Chapter 17: "Welcome back"

"Love is our true destiny. We do not find the meaning of life by ourselves alone - we find it with another."
Thomas Merton, Love and Living

They hold each other for what seemed like ages both of them too scared to let go afraid that what was happening was just a hallucination, a trick of their exhausted minds. Kara was the first pulling away, her hands framing Lena's face.

"I'm here, we're okay" she whispered in a low soothing voice. Lena finally opened her eyes taking in every detail of Kara's face.

"I've missed you" Lena said between sobs "I'm so sorry I wasn't there when it happened" more sobs came from her with the admission. Kelly had left the room with the excuse of fetching some coffee giving both some needed space. "Do you remember what happened?" Lena added once she her sobs subdued enough for her to talk again.

"Strangely, I remember everything" Kara said with sadness. Every single detail about what had happened was playing in her head like a motion picture. Lena stood up to get a glass of water from a dispenser nearby and Kara immediately tensed.

"Kara? Are you okay?" Lena saw how stiff Kara was when she turned around, because of their renewed link she could also feel how distressed she felt.

Kara tried to loosen herself but she was only able to do it when Lena was at her side once again "Sorry, I'm fine" she tried to sound convincing, but her hands were trembling, she put them under herself to prevent the shaking but apparently Lena had already notice.

"Hey, darling what is it?" she cupped both of Kara's hands in her own and gave a little squeezed, when the shaking didn't stop, she placed a soft kiss there too. "You can trust me Kara"

"I believe not just me, but my wolf is feeling a little clingy and anxious" Kara was afraid of scaring Lena off, during the few months they'd know each other drama followed them like a curse, if this was going to be their life from now on eventually her mate might need a break and telling her that her wolf was desperate to keep her close was another thing that could make Lena uncomfortable. They were never able to talk about the implications and consequences of being in a relationship with a werewolf, and Kara had doubts about how Lena would react. She knew Lena wasn't like any other partner she'd had but, those other partners were the ones that made her feel insecure and sadly, she still hadn't been able to overcome such insecurities.

"Kara, it's fine, if you need me to be close to you I'll happily be by your side at all times until you feel better" Lena said after seeing how apprehensive Kara was being with herself. "It's nice you know? Being able to make something to make you feel better" she sounded troubled and this time Kara was the one giving Lena a soft kiss in the palm of her hand. "When I found you at the apartment and you didn't know who I was I felt helpless, our bond was gone again and as the first time there was nothing I could do to help you, to bring you back…" a single tear rolled down Lena's cheek, her gaze held such a pain that it made Kara's chest felt tight.

They were face to face, Kara still sitting in the couch and Lena in front of her in the chair Kelly offered before they started the session. Kelly apparently was taking more time that what it should to fetch a coffee and Kara was grateful for her consideration.

"You did help Lena" Kara's words catch Lena's attention who rose her head to make eye contact after being stubbornly looking at the floor.

"I… I did?" the question was almost a whisper.

Kara squeezed Lena's hand to ground her, her eyes never leaving Lena's gaze. "I don't know how to explain it but during the time I lost my memories I was still there, it was as if I were underwater, trying to swim my way up but someone else was there at the surface. I knew who you were but at the same time I didn't" Lena seemed at a lost "I know, it doesn't make sense".

Lena shook her head from side to side before talking "It's a difficult notion to grasp but I kind of understand what you're talking about. When I first find you, you seemed so confused but you knew my name and you only let yourself relaxed when I was at your side"

"Exactly. There was this moment where my wolf was desperately trying to take over, I was so afraid, my mind wasn't able to grasp what was happening but then, you kissed me, and for a minute there I manage to scratch the surface, you brought me back with your love and tenderness, but as soon as our lips were apart once again, my brain became foggy" In that moment Kara was almost sure she would lose the fight against her alter ego, she could almost picture herself losing control and hurting Lena, the idea was driving her crazy, even if she tried to regain control, her body wasn't her own anymore, and once again, like in her nightmares about the day her parents died, she was completely paralyzed, her thoughts running a mile per second but her body still like a statue and when she was about to lose the last bit of hope, Lena's lips were pressed against her own and this time she was able to change the outcome.

"This whole week I felt so useless, but knowing now that I was able to help you, will ease my mind a little" Lena added with a shy smile, out of the corner of her eye she could see Kelly and Alex about to enter the room. Lena dried the last tears with the back of her hand in an attempt to composed herself while Kara gave her a sheepish smile, a minute later Kara was being tightly hug by her sister, Kelly softly whispering a "sorry for the interruption" while holding a tray with four cups of coffee on it.

"How are you feeling kiddo?" Alex asked once she let go of Kara after almost suffocating her with the solid hug. Lena didn't take long to grab her coffee, the blonde could see how exhausted she was even when she tried to hide it.

