the seal, it loosened. Which is nice for us now. Now I can tell more people about my past.

The past that is locked away from everyone else except for a few people, one of which is dead. Itachi was one who knew everything about me, and he actually treated me like a six year old who needed to be punished and love. Big brother Itachi was great and he loved everything about his life, except his family motives. I loved Itachi, with all my heart and I envied Saskue for having such a great older brother. I never loved anyone in any way again since, when Itachi left I was heartbroken and I could no longer confide in him. I was alone again, only able to watch people being friends. It was shortly after Itachi left was the park and me being locked away from everyone except a few people.

Until someone else came along.

That someone else doesn't even know that he has helped me so much. I don't feel nearly as robotic as I did before; as though I am actually alive and seeing the world again. Shikamaru's face pops into my head and I can't help but feel sad and happy at the same time. Just the thought of him sends chills through me and I know I have someone else who I finally trust other than Lord Sixth and Tenzo. I feel guilty though, it's not like I'm trying anything with him but just the fact that he has to be the one to know all of this information and he cannot even tell his friends about it. Besides, why would he talk to me after this? He had a date a few nights ago with someone and actually went on it. He seemed happy I guess after it but he still went on it. I shake my head.

Everything is so messed up. I cannot even fathom the fact that Lord Third did this to a child no less, one that could not speak up for herself and fight for her clan name. Kakashi and I both know how messed up it is, but Lord Third did not want anyone to know about me. Only in the process he messed up is my guess and created a seal that would be passed down from each Hokage. Now, we may never figure out how to break it. And no one has ever been able to break the seal.

I sigh, realizing that it is nearly lunch and I have not even started on planning anything today. I get up from the table to grab the plans that Shikamaru and I began a few days ago. I drew up the forest area around the clearing that they always meet. It is detailed and shows every aspect of the clearing. I look and decide to plant my smoke screens. Looking due west of the clearing, away from the village, about 20 meters is another clearing. Hopefully I can also set up some more traps. That would require me to leave a few days earlier than expected. I may even have to leave the a few days after tomorrow in order to set everything up and make sure that I can get away if I need to. I will go and talk to Lord Sixth tomorrow since that is when I need to tell him everything and request to leave sooner than I expected. I can set up traps all around the clearing that only my chakra will set off. I would also need to hide them really well so none of them find the traps while they are doing a sweep. They will not have chakra infused since I can only assume both work off of chakra.