Chapter 12: "The white wolf"

"When you're in love, you're capable of learning everything and knowing things you had never dared even to think, because love is the key to understanding of all the mysteries."
Paulo Coelho, Brida

The walk towards the park was mostly quiet, the silence was only broken by some comments Kara did about how cold the night was. Lena knew the blonde was trying to do small talk to calm her, but her anxiety increased ten-fold with every step. She only hoped that whatever Kara had to show or tell her was nothing related with dirty business, or something shady. She was aware that her taste on women was horrible, Veronica and Andrea were the living proof of that, and when she met Kara for the first time, she felt a dangerous vibe coming from her, but when she got to know her better, she could sense that the blonde had nothing but good intentions. Even so, walking alone with her towards a dark park at almost 2 AM made her anxiety raise to new levels, she knew Kara was a good person but sadly her brain was way too paranoid.

Once they arrived, the blonde took her to an already too familiar part of the place, once she realized where they were, her alarms went off. What if the white werewolf was there? Kara could see him. The wolf had revealed himself to her, but what if with Kara was different, what if he felt threatened? When Lena's eyes landed on the photographer, she noticed just how nervous Kara was, apparently, she wasn't the only one with anxiety problems.

"We should go that way, there is a bench where we can seat on" – the brunette said while she pointed her finger towards the opposite side of the park. She didn't know if the wolf was there but she wanted to keep Kara safe, she wasn't going to take chances.

"No, this is exactly the place where I need us to be" – the blonde said with finality and a trembling voice.

"Okey…" – the brunette whispered. Even if she felt like she should have insisted, something about the way Kara spoke made her stop. The blonde was giving her a worried look, when she was about to ask if she was okay, Kara spoke again.

"I want you to know that what I'm about to show you is something that I've never shown to anyone besides my sister, but I can't hide this from you, not if we want to start something between us".

Lena's heartrate had increased with every word been said. She could feel something inside her waking up, an urgency to see whatever Kara had to show her.

"I need you to stay where you are, no matter what you see, please don't come closer" – After that the blonde took some steps towards the trees, putting some space between her and Lena. Once she was at a descent distance, she turned around, her back facing the brunette. Slowly but steadily, she started to undo the bottoms of her shirt.

When Lena realized what Kara was doing, her legs faltered. Why in the hell was the blonde undressing herself in front of her at 2 AM in a city park?

"Kara what…"

"Please trust me Lena" – the brunette swallowed hard. With every item the blonde took off, her mind told her she should stop looking, but something deep inside her kept her motionless, her eyes were fixated in golden skin and ripped muscles. With every move the photographer did, Lena's anxiety rose to new levels, the anticipation taking the best of her. When Kara was finally completely naked, she wanted to say something, but her will had left her completely, she couldn't speak or move, she could only watch the situation being unraveled in front of her.

She was out of whatever enchantment she was in when Kara was on her knees with her back arching in an unnatural way and her screams assaulted her eardrums.

"Kara…" she whispered taking a step towards the blonde, but stopped abruptly when in between screams, Kara shouted out a no that sounded distorted, almost like a growl.

Lena was desperate, she knew Kara was in pain but the blonde had warned her about keeping her distance. Whatever was happening to Kara it was extremely painful, she could see how the blonde's body contorted, her form was changing into something else.

Lena was able to see it after a few minutes when her change was almost complete, Kara was turning into a werewolf, not any werewolf but the white werewolf she had faced before. Some minutes later, a pair of bright blue eyes were watching her with caution.

"I… how?" – was everything the brunette was able to ask. By now, she had read almost every journal her brother had written. She knew for a fact that werewolves were only males, between some other nasty experiments, Lex had tried to find an explanation to this, he even forced some of the werewolves he kept capture to bite at some random women, she read how the experiment ended with them suffering a painful death. But Kara had clearly turned into a werewolf, but the one she had kept in touch with, the one she felt connected with. All this time she felt such a deep bond with this werewolf, she realized then that their connection and the one she felt with Kara was so similar, suddenly everything made sense.

While her mind went spiraling, the wolf came near her with a slow and steady pace. The brunette was still in shock, but her curiosity cleared her mind.

"I don't…" – her voice came out broke, she cleared her throat and tried again – "Since the first time I saw you, I mean as a werewolf, I felt like there was a bond between us. When I finally touched you, and every important memory came to me I knew you were seeing them too. Then I met you, your human form, and again I felt like this strong connection, almost as if I'd known you from before, like really known you".

Kara was looking at her with interest, her eyes shined with a deep blue. Once Lena confirmed the wolf was listening, she continued.

