A/N: I don't own any of the characters except my own.
Trevor and Denise both stopped crying and then Olive came back. She handed Denise her tea.
"Thank you, Olive."
"No problem."
"Can you be here tomorrow?"
"I'll see if I can come here before I go to work and then I'll come see you after."
"Ok."
They moved Trevor to a room and Olive and Denise went with him. Olive texted Hank to see if he could pick her up because Olivia had gotten a case. He said he would and he'd let her know when he was there. Then Olivia found them.
"Done. Everyone told me to go home."
"I just texted Hank to come get me."
"I'll call him."
Olivia called Hank.
"Hey."
"I'm done, so you don't have to come get Olive."
"Ok. How's Trevor?"
"He has to have surgery first thing in the morning."
"That sucks. Tell him I hope everything goes well."
"I will. Did the kids go to bed without any issues?"
"Noah and Rachel went right to sleep and of course so did the twins. Daniel was kind of fussy. Nicole got him to calm down and fall asleep. He misses his mama. He told me he likes Trevor. So does Olive."
"Yes, she certainly does. We'll see you in a little while."
"Ok. Just be careful."
"I will. I love you."
"I love you too."
Olivia hung up the phone.
"Hank said he hopes everything goes well."
"Thanks."
"He said Daniel was being kind of fussy at bedtime. Your mother finally got him to sleep. He told Hank that he likes Trevor."
"Do you think Hank knows?"
"You can't put anything passed him."
"I know."
"Olivia, how long have you and your husband been together?"
"We've been a couple for 10 months and we've been married for 4. The feelings have been there a lot longer though. We've known each other for about 2½ years. He admitted to me a little over a year ago that he had feelings for me and I told him I was in a relationship with someone else. He lost his son about a year ago. My ex wanted to take my son and I to Paris last summer but I hadn't been honest with myself about my true feelings for Hank, so I obviously wasn't being honest with Ed about them either. He told me to figure it out. Obviously I did and I'm now with the man I've loved all along. Ed and I are still great friends and he and Hank have become friends as well."
"How old is your son?"
He's 3 and adopted. We adopted a little girl, who's 2. Hank and I had almost had a baby together but I ended up miscarrying. That was hard. We had gotten married a few days before and Hank had gone back to Chicago. This happened the day before my birthday. I wasn't feeling right, so I left work early and drove myself to the hospital. I was told that I lost the baby and I had cysts on both ovaries. I scheduled the hysterectomy for a month later. I had the procedure done after the miscarriage and I called Lucy, my son's nanny and told her because she needed to stay with him since they were keeping me overnight. I told her not to tell anyone and if Noah asked where I was, she should tell him that I was still at work. I told my squad that I wasn't feeling well, so I wouldn't be in. I had Lucy pick me up after she dropped Noah off at daycare. We went to pick my vehicle up later and Noah asked why it was still at the hospital. I told him that I was too tired to drive home. I hated lying to him. I ignored calls and texts from my squad wishing me a happy birthday. Ed called to see if I was interested in going to lunch but I never responded. I couldn't even talk to Hank, my own husband and he was the one I really needed at that point. Later that week, we were going to Chicago for Hank's retirement party and I finally told him. He told me I should have called him, so I didn't have to go through it alone. I told him that I didn't expect him to come back and I also didn't want Noah to start asking questions as to why Daddy was back. I told Hank that I felt like I already failed him as a wife. He said I didn't. Olive had gone into labor with the twins and Noah said he wanted a baby brother or sister. I just about lost it. I told my squad and they were nothing but supportive. I told Noah before I put him to bed and he understood more than I thought he would. He told me that it was ok to cry. When we got Hank moved here, we were having Ed over for dinner. We had gotten a case, so I told him to go ahead eat without me. He told Ed what had happened and he was pretty supportive too. Hank said he wishes I had said something to someone. He would have been fine with someone from my squad being there or he even said he would have been fine with Ed being there. I know I was wrong. I'm sorry for rambling."
"Don't apologize. How do you know Trevor?"
