*hiding in a corner, scared*

I know I should have updated sooner, SORRY *DEEP BOW*

My schedule changed with midterms and a new job that I am still getting used to etc.…

I don't want go into details (cause it's boring), but the MOST important thing I have to say that I definitely won't drop this story or give up on it like some of my worried readers asked. I have enough time during weekends to work on it. In addition, the draft of the story is complete already; it is a long one for sure. However, I will have less trouble writing it from now on because I just have to elaborate on the bullet points and headlines of the plot that I already put in place. Enjoy

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Disclaimer: I do not own Vampire Knight.

His knees were hitting his chest in his position as the pureblood above him pressed on his thighs and pounded into him mercilessly… "ughnn… Ah… ah.. AHH… Yes, Kaname..ung there More"… the thick rod kept hitting the spot that drove Zero mad with sheer pleasure. The silverette pressed his palms against the headboard to increase the impact of the thrusting, his eyes rolled back as he felt the heat coiling and his orgasm threatening to shatter him completely… "Oh! GOOD!... Ka… Kaname touch me pleaaase AAAHhnnn…. So close!...uhn"… Zero sobbed as he thrashed his head sideway when Kaname grabbed the hand that he was sneaking toward his aching cock. "No can do… you're cumming with just me fucking you… no touching Zero"… after one long hard lunge, Zero's mouth fell open in a silent scream and gasping for air as he threw his head back violently, clutching the pillow with both hands from the intensity of the orgasm that racked his very core…

"Fuck my life" was the first thing Zero Kiryuu had to say as he woke up breathing hard and sweating in the bedroom of his apartment. He stared at the ceiling for few minutes, contemplating whether he should shoot himself or the pureblood the next time they meet, "Maybe both".

It was still early morning, but the hunter forfeited sleep. At first, Zero believed that the nightmare might be some kind of mind control the pureblood was using to harass him, and he felt frustrated because he could not find any proof of that. That theory was scratched out because Zero still experienced the wet dreams even when Kaname went on a business trip with Aido away from campus. He even verified with the blond vampire that his boss never left his sight. The last explanation was the location; Zero could not deny that he never felt at ease on campus, so that might have been a trigger. However, after last night, the hunter reached the only possible conclusion; his body yearned for the pureblood's touch even if his mind was against it. "This is the worst! I would take on the usual nightmares anytime if it means not having these dreams… "

Zero cradled his steaming coffee mug and sat on the windowsill, observing the early activities of the compound's residents; an old woman taking her dog for a walk, a man doing his morning jog, an office lady looking haggard, probably back from working overtime or drunk…

The longer he observed, the more pathetic Zero felt. He started to remember how things are changing in Cross Academy. How people are going on with their life, moving forward. From an outsider point of view, Zero is currently leading the perfect bachelor life; independent, well off, sought after, blah, blah, blah… But the hunter knew he was nothing as perfect.

As his mentor said before, Zero is the shell of a broken man. Shizuka cracked his peaceful life first, and when he started to see a semblance of stability, his hateful nature took over to torment him eternally. If that was not enough, the events that followed shattered him to pieces, and no matter how much the people around him tried to patch him up, it was useless. He is broken beyond redemption. He wished he could rewind time and undo so many things.

Zero managed to accept his identity as a vampire, reluctantly. Now that he is able to consume blood pills, the guilt of being a beast he hunts did not weigh on him as much as before. However, he could not find a way to tame his other beast, his other self. It is ironic how the trauma of Shizuka's bite caused him to become an emo recluse, not wanting to get close to anyone and just wishing to die after killing her. After her death, he somehow lost the will to live and started counting down the days until he falls into madness, which never came. Instead, fate dictated that he gets broken once again by another traumatic abuse leading to worse consequences than just turning into vampire, leading to more changes in his body and mind than he ever wished for . Zero's breath hitched as he clutched his mug trying to relax from the jolt; a flash of past events whirled in his mind before he chased the nightmare away.

He laughed softly shaking his head sideway before resting against the window frame and taking another sip of the drink.

"Company president by day, prowler by night… I wish there was a pill to quench this thirst like the one for bloodlust… I am tired already! How long does it have to go on before I have had enough… I have been working harder to keep it under wrap, so that it does not control me… haaa…. It seems I failed big time! Good job me! You just screwed yourself even more, revealing your other nature to your archenemy. " Zero spat bitterly to no one in particular.

