A/N: So I am close. I got super distracted last night. But now I will work and get it all together. I will get this ready to update fully soon.

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Chapter 27: Big Brother

The Past:

I am in front of a shop, one that I always meet him at. We are going to have dinner tonight, something that I have been looking forward to since he told me that if I did well on my mission I could meet his family. I am bouncing with excitement, something that only he has ever seen my do.

I search the crowd. The excitement is overbearing that I need to be doing something. The mission was seeing what Orochimaru is doing and from the looks of it he joined some sort of group. But I couldn't tell what the group was doing. Surprisingly my teammates didn't give me a hard time like most people do. They understood that I was being helpful. The chair I am sitting in does not even allow my feet to touch the floor.

Finally I see him and run up to him.

"Big Brother Itachi!" I exclaim.

"Tooru!" Itachi says and pulls me into a big hug, "I heard you had a great mission little bird."

I nod my head, excited to be around big brother Itachi after a few weeks. I always enjoy being around big brother Itachi, he is someone who actually treats me like I am not some crazy ninja who lost everything. I bounce up and down, ready to be treated for being good on my mission.

"Well, looks like you can come over and have dinner with us, though you know the rule of…" Itachi starts

"Transforming into an older form of myself since I am the age of your brother. I know Itachi," I finish for him.

Itachi smiles and grabs my hand, leading me to his family's land. I quickly transform and let go of Itachi's hand. He then raises an eyebrow at me. I crack a smile at him.

Itachi told me a few things about relationships. And when I am a little kid I can hold his hand but as an older version of myself I cannot.

He taught me a lot when I was younger. Stuff that I never knew and that Lord Third never wanted to talk about. Everything with him had to be what the next mission was or finding anything out about plans within the village.

"Don't want your parents to think anything," I state.

Itachi and I laugh all the way to his house. After we take off our shoes Saskue comes running down the hall. He is only six years old but he still is a smart person for his age. Saskue is someone I would like to know and Big Brother told me that one day I could meet Saskue in my normal form. Which would be amazing for me.

I want a friend that is my age.

"Itachi!" he yells.

"Saskue, I would like you to meet Tooru, her and I work together sometimes," Itachi explains.

"Hi Saskue," I says, "Itachi has told me a lot about you."

Saskue crosses his arms in front of him and glares at me. I guess Itachi was right that Saskue doesn't like sharing his older brother. I smile at him and notice Itachi moving through the house. I stand up straight, it feels weird to be this tall right now.

"Saskue, where are mom and dad?" Itachi ask.

"They just left, something about having dinner with someone. I can't remember," Saskue huffs.

"I'm sorry Tooru, they must have forgotten about tonight. Maybe some other time," Itachi explains to me in a soothing voice.

"But Itachi you promised," I whine.

Itachi chuckles, "I know, but that means I have to watch Saskue tonight. We can meet up tomorrow and have lunch together to celebrate a successful mission."

Now it's my turn to cross my arms in front of my chest, but I pop a hip out and look at Itachi. This only causes him to laugh a little harder than before. I frown at him and know that he will not budge on the topic.

I want to stay and be with him, but I know that Itachi said he should only watch Saskue until I meet his parents.

The scene melts away and I yell, "Itachi, no you can't do that!"

"I'm sorry Tooru but it has to be done," Itachi won't even look at me.

I feel the tears coming, "Itachi… please don't"

I hear my voice crack, how could he? He is going to kill everything he ever loves and leave me all by myself; in a place I don't feel welcomed. The place where Lord Third makes sure of everything I do? When I watch the others grow up and play, I have to be on the battle field.

I can't watch Itachi do this. This is something I never thought would happen, big brother Itachi doing this means that there is no hope for his village.

That I should also give up on a brighter future for the village. I don't know if I can be without big brother. I don't want to be without big brother. But I know this is also hard for him. He has to do it.

"I have to do it. It is for the protection of the village Tooru," Itachi reasons.

"Why can't they settle it peacefully?" I question, feeling the tears running down my face.

There is a pause as Itachi sighs to think about how to explain everything to me. But, he knows I am right. There has to be a peaceful way to settle this. Killing should never be the answer.

I don't want this to be the answer.

"I wish I could explain Tooru but I…" Itachi starts.

"So, what? Are you now going to treat me like a seven year old like all the other adults in this village? None of the kids even know I exist! You are the only one that I trust and that treats me like a member of the village. Please Itachi…" I plead.

"Tooru, this isn't just about you. We do not want a war to break out inside the village, causing us to be weak. I care Tooru, but not as much as you seem to think that I do," Itachi kneels in front of me, "I only watched you because it was asked of me. I care more about Saskue."

"Big brother Itachi…" I begin.

