A/N: I can do it. I will update the actual story next week... I think. ANyway not a whole lot changed. If there is no date it is a continuation of the previous chapters date.

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Chapter 16: Making Herbs

I walk home and see Sakura waiting on the porch.

"What's wrong?" I ask walking up to her.

"I have heard many things about you Tooru, and I want to also get to know you," Sakura seems upset.

I am shocked by this. Normally, I don't have people coming and seeing me. But recently a lot of people have been. And I feel overwhelmed. I believe that is the correct word for that. I am not use to talking to so many people in a course of a few days.

"Well, come inside. Yamato is out right now so I can mix and we can also talk," I open the door and Sakura follows.

I can feel her thinking. But I don't know if I should be worried or not. By how she was acting in Kakashi's office. I don't know if she is happy with me.

"Neji doesn't trust you, along with Ino as well," Sakura is timid, "I kind of don't as well. Maybe this will change this though. I don't know how everyone else feels though."

I sit down and begin to mix the herbs, I know that this will take me a while and that I have primary focus on it. I begin to cut up everything so I can grind it up. This is something that I need to focus on, letting Sakura in was a great mistake since she will cause something. I am already stirring with emotions that I never thought existed until a few nights ago when Naruto came over.

That was last night

I also need to remember that I need to focus. Becoming their friend is a secondary mission. A secondary mission to the primary mission, an order. That is all I am good for, giving orders and I obey.

"Look, I don't know what your rank is or anything but you seem very powerful. I, I mean why would you even talk to us? Most of us just became Jonin and some are even being looked at for ANBU. We each are good with a few things and how to do things. I mean Naruto is being looked at for Hokage!" She pauses.

"What point are you trying to make here Sakura?" I don't look up from measuring the herbs out.

I feel the coldness to my voice that hasn't been there since before I started to work with Shikamaru. I don't want to do this, but I don't know what else to do. Shikamaru would understand what I am doing and why I am doing.

"The point is that I don't trust you, and I am a medical ninja. I don't even know what mixture you are making. This isn't something-" Sakura starts.

"This is a family thing that has been passed down generation after generation. I can teach it to you if you would like Sakura," I interject.

This makes her pause a little bit, "Passed down?" I nod, "You have to be joking! I have never seen you around family and I always have seen you around the village."

"That's because I have none!" I shout at her, losing my place in the herbs.

Why did you say that? How could you say that?

She stops, I look down at my work, hoping that I did not just make a mistake by snapping at her. I hate telling people, but I know that I need to get this over with.

I notice that I am about to cut the wrong herb and quickly switch to the other one. I breath and I need to focus on this. I need to do this. I don't need to be distracted about this.

I work in silence and I know that Sakura is watching me, I look up to see she is giving me this compassionate look. One that I see her give everyone else, but the only look I remember is a look of disgust she gave me when we were younger. Something that I could never forget. Something that is a look I think everyone gives.

This look confuses me and I have no idea what to do about it. I look back down and try to hide that I am confused and upset, I don't like this at all.

"I'm sorry. You and Saskue both have something that I cannot understand. I assumed in places that I should not have," Sakura looks down.

"Didn't you have a vision during the Fourth Great Ninja War?" I ask, looking away again.

"No, I was helping Saskue and Naruto," she pauses, "Did you Tooru?"

This makes me stop. Can I actually tell her about what I saw? It was a different life, one I saw but never actually lived. I should be able to tell her. Nothing from that was real, I can tell her about my life, but maybe I should tell her about my life. I know many things could change.

I start to speak, "Yes, my parents I guess were there and I actually had brothers and sisters. We did everything together and I was actually friends with you guys, a very good friend. Only we actually had Lord Fourth and he was a great Hokage. We had missions and would hang out. I enjoyed everything that was going on, it didn't feel like a dream though. Every single person was in harmony and we really only played ninja," I stop, not being able to say anymore.

"That's all you can say isn't it?" Sakura asks.

I nod my head. I know I can tell many things, I should tell her more.

Knowing I have to focus on this or I will cry again. All these emotions are horrible and I don't know how to handle them. I feel arms around me and Sakura's hair is in my face. I place the herbs aside and hug her back, finding comfort in it.

Why did she trust you so fast? What even are your plans?

"Let me help you, I don't want you to get discovered," Sakura picks up one and follows my instructions.

After a late night of mixing and talking Sakura leaves to her own home. I sigh and make sure everything is ready and I go to bed.