"He used to be a Defense Attorney and he represented a lot of the accused rapists from our cases. We didn't always get along. We had this case where I was the prime suspect because the DNA at the scene matched mine. The guy that was found dead, I didn't even know. Ed used to head IAB, so we never got along either. He arrested me for the murder of this guy and he told my Captain that I needed a good Defense Attorney if my innocence was going to be proven. I was in Central Booking and my attorney showed up. I thought he was just there to tease me or something and I told him he could just keep on walking. He said he was retained to represent me. It turned out that someone was trying to set me up to take the blame and had even done something to the DNA to make it seem like it was mine. I was so afraid of what was going to happen to me because the Judge had remanded me to jail until the trial unless I could make bail. The friends of the guy that I was accused of killing had friends in prison, so they would make sure they paid me a visit. My former partner took out a second mortgage on his house to bail me out. I don't know if he had ever told his wife what he did or not. Several years later, Trevor ended up being retained for this girl we had arrested and it was a pro bono case for him. She was the mother of this baby boy we had found. She was an addict and I told her that if the wanted her son back, she needed to get cleaned up for him. She tried but we think she had gone out looking for a fix and was gang raped and burned to death. I had attended all the Family Court hearings for the boy, now known as Noah Porter. Trevor had shown up to represent Noah and as Noah was about to be put in state custody, the Judge asked me if I would consider fostering him. I was more than happy to. She also said I would be able to adopt him after a year. Being a mother was the one thing I wanted most. Years ago, I had tried to adopt but they told me I couldn't as a single parent. Trevor worked with me for the entire year preparing me for everything. We found out who Noah's biological father was after an arrest and he was awaiting trial. My friend, who is the current Assistant District Attorney told me not to say anything because it could have an impact on the adoption and I could have to take him to see him in prison until he turned 18. I hate lying, so I told Trevor. At the trial, Noah's father got a hold of The Court Officer's gun and started shooting. He shot the Judge and a Court Officer and killed another Court Officer. He shot one of my Detectives and that same Detective shot and killed him. A couple weeks later, Noah Porter became Noah Porter Benson. I went to Trevor when Hank wanted to make it official with Noah, so now he's officially Noah Porter Voight. I never knew what his actual middle name was, so that's why I kept the Porter. Rachel came into our lives on the day I had my surgery and 3 months later, she was officially ours. Even though I didn't give birth to them, I love them both so much."
"Does your husband just have the one child he lost?"
"He found out that he has a daughter from a one night stand. They've been a part of each other's lives since she was 15 and she was one of his Detectives. He found this out recently. Her mother was murdered not too long ago by the guy her mother told her was her father. Erin is engaged to be married and pregnant with our 4th grandchild. We should probably go."
"Hank worries too much."
"He does but that how we know he loves us."
"Yeah, I know. Trevor, I'll see you in the morning hopefully."
"Ok. Thanks for being here."
"No problem. It's the least I could do after you took a week off from your job to take care of my kids."
"They're good kids."
"Thank you."
"Langan, I'll stop by on my way home after work."
"Thanks."
"Sure. I'm sure your poker buddies will miss you since you are the only one besides me that can beat Barba."
"We played the other night at Ed's. It's more fun at your house. Jeff wants to join us now too."
"That's good. Somehow I can't see Ed having a poker game at his apartment."
"Amanda, Diana and I had fun."
"That's great. I'm glad you get along with them so well."
Olive kissed Trevor's cheek and then she and Olivia left to head home.
"Thanks for being here, Mom."
"You're welcome. I really am sorry for everything."
"I know you are. I want you in my life again. For good this time."
"I want that too. I know I should have listened to you when you told me you didn't trust him. I'm really proud of you for becoming a lawyer like your dad. He'd be really proud of the man you became. You went to Yale?"
"Where else? I graduated at the top of my class in College and Law School. Frank never thought I would amount to anything."
"I know he did. I started drinking after your dad's death and after I met Frank, it got worse. He was to blame for me turning against you. I'm glad I never had kids with him. He verbally abused Colleen, Rick and Katie as well. Katie is the only one still in this area. Rick is a firefighter in Chicago. Colleen is also a nurse and she's in Boston."
"How many kids do they have?"
"Colleen and her husband, Scott have Max and Molly, who are 3. They're expecting #3 by fall. Rick and Jessica have Ricky, who's 8, Emma, who's 6, Abby, who's 4 and Sarah, who's 2. They're expecting #5 this summer and it's another girl. They haven't decided on a name yet as far as I know. Katie is 35 and still single for now."
"I just haven't found the right woman yet. I had feelings for Olivia for a while but obviously that never went anywhere. Olive says she feels something for me but needs time to mourn her husband. Sometimes I think I'm kidding myself with her. I'm over 20 years older than her."