"Just a little shaken, but I'm starting to feel like myself again" Kara replied while she took Lena's hand in hers and brought her closer.

"That's good, you have us worried for a bit there" Alex replied while she took a sip of her own cup and hissed immediately after.

"Oh, sorry babe, I forgot to warn you it's hot" Kelly apologized, Kara was pleasantly surprised at the use of the pet name, she knew that her sister and Kelly were an item but she was still internalizing the change. When they first met that night at the exposition, she had hope for them to connect, she saw the sparks since the beginning, but seeing them now, this exceeded her expectations. "So, Kara, I know you must be exhausted but I believe we need to talk about what happened to you" the words brought her back from her thoughts.

"Actually, I am pretty tired and I know we have to talk about it, but I want to tell Lena first, maybe we can meet again tomorrow and I'll talk to you two then?" She really hoped for them to agree, the only thing she needed right now, was a shower, a glass of wine and Lena.

"Yeah sure, you two should rest, the important thing here is that you are alright, the rest can wait until tomorrow" Kelly agreed.

"So, I guess I see you two tomorrow then" Alex gave Kara another tight hug.

"I guess we will" she replied while from up her sister's shoulder could see Kelly coming close to Lena, probably to hug her and saying goodbye, but as soon as they were close, she saw the movement in slow motion, when Kelly was about to wrap her arm around the brunette's shoulder, a loud growl broke from the deepest part of her throat and her vision became blurry, Alex immediately pushed her away.

"Kara, what the hell?" she heard Alex voice but her eyes were digging holes on Kelly's figure, The redhead notice this as soon as she followed Kara's line of vision.

"Back away" Kara warned almost with a growl, she could feel her own self-control seeping away, her wolf fighting to take over "Please, get away from her".

"Babe, stay back" Alex said slowly reaching her hand for Kelly to take "Kara? Come on fight it, see? she's doing what you asked, please calm down" Another loud growl. Kara had to regain control, Lena was there, she had to prove that she was strong enough to tame this part of her, Lena had to know she was safe with her… and Kelly, Kelly was there, she was exposing herself, she had to stop… she had to… her thoughts were interrupted when a soft hand touched the side of her face and soothing words were softly spoken in her ear.

"Darling, I'm right here, take a deep breath for me" Kara did as she was told, again and again until her heartbeat was beating at an almost normal pace again "That's it, you're doing great" now there were a set of hands grabbing the sides of her face, and moving her head and sight from Kelly towards those beautiful eyes she was so enamored with. Lena was smiling softly and her gaze was so full of devotion that any last drop of aggressiveness left in her was washed away and her inner wolf became completely dormant once again.

"Thank you" Kara whispered while leaning her head in Lena's.

"Are you alright?" Lena whispered back still not pulling away, both Alex and Kelly waiting nervously by the door.

"Yeah… yeah I'm fine now" Kara finally took a step back from Lena to see Alex giving her a worried look. "Kelly I'm so sorry, I don't know what happened" Kara said with wide eyes, now completely aware of what she had done, how could she explain this? Kelly and Alex posture relaxed when Kara confirmed she was in control but slowly losing her grip.

"It's fine Kara, really" Kelly replied sweetly while giving a little squeeze to her arm.

"I really don't know what came to me, that had never happened before" Alex came closer too, Kara looked at her with pleading eyes, waiting for her sister to intervene and give a plausible explanation.

"Relax kid, she knows"

"What are you talking about?" Kara was lost, was Alex referring to her one big secret? She wasn't sure so she played along.

"When I offered to help you, Alex told me about you being… special? She knew I was going to hear things about you and she was afraid you would mention something about your situation during our session". Kara was surprised but felt immediately relieved, she was awful at lying and Kelly knowing about her, avoided the fact of making a foul out of herself.

"I'm glad you know, but even so, I'm sorry, that really had never happened before"

"Don't worry, probably is just the stress, you had a few rough days, you should rest and just tell us if you feel like something is wrong once you have enough rest"

"Yeah, see you both tomorrow?" Kara asked with a tired smile.

"Sure sis, go rest. Take care of her for me Luthor?" Alex asked with a knowing voice.

"You know I will, see you tomorrow, thank you, for everything" Lena replied while she gave Alex and Kelly a small hug. "Ready to go home?"

"With you? Always" Kara replied sweetly.

"Oh come on you love birds, off you go" Alex said while pushing them through the door and Kelly patted her on the arm "Don't mind Alex, she's just jealous". Kara and Lena were already walking through the hallway when they heard Alex voice once again "I am not!" They looked at each other and chuckled.

They took a cab outside the DEO building, it was almost 3 PM so it didn't take long for them to get one, they sat in silence once they gave the direction to the driver.

