A/N: I don't own any of the characters except my own.
Before everyone knew it, December had arrived, which meant big changes for Hank. He was retiring before the Holidays arrived, so he could finish getting his stuff packed for his move to New York. Olivia and Noah had already moved into the new place. Hank and Olivia had gone furniture shopping and bought new furniture for their new home.
On Hank's last day with CPD, Erin and the rest of the Squad had decided that they were going to throw a party for Hank. Olinsky was in charge of keeping him busy until everything was ready. Olivia, her Squad, Noah and Jesse were all invited to the party but had a hard time getting there due to a snowstorm in Chicago, which normally ends up causing havoc on travel. Erin wanted Olivia to be there before Hank was, so he could celebrate with his bride-to-be and their son. Erin loved that Olivia and Hank ended up together and have been pretty much inseparable ever since. What Erin didn't know was that on Hank's last trip to New York, which was the previous weekend for an early birthday celebration for Olivia, they went to City Hall and got married. They decided not to wait. Olinsky knew as he had been there, Olive knew because he called her afterward and of course, Olivia's Squad, Noah and Lucy knew because they had all been there as well. Olivia wore her ring but for now, Hank only wore his when he was with Olivia. Olinsky arrived with Hank the same time Jay arrived with Olivia and Company.
"There's my favorite Lieutenant. Erin is throwing me a party, isn't she?"
"Yep."
"Daddy!"
"Hey, Buddy!"
Noah ran over to Hank and gave him a great, big hug. Olivia walked over to him and kissed him.
"I missed you, Mrs. Voight."
"I missed you more and by the way, Jay knows."
"Ok. I did tell Trudy too. Erin will be pissed I'm sure."
"No doubt."
"I think she suspects something. She said it wouldn't surprise her of you two got married sooner than you originally planned. She'll probably act all pissed off because you didn't include her in your plans."
"I think we should tell everyone else."
"I agree. Can we talk for a minute?"
"Of course."
"In private."
"My office?"
"At your house would be better."
"Ok."
"Hank took Olivia's hand and they headed to his SUV. Then he drove home. When they arrived, they went upstairs, so Hank could get his ring and put it on, while Olivia sat down on the bed. He sat down next to her and took her hand in his.
"That doesn't look like a happy face."
Olivia put her head down as her eyes filled with tears.
"I have already failed you as a wife."
"We've only been married a week."
"I had a miscarriage."
"Oh."
"I am so sorry. I wanted to give you another child so bad and now I have let you down."
"It's not your fault and you didn't let me down. I have a feeling that I am going to have my hands full with Noah. Sure, it would have been nice for us to have a child that we created together but don't think for a minute that you let me down. You mean everything to me and I will love you whether you give me a child or not. I don't care about that."
"That's not all. The doctor told me that I have cysts on my ovaries, which is probably why I miscarried. Lucy is the only other person that knows. I haven't even told my Squad yet. I wanted you to know before I told them. I'm sorry."
"Don't be sorry. It could happen to anyone. Are you having surgery?"
"I am having a hysterectomy and I scheduled it not too long after we come back from our cruise."
"Ok. Is still ok for us to make love?"
"I had the procedure done after the miscarriage and I should probably wait at least a couple weeks."
"We'll wait as long as we need to. Does Noah know?"
"No. I called Lucy and asked if she could stay all night with him and I told her why but to just tell him I was still at work. I stayed overnight and then called in the next day. She dropped him off at daycare and came to pick me up. I've been trying to take it easy these last few days. Obviously I didn't do much for my birthday after our weekend together."
"Why didn't you call me? I would have gone out there to take care of you."
"I thought I would be ok and I didn't want Noah to know something was wrong."
"You need to let me do my job as your husband, ok?"
"Ok. Would you mind holding me? It's been a crappy week."
"You don't even have to ask."
They moved so they were laying on the bed and then Hank wrapped his arms around her as he kissed her.
"I love you."
"I love you too. I have news."
"What?"
"Olive decided to take her boss up on her offer to become part of the team in the new office in New York. She's been really thinking about Justin lately because it's getting closer to the birth and she wants to be where I am. Her boss knows her situation and leaves just after the first of the year. Olive will go out there some time after the baby comes. She wants to know if they can come live with us."
"Absolutely."
"She also wants to know if Lucy will help take care of the kids."
"She asked me if we were still going to need her and I said we would. Olive is having another boy, right?"
"Yes. She is naming him Justin Michael Jr. She actually wanted to name Daniel after his father but he didn't want that, so he's named after both of his grandpas. She decided this one would be named after his daddy, since he was no longer here. I'm happy with that but I would have been happy with a granddaughter too."
Hank's cell phone rang and he noticed it was Olive, so he answered it. After he was done talking to her, he hung up.
"Wow!"
"What?"
"Olive found out something a few months ago that she never told me until now."
"What's that?"
"She's having twins. The second one is a girl. Her girl's name in case she was having one was Nicole Olivia, after both grandmas but also after her too. She knows Justin would have been ok with that. I think Justin would have loved you."
"I wish I had gotten the chance to meet him."
"I wish you had too."