"Scott is closer to my age, so he's 20 years older than Colleen and she's 39. He's divorced and never had any children with his first wife. He's a Surgeon at the hospital she works at. She's in Pediatrics. They started spending time together and eventually started dating. They dated for 5 years before they decided to get married to make sure it was going to work out. They've been married for 5 years. He even said he feels he has more in common with her than he did with his first wife, who was the same age as him. He said she keeps him young. Rick is 37 and married his high school sweetheart 10 years ago. As long as they're happy, that's all I care about. Olive is still vulnerable after losing her husband. Give her time. She obviously cares about you too or she wouldn't have been here."
"Yeah, I know. She offered to have me stay with them while I'm recuperating. I don't know."
"I can stay with you. Katie is taking a vacation soon, so maybe she could help out. We're planning to go to Chicago when Jess has the baby but that's not until the end of June or beginning of July. She and I are also planning to go to Boston when Colleen has the baby. They have a nanny for the twins but we want to be there just like I was when they were born. I stayed with them for quite a while to help out. She's not sure she wants to return to work this time."
Trevor was just about asleep.
"I love you, Sweetie."
"I love you too, Mom."
Denise kissed Trevor's forehead and then he fell asleep. Olivia and Olive arrived at the house and Olivia parked in the garage before they went in.
"You hungry?"
"Yeah, a little bit. I did the grocery shopping after work the other day."
"Oh, great. Thank you."
Olivia went into the freezer and got the ice cream. She didn't notice it at first but Hank was asleep in the family room. He woke up when he heard something in the kitchen.
"Is that you?"
"No, it's not me."
"You're funny."
"You want some ice cream?"
"Sure."
Olivia got out the bowls and spoons and the put the ice cream in the bowls.
"You didn't have to wait up if you're tired."
"I usually wait up for you, don't I?"
"Yeah, you do but never after a long flight like we had."
"We have something we need to take care of anyway."
"I should finish this and get to bed. I told Trevor that I'd try to get there before he goes into surgery."
"Ok."
Olive finished her ice cream, hugged Hank and Olivia and went to get ready for bed.
"Ok, what's she not telling me?"
"She kissed Trevor but I heard that from him and not her."
"At least he's honest."
"That's true."
Hank and Olivia finished their ice cream, put the bowls in the dishwasher and went upstairs. Olivia went to check on Noah and Rachel. Hank heard Olive crying, so he knocked on her door.
"Come in."
"You ok, kid?"
"I don't know. I kind of kissed Trevor. A part of me isn't sorry I did it but another part of me thinks it's too soon. I still love Justin with all my heart and I really don't know why I'm so attracted to Trevor."
"You sure about that?"
"Not really. He's gorgeous and every time he smiles at me I get weak in the knees. He already loves my kids. That means something, doesn't it?"
"It probably does. Did you feel that way about Justin?"
"Yeah. You know I did."
"Does this have anything to do with the fact that Trevor is a successful lawyer?"
"No. I'm interested in more than just his money. Money never mattered to me and neither did the fact that both you and Justin have been to prison. If I had to spend the first several years of my marriage and my children's lives being an Army wife, I would have. It would have been difficult if he had actually been shipped off somewhere but I would have had to deal with it."
Olivia joined them.
"Trevor told me some stuff about him that I don't think he's told too many people about if at all."
"He told me. I told him he should tell you."
"I'm glad he did."
"Care to fill me in?"
"His dad died when he was 10 and he was physically and verbally abused by his stepfather. He said he would call him a sissy and a pansy and told him he would never amount to anything. His mother took her husband's side. After he called the police on his stepfather once, she told him he needed to show her husband some respect. She slapped him in the face and told him to get out of her house. He said she was drunk quite often. I can relate to that because of my mother and she did become physically and verbally abusive with me. She never thought I'd amount to anything and I'd never make anyone happy. I proved her wrong just like Trevor proved his stepfather wrong. He's a great lawyer and I'm a Lieutenant with the NYPD, I have an incredible husband and an amazing family, which now includes Diana and Kara. I'd even be fine with having Ed as a brother-in-law. I wish I had known Justin but that was my fault. I love Erin and you know that."
"I know. She loves you too. You're more of a mother to her than Bunny ever was."
"How did that even happen anyway?"
