Previously…
I felt my body being lifted onto a white bed and felt the floor rolling forward. I turned my head, and a screaming pain came into my head, so I stopped moving. More tears fell into my ears, and Edward wiped them away with one hand, holding my hand with the other.
I closed my eyes, praying that the pain went away.
~oOo~
Songs Used: "I Won't Give Up"- Jason Mraz
"Long Live the Kids"- We Are the In Crowd
I slowly opened my eyes to hear a guitar being plucked and strummed. My head swam with colors and black and white. I gripped the bed sheets as I hissed in pain.
The strumming stopped, and two big, calloused hands held mine.
"Bella."
Edward was a mess, to say the least. Bloodshot, bright green eyes, tear stains on either side of his face, bronze hair spiked all over, like he ran his hands through it over and over.
"What happened?" I flinched hearing the crack in my voice and his fingers curled into mine.
He frowned and kissed my hands. "You had appendicitis. Carlisle said it was from the time you got really sick last month, and that caused a blockage in your appendix, and it burst." Edward choked, and more tears filled his eyes. He looked up on the ceiling for a few seconds before continuing. "Carlisle did the surgery to take it out, and you've been out on anesthesia for a few hours. Everyone else is outside. We've been so worried about you. I'm so sorry, Bella! Just for everything. The label thing, me being an asshole, just everything. And I'll do everything in my power to have you forgive me."
I groaned when I tried to sit up to kiss him.
"Wait, what are you doing? Don't sit up," he stammered, "Stop…" He leaned over to me and kissed my lips softly. I brought his head closer, ignoring the pain in the pit of my stomach.
"Ouch," I whispered as I let go. He smiled and kissed my forehead and sniffled into my hair.
"I thought I lost you. Really lost you," He mumbled.
Tears filled my eyes, and I sniffled as I heard his voice crack at the end. "Me too. Can we not fight anymore? 'Cause every time we do, I always end up in the hospital."
He laughed. "Well, I can't promise you we'll never fight again, but I can promise you I'll never leave you. Is that okay?"
A tear fell from my eye. I nodded. "Yeah, that's okay."
"Okay, I should let my dad and everyone else know you're awake. I'll be right back." He reluctantly let go of my hands to walk out of the room.
I sat back uncomfortably, wringing the bed sheets together in a loose knot. Looking back at the past month, I tried to remember what happened. I got sick last month, then there was when I was listening to Edward's song at home, where I felt the pain in my abdomen.
Rose Alice, Emmett, and Jasper burst inside, disturbing my train of thought, and ran to us.
"Oh my god, you're awake!"
"Are you okay?"
"Can we see the scar?"
"Emmett!"
"Guys, shhhhhhhhhhhhh! Jesus! She just got up, and making all this noise in a hospital is not helping! So shut up!" Edward hissed at them.
"Stop making me laugh. It hurts!" I held my side, trying to keep my tears mixed with pain and joy in. I sniffled.
"Sorry," The rest of them mumbled.
Rose sat next to me and laid a hand on my forehead. "You okay though, really?"
I nodded. "Yeah, I'm okay. It hurts to laugh, though. I looked toward my husband, who smiled back.
Carlisle then came in with a clipboard. "Okay, you know you can't have this many visitors in one room, right?" he scorned, but I could see the hint of a smile on his face.
"Yeah, yeah, we're aware, Pops," Emmett laughed and clapped his back. Carlisle fell a bit, and then shook his head, smiling.
"How are you feeling, Bella?" he asked me.
"Okay. It just hurts when I laugh."
"Well, that's normal. But you'll be okay soon."
Yeah, I would be.
~oOo~
I stayed in the hospital for a few more weeks for my stomach to heal. Everyone came to visit once a day, and Edward stayed by my side.
I ate nothing but chocolate and vanilla swirled ice creams and puddings because Carlisle told me it'd help. Plus, it tasted good, so I didn't argue
"So, what was that song you played when I woke up?" My mouth was full of chocolate pudding.
"Oh, you mean this one?" Edward pulled out his guitar and played those same seven notes that had been on my mind.
"Yeah, what was that?"
He laughed nervously. "I was just hoping that music would wake you up, so I had a melody in my head. I didn't want to finish it without you."
I felt shy and distracted myself by stirring my chocolate pudding, hoping he wouldn't notice. "What would have happened if I didn't wake up?"
"I would have given it all up."
I looked up, shocked. "Edward!"
"What? I would have."
"Why?"
"Because since 2007, I found out that I can't live without you. I just can't. You're a part of me. You make me more of a better man than I ever was."
Tears clouded my vision. Edward sighed and took my pudding cup out of my hand, replacing it with his hands. "I meant what I said before. I'll never leave you. I love you too much."
I smiled and swallowed my tears back. He wiped my eyes with his thumbs, kissed my fingers, and sat back in the chair.
"Okay, so it's not done, but here's what I have so far, 'kay?" He smiled.
I nodded and wiped my eyes.
When I look into your eyes
It's like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
Well, there's so much they hold
And just like them old stars
I see that you've come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?
Well, I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up
"Wow, that's beautiful." I smiled, and he flushed slightly.
We spent the rest of the day writing the rest of the song since I couldn't risk singing just yet. Edward took a picture with his phone of his guitar, pad and pencil, then of me in my hospital bed.
