Author's Note: As always reviews are appreciated, but not necessary. Again, I will try and update as regularly as possible. Thank you to all of you who take time to read. There is a trigger warning in this episode for rape. Also contains some spicy scenes. (I will put a warning before both of these, and also a stop so you know when to continue if you want to skip it)

The sun was shining brightly through the curtains of Jax and I's bedroom as I rolled over and stretched feeling Jax laying behind me and I turned to face him. I saw he was already awake and he looked to be deep in thought already. "Penny for your thoughts?" I asked him and cuddled up closer to him. It wasn't often we got moments like these nowadays. We were both busy, I with Abel and Jax with the club.

"Nothing much yet darlin'. I'll let you know if they form into complete thoughts." He smiled at me and kissed my forehead. I couldn't help but always appreciate this man. He was going through a tough time but still had the strength and concern to comfort me. The least I can do is return it. I smiled back at him and kissed him softly.

"You want breakfast baby?" I asked as I sat up fully intending to do just that. "Has to be something quick though. I have to meet your mom at the hospital soon. Abel has a check up today." I felt Jax tug me back into bed as I was standing up and I fell back into him laughing slightly.

"I will get something later. For now I just want you." I didn't even have time to process what he said before his lips were on mine roughly. No time was wasted between us. We removed the small amount of clothing we had on in only a matter of seconds before we were back on each other. I knew this was more than just a quick session. This was us working out all the pent up feelings we both had.

~MATURE SCENE BEGIN~

Jax took as much time as he could making sure to kiss and worship every inch of my body. I let out small moans as his mouth explored my curves. I knew I didn't HAVE to be quiet since Wendy was now staying somewhere else, but I also didn't want to wake Abel up either. I smiled and hooked my leg around Jax's making him lose his balance and I got on top of him. He smiled up at me, no words were needed between us. We knew each other almost inside out at this point. I began to ride him and bit my lip hard as I did so.

Jax's hand reached up and slowly released my lip from my teeth as he held back his own moans. "You're going to chew a hole in your lip doing that." He said to me as he smiled his bright smile. The one reserved for moments where he was truly free. Truly himself, truly Jax Teller. I smiled brighter and leaned down kissing him hard as our lovemaking continued well into the morning, threatening to make us both late.

~MATURE SCENE END~

After getting ready and getting Abel dressed and fed I was pressing it to arrive just on time, if not a few minutes late. I knew Gemma would already be waiting at the hospital. Jax and I had made plans to meet up after so I could tell him about how Abel's check up went and to go visit Opie to see how he was doing. I missed him, hell I missed all the guys. I didn't get to see the guys much recently, besides the funeral, since Abel was here now. I wouldn't trade it for the world though. I love Abel like he is my own son.

I walked into the hospital. I knew Gemma would be waiting in the waiting room, or at least I thought she would be. I saw her walking out of the chapel. Strange, I never thought Gemma was religious. I smiled at Gemma and we walked together towards the Pediatrics wing for Abel's check up. "Deciding to pick up a religion?" She smirked and huffed.

"Just a little spy work. I saw Unser in the Chapel praying. Didn't hear anything though." I smiled at her and realized we had made it into the Pediatrics wing already. The nurse had told us that they were running behind. I decided to call Jax and give him a heads up and told him to go ahead to Opie's without me. Not long after we were called back. They ran multiple tests on him and it was none other than Tara who came in with the results. I was buckling Abel into his car seat when she told us his numbers were perfect other than needing to gain some weight.

Gemma complained that Abel still got fussy, to which Tara responded we could try switching his formula to a soy base instead, since it may be the lactose. I laughed when Gemma told her she didn't want to turn Abel into a vegan pussy. I knew we would end up doing whatever was best for him and just ignored the conversation. I was still angry with Tara. I couldn't hate her, but I could ignore her. I heard them trade some more jabs back and forth before we left. I couldn't care less right now, Abel was in perfect health and I couldn't wait to tell Jax.

When we walked out we saw Unser sitting outside the hospital. He asked how Abel was and Gemma told him what Tara had said before she asked how he was doing. He told us that he was "right as rain" and it was just a check up, that the cancer was contained in his bladder. No wonder he was in the chapel. "We will wait with ya" I heard her say after Unser said Hale was going to pick him up since his wife didn't like hospitals.

I sat down beside Gemma and set Abel's car seat in front of me. I saw Unser look at him before he said "I'm glad he's doing good." I smiled at him and then he continued "you and Jax will make some real good parents." Gemma smiled and said that I would make sure Jax was a good dad. "No doubt" he replied back laughing. That's when we both noticed Gemma had pulled a joint out. Unser stared at her and then she explained it was for her heart condition before offering it to him. I was only half surprised when he actually took it from her.

