Mikasa has had some bad thoughts about Eren since she had that dream of him telling her that he hated her and her killing him- the idea was enough to make her heart hurt- yet she'd never voiced them or spoken about them with him, she did this because... she's honestly overreacting to what she saw it just isn't fair to hold him accountable for something that he hasn't even done. Yet... she can't help but feel some alien sense of a grudge for the whirlwind of emotions that seemed to flow through her when she had that dream.
Plus there's also that large amount of questions that she has about what else she saw other than just... that other Eren- because Eren would never feel that way about her- then why'd you see him so clearly in that moment, you know that this has happened to you before, he never loved you, he was just entertaining you, tolerating the way you'd always cling to him like a leech- there's also why she was even in that position in the first place, he almost looked... glad that she was going to kill him, like he wanted to die, like he was tired of living. And she hates the idea of Eren ever looking like that, she wants nothing more than to grow old by Eren's side, to watch as their children and grandchildren smile and laugh with them until the end of their days.
Becoming a soldier was honestly just her way of staying close to Eren, she's not a person with infinite generosity and can't open her heart to others so easily, even now Eren is the only person who she can actually fully love with all of her heart because something inside of her is just broken and she doesn't know how to fix it, she's been like this since that incident in the cabin.
She's made a lot of friends over her time as a Cadet, some smaller than others, yet no matter how hard she tries she just can't care about them as much as she wants to and it causes her a lot of distress that emotions like this aren't natural to her when compared to some of her other friends like Mina or Christa, she's actually tried to get better at socialising by practicing conversation with Eren, when she first started out it was rather embarrassing but Eren says that she's getting better at not coming off as emotionally detached as she used to be and he never fails to reassure her that even if she is bad at expressing her emotions he knows that she has a big kind heart that shows she is a good person inside. She isn't sure that she agrees with him but his words never seem to fail to make her chest tighten and her face feel warm.
She likes to think that she's made progress but for some reason her heart still feels incomplete, she can't help but sometimes wonder if it will ever be filled.
The idea of fighting the entire world is terrifying... yet she can't help but feel like everything will be okay in the end, that they will survive this war and not have to live in fear for the rest of their lives. She just believes that they'll find a solution.
Huh, when did she get so optimistic?
Eren opened the door to his room with a distant look on his face that made alarms go off in Mikasa's head that happened in the meeting.
When he walked in she greeted him and he returned her words but she could tell that he was extremely tired and just wanted to go to sleep. She was a bit disappointed but it's not as though they don't talk have enough time to talk already so she tried to enjoy the silence as he crawled into bed bt her side for her to cuddle up against.
It was silent and comfortable but she could also tell that he wasn't going to sleep and figured that maybe talking about it would help out so she broke the silence that lingered in the air." Is something wrong Eren?"
He hummed when she spoke and after a moment of hesitation let out a sigh. He sounded like he was contemplating whether or not he should tell her or not but seemed to figure that it was alright." Well the Scouts were discussing our plans to capture Reiner and Bertolt, what I can tell them about Marley, and the possible holder of the Female Titan. It was mostly stuff you'd expect but... Histo- Christa was also there."
Now that got Mikasa's attention, what was special about Christa that she had to know about Marley and the outside world?
Christa was one of her female friends, she'd grown fond of the tiny blonde girl over the time they'd spent training together, she was kind-hearted, understanding and easy to talk to, the only thing she really disliked was how annoying her admirers could be at times but she supposes that isn't really her fault, and she'd even go so far as to say that she's one of her closest companions but the girl is not special in any regards that the Survey Corps would find important to-
"Christa is of royal blood." He mentions offhandedly as though he were talking about the weather.
- okay never mind. Wait-
Mikasa's grey eyes widen as she sits up from her position lying on his chest and stares him in the eyes to check if he was joking with her.
Still though staring into those jade orbs she could find no traces of evidence that he was joking, Christa was really of royal blood.
He then looks like he just remembered something." Oh and her real name is Historia Reiss, Christa was just a fake name her father gave her to hide her true identity but we're gonna oppose and dethrone him then she's gonna be the new ruler of Paradis." He just spoke as though opposing and taking the throne of a country was just another monday.