They kissed again and Hank held her a little while longer before they headed back to the District. When they got there and went up, no one but the group from SVU, Olive and the kids were there. Olivia and Hank hugged Olive when they saw her.
"So, I hope Lucy is ok with helping with the kids."
"She'll be fine I'm sure. Although we will have to tell her there will now be 4 of them."
"4?"
"Yeah. I'm actually having twins, a boy and a girl. After they're born, I'm moving to New York. My boss is opening a new office there and asked if I'd be a part of her team. It's more important for me to be where Hank is and my family understands that. I wish I could go out there now but I'm at 36 weeks, so they said it could happen at any time."
"Well, then I guess that means you won't be leaving Chicago until after she has the babies, which means Noah and I will be spending Christmas alone. I wanted us to spend our first Christmas as a family together. We're leaving New Year's Day for our honeymoon, don't forget."
"Yeah, I know."
Olive started to look a little uncomfortable.
"I need to sit."
Hank pulled up a chair for Olive and then she sat down, while Olivia went into Hank's office and hung up her coat. She sat down on the sofa and started crying.
"Liv has been really upset about something lately."
Hank went into his office and shut the door. Then he took off his coat and sat down next to Olivia.
"We'll get through this. Come here."
"This isn't working."
"What isn't?"
"We aren't. I thought once we got married, we'd be together forever. So far, that hasn't happened."
Hank started rubbing her back but she pulled away.
"What has gotten into you? Not that long ago, you wanted me to hold you and now you won't even let me touch you. I don't understand you sometimes. I'm getting tired of you playing games with me, Benson. Either you want to be my wife or you don't."
"I do."
"Then we have to try a little harder. I want to be there for Olive because my grandchildren are the only connection I have to my son. I know I need to be with you and Noah too. How about this? I'll go back to New York with you and Noah and then I can get the Nursery, Daniel's room and Olive's room painted and set up. Then we can come back here for Christmas. If she hasn't had the babies by the time we leave for our cruise, I'll leave Erin in charge. You have my word."
"I love when you say that because I know you mean it."
"You know I will do anything for you."
"I know."
Olivia put her head on Hank's shoulder and then there was a knock at the door.
"Come on in."
Fin opened the door and came in.
"Olive thinks she's in labor. She said she wants both of you in with her. Apparently she's having a c-section."
"Ok. We'll be right there."
"Ok."
Fin left and shut the door behind him.
"Are we ok?"
"Yeah. I'll drive, so you can call her family."
"Ok."
Hank kissed Olivia and helped her with her coat. He put his on and they walked out of his office. Olive gave Fin her keys, so he drove her SUV with Rollins, Carisi, Jesse and Daniel, while Olivia drove Hank's with everyone else. Hank called Olive's family on the way to Med. Once they arrive at Med and Olive was admitted, the nurse took Hank and Olivia to get ready as another nurse got Olive ready. They went into the OR and within minutes, Justin Michael Jr. and Nicole Olivia came into the world. They went with the nurses to the Nursery, so the babies could get cleaned up, weighed and measured. Hank and Olivia took them to the waiting room to meet their big brother. Hank's Squad was there when they came in.
"This is Justin and that's Nicole."
"Twins?"
"It looks that way, Erin. Daniel, this is your brother and your sister."
"Babies."
"Mommy."
"What, Baby?"
"Can we have a baby?"
Olivia started to become visibly upset, so she handed Nicole to Erin and ran out of the room.
"Sorry, Daddy."
"It's ok, Buddy."
Hank took the babies to the Nursery and went to find Olivia. Olinsky, Fin, Rollins and Carisi followed.
"Voight, what's goin' on with her?"
"She needs to be the one to tell you."
They found Olivia in the cafeteria as far away from everything as she could get and she was crying.
"Just leave me alone."
"Why do you have to be so difficult?"
"I'm scared, Hank."
"I'd be lying if I said I wasn't. They need to know."
Everyone sat down.
"I found out I was pregnant and earlier in the week when I left early because I wasn't feeling right, I went to the hospital. I was about 8 weeks along but obviously it wasn't meant to be because I miscarried. When they did the ultrasound, the doctor told me that I have cysts on my ovaries. I am scheduled for surgery in mid January after we get back from our cruise and everything is being removed. They did the procedure they usually do following a miscarriage and I had to stay overnight. Lucy was the only one that knew and I told her to tell Noah I was still at work. I didn't know how to bring it up with all of you. I never called Hank because I didn't want Noah to start asking questions when his daddy shows up unexpectedly right after he leaves to come back to Chicago. I had a pretty crappy birthday as it was and I wish this stinkin' week had never happened."
"Man, Liv, I wish you would have told one of us. You should not have had to go through all that by yourself. How'd you get home?"
"Lucy took Noah to daycare for a few hours and came to get me. The next day, I had her take me to get my SUV. Noah of course asked why it was at the hospital and I told him that I was too tired to drive it home. I hate lying to him but how do I tell my 3-year old son that he is never going to have a brother or sister?"
"We'll tell him together, ok?"
"Ok."
"It's not cancer, is it?"