"I want you to know that even now, your safe with me, your secret is safe with me Kara" – she felt the wolf leaning towards her and immediately a sense of calm washed over her- "I read in my brother's journals about your kind, but according to him is biologically impossible for you to exist, I need to know how this happened…" – Lena saw how Kara's eyes became stormy – "Kara, please…". The wolf lowered its head, and the brunette knew in her heart that the blonde had accepted her request. Without hesitation she did what she'd done the first time they met… she placed her hand at the side of the werewolf face.

And just like that, one minute, she was enjoying the softness of the wolf's fur and on the next one she was on her knees, feeling her insides burn, as if pure lava was running through her system, every body part, every muscle, every bone hurt in a way she hadn't experienced before. The pain was breaking her little by little, tears ran down her cheeks like rivers, she tried to speak but her throat felt dry as a desert so the only sound that left her lips was a gasp. In that precise moment, a pair of blue eyes appeared on her line of sight and Kara took a step back. Lena tried to stop her, she was the one asking for Kara' story, she couldn't back away, not when the blonde was showing her truth but another gasp escaped from her and that was all it took for the blonde to end their connection completely.

Even after the direct contact was broken, Lena still felt the desperation and loneliness that Kara had experienced, her heart ache for her and her stomach twisted every time she remembered the physical pain. She was still on the ground when from the corner of her eye she saw Kara changing back into her human form and getting dressed with hurry. In the blink of an eye, the blonde was kneeling at her side, hugging her while she whispered apologies in her ear and while she did, Lena felt like a warm blanket had been thrown over her, all her pain and dark thoughts were being erased from her with every 'sorry' that was dropped from the blonde's lips.

"You're okey, it's over now" – Kara took one lock of hair that was blocking Lena's eye and tucked it behind the woman's ear.

"I didn't know…" – Lena's voice came raspy, her throat still hurt a little.

"It's okey, you don't have to worry about it, it's all in the past" – Kara tried to sound convincing but Lena was able to sense some sort of discomfort coming from her, she knew the blonde was lying, Kara hadn't overcome what had happened to her, but Lena was not going to bring the matter out, not in the middle of the National City Park and certainly not at almost 3 AM in the morning. When she was about to speak, a few droplets touched her face and a minute later it was pouring on them.

"Come on, let's go! My apartment is two blocks away, we can go there" – and just like that she was being dragged by Kara through the rain.

When they arrived both of them were soaking wet but luckily Kara's apartment was warm and brought some kind of comfort to their cold bodies.

"Stay here for a second, I'll bring some towels and dry clothes so you can change" – The blonde said while she took off her jacket. If Lena's eyes lingered a little too much in Kara's form it was only because of how that stupid wet t-shirt sticked to her body, and if she did it again when Kara came back to the room it was only by pure chance. The second time apparently, she was caught while doing it because when she was able to look up, the blonde was watching her sporting a slight blush.

"Emm… you can use the bathroom and I'll use my dorm".

"Yes, thank you" – she was only able to answer before grabbing the clothes and towels from Kara's hand and almost jumping into the bathroom. She was getting undressed when she heard a soft knock on the door and for some reason her heart started pounding like crazy.

"Lena? I forgot to tell you, you can use the shower if you want, maybe some hot water would help".

"Okay, thank you!" – Lena replied with a sigh.

Once she got out, Kara had already changed into some sweatpants and a blue tank top and was by the kitchen making some tea. Lena couldn't avoid noticing the nasty scar covering half of Kara's arm but she quickly averted her gaze when the blonde turned around.

They were in silence for some minutes, Lena wasn't sure were to start and apparently Kara was giving her time to process.

"How are you feeling" – it was Kara who broke the silence, she had a sad smile and her features exposed how worried she was.

"I'm fine, just a little overwhelmed" – Lena took a gulp of tea, the warm liquid soothed her sore throat.

"I understand, it's not every day that you find out that the person you're dating is a werewolf" – Kara smiled but the smile didn't quite reach her eyes like it usually did. Lena sensed just how insecure the blonde felt and she wanted to erase that feeling from her.

"It's not because of you being a werewolf, I'm overwhelmed by the pain you went through while you were turning, I've never felt pain like that before, I don't know how you did it, how you were able to overcome that…"

"So… about me being a werewolf?"

"I'm completely okey with that. If I'm being honest, it's a relief actually".

"How come?" – Kara seemed really surprised with the statement.

