Kido's Diary

by Nei The Maiden Of Mirrors

Kido, after the events of the anime, was suggested to write in a diary to vent out emotionally when she didn't want to talk to anyone else. even after the snakes plans were stopped, strange things had been happening and no one knows why. it's like reading her diary first hand with everything described from how they were seen, ranging from everyday life to the off happenings

29. nightmares

Chapter 29: nightmares

Date: 27th march 20XX

Time: 11:54pm

Dear diary

Keeping everyone together is getting harder and harder, however things seem even harder on Ayano. I can't help but have nightmares lately, I wake up in a cold sweat and it's been happening even while Kano has been centimetres from me. I can't help but to thank back to the time before I had my ghost like powers, when people would acknowledge my existence. I get so scared, I feel myself running away and I feel myself break down, both into tears and mentally. I can still feel the flames as if they were always close to my skin, the heat radiating from all around me and even Kano has mentioned about me thrashing around violently in my sleep. I feel more than a little embarrassed that Kano saw me like that, but I felt mortified that Kano stepped in and held me close to calm me down, even after I woke up. Why can't these dreams leave my mind? I don't feel like I've done anything wrong to deserve this and hearing Kano hushing me, I can't help but to feel pathetic for breaking down when I'm the dens leader and meant to be the strong one out of us all.

I was vulnerable and my emotions were driving me crazy with how they kept making me break into tears every few minutes. Kano said that for tonight, he'd help me get back to sleep and keep hold of me until I was calm, meaning in someone having better dreams. He insisted that I allow this and that I should be more vulnerable around him and the other members to the den. I won't admit it to him, but he is right.