Mikasa took a few moments to digest that chunk of information. So not only are they going to take on Reiner and Bertolt to take capture and then kill them but they're also going to expose and dethrone the monarchy that's been in place for a century.
Why is she even surprised anymore?
Her life has been a rollercoaster so far with her falling in love with probably the most headstrong man in the world, and she doubts that anyone outranks him even if entire civilisations live outside the Walls, who is basically going to declare war on the world. Hell he already did.
Eren looked troubled for a moment and then decided to come out with the events that occurred earlier." Mikasa listen... something happened earlier that you should probably know."
Mikasa felt a bit of anxiety, he sounded like he was about to say something that involved both of them." Alright what is it?"
He took a moment with a strange look on his face before saying." Earlier Historia... she kissed me." He averted his eyes slightly from her face to avoid seeing her reaction.
Mikasa... for some reason that didn't bother her too much. It's strange really, she should feel really jealous or maybe even feel some resentment towards Chri- Historia but the idea of her being with Eren didn't actually make her very upset, if anything the idea appealed to her, she liked Historia, as she's said before, and is secure enough in Eren's feelings for her to trust that he wouldn't stab her in the back so-
"Is that it?" She asked with a burrowed brow. If they just kissed then it really wasn't a big deal, if they did something more though...
He looked a little surprised for a moment but quickly answered." Yes we just kissed, are you angry?"
Mikasa shook her head." I guess not, I don't know why but it doesn't really bother me as much as it probably should, maybe it's because the one who did it was Chri- Historia but the idea of you and her... it doesn't sound too awful to me." She admitted with her cheeks a light pink hue. She must sound like a real weirdo at the moment but she just decided to be honest with him. Subtlety has never been her strong suit anyway.
Eren's expression looked very bewildered by that." Your fine that she kissed me?" It just didn't seem to add up to him, afterall Mikasa was always shown to be very jealous in the anime, even going so far as to bring Eren out of conversations in several instances, her being fine with literally sharing him with other women doesn't make a whole lot of sense." Are you really sure that your okay with that? I would have thought you'd want me all to yourself."
Mikasa looks away from his eye and feels a mix of emotions at those words, she isn't completely blind to how... possessive she can be when it comes to the boy she loves and that despite him never expressing or showing his annoyance she can be bit much sometimes, and maybe some part of her really does want him all to herself but for some strange reason... the idea appeals to her.
Plus there's also the... sexual aspect of what their relationship would be like, and Mikasa has no idea why but just the though of him doing both of them at once, of him driving them both crazy as he thrusts in and out of her as Historia watches with her hand on-
Oh she thinks that she might be a pervert.
Mikasa just licked her lips and decided to show Eren what she means. She cups his face in her hands and takes his lips with next to no warning as her hands begin exploring his abs as he got over his momentary surprise and their tongues started a battle for dominance. She submitted after a brief battle and his tongue entered her throat in a way that made her start to moan from pleasure as his hands began to explore Mikasa's body, all of it's curves, all of it's beauty and every inch of her flawless porcelain skin.
Eren allowed all of his worries, all of his flaws, everything that was wrong with this world to simply vanish as both him and the woman he loves were caught in a web of pleasure and love.
Mikasa went for a bold move as she grabbed the bulge that was building up between his legs and started to rub it. He groaned at this and she actually allowed herself to smirk at his signs of pleasure as she kissed and licked his abs.
"What's wrong Eren? Do you want me to fix your... problem?" She tried to act seductively but that didn't stop her from blushing up a storm and kind of fumbling the ending and kind of ruining the tone which she was going for, that didn't stop Eren from being turned on though.
Eren just nodded and said." Yeah, do it." His tone was strained from the feeling of her rubbing his crotch and it excited her in ways that she feels every time they make love.
Mikasa had to keep herself calm as she took her right hand and pulled his boxers off and placed her hand on his hard member.
She's never done this before, even if she isn't a virgin anymore she is not very experienced with many aspects of sex, she doesn't have many ideas of how to pleasure the man she loves.
She suddenly gets an idea. She overhear a few conversations between the girls in trainees, they talked about boys and who they thought was the most attractive among other things, whilst a lot of it was just pointless gossip, and an uncomfortable amount of girls talking about her boyfriend, she does remeber them bringing up something about sex that she could maybe use here.