"Lena? Would you mind if we go to yours instead?" Kara asked still looking outside at the buildings passing by while they were heading towards her own apartment.

"Of course, everything okey?"

"Yes, I just… I' not ready to come back, I don't feel safe there" she looked away from the car window and towards Lena instead, her mate had a mischievous smile.

"You do realize I was kidnapped there, right?" Lena said teasingly.

Kara's smile dropped. She had forgotten about that. Lena immediately saw her demeanor "Darling, I tease, don't worry, since then I've improved my security system, it's almost an impenetrable fortress now" Kara wasn't completely convinced, how could she had forgotten about Lena's kidnapping? That man… that man had put her hands on her … he had… the raven hair woman took her hands in hers, her hands were soft and warm "Kara, don't think about it, you saved me, I'm fine, we are going home okey?" the blonde nodded while Lena gave the new indications to their driver.

Once in Lena's penthouse, Kara had immediately gone for a bath, her head was still hurting and thought some warm water could make her relax and help her with the pain. She was in the shower for almost half an hour, while Lena apparently was addressing some LCORP issues with Jess. When the tip of her fingers began to wrinkle, she decided it was time to get out, she dried herself and put on some cozy clothes Lena had given her, she relaxed even more as Lena's scent embraced her.

"There you are, I was starting to think you had fallen sleep in the bathroom" Lena said with a smile and sparkling eyes.

"I almost did, your shower is amazing" Kara replied while Lena took her phone once again, her soft eyes changing into a stern look. "It's everything okey? Lena, if you need to go to the office it's okey, I'll wait for you here"

Lena raised her head, her features were soft again "No no, everything is fine, my CFO is taking charge for now, I just forgot we are throwing a charity gala in a couple of days and I'm supposed to be there" she answered while coming close to Kara.

"That's amazing! So, what's the problem? I mean, your face before didn't exactly conveyed joy" Kara took Lena by her waist moving her even closer to her. She really needed to feel her, to have her as close as possible.

"I don't want to leave you alone. Kara, you've been through so much lately, I'm afraid that if a leave, even for a minute I'll… I'll lose you again" Lena's voice broke with the statement and Kara's heart ache for her, for the pain she had caused her, even if it wasn't completely her fault.

Kara run her fingers slowly drying a single tear that was running down Lena's cheek and gave her a long peck on her lips, when she opened her eyes, Lena's were still closed. "Then I'll go with you, if you want to, that is" Lena opened her eyes wide and Kara could feel herself drowning in a sea of emerald.

"You wouldn't mind? I mean if you are not ready…" Kara wondered then what kind of partners her mate had had before, she was so unsecure and the minimum show of support seemed to left her with an open mouth.

"Of course I wouldn't mind, I'll be there if you'll have me, that's what mates are for" Kara smiled tenderly.

"Mates…" Lena whispered while heading towards the kitchen to opened a bottle of wine "I'm still amazed by the notion, I mean, one person destined to be your partner for your entire life? That sounds like…" she poured a glass and offered it to Kara who gladly took it.

"Like something out of a fairy tale? I know, but is a lot easier to digest if on occasions you turn yourself into a giant werewolf" Kara chuckled and took a sip of wine, such a good wine.

"Well, when you put it like that" Lena replied between laughs "Do you ever get scare?" They were by now sitting on the isle stools, their knees touching.

"Of being a werewolf?" Lena shook her head.

"Of how our destinies are written, of being stuck with the same person for the rest of your life" Lena added with a trembling voice. Kara felt a sudden pain in her chest, was Lena doubting about them?

"Never. I'm scare of a lot of things Lena, but spending the rest of my life with you? Never" Kara's tone didn't leave room for doubts, but even if Lena's posture deflated considerably and Kara heard a sigh of relief coming out of her, she added "But you do have a choice in this Lena, I told you before, you can decide with whom do you want to spend the rest of your life with". The brunette grabbed Kara's hand then and looked at her, really looked at her, her gaze was deep and intense and the blonde shivered.

"I've already made my mind, all I want is to be with you, but, Kara, I'm not sure you should spend the rest of yours with someone like me" Lena sounded so small and afraid, not even a drop of her powerful persona was left in her at this vulnerable moment. "My background is… colorful and the relationships I had before practically blown up on my face, I'm afraid that I'm not really good enough for you, I'm afraid to fail you".

Kara tucked a black lock of hair behind Lena's ear, the brunette followed the motion with her eyes and leaned her head in Kara's hand.

