Chapter 6 – The Secret Capture

"No Sirius! He's too young!"

"Molly, Harry will just get uncertain information from the others, I will just tell him what he needs to know" replied Sirius

"What is happening with Voldemort, where is he, what is he up to?" asked Harry

"When I left you in the hospital wing back in June, I made my way to Remus' cottage, we then made our way here. I offered Dumbledore this place for headquarters for the Order or the Phoenix thinking that is the best think I could do. Remus the captured Pettigrew and handed him over to the ministry, they were forced to hear me out and now I am on trial the same day as you. Anyway, we have been trying to get as many people our side as possible inside the ministry, but it is proving difficult"

"why cant Mr Weasley..." Harry started

"We need spies in the Ministry, since they don't believe he is back we need to act subtilty, we don't want Dumbledore to end up in Azkaban because he's the only wizard Voldemort was ever afraid of. Most wizards are unaccepting and follow the ministry, there are a few who have open minds, Kingsley for example, he has taken over my case with Pettigrew, they think I'm on house arrest down Remus' old cottage but I'm actually here which does not compromise the secrecy of this place. We are trying to convince other wizards and magical beings to join us, Voldemort is doing the same, there have been no disappearances or people killed yet because Voldemort wants his army big and strong again. There is also talk of a weapon, something he didn't have last time…"

"That's enough! Dumbledore only said what he needs to know, that's enough!"

"Mrs Weasley can I please just ask how Remus captured Pettigrew?" asked Harry politely.

"Just that one thing, then bed!" she replied

"Okay, I was on a mission for the order, in with the werewolves to try and gain some followers" he stopped looking at Mrs Weasley's scowl but Sirius nodded for him to continue. "I then saw a rat that was missing a right paw, his markings were familiar, I knew it was him, scuttling towards the leader of the pack. Once he left the leader of the pack announced that his rat friend would be returning with information next day. I needed to act, using a disillusion charm I hid in the shadows with a cage ready on hand right before the border of the pack, I had to get him, he was so close and after what he did to Sirius I wanted revenge, but was smarter about it this time. I was ready, Peter is not the smartest of wizards if you can call him that, he travels on the exact same route each time, all I had to do was track him. And I was right, an hour later I had Peter trapped in a cage, I let Kingsley hand him in as he would be better heard than I. So, we had a court date and the ministry had no choice but to call off the hunt for black as he handed himself in provided he has a trial."

"Cool!" exclaimed Harry after Remus had finished speaking. Bill and Sirius laughed and Mrs Weasley sighed.

"Off to bed now Harry" said Mrs Weasley kindly. Harry nodded feeling the urge to cut heighten, he was desperate, he needed not to feel, he needed to be punished for being such a pathetic person.

"Goodnight" everyone said as he went out the door

Harry made his way up the stone stairs being a lot more careful this time. When he had reached the second-floor landing, he noticed that the door to his room was already open. Hobbling inside Harry's feelings intensified, and his heart sank as he noticed that everyone was sitting between the two beds.

"Did they tell you anything interesting?" asked Fred

"Mum put that charm on the door again so no one could hear" continued George

"Just that Voldemort is building up his army again" replied Harry, being more concerned about his broken, messed up leg than anything else.

"Anything else? We already know that" urged Ron

"Ron! Don't be so pushy! They were down there to help Harry with his leg, nothing else, I'm sure they told him everything we know already! What did Remus say about it Harry?"

"Don't bother, all you guys care about is what information they told me about the order, nothing else, now if you excuse me I would like to have a shower before I go to bed thanks" Harry grabbed some pyjamas, a towel and his razor blade from his trunk and rushed out of the room because the walls were caving in and he was finding it hard to breathe.

"Harry come back, we are sorry!" came Hermione's voice from behind him

"Idiot!" cried Ron

"Leave him be Ronald! you didn't even ask him how he was doing, or how he was going to be healed, none of you did!" started Hermione, but Harry barely heard it.

Harry managed to make it to the bathroom just in time for his stomach contents to empty themselves into the bowl. Still barely being able to breathe he slipped down the door so he was sitting on the white floor. All the thoughts were overwhelming him 'pathetic, stupid, worthless, unworthy, coward, no part of our family, no one wants you here'.

Tears were now rolling down his cheeks as he unwrapped the bandage on his left arm, he still couldn't breathe, he needed relief before his negative cloud strangled him. Harry picked up his muggle razor and without looking he slashed his arm three times without thinking. His skin split smoothly as blood gushed to the surface.

One more time, he stated to feel the numbness return, and another for good measure. The numbness now fulfilling his entire body and relieving him from his negative bottomless pit. Harry sat there for a long time, until he had stopped bleeding and the blood hardening on his arm. A pool of blood lay on the floor

Once Harry realised what he had done he cleaned the blood away and jumped into the shower, carefully balancing on his good leg with his bad one wrapped in the shower curtain. The stinging helped the numbness, he didn't want to feel, he didn't want to be alive and from today he could tell people didn't care about him, only themselves.

"Harry, are you in there?" came Mrs Weasleys voice "Are you okay, want any help?"

"No Mrs Weasley, its fine, just getting my pyjamas on now" Harry replied in a rush. He quickly wrapped his arm in the bandage and put on his pyjama top, he then put some old shorts on since he couldn't fit into his pyjama bottoms on, he then placed his razor in his pocket and deposited the towels into the wash basket which immediately popped and the towel was clean, washed and folded on the shelf again. Harry then picked up his crutches and made his way out. "Sorry I was so long, it's much more difficult on one leg"

"Of course dear, just ensuring you're alright"

"Thanks"

"now bed!"

"Yes, and thanks" Mrs Weasley nodded and chaperoned him back to his room. Ron was already asleep on the bed, Harry sat down on his, placing his crutches to one side and is towel and razor back in his trunk.

"Do you have to sleep with that on dear?" whispered Mrs Weasley

"It's for the best, you saw how much my leg moved around unnaturally without it, it's not worth the risk." Replied Harry

"Right you are, lie back and I'll get some cushions to help" Harry nodded his thanks as he laid back. Mrs Weasley, like she did earlier she placed a cushion under his leg to help, the difference was enormous, maybe he could get a decent sleep after all, he thought to himself. "Is that alright there?"

"Yes, thank you Mrs Weasley"

"Your welcome, sleep well" Harry replied as Mrs Weasley closed the door to their room. He felt oddly comfortable, the most comfortable he had felt in a long while. Hoping he would get some sort of good sleep; he closed his eyes. But he was soon back in the graveyard once again and heading for another night of unrestful sleep.

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