She pulls his boxers off and threw them away before moving under the covers of their shared bed and staring at his cock for a moment.
She just went with her guts and, with a face as bright as strawberry, she grabbed his penis and put it in her mouth.
He seemed to groan in surprise at her actions but wasn't at all complaining as she did what she thought was best and started to swirl her tongue on his cock head as she slowly started to take more and more of it in her mouth.
It didn't taste horrible but it was a very unusual flavour with her trying to focus on actually sucking on it rather than how it tastes.
Meanwhile Eren was in heaven, the girl was a complete novice but she more than made up for her lack of experience by using raw enthusiasm at his own pleasure.
He looked down and locked eyes with her, she had beautiful eyes, a mix of black, grey and blue that he's never seen in anyone else, they were looking up at him with a very smutty look that only served to increase his arousal.
Mikasa decided to take it a step further and tried to take his entire cock down his throat in one go, her throat suddenly felt extremely full and her air pipe was blocked, needless to say after a second she had to withdraw her mouth from his dick with her relentlessly coughing and sputtering as a result of her own actions.
Erens expression of arousal immediately morphed into concern as he patted her back and asked." Mikasa are you okay?"
She continued to hack and cough for a few seconds but she got herself under control and just replied." Sorry that I-"
"You don't have to apologise, you did good for your first time, just try and build up to it instead of jumping right in, okay."
Eren though was feeling especially horny and with her suddenly stopping like that he was more than a little pent up." How about we just go to the main event?"
Mikasa immediately perks up at that and decides that she can wait to improve her mastery over oral sex until a later date, she was already more than wet enough in her vaginal area to accommodate his penis without discomfort so she just nodded at the idea.
Eren immediately sent his lips crashing onto hers and after a short kiss he flipped her on her stomach.
Eren immediately ordered her." Lift your knees and let your ass stick out." His tone left no room for questioning.
Though her face somehow got even more flustered at his words she immediately did as she was told obediently and he grabbed her ass with his hands.
He took a moment to appreciate the sight in front of him as he lined up their genitals and without warning thrust right inside her.
The sudden action without warning caused Mikasa to let out a loud moan as he shoved his cock out and started to repeatedly ram in and outside her.
Eren was feeling on a high as he took the time to admire how beautiful his girlfriend's back actually was. It was smooth with pale and tender skin that he's sure made it easy to leave marks on, he'd know, along with her slim but defined arms and legs with her hips curving amazingly onto her ass. There was absolutely nothing wrong with Mikasa Ackerman.
"Your absolutely perfect Mikasa." He whispered into her ear as she was caught in a string of moans and pleasure that made her squirm and shake beneath him as her spongy walls felt as though they were squeezing the life out of him.
Mikasa heard his words and she felt her chest once again tighten. He was always complimenting her in ways she feels unworthy of, he always tells her that she's perfect, that she's kind and strong and smart, yet there are times when she feels like she's none of those things. Even with her physical strength what is she really when compared to the enemy that they need to overcome? How is she kind when she can't bring herself to care deeply about the future of the Walls? How is she smart when she can't find out a way for Eren and her to live a life without fighting?
Yet despite her flaws he still says these things about her, why is that? Does he just think that highly of her?
Mikasa felt her climax sneak up on her and she moaned out." Eren I-I'm about t-to aaagh!" She squealed as she was man handled and flipped so that she faced his way in a sitting position.
Shs kept her eyes completely on him despite the enormous pleasure and quickly drew him in for a kiss which he returned whilst he was still ploughing in and out of her sopping wet pussy.
The kiss was a mix of many sloppy emotions, love, lust, care they all blended together as they came at once and her mind seemed to go blank.
They both moaned into their lips as they shook from the orgasm as he creampie her and they both fell backwards onto the bed.
The pleasure that they both felt in that moment seemed to echo as their bodies went into a state of ecstasy, their muscles locked up and their lips parted whilst leaving behind a string of saliva.
Breathing heavily both of them took a moment to enjoy and love the other with Eren saying these last words.
"Until the day I die I will love you Mikasa, never forget that."
If only she knew how soon that day would be.
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