"You Lena Luthor are perfect for me, and even if your past is how you said, mine is as colorful as yours, I can assure you, that's what I wanted to talk to you about. But Lena, please believe me when I say I wouldn't choose anyone else, it will always be you for me, even if we mess up in the way, we can make this work, I know we can". Kara leaned in slowly until they were impossibly close, both of them were holding their breath, too caught up in the deep connection they were feeling. Lena closed the space between them when their lips met yet again. At first the kiss was slow, almost exploratory, even if they had kiss before, every kiss felt like the first again, but this time was different, Kara was able to feel what Lena was feeling, the pleasure, the eagerness in her, when she run her tongue over Lena's lower lip a wave of satisfaction washed over her and she deepened the kiss. Mere seconds later they were fighting a battle for dominance, each of them chasing the pleasure their link had provided, Kara would lick inside Lena's mouth and the brunette would bite and suck at her tongue, and with every sensation their movement became more frantic, soon Kara's hands were touching soft skin underneath Lena's almost ripped shirt, while Lena's were desperately trying to get Kara out of her T-shirt. The feeling was so intense, like nothing Kara had felt before, she could feel her own pleasure but also Lena's and the notion made her inner wolf become agitated. Lena was about to take her hand to lead them towards her room when a loud growled came out of the blonde and Lena stopped moving.

"Kara?" Lena asked hesitantly, Kara's pupils were completely blown out, she could feel herself losing control again.

"I can't… I'm sorry Lena I think we should stop" Kara clenched her teeth with force biting her own tongue in the process, she could taste the iron from the drawn blood. Lena put herself in her line of sight and smile to her.

"Darling, it's okay, we can wait, please calm down, everything is fine, I promise" The soft sound of Lena's voice soothed her, she offered a glass of water this time and Kara took it.

"Did you feel it too? I could feel everything, I could feel… you" Kara finished.

"Yes, I… I understand why you almost lost control, that was… intense" Lena answered with a light blushed.

"Yeah, this is new for me, but I can think a couple of ways this will be useful for me" Kara gave her a playful smile and Lena shivered.

"Oookey, I think is time for us to decide what to eat" Lena headed towards the kitchen and opened the fridge door. "So, I have some vegetables, oh! I have kale, we can make a salad…"

"Kale? Okey now I'm not sure if I want to spend the rest of my life with you" Kara said almost offended and Lena slapped her arm "Ouch that hurt".

"As if, and a kale salad is a perfectly good choice of food, thank you very much" Lena added while she searched for more options inside the kitchen's cabinets.

"Yeah if you're a cow…" Kara replied in the low "Ouch! again?" Lena had yet again slapped her arm.

"I heard that"

"And I'm the one who has improved hearing"

"Well, mine is pretty good too. Oh!" Kara watched as Lena grabbed a box from one of the cabinets. "So, I have rice and onions… maybe we can make some risotto?"

"That sounds better than a kale salad" Kara came a little closer to Lena and whispered in her ear "So, do you want me in a towel while you cut the onions like last time or…" another slap.

"Oh God you're impossible" Lena was blushing again and Kara thought red was a good color on her.

They ended up cooking some risotto together, well mostly Lena, Kara was there more like a moral support. It was around 8PM when they finished eating and decided to sit on the couch, they could clean up later.

"Do you want to talk, about what happened?" Lena asked once they had settled. They were still having some wine, the alcohol making them relax after the events of the past week.

"I do, there are so much things I want to share with you, I don't even know where to start" Kara was holding a cushion Lena had given her, close to her chest.

"Mmm… why don't you start from the beginning, from what you saw in the session today" Lena came closer, their bodies were almost press together.

Kara took a deep breath "My entire life I thought my parents' death was just an accident, but today I remembered everything that happened. Even when I was a child, I knew my dad and mom were hiding something from me, I used to hear them talk, whisper and fight about something related to me, but I paid them no mind, I was just a kid, I didn't think it was important at the time. Do you remember I said a man was looking for me then?" Lena nodded "He is the man who kidnapped you, the prime Alpha"

"Prime Alpha?" Lena asked curious and this time Kara nodded.

"He's like the boss of all werewolves"

"So, Jonn was…?"

"He was the Alpha of our pack" Kara swallowed the lump that had formed in her throat "Alexei, he was Jonn's Alpha, his like the big boss"

"And now he knows about you" Lena gasped.

"The day I lost my memory, I got a phone call from him"

"That was him? What did he want?"

"He wanted to brag about how I'm supposed to be his, part of his property, and to tell me that he would take care of Lex for me" Lena's blood went cold.

"Oh my God, we need to tell Alex, or someone, do you believe he knows you are the same he wanted all those years ago?"

"I'm sure he does. He told me I was… special. I know there's something different in me, no other woman survived the conversion process before. I'm almost sure he was the one that killed my parents".

"Do you think he's going to kill Lex? I mean don't get me wrong, my brother definitely deserves whatever comes for him, but I still wonder if that's what he has plan for him". Lena asked while she stood and put a kettle on.