He went to place his mug into the sink and caught his reflection in the fridge, suddenly remembering Kaname's words "You simply cannot resist carnal pleasure… Your body is a slave to pleasure".

Even if the pureblood meant it as an insult to rile him up with those words, Zero could only feel cold fear creeping up inside him at that time. For a moment, he thought the man got him all figured out. For a second he thought the side of him he tried so hard to hide was exposed, and to the last, person he wished for him to know. This uncontrollable thirst caused him enough trouble before and to those around him. He was lucky enough to have Ichiru and his boyfriend stand by his side at that time, even if they were not left unscathed because of his obsession.

Zero took a seat on the kitchen table and rested his head on folded arm. He had to admit that coming back to Japan, going to Cross Academy helped a bit. His nocturnal activities reduced considerably compared to the time he was in U.S. He wanted to stop it, he really did. At first, he only felt disgust and self-loath.

When did he become numb to all of it? When did he start to seek it? When did start loving it? He could not remember. He always wondered, with that big pride and ego he had, how could he stand spreading his legs wide open and beg a man to penetrate deep inside him, but he did, and he enjoys it. Suddenly, Zero remembered a fight he had with Ichiru because of his twin's preaching few years back, when it all started, "You need help Nii-san! This cannot go on forever and you know it! You might not believe me, but there is treatment for this kind of disease, yes. Whether you like to hear it or not, I don't care nii-san! You are becoming a freaking sex addict! If you do not get a hold of yourself, this obsession is going to take over your life and destroy you. When are you going to realize it?"

Zero gave a dry laugh as he stood and headed to his bedroom. He picked the outfit for his meeting, headed to the bathroom next to take a shower, and get ready. "What is there to destroy in an already broken man? Ichiru!" *DOOR CLOSE*

Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx the same day evening xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Zero finished his meeting and extra work at his company earlier than expected. He headed to his brother's place to hang out because he did not feel like being home alone. Ichiru was surprised but glad since it was rare for his brother to come uninvited. The younger twin informed his brother that Aido and Gin will come to the bar that night inviting him to join them, Zero agreed promptly. The hunter decided to take the first step into changing his lifestyle, which is to go against what his inner self is pushing him to. If it were a while ago, Zero would have refused the invitation and went looking for a one-night stand to quench the heat currently soaring in his body. However, he decided to suppress it in favor of his social life. He really wanted to move on from his 17 years old self, badly.

As agreed, Zero went back home to get out of his formal clothes and get into ones that are more comfortable and casual for the night. Barely thirty minutes later, was the hunter already in K-bar, entertaining the customers with his piano playing while waiting for Aido and Gin to arrive. Ten minutes into playing, Zero suddenly felt a chill running down his spine that caused him to miss a note and falter.

He sensed a strong presence approaching the bar, a pureblood. If it were any other day, Zero would not have minded it and it would not have affected his playing because many vampires frequent this bar as well as fellow hunter and humans. However, the familiarity of this presence shook him up, Kuran Kaname. The hunter changed to playing a piece he knew by heart, with a slow tempo while keeping his eyes glued to the entrance. His suspicions were confirmed when he saw the three men entering the bar and being greeted by his twin. The first to come in was Aido followed by Gin and lastly Kaname. They stopped to shrug off their coat that a dazed waitress took care of. Afterward, Ichiru was guiding them towards the least crowded area of the bar counter. Amethyst eyes met wine orbs for a spilt of a second before Zero abruptly looked away and busied himself with the music sheet in front of him, he blocked out all sound and sensation around him in an effort to chase away the image that flashed in his mind along with the heat soaring in his body.

Zero was so focused on playing and not thinking of anything else that he jumped when he felt a tap on his shoulder.

"Nii-san?" Ichiru whispered softly "I thought you would have picked up on their arrival, but it seems you were really engrossed with the piano, huh?" he added with a teasing smile before finishing "Hana and Gin arrived around forty minutes ago and they are getting bored waiting for you to finish and join us. Also, Kuran is here with them. Can I ask you to try acting nice even if you do not feel like it? Everyone is here to enjoy some time off away from their busy life, including him it seems. So?"

Zero scowled at the broad back of the brunet before grunting his question "did you invite him?"