"I was young and stupid. It never should have happened but at least I took responsibility for my daughter when she was 15 without knowing she was mine. Bunny just wanted to drag her down with her. If I had known she was mine 2 years ago when Nadia died, I would have tried to keep her clean. Bunny was always jealous of the relationship I had with Erin because unlike her, I love her and would do anything for her. I just don't want the fact that she is mine and that I wasn't honest with you about my relationship with Bunny to affect us in any way."
"It won't. I know you wouldn't but I just don't want you to let something like that happen now."
"You know I'd never do that to you and I never would have done that to Camille. If Camille ever suspected anything, she never said it. I completely fell apart when Camille died and losing Justin just made me miss her even more. I really wanted to kill the bastard that murdered my son but I couldn't risk not seeing my grandchildren grow up. At the time, I didn't care if I got caught and ended up in prison again. I had nothing other than Daniel."
"Daniel and I along with the twins are a package deal right now and you'll always have me. You will always be a part of my kids' lives even if I ever remarry. You welcomed me into the family pretty much right away after I told you I was pregnant with Justin's baby."
"What else was I going to do?"
"You could have turned me away, which is what I expected you to do. I mean some strange girl shows up on your doorstep and tells you that she's carrying your son's child. Then I nearly got us both killed."
"At that point the only thing I was concerned about that had been stolen was Camille's engagement ring. She had wanted me to give it to Justin. I'm glad he was happy even if it was only for a year and a half. He'd be really proud of Daniel and he would have loved the twins."
"Yeah, I know. I think he would have wanted me to find love again."
"Yeah, he did. He told me before he got shot that if something ever happened to him, he wanted you to end up with someone who made you and his son happy."
"I just wish he could have met Justin and Nikki. He would have spoiled his daughter rotten."
"I wish his twin had survived. That's 3 children I've lost."
"I still wonder what could have been sometimes too. I know it's my fault."
"Quit blaming yourself. It's nothing you did or didn't do. It just wasn't meant to be. That's all. I just wish there was more that I could have done to prevent what happened to Justin."
"I always figured he would have gotten sent overseas somewhere and I would have lost him then. It still doesn't help with the pain but spending time with Trevor sometimes helps. I still don't understand how that man is single. I mean I do after what he told me."
"He's pretty vulnerable because of that. I never expected to hear that from him though. We lost many cases to him over the years, so I know what he's capable of doing in the Courtroom. Maybe that was his way of trying to push what happened to him to the back of his mind. It took him close to 30 years to admit that he was physically and verbally abused by his stepfather. I asked him if there was more to it because that's what I do and he swore to me that it never went any farther than it did. He said he wouldn't have been able to defend rapists for all those years if he had."
"Do you think he would have told you if he had?"
"I think he would have. He probably wouldn't have been able to defend rapists had his stepfather sexually abused him without it triggering something. I was never raped but I've come close a couple times and what happened to me was actually sexual assault, so I have been there. I have a lot of physical and emotional scars because of what happened. Ed did the IAB investigation, so he already knew about the scars. Hank said we all have some kind of scars that are a part of who we are, whether they are physical , emotional or both. I have no idea about Trevor's personal life and any relationships he's been in, so anything that may or may not happen between the two of you in the future may be something that hasn't happened for him in a long time."
"I did ask him how long it has been since he was last with a woman and he said College. He had a girlfriend in College but he broke up with her just before he started Law School because he wanted to concentrate on that. She wanted him to propose because she wanted babies with him. He wasn't ready for that, so he ended it, which she was not too pleased about. He wanted someone who was interested in him for him and not how much money he was going to make. "
"I never cared about money myself. I marry for love. Justin was happy in the Army and if he had decided he wanted to do that for a while, I would have been fine with it. I supported him no matter what."
"Good for you. I marry for love too."
"Me too. I was lucky to have been able to find love twice in a lifetime."
"I had a hard enough time finding it once. I don't think I want to do it again."
"I'm not going anywhere. I just don't want something happening to you. I was so afraid of losing you the way I lost Camille. I'm grateful you didn't have cancer. I couldn't go through that again."
"I was starting to get scared myself. I'm glad I didn't have to go through that alone. I shouldn't have dealt with the miscarriage alone though."
"No, you shouldn't have. We should let Olive get some sleep."
"Ok. Goodnight, Olive."
"Goodnight. I love you both. Thank you for putting up with me."
"We love you too and you're welcome."
They both hugged Olive, went into their bedroom and locked the door. Olivia got ready for bed, while Hank got into bed. She went into the bedroom got into bed with Hank and then they started kissing. They undressed each other and made love before falling asleep in each other's arms.
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