"I don't know what to expect from Alexei, whatever it is I hope it doesn't involve your brother turning into a werewolf"

"I hope don't either. Here, it will warm you up" Lena offered a steaming cup of tea.

"Thank you" Kara blew on the tea to cool it down while Lena settled at her side once more, their knees touching by the closeness. They kept in comfortable silence for a few minutes before the brunette decided to break the quietness.

"I was wondering if maybe we could try what we did at the park that night, I really need to know what you went through and I want to know all of you" Kara looked down at her own hands holding the cup. "Only if you are ready" Lena added.

"We could try tomorrow? I'm pretty exhausted right now"

"Of course darling, tomorrow sounds good. Now, let's drink this tea so we can go to bed" Lena smiled and gave Kara a peck on her cheek.

[…]

"One day you will be magnificent little one"

"Will I?" She asked with curiosity.

"Of course you will. Our family has been waiting for someone like you for years, centuries even. The day will come when you will show the world how strong our family is, and when you find her, no one would be able to stop you"

"Lena?" Kara asked while her hair was being braided, the older woman nodded.

[…]

Kara woke up startled from her dream, she could still feel soft fingers running through her hair. The light coming through the windows was soft, probably it was still very early. When she stretched her arm to see the time on her phone, there was some movement at her side.

"Kara?" Lena said in a raspy voice.

"Sorry I woke you, it's still early, you should go back to sleep"

"Are you okey?"

"Yeah, it was just a dream, I'm fine"

"Do you want to talk about it?"

"Maybe later? You should rest, I'll make breakfast and call you when is ready"

"Mhm… sounds nice" Lena mumbled before falling asleep once again.

Exactly one hour later breakfast was served and both were enjoying a full stack of pancakes. Kara had called Alex to let her know she still wasn't ready to talk about what happened, she still had things she wanted to talk with Lena first and things she wanted to figure it out on her own, and to her relief, her sister didn't complain.

They were finishing having breakfast when Kara spoke for the first time since waking up.

"It was my aunt" Lena left her phone and gave her an inquisitive look, Kara continued "in my dream, I was with my aunt"

"Oh, I see" Lena grabbed her hands and gave a little squeeze "It's okey if you don't want to talk about it Kara" Lena's gaze was full of love and earnestness, Kara was amazed at how soft this woman was with her, she felt blessed for being the person to see and being on the receiver end of this side of her.

"No, I want to share this with you, besides, it also involves you"

"Okey, what was it about"

"It wasn't just a dream but a memory. I was on my aunt's lap, she was braiding my hair" Kara closed her eyes to recall what she saw at that moment. "She said I was the one they had been waiting for centuries, and then… she mentioned you" She opened her eyes then to see Lena's surprised features.

"Okay, that confirms our theory that we were supposed to meet then"

"I suppose it does. Apparently, there are things that are coming back after my session with Kelly. My aunt, she told me that the world would know how strong my family can be, that once I found you I would be unstoppable" Kara smiled sheepishly.

"Well, no pressure there" Lena chuckled "No, but, in all seriousness, you have any idea what was she talking about?"

"I don't, maybe it's related with me being a werewolf but I'm not sure"

"We should do some research, about your past, your ancestors? We should be able to find something that can help us understand what's going on" Lena ended and her phone rang "I'm sorry, I have to take this"

"Yeah, sure, I'm going to call Brainy, maybe he can help us with this" Kara replied and went to grab her own phone.

Soon after Lena had to leave the apartment, when Kara asked her if something was wrong Lena only mention something about Morgan Edge being an ass before almost running through the door. Kara busied herself cleaning what she had use to make breakfast and making the bed, once she finished, she was drawn towards the massive bookcase hidden in what seemed to be Lena's home office. After reading for a couple of hours, memories about her long-lost family flooded her thoughts. What was her family hiding? What was their story and how were they related to the Luthor family? Kara was starting to feel suffocated, she walked towards the balcony and once she opened the sliding glass door, a sense of relief came to her when she was finally able to take a deep breath of fresh air. So much had happened in the last couple of months, she had met Lena, she was shot by Lex Luthor who admitted was working with The Order and… Jonn, the man she had learn to love like a father, had been killed by these anonymous wolves' hunters. Without even noticing a few tears found their way down her face.

"I wish you were still here… I… I don't know what to do next, our pack, Winn, Brainy and Mike lost you… I lost you, how am I supposed to do this, there was so much more to learn from you Jonn, I don't know if I'm ready to let go of you too…" a few more tears went down. When she heard the front door opening she quickly dried her tears with the back of her hand and hided her pain behind a mask of sympathy when Lena appeared at her side.