"They don't think so but they will have to be sent for biopsy. I guess I will have to talk to Chief Dodds because they will have to know what I'm doing and they will have to bring someone in to replace me while I'm off. I actually need to go over to 1PP anyway because I need to change my beneficiary stuff and I did legally change my name, so I have to pretty much change everything. Other than the 3 of you, no one knows we got married. Barba knows but I haven't even told Ed yet."
"What did Barba say?"
"He said he wasn't surprised."
Hank got a text from Olive's mother that she and her husband were flying into Midway and asked if someone could come get them.
"Do you want to go for a ride with me?"
"Where to?"
"Midway Airport to pick up Olive's parents."
"Sure. Maybe we should take the boys."
"We could do that."
"Liv, if you need anything, let us know."
"You know I will. I could use some prayers, I guess. Lucy already has her mom praying for me."
"Mine will be too and so will I. My mom will take care of food."
"We appreciate that. Thanks, Carisi."
"No problem."
Hank and Olivia got up and went back to the waiting room to get their coats and the boys.
"We're going to go pick up Olive's parents at Midway."
"Ok. Is there something you'd like to tell me, Hank?"
"Like what?"
"Oh, I don't know. Like maybe that you and Liv are married."
"Wait, you two got married? No kidding. Congratulations."
"Thanks. We'll talk later, Erin."
"No, I think we'll talk now."
"We have to go."
They put the boys' coats on and then they headed to Midway. When they arrived, Hank found where they were supposed to pick up the Morgans. Hank met them at Justin's funeral, so he knew who they were. He got out and helped them with their bags.
"It's good to see you two again and this time under better circumstances."
"You too, Hank. How are things going?"
"Not too bad. She's been thinking a lot about Justin lately but so am I. The twins are beautiful."
"They sure are. Thanks for the picture."
"No problem."
"Olive said you got married since the last time we saw you."
"I did."
"Congratulations."
"Thanks."
"How long?"
"A week ago. We were going to get married in a couple weeks but we figured that we'd just go ahead and do it. We're going on our honeymoon in a couple weeks."
"Where to?"
"A Caribbean cruise for 10 days."
"That'll be nice."
"We hope so."
Hank put their bags in the back of his SUV and then they all got in.
"Dan and Nicole, this is my wife, Olivia and our son, Noah. Olivia, this is Dan and Nicole Morgan, Olive's parents."
"It's nice to meet you."
"You too. Hi, Noah."
"Hi."
"I see someone is sleeping."
"Yep. Sometimes when she wants him to sleep, he won't."
"He's at that age."
Hank left to head to Chicago Med.
"Thanks for allowing her to stay with you in New York."
"No problem."
"She probably wouldn't have done it if you weren't going to be there."
"She's a good kid."
"Yes, she is. She didn't want to take this job because she didn't want to be any farther from us but we convinced her that you probably needed our grandchildren around more than we do. Our other kids are nearby, so we see our other grandkids all the time."
"They're my only connection to Justin."
"That's why we were ok with this. What do you do, Olivia?"
"I'm also a cop. I'm a Lieutenant with NYPD Special Victims Unit. How about the two of you?"
"I'm a Lieutenant with the Indianapolis Fire Department."
"I'm a teacher. I teach 4th grade."
"So, Hank, you're going to be a stay at home dad and grandpa, huh?"
"Pretty much. I'm looking forward to it. We will still have the Nanny to help us out."
"Nicole is retiring at the end of this school year and I might be too. I haven't decided yet. We do want to travel. We've actually never been to New York, so I'm sure we'll be coming to visit quite a bit."
"We'll be happy to have you."
"Do you have any hobbies you'll be doing in your free time?"
"Not really. I have some projects around the house to keep me busy. My first one will be painting and setting up the Nursery, Daniel's room and Olive's room. She mentioned eventually putting Daniel and Justin in the same room."
"If we have to, we can put Daniel in with Noah until his room is ready."
"Yes, we could."
"I'm also going paint the basement make it my man cave. I want to get a pool table and air hockey table for down there. I bought a huge TV and I had to get the sports package with the Cable Company, so I can keep up with my Chicago sports teams."
"You mean the room where you can tune me out?
"You're funny."
"When does your stuff get picked up?"
"Tomorrow sometime. I need pack my suitcase with whatever I'm taking with me."
"I still need to wrap presents when I get back."
"Where'd you put it all?"
"Wherever I could find a place that he can't get into. He's nosey."
"Well, yeah. He's 3."
Hank arrived at Chicago Med. While they were gone, some of the Squad had gone to get the food and cake and put it in the cafeteria, so they could still celebrate Hank's retirement. Olive was moved to her room, so her parents went to be with her, while everyone else went to eat.
"Hank, when the hell were you planning to tell me you got married?"
"Before I left."
"Well, I should have been there. All these years you claimed that I'm part of the family but you don't even include me in this. Why was Olinsky there and not me? Obviously neither of you care about me or my feelings at all."
"Because he was in New York with me and Olivia and I all of a sudden decided we wanted to get married."
"Well, congratulations, have a nice life and go to hell. Both of you. While you're at it, stay out of my life."
To be continued…
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