Again the scene fades and I am standing across from Itachi on the roof. I can see that he has been crying. I can't even bring myself to talk. I can only look at him and try to understand why. I know about the masked man and the he is going to join that group. But, I just don't see why he left Saskue alive out of any of them. No way will this be good for either of them. No one can save him now. I can see Saskue going down a dark path.

Itachi looks at me, almost ashamed of what he is doing right now… and his chakra has a gloomy feel to it. One that Itachi has been growing over the last few weeks. I feel a tear running down my face, something that I wish would go away. The rain begins to pour down as Itachi turns away.

I want to cry out to him, I want to hold his hand. I know he will run away from me, something that I don't want.

I'm losing my big brother.

I am watching Team 7 with Naruto, Sakura, Saskue and Kakashi taking a break from training. Naruto looks like he might pass out and Sakura and Saskue are sitting down opening their lunch they packed while Naruto complains loudly about how harsh Kakashi is being. Kakashi gets up and sits in the tree with me.

"What do you think?" Kakashi ask in a bored voice.

"I think you should put them in the running for Chunin. It would be good for them," I state, with no emotion.

"And their chakra?" Kakashi asks.

"Sakura is very child-like right now and needs to build up the confidence. She needs to figure out what she is going to do, she is smart but her chakra is very behind her. Naruto though has a bright chakra has a hostile undertone. Something about the fox inside him, but right now it very chilled out and doesn't want to make any moves yet. Saskue's is very dark and is bound to attract something bad to him," I explain, "But be warned Kakashi, dark times are coming that no one can stop. Orochimaru is planning something."

I go away to the other groups and warn them as well, only I find team 10 sleeping and not doing much training. Eventually I get through all teams and look of my role in the exams. My job is to help them cheat and to watch over in the second part of the exam. After the battle rounds I talk to Lord Third.

"Who do you think will pass Tooru?" Lord Third asks.

I look up from the scrolls I am reading to look at what he is trying to get at. I sigh, "From everyone who passed?"

Lord Third simply nods, I set aside my scrolls and begin to think. Out of everyone who fought today there are only a few that could maybe. But out of the Leafs, one sticks out in my mind.

But it isn't the people who are in the top.

Someone overlooked.

"Shikamaru Nara," I state.

"Why do you think that Tooru?" Lord Third asks leaning into his desk.

"He clearly has the ability. Though he is lazy he can analysis a situation in a heartbeat. Something that none of the others can do well enough. Right now Neji needs to learn a lesson on how to treat his comrades. Watching him fight Hinata proved that, there is no way he can ever move up if he holds things against people like that. Naruto doesn't have the abilities yet along with Saskue. Both are too immature to move up and that is something they are bother going to struggle with. Shino won't be able to show off his abilities, but he will grow quickly," I reply.

Slowly the time comes for the final rounds of the exams. I am working security and come up to Kakashi. Something feels off though. I know for a fact that Orochimaru is near, and that ninja killed last night is one that had to be taken out by someone powerful. That Gaara kid seems off as well. He has the same energy that Naruto has but it is full and what even he has is getting ready for something. I turn to Kakashi wanting to know why he was late.

Lord Third was not pleased and sent e to go and find out wat happened.

Suddenly all hell breaks loose and I am trying to figure out a way to save Lord Third before Orochimaru takes his life. I stand there and watch him die, and there was nothing I could have done. I watch as Lady Fifth takes the seat and explain everything to her. I watch them all grow over 3 long years, it happened so fast. I was sent sometimes to go and check on Naruto and a few times I encountered Saskue. Fighting Saskue was odd, he always seemed to grow stronger each time I saw him.

The war, something that I wish I could forget. How I saved Neji.

There was something flying at Hinata, but Naruto gets in the way. I sink into the ground, leaving Shikamaru and pop up right before Neji gets hit. I turn around and see the surprised look on their faces. I smile and sink back down to help Shikamaru again. I stand by him when Sakura goes to help heal Naruto. Shikamaru and I are standing back to back, I am giving him some chakra so we can get the monster coming at us. But then the jutsu happens.

One where I actually had some control over my life. I had a family and grew up with the rest of the ninja my age.

When I wake up I am lying next to Shikamaru, and I hear something. I turn and see Naruto coming over, some people are up but not many of them. I run away, something that I have done my whole life. I go to the village and wait for everyone to return and work with the others to fix what we could of the village.

As the two years go by, my body becomes automatic. I stop thinking about everything. I focus on tasks at hand. I only look forward to maybe sleeping a bit. Lord Sixth sees this and begins to force me to relax and get some sleep. Only, I can no long rest. My body has to be doing something all the time. Resting is not easy for me to do, something ordered a long time ago by accident. Just knowing that Lord Sixth will order a time to relax is something I want.

But I become a zombie and maybe I always will be.