I woke up and already knew this day was going to be long. I got up and headed for the shower. I wanted to make sure I at least made a good appearance. I knew that if I didn't Gemma would be on my case to go for a shopping spree to make me pick out a whole new wardrobe.
I dried my hair so it was wavy and put on some light makeup. Just a bit of eye shadow, eyeliner, mascara and some nude lip gloss. I walked to my closet and weighed my options. What kind of message did I want to send? I pulled out some ripped up skinny jeans, my white converse, and a Harley-Davidson tank top.
I smiled in the mirror, happy with how I looked for the first time in awhile. Being around an abusive person really took a toll on not just my body but my self-esteem. I grabbed my purse and a pop-tart and ran out the door. I didn't want to be late on my first day.
I got to the lot the same time as Tig. He stopped and stared at me, realization hitting him hard who I was. "Holy shit Serena. Look at you doll." He said getting off his bike and coming to me. He opened his arms and I gladly stepped into them. I forgot how much I loved all these guys and how I missed them. "What's it been 7 years?" he asked letting me go to look at me.
"Yeah Tiggy. You didn't cheat on me too much did you?" I laughed, asking him. We always had a joking friendship. Tig is a bit of a pervert so that's usually our main joke. At one point a crow eater had taken it serious when I was 17 and called Tig a pedophile. I put her into place pretty quickly and we never saw her after that.
"You know I couldn't replace you doll besides look at you, you're a knock out" he said as we started to walk in the clubhouse holding onto each other and laughing. I guy with curly hair came up to us when we walked in. I noticed he was a prospect by his kutte. He didn't have his top rocker yet.
"Tig you know Clay will be pissed if he knows you brought a crow eater in this early" the prospect said as he eyed me. Oh boy, here we go I thought as I felt Tig stiffen beside me. Poor prospect.
"Does she look like a crow eater to you?!" Tig screamed at him. The prospect looked at me again and started to shake his head. "This is Serena, the SAMCRO princess. Daughter of a first 9. When Jax gets here you better not let him hear you say that shit."
"Let me hear what shit?" a deep voice asked from the doorway. I knew it was him before I even turned. He must not have seen me yet. I slowly turned and saw his face change from neutral to surprised, then happy. He walked over to me and pulled me into a huge hug. "What are you doing here Serena?" he asked still holding onto me.
I hugged him back. Guess I missed all you idiots. I held onto him longer not wanting him to see my eyes water. It had been so long since I saw him and the old wounds opened back up. Fresh again. Him being with my friend Tara, her leaving, me wanting to be with him, asking him out, his rejection, and him filling the void with anything with legs. I finally pulled away and saw his new patch. "VP huh? When did that happen?" I asked touching the VP patch.
"Little while after you ditched us" he said and I couldn't help but feel pain in what he said. It's not that I wanted to leave, but staying hurt too much. I just couldn't watch anymore. Couldn't just sit there and be protected by everyone and sheltered.
Just then Chibs, Clay, Juice, Piney, and Bobby walked in. Chibs walked over and scooped me up twirling me around. "Where ya been lass?" he asked when he sat me back down. I kissed his cheek and laughed.
"Clearly I've been missing out on amazing hugs from my favorite Scot" I said. We both laughed before Tig walked up to us.
"How come he gets a kiss and I didn't?" Tig said whining and pointing to his cheek. I was about to lean in and give him one when I was stopped by Chibs' arm.
"Cause we don't know where that face has been and she doesn't want ta contract a disease her first day back" Chibs explained as we all laughed and Tig went to sit at the bar looking depressed and mumbling something about favoritism.
"I better get to work. I'll talk to you guys later. I'm sure there's a mountain that needs organized in the office." I walked into the office and closed the door as I saw them all walk into "church". I used to hate when they would all go in because I didn't know what was going on. I just knew what I would be told by either Jax or Clay, which usually wasn't much.
I was sitting in the office and about halfway done with organizing when I saw Jax run out and get onto his bike. I ran to him and asked what was wrong. Instead of a response he handed me his helmet and I got on as the rest of the guys got on their bikes. As soon as I got the helmet on Jax took off heading in the direction of St. Thomas.
When we got there we all ran in. Jax was holding my hand and I didn't pull away. I felt like he had needed me and even though he had hurt me in the past I wasn't going to deny him the comfort I brought him. When we got to the maternity wing we stopped and I was more confused than ever. Not only because what part of the hospital we were in but because the doctor that walked up to us was Tara Knowles.
Tara had been my friend while she and Jax dated. I loved her like a sister and was hurt when she left, but also angry because she had not only left Jax, but tried convincing him to leave his family and go with her. I saw her look of hurt when she saw we were holding hands, but she quickly recovered. "When she came in there were some track marks Jax. She delivered the baby, but he has a tear in his abdomen and a heart defect" she stopped for a second like she was deciding to keep talking. "The tear is probably from the drug abuse but the defect..." she trailed off.
"The family defect." I heard Gemma say. I hadn't even saw her when we came in. She was standing to the side with Clay. Tara nodded her head. She looked back at Jax. I knew there was more and that it was bad.
"Dr. Namid gives him about a 20% chance" she said and handed Jax a small baggie, and then apologized before walking off. Jax looked at it and stormed off telling Bobby and Chibs to follow him. I knew he was going to get vengeance, but I wanted to stay here in case anything happened. Gemma came over and hugged me before telling me to come with her.
We go to Jax's house and are cleaning when Jax walks in a few hours later. I knew Gemma was cleaning not jut for Abel but because she was worried and stressed out. Jax asked what we were doing and Gemma explained that we were trying to clean the place for Abel. I saw Jax get angry and he yelled "Why? He's just going to die anyway?!" I couldn't believe he had said that and if Gemma wouldn't have slapped him I would have. I walked up to him then.
"YOU ARE ALL YOUR SON HAS! WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM?!" I yelled at him before storming out of the house and running to my house. It was going to be a long walk. I really needed to get a car...