"Hey you, how did it go" Lena gave her a peck on her cheek while she loosened her tie.

"I swear, that man it's going to be the reason why I'll fall into the Luthor madness once and for all" Lena sat at the balcony couch now while she took off her stilettos, Kara was already at her side, once Lena's feet were free from the oppressing shoes, the blonde settled both of Lena's legs on top of hers and started massaging her feet, she was happy when Lena sighed at the feeling. "But enough about useless men, how was your morning?"

"Well, I found the little library you were hiding" Kara replied while still working on Lena's feet, every so often her hand would slide a little bit higher. Lena smirked.

"Is that so?" the space on Kara's lap was replace by a full body when Lena suddenly straddled her.

"Aham. There were a few interesting books in there" Lena was so close now that Kara could smell the fresh scent of her conditioner and the notes of whisky on her breath, apparently this Morgan Edge was a handful if he made her mate drink this early in the morning.

"Pure curiosity I swear" Lena replied while their lips brushed slightly and Kara felt a jolt of electricity run through her entire body.

"Such a shame, I was very invested in trying some of the things I read" Kara watched as green eyes darkened and followed the motion with interest when the brunette's tongue flicked out to wet her lips, the action was all it took for Kara to finally close the gap between them and go for a deep kiss. Both of them fought for dominance, their tongues dancing a dangerous tune. As the kiss became more urgent, Lena slowly started to grind against Kara's thigh in search of some kind of friction. Eventually they broke the kiss, both panting heavily, their lungs trying to get some much-needed air in.

"Your eyes are changing" Lena spoke softly, her hand trailing Kara's jaw in a soft caress.

"I'm fine, I can handle it" Lena got off Kara's lap but kept a steady hand on the blonde's knee.

"I can feel how nervous you are, there's no rush, I'm okey with the occasional touches whenever they are granted" Lena smiled softly, her eyes shining brightly with the morning light "Besides we had other plans for today"

"Thank you Lena" Kara said and kissed Lena's hand.

"What for?"

"For being so patient, so understanding, it's a pleasant change from my previous relationships".

"You don't have nothing to thank me for, I believe both of us had low standards in regards to love interests". Both of them chuckled.

"I think you're right about that" Lena smile grew even wider.

"Of course, as you already know, I'm always right"

"Oh, shut up!" Kara tried to look serious but failed completely. "I think I'm ready to show you my past, if you are".

"I am, just let's get inside, it's getting chilly out here" Once they were inside, Lena headed towards the kitchen "I'll change my clothes and make us some tea before we try" Kara sat at the couch and waited for Lena to come back.

"I think I can show you everything without sharing any physical pain. Last time, I didn't have control over our bond, but I think I'm able to control it better now".

Lena came before her and handed a cup of steaming tea "You should teach me. I don't think you would enjoy if by accident I share my temper whenever someone pisses me off on a meeting" Kara shuddered.

"No, I wouldn't, after we finished, we'll definitely practice our control" Once they settled on the couch, Kara grabbed Lena's hand. They were facing each other, both sitting cross-legged in a comfortable position. "So, I won't have control about what you'll be seeing but I will try my best to control the emotions behind the memories, tell me if something feels wrong okey?"

"Okey, I'm ready" Lena said with confidence.

At first, they were completely quiet, Kara tried to concentrate in her memories, she tried to push them to the front of her consciousness but for a few minutes nothing happened between them, there were no flashbacks and all Lena could feel was the tingle coming from their holding hands, but that suddenly change when her mind was flooded with flashing memories that weren't her own. Kara heard how Lena took a deep breath while she squeezed her hand harder as if trying to anchor herself.

Kara saw how the memories went from her being a little kid, meeting her new family, her awkward time during high school, and finally to the event that change her life forever. As soon as the memory of her being crush by the werewolf that night came, she felt Lena's hand squeeze even harder, Kara focused all her energy in blocking the physical and mental pain behind the memory, but even so, from time-to-time Lena's body would shake from the emotional impact. Even for Kara, watching everything unravel again like a motion picture before her eyes, was something difficult to swallow, she could almost sense the burning on her arm where her skin had been torn, or the lack of air caused by her own ribs piercing her lung. She could avoid Lena the pain, but not her own, no when the trauma was brought again at the front of her consciousness. Even so, Kara managed to keep going, until finally, the memory of that night faded into a new one. They kept going for just a few more minutes, the process seemed to last for hours but it had taken only a few minutes for Lena to see a recap of Kara's entire life.

"Are you okey?" Kara asked with concern, Lena took a deep breath and when she opened her eyes Kara could see the pain reflected in them.

"I should be the one asking that darling" Lena came closer. "I'm sorry you had to go through all that" one of her hands where now stroking Kara's face and the blonde leaned into the contact.