"The first time I met you in your werewolf form you saved my life, since then I felt this connection with that wolf and when I first saw you at the gallery I also felt this same attraction, both feelings were similar and as the days passed everything became more confusing, I wanted to know everything there was to know about Kara Danvers but I also needed to know everything about this werewolf, so the fact that you are one and the same really facilitates things"- Lena ended with a chuckle followed by a yawn "Sorry for that, apparently my mind is finally realizing what time it is".

"You should rest, it's late for you to go home, you can stay here if you want and take the bed. I'll take the couch?" – Kara asked hopeful.

"I guess your right, but we can share the bed, there's no need for you to sleep on the couch, I promise I don't bite…"

"That sounds like something I should say" – the blonde answer with a chuckle.

Once they got onto the bed and under the blankets both of them sigh with content, both faced each other and laugh in unison at their timing. Lena was assessing the atmosphere between them, she wanted to come closer to Kara, but her insecurities kept her from taking the first step. She didn't wait for long because some mere seconds later the blonde was moving towards her.

"Are you cold?" – Kara asked with a soft voice.

"A little, yeah" – After that Kara stretched her left arm to make room for her and without second thought Lena took the offer. The blonde was warm so she snuggled as close to her as she could. This was the first she did this, when she had been at bed with someone, she liked to keep her distance, most of her former partners held she was cold and distant, but all in all, the reason was that Lena never felt a deep connection with any of them, but with Kara was completely different, she felt drawn to her and protected, she could be herself with Kara, indulge in letting her walls crumble, because Kara made her feel safe and loved.

"Do they hurt?" – the brunette asked while she casually moved her hand up and down Kara's arm, her fingers barely touching the scars imprinted there. Kara was looking up at the ceiling, her features were soft and relaxed in a way Lena hadn't seen until now.

"Not really, but I feel like a numbness there. Sometimes, I have these flashbacks or even nightmares about that night" – Kara frowned – "When I do it's almost like I can feel a phantom pain but once I calm myself the pain disappears like if it was never there".

Lena kept unconsciously trailing her fingers on Kara's arm, she knew how much Kara had suffer, how the intense pain was unbearable, she still didn't understand how the blonde had survive.

"How is it that you survived?"

"Hm?" – Kara answered distractedly, Lena's ministrations making her sleepy.

"According to my brother, it's not possible for a woman to become a werewolf, but you did. Do you know how?"

"Not really, something in my DNA was different, according to Brainy my genes mutated during my transformation phase and adapted to this biological change, that's why I'm not like any other werewolf. When the rest turn themselves into werewolves their DNA changes, but once they change back into their human form, the DNA also changes back, it's different for me, even in my human form there is still some remanent from my werewolf genetic sequence, that gives me some specials abilities."

"This is so fascinating, but I must warn you, you should stop talking about genetics or I might bore you with questions" – Lena watched Kara's response, but the blonde was just smiling – "I'll take your silence as an invitation to go forward, so Miss Danvers, what kind of specials abilities we are talking about?" – she said in a teasing tone. The blonde's smile only got wider.

"Well, I used to wear glasses, but my sight was restored fully, my hearing and smell was also enhanced…"

"Okey, anything else?" – after every new thing mention by Kara, Lena's mind went on overdrive.

"Mmm, I'm stronger than a normal human and faster. Also, I have the ability to secret pheromones, but this is something all werewolves do, even on her human form".

"Pheromones? For real, how does that work? I mean I know how it works in other species, but I don't know if it applies in the same way for werewolves"

"It's mostly the same, we can use our pheromones to provoke certain behavior. Sometimes we use it to bring calm, other times we use it to attract someone" – Kara finished with a sheepish smile. Lena watched her with interest.

"Show me" – the brunette said in a low and hasky tone.

"I don't think…"

"Kara, show me" – after hearing Lena's resolution in her voice, the blonde complied. Lena felt the change immediately, she always felt attraction towards Kara, but this time was different, something inside her craved to be even closer to her, it was as an invisible force was pushing her towards the blonde, when she was about to straddle her, the urgency lessened and suddenly a wave of calmness hit her, she took a couple of deep breaths before settling once again into Kara's side. They were quiet for a bit, Kara caressing the side of Lena's face while she waited for her reaction.

"That was… interesting" – Lena said after composing herself and kept quiet for a few more minutes. "Have you done that before? When you were with me, I mean" – the brunette was worried about her feelings for Kara, had she felt genuine attraction or was it all just a response to her pheromones? When this doubt crossed her mind, it was immediately discarded, even if this chemical reaction could manipulate how she felt towards the woman, she could tell that her feelings for her were her own, something deep inside her told her as much.

"Not with you precisely"- Her thoughts were interrupted by Kara's answer even if she didn't need one anymore - "Remember when we were at the gallery and Mike showed up?" – Lena's gut twisted when Kara brought the name up but she nodded so the blonde could continue.