Ichiru raised both hands in a defensive manner "No! This is not my doing, and it was not Hana's either. Believe it or not, Gin was the one who ambushed and dragged him."

Zero's glare travelled to a dark blue haired man twisting on his seat to look back at him and waving happily for the twin silverette to come join them. "That idiot"

The defeated hunter heaved a long sigh shaking his head sideway. He closed the piano cover, followed Ichiru down to the counter, and sat next to Aido who was sitting next to Gin followed by Kaname, making a point that the presence of the pureblood was not welcome in the least. Kaname let a faint crooked smile slip at the hunter antics.

The bartender Ryou made sure to cater to their preferences by making their favorite drinks on the first round. He went to the cellar especially to pick the best wine they had to serve the pureblood, adding a couple of blood pills upon hearing that the vampire came here directly after a business trip. His consideration earned him a grateful nod from Kaname, who savored the high-grade drink lazily while listening to the lively conversation going. He was not interested in joining the noisy bunch at first; he wanted to get back to his room and rest. However, the mention of Zero being here made him change his mind as he did not see much of the silverette lately, and keeping his promise of not harassing him is getting harder by the day. Kaname's attention snapped back to the ongoing banter as Ryou blurted the fact that Zero learned how to make a few cocktails and was good at it. Gin jumped at the new information and pushed a reluctant Zero into making them a round of drinks right away, with the support of an excited Aido and two smirking Ichiru and Ryou.

Zero gave a signature death glare to Ryou before shifting to get down the barstool. He went around, greeted few regulars on the way and got into the back of the bar where Ryou handed him the shaker with a mocking bow. He looked at the expecting puppy eyes of a certain troublesome ethic teacher "Just so you know, I only learned Vodka cocktails so far, so don't get your hopes up and keep it simple", Gin nodded with a wide grin that pissed Zero even more. He started with his drink and then proceeded to ask the other about what they wanted, Kaname being the last on his list.

Zero had hard time concentrating on making the drinks and maintaining his poker face (pissed face) because of the red-brown eyes following his every movement. He was extremely conscious of the look in Kaname's eyes that he accidently met when he asked the pureblood about the drink he wanted him to make. The brunet was practically stripping him naked on the spot with the heat and lust Zero saw those deep eyes, a look no one would recognize unless they had a taste of what the man can do in bed. Kaname had a wicked smile covered by his laced fingers as he observed how the hunter's cheeks were turning slightly pink while the silverette averted his gaze.

The cocktail Kaname ordered only added to Zero's agony because of the underlying message, "sex on the beach". The hunter could not bail out of it since Ryou confirmed that he knew how to make a little too quickly to his liking. Gin whistled at the bold name of the drink that Kaname uttered with a deadpan poker face and started throwing some dirty jokes about Kaname being frustrated due to Yuki's pregnancy etc.…

Zero, on the other hand, was regretting accepting his brother's invitation all together. He started feeling worse, when he unintentionally reacted to the pureblood scrutinizing gaze. He tried to calm down as he finished making the drink and slid it on the counter towards the man who ordered it. Kaname accepted the drink gracefully while subtly brushing his fingers against Zero's. The warm skin contact startled the hunter who yelped and jumped. The action would go unnoticed if it was anyone other than Zero, but for the grumpy hunter to make that funny sound, it earned him the attention of everyone present. Thanks to his quick thinking, Zero reached to his jean's pocket, pulled his phone, and checked it, leading everyone to think that the vibration of the mobile device surprised him. He put on an apologetic expression scratching the back of his neck before he looked up to his brother and the two sitting next to him, completely ignoring a certain brunet, saying "Sorry guys! Unexpected work came up, so I have to get going. Enjoy your night"

Zero did not miss the dejected look on Gin's face and apologized once more to his new friend promising to make it up for him some other time. He beard two more minute of whining from Ichiru, Aido, and Ryou before bolting out the bar and slipping in his car, heading into the opposite direction of his place. "I am a hopeless case after all!"

Reviews Please!

I know it is a very short chapter, the remaining part is still bullet points and I did not have time to write it in details. I could have waited until next week to finish and update but I was feeling bad making you wait too long after a series of fast updating pace previously

I promise I will try my best to update in the next couple of days, if that is impossible then I am sad to say that you will have to expect an update every Saturday from now on. *sniff* *sniff*