"I'm… managing, seeing everything again was hard, I thought I had come to terms with all of that but apparently there are things I still had to work on"

"It's okey, what happened to you is something that probably takes time to internalize, look at me, I sound like Kelly" Lena said in chuckles to lighten up the mood and Kara was grateful for it.

"So, I know you pretty much saw everything there's to know about me, but leaving the ugly part aside, what do you think?" Kara was nervous, this was the first time she opened up entirely to another person, not even Alex knew so much about her, and the thought of Lena rejecting some part of her, scared her to no end.

"I think you, Kara Danvers, are marvelous" Kara's eyes brighten with the praise and her heart skip a bit when Lena's gaze set on hers. "What I saw only confirms what I already suspected, that you darling, are more than I could dream off"

"You really mean that?" Kara's lower lip quivered.

"Of course I do, I would never lie to you. I really want to do this the right way, with everything going on, we never had time to properly do this, so Kara, would you like to go out with me? There are so many places I want to show you, and I know there are things I still don't know about you and things that I want to share with you, what do you think?"

Kara took a deep breath, the knot that had formed in her throat by the anxiety already gone after Lena's confession. She moved forward almost tackling Lena and hugged her with all her might "I think you Lena Luthor are amazing, and I would want nothing more than share everything with you"

They were now face to face and without losing any time, they sealed their hopes with a tender kiss, this kiss was painfully slow, filled with meaning, both of them trying to pour to the last drop of love they had in them.

[…]

Without any of them noticing, a couple of days had gone by and the day of the gala had arrived. When Kara saw Lena in a sinful red dress, they had almost ditched the party in favor of exploring something much more entertaining but Jess interrupted their plans with a call, asking where Lena was.

Kara had been introduced to several businessmen and women, but more importantly she had been introduced to the best potstickers she had ever had. That's where she was at the moment, next to a table serving herself, when she felt a sense of awkwardness that was definitely not her own. She searched through the crowd trying to find Lena, with every minute that passed by, her emotions became even more difficult to tame. She finally found her mate after some minutes, Lena was chatting with a man, who shamelessly was trying to grab Lena by her waist. When Kara heard part of the conversation, she hurried towards them, her fists clenching and unclenching at her side.

"Hey honey, I was looking for you" Kara said while she circled Lena's waist with her right arm pushing her closer and released some pheromones to soothe her, she could feel Lena relaxed at her side immediately.

"Darling here you are, I've missed you" Lena replied while she gave Kara a peck on her cheek "Let me introduce you to Morgan Edge, CEO of Edge Global, Morgan this is Kara Danvers, my girlfriend" Lena ended with a smirk.

Edge went for a handshake, Kara squeezed his hand with force and the man broke the contact immediately.

"That's a strong hand shake you got there" the man stated and then leaned towards Lena "When you tire yourself of playing with dolls, I would be more than willing to teach you what a real man can do" When he pulled off, the smirk on her face was sickening, the comment was made in an almost inaudible whispered, but it hadn't gone unnoticed by Kara.

"What the fuck did you say to her?!" Kara almost growled at him, her blood burning with rage. Edge took a step back and put both hands up in surrender.

"Whoa, easy there, I was just messing around" Kara could feel herself losing control, since she got her memories back something had change in her, her wolf was stronger and even more territorial towards Lena. When she felt her last sense of self control slip, the touch of a soft and cold hand on her face brought her back and her raising heartbeat was beating at a normal pace once again, as she regained control once more, she saw how Morgan Edge was nowhere to be seen.

"I'm so sorry Lena" Lena's hand had dropped from Kara's face to her waist where it was resting comfortably. The sound of music which was muffled before was now clear in Kara's ears, and a slow song was playing.

"Don't worry, I know how difficult it is to deal with Edge" Lena smiled at her, and Kara drown herself on those deep mesmerizing eyes.

"Would you dance with me?" the blonde asked still in trance.

"I would love to" Lena answered and pulled her towards the dance floor.

They dance until their feet hurt, both enjoying the bubble they had created and the peaceful moment they were sharing. Eventually they came back to Lena's apartment after dropping a more than tipsy Jess at her department.

"Kara?" Lena's voice came from her bedroom, Kara was having a glass of water and rummaging Lena's cupboards in search of some snacks.

"Yes?" Kara answered while she hummed after founding a bag of chips.

"Can you come zip me down?"

Kara gulped. "Yeah sure" she replied with a trembling voice. She slowly walked towards Lena's bedroom and when she entered, the brunette had her back towards the door and Kara was able to appreciate how her dressed clung to every curve of her body.

"Hey" she said when she finally was behind Lena, her front pressed against Lena's back.