"Well, when he arrived and got jealous, he radiated the place with his pheromones and I had to do the same to cover his scent, I had to force him to leave before he could expose us both. When I did, you were in the room, so basically you were also affected by it, but I promise that was the only time I used it in that way, I would never impose myself on you".

Just the mention of his name gave her goosebumps on the back of her neck, Lena still remembered how sick she had felt when he came closer to them. - "And this Mike is your…?"-

"He's my ex" – Kara stated quickly. Lena had never asked about him, in all reality there was no time to ask, between their desperate encounter on the hallway and Kara running away soon after, she never had the chance to do it.

"I see, things didn't end well with him, did they?" – that night, the atmosphere between him and Kara was heavy and awkward, it was easy to come to conclusions that they weren't on good terms, but she wanted to hear the full story from Kara.

"At first I thought they did" – Kara's hand was moving up a down over Lena's abdomen, her fingers trailed softly against the paleness of her skin, Lena shivered while the blonde continued her story – "According to our species history, for every werewolf there is this unique human that is destined to become their mate…" – Lena could feel how Kara took a deep breath after she voiced the previous statement, blue eyes were fixated on her in a way that made her lose her own breath, the anticipation about what was being implied taking the best of her, before she could interiorized the words, Kara broke the eye contact and continued –"When a werewolf and their mate met, the connection is immediate, undeniable. Mike thought I was his mate, he used to talk about how our destiny was to be together. At that moment, I didn't know the real meaning behind his words and always thought he was being cheesy, at least nothing felt so deep for me between us as he believed" – Lena's heart was pounding, but the pounding felt strange, almost foreign but at the same time it felt right in a way she couldn't describe with words. By reflexes or God's knows why, she placed her hand on Kara's chest and noticed how with every beat of her own heart, her palm felt the same wild rhythm coming from the blonde, both of their hearts were beating at unison at the same frantic pace. "Then I was bitten and everything changed, I wasn't just human anymore and even if he tried to convince me that everything between us was going to be alright, time prove him wrong. Every day with him was a fight for dominance, by the end I was so tired and unhappy that even her father had to intervene and made me realized that we would be better apart".

"That must've been difficult, to break things up because of something you two weren't able to control". Kara was once again making eye contact, and the blue in them was shining so bright that Lena was sure she had never seen anything more beautiful in her entire life.

"Actually, it wasn't. When I decided to break things up, I felt bad and sad but I also felt relieved. After some days I realized I used to idealize him, but he was far from perfect, just the opposite of you actually" – the blonde added to lighten up the mood.

"Oh darling, I'm so far from perfect" – Lena warned her and Kara's features soften.

"I know, and that's one of the things I love about you, you don't even try to convince me that you are, instead you let your guard down when you're with me. So, I know you're not perfect, but you are to me".

After Kara's sweet words, the only thing Lena could think about was kissing her, so she did, she tried to put everything she felt, everything she was into it. Kissing Kara was like taking a long breath after been submerge under water for as long as her lungs resisted, or drinking water after a long walk through the scorching heat of the desert. Their lips molded in a perfect way, like pieces of a puzzle. She could feel Kara restraining herself, but all Lena could think about was how their kisses weren't enough to subdue the need she was feeling, but before she could deepen the kiss and her hands lost all semblance of control the blonde broke the contact, Lena immediately missing the feeling.

"Before we take this farther, there is one more thing I need to tell you" – Kara had a worried look, the scar on her forehead more prominent that usual, all Lena wanted to do was kiss her worriedness away.

"Anything" – Lena affirmed giving her a small peck on the lips.

"Like I said, for every werewolf there is a human that's destined to be their partner… Lena, I believe you're mine"

Lena had heard the story, but she didn't interrupt Kara because she wanted for her to confirm her suspicions.

"You believe?" – she asked with true curiosity and hope.

"I know you are. Since the first moment we met, I felt this connection, something that I had only read in books, something like out of a fairy tale, but it was true, you were real, and the moment you touched me, everything was confirmed as soon as I saw all your life memories as if they were my own".

"I remember that moment… Is that why I saw yours? I mean, I suppose it was an old memory of you".

"Yeah, as our bond gets stronger, you'll be able to see my entire life. You'll be able to feel what I'm feeling, maybe you already did at some point". – That might explain the time she didn't felt like herself, or the horrible pain in her chest that day in the office. She must have given Kara a worried look, because before she knew it, the blonde was giving her a way out – "You still can decide if you want to be with me, it's your decision Lena".

