I prob. wont be able to write much for the next two-ish weeks, so I thought id post this as a heads up. Im really sorry this is so short, but I have a killer headache, and I dont have a ton of time. Like at all.
Naturally, She did the last thing I expected.
Just like how she didn't inch away from my the time I sat too close - the instinct to stay away backward.
Just like how she wasn't repulsed by my abnormally cold skin.
Just like she wasn't horrified by the fact that I had to resist the urge to kill her - to drink her blood.
Just like she decided, it didn't matter if I was human or not.
Just like she didn't run screaming from Jacob.
Just like she wasn't mortified at my glittering skin... or disgusted...
Of course, the first thing she did was smile plesantly. Who wouldn't. How silly of me to expect a different - more negative - reaction after she just tried to take her life.
And speak of her, there she sat, grinning boyantly.
You'd think she'd start crying. You'd think.
She leaned forward and let out a small gasp of pain. relization lit up her feartures, and...
The smile crumpled. Crashed and burned. She started to sob hystarically
All the meanwhile, I was frozen. Again, just like when she tried to take her life, I was rooted to the spot, unable to move.
She turned her head away from me, shoving it in the pillow behind her.
I cleared my throat. "Bella -"
She turned more into the pillow. I could hear the soft tearing of mending skin. I quickly assessed the damage. Nothing urgent, but she should be careful. This all took less than one of her panicked hearbeats. "Go away. Or stay. I don't know. But don't give me any speeches on how i shouldntve dont what I did, dont make me promise not to try again, because I will." Her voice was suprisingly steady.
Carlisle was thinking of the therapy books he'd been reading. "Bella, is there truly nothing worth living for? even a small thing? Like getting to see the stars at night? Or getting to enjoy the meadow. I know Edward went with you once?"
Bella seemed to actually consider this, taking me - again - by suprise. I mentally sighed. She kept doing that. "Nothing is worth the pain. Except one." Her eyes flickered to me, and I realized she was not facing us. "But Angels are in heaven, so he'll be with me regardless. And even Hell will be better than this." I could see it in her eyes.
She truly believed it.
Carlisle gave a compassionate smile. "Let me help you get rid of the pain, Bella. It won't last forever."
Silence streatched on for a long moment. "We can try." She murmured begrudgingly, and I made a mental note to thank Carlisle later.
I was crying into the hospital pillow when Rose came in. It had been a few days, and I'd be realised in the morning. "I was told it was my turn to watch you, so I supposed I'd make use of the time to tell you a story." She said softly.
A/n: Rose tells Bella her background on how she became a vampire. Im not going to copy it all down for several reasons, but do please forgive me for it.
I stared at Rose, seemingly frozen. "But... Weren't you depressed after becoming a vampire?" Rose smiled and shook her head.
"Much like Esme, the venom cured my brain of anyth-"
Alice bust the door open, cutting Rose off. "No, no, no, Rose, what have you done?!?"
As a final note, please please forgive me, I skimished, through this because I'm going away on vaycay soon, and i really wanted to give yall a headsup... I hpe yall arent mad, and please reveiw. I may be able to find some time to do more chapters durring my vaycay... but the depends on how motivated I feel with reviews, my own mental health which recently took a turn for the worse, and the stupid migrains that seem to acompany the stress of traveling.