"Hey yourself, can you help me?" Lena's voice was deep, sultry, and Kara felt how every word said by those plumb lips made an impact on her core. Instead of replying, Kara slowly unzipped the dress, her fingers barely touching the delicate and soft skin. Once the zipper was out of the way, Kara started to pull Lena free from her dress starting by her shoulders, as soon as a patch of skin was showing, her mouth was already there, her tongue tasting Lena' skin and drawing moans out of her mate. Suddenly, Lena had turned around and clamed Kara's lips. The kiss was frantic and Kara could feel her own arousal increasing with every licked and bite they share. As the kiss deepened, Kara's hands started exploring, unable to contain herself, her right hand was place at Lena's breast and she heard her mate moan when she rub an already erect nipple with her thumb, even if Lena was still wearing her underwear, apparently she could feel the touch even through the fabric, so Kara continued her ministrations, first with her hands and then with her mouth, she almost lost it when, after she gave a bite to the already sensible nub, Lena's moan was loud enough to be heard through the entire floor, thankfully, they were at Lena's penthouse. Kara continued rubbing and biting until she could feel Lena's legs trembling, she decided then to reclaim her lips, her tongue immediately was granted permission and she licked the insides of Lena's mouth as if her life depended on it. Kara could feel her wolf becoming more desperate, eventually she broke the contact for both of them to take a deep breath, but when she did, she was assaulted by Lena's intoxicating smell, she could smell her mate's arousal and the notion was enough for her to lose her grip.

"Kara? Your eyes…" Lena said with worry and once again Kara was reminded of how easily she could lose control when she was being intimate with Lena.

"I'm sorry Lena, I really am" Kara was already putting some space between her and Lena, she was trying to calm herself down, but the scent coming from Lena was making it difficult. "I think I'm going for a run" she said while quickly changing her clothes.

"You don't have to go" Lena whispered and Kara could hear the fear behind her tone.

"I need to, I… don't worry I'll be back, I promise, but I really need to blow off some steam" She came closer to Lena "Lena, you didn't do anything wrong, it's just, I'm not able to control myself very well when I'm with you"

"Okey, be safe?"

"Always"

[…]

Like always she went to the park where Lena and her had met, it was late and there was no one around, she run for a few minutes but she knew she had to change into her wolf form in order to calm herself and regain control, once she did, she immediately felt better. After running for about half an hour, she could feel the smell of the rain coming and a minute later a few drops were damping her fur. She was about to change back when something made the fur in her back stand and a shivered run through the extension of her spine. Before she could see what was causing it, something was tackling her with such a force that her body went flying some feet away and only stopped once she collapsed against a tree. Kara shook her head in order to regain some sense of balance, she felt dizzy and her side ache severely. She was about to stand when once again something heavy came crashing at her side, she howled in pain and grace herself for yet another hit, but this time, she was expecting the attack and was able to dodge it. Whoever was attacking her was clever, always moving fast and disappearing into the shadows before she could see them, but her sense of smell confirmed what she already suspected, a werewolf was the one perpetrating each blow.

As soon as she smelled the strong pheromones in the air, she knew she was fighting against someone who had been turned by the Prime Alpha himself, his scent was all over the creature and made her wolf flinch in disgust. She wasn't sure what his plan was but she knew she had to defend herself. When she saw the wolf running towards her, she decided to charge forward with all her might, she was faster than him and was able to push him first, but this wolf was bigger than the average and he easily turned them around, his full weight crushing Kara's body. The pain at her side got worst but nothing in comparison with the pain caused by a sharp set of canines ripping at the skin on her neck, she growled again and tried to stir herself out of his grasp. Her body was shaking, her vision was blurred and her mind was foggy. When her breathing became shallow by the weight crushing her lungs, she remembered what she had promised to Lena, how they were supposed to be together, to share their life together. With renewed forces she pushed herself from the floor, adrenalin cursing through her veins. The other wolf went flying a few feet away and Kara was able to ground herself, but as soon as she did, the wolf was already on her feet and charging back, he let out a loud growl and Kara could smell his pheromones, he was trying to make her submit and this only made her blood boiled even more. Their bodies came crushing once more, she was able to bit him, but in retribution, the wolf once again hit her at her side., they kept going for a few more minutes. Kara's rage was rising after each blow, she was no longer trying to defend herself but was the one inflicting pain. She felt herself losing control and her mind went blank for a moment, when she came back to her senses, her jaw was pressing the wolf's neck, her mouth tasted like iron and the creature laid limp below her.

[…]

She wasn't sure how, but at some point, she made it back to Lena's place, Kara was soaked, her body bleeding heavily and was barely able to stand, with the little force she had left she knocked and waited for Lena to opened. When the door finally opened, her voice was raspy and shallow "Lena I… I killed him…"

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