"Noo, don't send that pic of me!" I hid under the covers.
I felt the guitar being picked up, and Edward placed it against the wall. Edward crawled next to me and held me close.
"Your fans miss you." He smiled.
"My fans? Our fans." I laughed into his chest. We looked on Facebook, where an announcement from him was posted yesterday. Tons upon tons of comments to me were sent. I should have expected it because our fans loved us and supported us no matter what. "Aww, I love our fans!"
"Me too," my husband kissed me.
~oOo~
Jan. 2022
When I was finally released from the hospital, Edward and I almost immediately started writing songs. Not for an EP or anything, just because we wanted to, and we felt this burning passion to do it. It was the hardest and most difficult experience for the both of us, because we both had to challenge our vocal abilities in order for these songs to work. Esme and Rosalie were a great help; Esme worked with Edward, and Rose worked with me, keeping her promise as my vocal coach. But when we finally got it all together, it had such a brilliant effect to it, an effect that made us even closer as a couple. We released the song through our SoundCloud, and then it started a chain reaction. We called it "Long Live the Kids" to show that we were still here, still fighting and , still making it work and being ourselves along the way.
I've seen the rise, and the fall.
The bitterness in all the empty hearts
That stopped before they left their mark.
In this town worst friends
Can be your best enemies.
Share the same last wish, last names.
It's all eyes to keep you in line.
So hang on, be strong
Long live the kids in us all.
Pride may fail us,
But god we will die trying.
Hang on, be strong
Long live the kids in us all.
Fate may cheat us,
But God we will die trying.
Hope, hey!
I've been the hope, and the doubt
The fear of breaking down
These insecurities until there's nothing left
(Until there's nothing left)
I wanna scream, I wanna live
I don't care who's listening.
I won't wait my turn to be the ignorant
(Hey, hey, hey, hey)
If I rised to keep you in line
So hang on, be strong
Long live the kids in us all.
Pride may fail us,
But God we will die trying.
Hang on, be strong
Long live the kids in us all.
Fate may cheat us,
But God we will die trying.
You can't tell us no!
You can't tell us no!
No! No-oh!
You can't tell us no!
No! No-oh!
You can't tell us no!
You can't tell us no, no, no, no, no!
Hang on, be strong
Long live the kids in us all
Pride may fail us,
But God we will die trying
Hang on, be strong
Long live the kids in us all
Pride may fail us,
But God we will die trying
Hang on, be strong
Long live the kids in us all
Fate may cheat us,
But God we will die trying
God we will die trying!
No, no-oh!
You can't tell us no!
No, no-oh!
You can't tell us no!
No, no-oh!
You can't tell us no!
No, no-oh!
You can't tell us no!
Our fans loved it, obviously, and I think it gave us even more fans now. We still didn't have a label to back us up, but we were in talks with a few. We were just taking our time and enjoying ourselves.
~oOo~
We were off to go to Angela and Ben's wedding. Since it was still winter, I didn't want to wear anything too flowing or anything that showed off my legs. I wore black dress pants with a nice, long-sleeved blouse tucked in the pants. Some pieces of my medium-length hair went up, while the rest of my hair stayed down. Rose and Alice wore dresses, which made me roll my eyes a bit. The guys just wore tuxedos without ties.
"I feel overdressed." Edward smiled nervously, pulling on his jacket.
I took his hands and rubbed them together, hoping he'd calm down. "No, you're not, you look handsome."
"Yeah, but you're wearing something so casual, and I look like I'm going to prom." He laughed.
"Do you still remember our prom?" I hugged him around his waist.
"Yeah, not the best moment of our lives. Aside from our show there, I mean." He shrugged.
"Yeah, but at least we got out of it okay," I rose on my tiptoes and kissed him.
"Whoa, no!" We both looked up as Alice pulled me away to the car, saying, "I worked hard on your makeup, and he's not going to mess it up before we get there!"
I laughed, and Alice closed the door on me. Edward slid in next to me and wrapped an arm around my shoulder.
Angela and Ben's wedding was beautiful. I cried twice when they read each other their vows and put on their rings.
They danced their first dance as husband and wife at the reception. Ben rubbed Angela's growing stomach, and she smiled brightly. The way they looked at each other reminded me of our wedding almost a year ago. I felt his fingers curl into mine as he brought me up from my seat.
"Come dance with me."
"Sure." I beamed.
We walked next to Angela and Ben and copied them, laying my head onto Edward's chest. He held my hand with his left while holding me close with his right. Angela's smile brightened even more when she saw me. I reached over to briefly grasp her hand before returning my attention to Edward.
"Having fun?" he asked in my ear.
I looked up at his bright, green eyes. "Yeah, it's bringing back a lot of memories."
"Yeah, like what?" he kissed my hair.
"Just of our wedding. And my sisters'." I smiled as we swayed back and forth.
"That's something I'll never forget."
I sighed and looked to Angela, who was smiling into Ben's chest.
"They look happy together."
I looked up and saw him looking toward my best friend.
"Yeah, they do. I'm so happy for her. I know that Ben can make her really happy."
"Like I make you happy?" he joked.
"Yeah, sure, I guess you make me happy too." I teased with a smile, and he kissed me.