"Even if us being together is already set on stone, I wouldn't want it any other way, how could a reject you darling? You are kind, gentle, beautiful and selfless, you're more than I thought I would get, even if I tried, it would be impossible for me not to love you" - Lena wanted to erase her doubts there and then, so after her declaration she kissed Kara once again, this time with more urgency than before.

"Lena, you should rest…" – the blonde said in between kisses.

"Kara, please, just kiss me already" – Lena's request in a sultry voice was all it took for Kara to comply. Suddenly she was being wrapped by strong arms, Kara's lips connected with hers with the force of a hurricane and she followed the pace blissfully. As their kisses became more heated, her hands grabbed Kara's back with force to anchor herself, her nails leaving imprints on it. She could feel the blonde's muscles stretching with every move, the sensation brought a warm sensation that run through her entire body.

Lena was conscious that they were going too fast, but at the same time she couldn't wait anymore. Since that first night at the exposition, she wanted to know how it would be to be with Kara, to explore every inch of her body and how it would feel to have Kara doing the same with hers.

Kara traced her fingers through the expanse of her body with such revery that Lena felt lightheaded, her senses felt on overdrive, every time their skin made contact, she felt goosebumps forming on every inch of her body.

"Is this okey?" – Kara asked with fully blown pupils while she shyly cupped one of Lena's breasts and the CEO shivered.

"Yes, it's more than okey" – the blonde smiled sheepishly while she resumed her ministrations. Lena felt the heat coming from Kara's hand, her skillful touch produced a peak of stimulation that resonated on her center.

Feeling Kara's touch was like finally obtaining something that was missing, it was as if her soul had been segmented before and every touch and every kiss made it whole again. She was almost out of breath but at the same time she had never been able to breath better in her entire life, her mind felt foggy but focus and conscient regardless.

Her heart was beating wildly as Kara run her tongue against the extension of her neck, one of her hands had been going slowly down, almost reaching the place where she needed her the most, but as Kara's touch felt hotter and hotter against her pale skin, the feeling brought by their intimacy was becoming more and more unbearable, the ectasis of the situation overwhelming her.

It was at this moment that Kara seemed to realize what Lena was feeling, because short after, she stopped moving and was looking at her with a worried and apprehensive gaze.

"Just breath, it's okey, you're okey" – the blonde had this sweet voice that made her calm down almost immediately or perhaps it was Kara's pheromones what made her feel better, Lena wasn't so sure but she welcomed the feeling anyway.

"I'm sorry" – Lena's words came as she recovered her breath.

"Don't be, it's not your fault, I should have warned you about this" – Kara's hand was again running up and down her arm, the gentle movement soothing her even more.

"About what?"

"You are my mate Lena, when before I said that we were connected in a special bond, and that you would be able to feel what I'm feeling, it also applies to these emotions, that's why you were overwhelmed".

"Oh…".

"Yeah, maybe we should wait until you learned how to suppress the connection or unless until you're able to control it. I'm sorry I didn't tell you this sooner, but you're not the only one trying to control what you're feeling, something about you gets my emotions unrestrained" – Kara was looking at her with such devotion and hunger that a chill run through the extension of her back. "For now, we should rest. We have all the time in the world, and you babe, look exhausted".

Lena was taken aback with the pet name, usually, she wasn't very fond with the idea of someone using them with her, but coming from Kara was different. "How did you call me again?" – the brunette asked teasing Kara.

"Babe?" – the blonde was blushing furiously, Lena's teasing accomplishing her goal with golden stars.

"You look cute when you blush" – Lena was giggling when Kara gave her a little smack on the side of her head.

"Lena Luthor you're mean" – the blonde said with a pout.

"I'm sorry darling, some times my Luthor genes just shine through" – this time both of them were smiling widely, the softness of the moment relaxing them.

"Come here you, let's get some rest" – Kara was extending her left arm, making space for her to cuddle at her side. Lena immediately complied and rested her head on the blonde's chest. If Lena was being honest, this time, with Kara holding her tightly was the best time of sleep she had had for ages. It would have been even better if after three hours, their sleep hadn't been interrupted by her secretary calling.

"Jess, what is it?"

"I'm sorry Miss Luthor, I came to the office to bring some paperwork for tomorrow, but someone is here asking for you" – a male voice was heard through the phone.

"Who is it" – Lena asked with precaution, Jess sounded scared, almost as if she had been crying.

"It's Lex Miss Luthor, your brother is here…"

Sorry for the long wait, I'm still here, I've been busy but don't worry I will keep writing this story, hope y'all safe, see u on the next chapter... sorry for the cliffhanger ;)