EPOV

"I know this is not the right time to discuss anything, but..." I called her after two days.

"I really don't have anything to discuss with you," she said, "Now or ever."

"I just want to let you know that if you need any help, any kind of help... I'm here." I said.

I couldn't even imagine how she was going to handle everything!

"Especially with James' business." I said.

I used to be his business partner before we started having differences. I thought I could be helpful to her there if she needed any help.

"You're the last person James would have wanted to take help from," she said.

"Look, I wasn't at fault for what happened, and you know it!" I said.

"So are you trying to get back in the good book of the board now that James is no more?" she said, "I heard your business is not doing well anyway!"

Why did I even call her? I should have known she was going to misunderstand me!

And... It's not like she wasn't at fault at all!

She could have easily told me out loud that she was pregnant instead of asking indirect questions!

And she had three years plus a few months to tell me about her, but she didn't!

And I knew she'd say that she had decided to keep this from me because I told her that I regretted loving her! Well, how convenient it was for her to believe me when I said that!

And when I told her again and again that I loved her, she simply refused to believe me!

Don't say it out loud.

Don't say it out loud.

Don't say it out loud.

This was not the time for all this!

"Ummm... How is Carlie doing?" I tried to change the topic, although I wasn't sure how this topic was going to help me!

"Edward..." she said, "Let me be clear. I don't want you to do anything with her."

"She is my daughter." I said.

"I don't think she is ready to meet you. Everything here is very new for her." she said, "She doesn't even know anybody here. I have yet to figure out how I'm going to handle everything."

Well, who asked you to move to London! I wanted to say.

Keep your mouth shut. I reminded myself.

I wasn't even sure if she moved to London after her birth or before that? I recalled she was in Boston for a few months after our breakup. I remembered Renee had also moved there. Now it made sense why! And then, she accepted the job offer in London and she moved there. So I guess, Carlie was born in Boston!

This was insane!

I didn't know anything about my daughter!

Alright, I was at fault, but that didn't give her any right to hide it from me!

"Anyway, I need to go," she said.

"Okay." I said as I hung up.

Fuck my life.