Gemma and I drove to the club house after Hale picked Unser up. I carried Abel into the club house and we saw Clay doing some hard staring at a map at a table. "Planning a trip?" Gemma asked as we stood beside him. He explained that he was trying to make the deal with the Irish work out. Gemma had filled me in on a majority of what was going on and the new gun deal. I wasn't thrilled but I would back Jax and whatever decision he made. Usually.

I smiled as Gemma messed with Clay about his bad sense of direction. Which was very true. It had been ever since I was a kid and we all knew. Clay pulled Gemma into his lap and I looked down at Abel, setting his diaper bag down beside me on a chair. I got his bottle and formula out that we had bought on the way here, soy based now, of course. "I'm going to go feed the little man." I smiled at them. "Don't have too much fun." I said to them and laughed as I walked away to the bar and I saw Gemma pull Clay back to the dorms.

I prepared Abel's bottle and started to feed him sitting down at one of the tables. I couldn't wait to tell Jax the good news. Gemma and I had ended up hiring a nanny, since I would have to go back to work to help with bills and couldn't exactly bring Abel with me. I decided to call him, hopefully he wasn't still busy. He picked up on the second ring.

"Hey darlin' how's the kid?"

"Tough, just like his dad." I smiled into the phone. I told him everything that had been discussed.

"That's great," he said. I knew from his short response that I had interrupted something. I decided to cut the conversation short.

"I'll see you at the party tonight baby. I love you Jax."

"I love you too Serena"

We hung up and I started helping get ready for the party as I watched Abel. After about an hour Neeta, the new nanny came to pick him up. I was going to stay at the party for a little to see Jax, and then Gemma and I were going to leave. She was giving me a ride to Jax's house. I saw a nice black car roll into the lot and heard Clay tell them the garage was closed. I walked up and stood behind the guys who stood behind Clay. I saw the men who stepped out and felt their eyes on me.

I wasn't able to hear much but I heard them talking about guns and then Clay told them that NOBODY threatens SAMCRO, no matter what color they were. I saw the other guy nod his head and they all retreated back into their car. After they left Gemma asked Clay who that was and he said it was just a friend of Darby's though I felt it was much more than that.

After a little while we saw the feds roll up to drop off Bobby and I heard Clay messing with Stahl. It was getting late and Jax still hadn't shown up but I didn't want to have Neeta stay later than necessary when I could be home with Abel. I hunted Gemma down and we left heading back to Jax and I's house. On the way back a woman pulled up behind us in a silver van honking and then she ran up to Gemma's window. Before she got there Gemma pulled her gun out of her purse.

She told us that her baby was choking and she had tears streaming down her face. I thought it was strange she flagged down strangers instead of calling 911 but the maternal instinct inside me kicked in and I got out of the car. "Alright." Gemma said and she put down her gun quickly following me. "What did he swallow?" she asked and we got to the back of the van and leaned in as she explained it may have been a bottle cap.

I reached in and tugged the top of the car seat down, I saw it wasn't an actual baby but instead a doll laid there. I felt like getting sick. This woman had lied, she was faking. I was about to turn around when I heard a grunt from Gemma and as I turned and saw her slumped in the van I felt something hit me on the side of the head.

When I woke up I saw Gemma and I were both tied to a fence in a warehouse. I couldn't move at all. Gemma woke up right after me and I looked over at her, unable to say anything.I saw her start to panic and I looked where she was looking and saw a group of men standing there. She tried to keep her composure and so did I. We both started to try and get out of our restraints, but they heard us. They walked over and had masks over their faces so we couldn't tell who they were.

Gemma had asked the men what they wanted, going so far as to threaten them, asking if they knew who we were, and what she could do to them. The men stood between her and I. She kicked one of the men in the balls and then as he doubled over in pain she kicked him in the face. I tried to reach one of the men myself with my untied legs but I couldn't. The restraints bit into my wrists

TRIGGER WARNING: PLEASE SKIP PAST IF YOU NEED

The men turned into a frenzy, one of them punched Gemma and I heard her clothes rip, but I also felt my own clothes being ripped off. I couldn't help the feral screams that escaped, or the tears. I fought as hard as I could and I did get a few good kicks in but there were just too many of them.

I lost track of how long we were there. Had it been minutes, hours? The men backed away from me and then a single man stepped up to Gemma and told her he was sorry and that they were almost done, but they needed us to pass along a message. The message was for the club to stop selling guns to people of color. I passed out, my last thought was of Jax. There would be no way I could tell him.