Hey! This is my first-time writing fanfiction, for years I have read hundreds of fanfictions and have had a lot of ideas. This story involves details and characters from The Vampire Academy so I don't own them however as you will notice pretty quickly is I will stray from the plot and make it something else too. I hope you like it and please tell me if I should continue the story otherwise I might not.

Chapter one.

It had been growing on me for quite some time.
I was sick of being seen as less of a being because of how I was conceived, I did not choose to become a dhapmir, I didn't choose to give my life up and always feel like they come first. After everything that went down, Lissa changed and started to treat me like a peasant, after Dimitris chosen words I had enough. I felt it in my core, I was more than this, I needed to do more, I needed to help our world change.

I had weeks to form a plan, I needed to be sure that I was not leaving because of hurt feeling or out of spite, this was for me and it was long overdue.

I knocked on the head guardian Crofts office.

"Guardian Hathaway, please come in."

-"Thank you, sir, I have something I need to speak with you about. Do you have a moment?"

"Ah yes, I think we can make it work, please sit down."

As I took a seat, I studied him, he was well groomed but also had the look like the world rested on his shoulders, he was waiting for me to start and that famous guardian mask was on but somehow he seems more open and somewhat intrigued. Guess my reputation proceeds me.

-"Sir, I'm here to put in my resignation."

Silence. Seconds turned to a minute then he opened his mouth, words seem to fail him. Maybe I broke him?

"I'm sorry but did I hear you correctly? The head guardian of Princess Vasilisa Dragomir is resigning?"

-"Yes sir. Immediately."

"Would you please tell me why?"

He sounded perplexed and even a bit mad, I wonder if I am going to be the one who makes him loose his control, could he turn my resignation away?

-"It's actually quite simple sir, I am not the right person for the job anymore. I am not the best guardian for her, I don't have the right mindset and I have lost the ability to see how my life isn't worth living for myself and only me. not for them and least of all her."

"You are one of the best goddamned guardians I

have, you have grown, you are organized and well respected. One hell of a guardian and you´re not the right person for the job of protecting the future queen?"

I took a deep breath, decided to show him my determination and tell him the truth as I know it.

-"No, I'm not. And most of all I don't want to be, I want to leave. I am meant to do more, I know it. I want a change in our world, we need to evolve, show our people that not living for ourselves is unfair. The world isn't getting any safer cause we're stuck in the past. Somewhere, sometime they´re going to come to me for help and then only then can we start saving our people."

"You have a plan?"

-" Yes sir."

He was quiet for quite a while, studying me, thinking and probably trying to sort this out in his head.

-" Sir I have written my resignation letter and I also wrote a recommendation letter for my replacement."

He cooked one of his eyebrows and said, "Really? Show me then."

I handed him the letters and he started with the recommendation letter, no surprise there Hans.

"Guardian Belikov? That's who you´re recommending? Why? From what I hear he hasn't been kind or grateful and has hurt you."

-"Sir with all due respect, I'm not leaving because of a broken heart or bad relationships. I'm leaving because there is no alternative, I'm not a sad teenage girl. Guardian Belikov is respected and the fear people feel will disappear when you treat him with no fear and that means to reinstate him. He is the man for the job because of the feeling of owing his life to the princess. I have the outmost respect for him, without him I would not have been the one I am today."

"Huh. I have to say that I am surprised and while I don't like this, I can see that you have thought about this and there's no stopping you."

Well, that was easy. A little too easy maybe.

-" Guardian Croft, are you accepting my resignation?"

He held up a finger, gesturing for me to just hold on for a minute and started typing on his computer.

"So here is my thought, after looking into your records. You have two weeks of semester that you can use, before you say anything, listen to me. I need you to take those because of a family emergency, you don't have to pretend but the emergency gives me the right to give the princess a quick replacement, which means I can reinstate Belikov on a test period, as he have been working with you he´s the perfect candidate because he knows your job. Are you following?"

-" Yes sir, please continue."

"During these two weeks I will go through all the channels to work your resignation and to have Belikov reinstated as the princess's primary guardian and your letter really helps with that. You will get paid for the two weeks and then at the end it will be known that you are no longer a guardian."

I release a deep breath and feel the relieve setting in.

-" Thank you, Guardian Croft. I cannot tell you how good this feels, however I do need to tell my friends about me not coming back don't worry I won't say anything about the specifics just that I'm not coming back after my vacation."

He nodded, stood up and raised his hand as if he wanted me to shake it, so I stood up, but he surprised me when he grabbed my forearm in a show of our old ways when greeting or saying goodbye to someone you respect.

"Guardian Hathaway, I wish you good luck and may you find a way to push our society forward, if you ever need help, a mind to discuss with or simply want an update, you call me. I am counting on you and I´m expecting greatness. Go be a warrior for our people."

I bowed slightly and took a step back before turning around and moving out of the office. Never have I felt so heavy and light at the same time, I felt absolutely sure about my decision more now than ever and as I walked, I could feel the bounce in my step, the smile on my face and the love for life. I was free.