I do not own Hetalia okay? I don't have much to say here so enough of this A/N, on with the fic!
January 5th 1919
(From the Journal of Ivan Braginksy)
I have been home for nearly a week now. Fredka has returned to work and I had even been visited by Mr. Seward who said that while he wanted Fredka back when the new year started, I was free to come back around the middle of January to get used to being home. I remember when the new year came last year. I was so tired as I had been on duty since Christmas and it was the time that Ernest and I were sent to leave in Paris for about the same amout of time. Apparently the officals at the top were actually worried about the ambulance drivers. There were some Red Cross volunteers who helped the military out at time like this, but I don't think it was ever enough.
But anyway I still have my job Mr. Seward assured me. I do work as a clerk in a firm so there isn't much that my paralysis won't get in the way of. I can still provide for Katyusha and keep this house going and do not become a burden. I am already embarassed that Matvey and Fredka had worked so hard to build a ramp in the first place to get in and out of the house. Thank the gods for the latest bouts of snow. Gives me an excuse not to go outside now that I know I don't need to go to work. Katyusha has tried talking to me saying she's seen a lot of what I went through when she worked as a nurse. Possibly, I won't doubt her intentions but she does enough for me. It has been a real challenge getting used to daily life. I am thankful this house was so new when I had gotten it as it has a flushing toilet, something that amused both Natalya and Katyusha when we moved in and I was glad to find Fredka had too when he married Natalya, so at least I do not have to have Katyusha help me go outside but whenever I do decide to bathe, which last time I had was Saturday night before church. She insisted I attend thinking it would help. Let's just say that currently the Lord and I have our differences and if this is part of some master plan, I am not seeing what it is. I mean first He cursed me with a love that I can never have, although I have the best friend I ever could have wished for so that makes up for it somewhat. But now I cannot walk under my own power. I have tried to get up and move around. If that "spine is just bruised and it takes awhile to heal" theory Katyusha has told me so many times is true, then it is really indeed taking a long time. It has been 5 months. Surely there would have been some improvement. I challgened her claim with this and then she always says "the army never took an X-ray anyway. Soft tissue damage is often impossible to see with an Xray". I have heard they can see tubruclousis so why couldn't they see a bruise on my spine! I am cursed.
Matthew has been trying to talk to me 'one veteran to another'. Apparently from what Fredka had told me, his record is pretty outstanding, most all the Canadian corps was in the war. He has his life together now. He has a job. He keeps talking to Katyusha. I know what is going on between those two. I am not stupid. They are in love but they won't say it. And I know it is because of me.
So how was that? Good? Bad? Short? Long? I know this update is just one entry but I will have some more. I have been busy and feeling off so I wanted to just post this. But other than that, remember to read (well you just did) and to review. Ciao for now,
otherrealmwriter
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