Hello, so here I am again with another story again for Rosalie and Emmett a criminally underrated couple. This time we are in a New Moon setting for a smaller story of about 17 chapters all taking place from the Volterra arc. So yeah an AU but only a little bit.
(As if that makes a difference!)
A side note on the relationship with Alice. As I have previously stated as I grow older I find that I struggle with the character of Alice the most. I do see her actions sometimes as toxic and while I don't believe Stephanie intended for her to be written that way sometimes I just want to reach through the pages and shake the vampire until she understands certain things. This was a way of getting all of that out. If you love Alice and think she can do no wrong this might not be the best story for you. Her relationship with Rosalie and how she and Edward treat Rosalie is something I have addressed many a time throughout my fics and stories but I hope that you enjoy nonetheless. This is not intended to be an Alice bashing fic, this is just for me to have my say as an ardent Rosalie fan. For all Alice lovers out there I hope that you understand and I am hopeful that one day I will learn to re-like Alice again.
This is not one hundred percent cannon, if you are looking for word for word perfect scenes out of the book then I am not the author for you, this is my interpretation of these events.
There will be trigger warnings for this story and keep in mind a hell of a lot of swearing for what is in the books, also some interpretation on Rosalie and Emmett's past. This also might turn into an M Rated story depending on how I take it. Again something to keep in mind as we progress.
Some events might be missed from the book as well but the bare bones of it still remain.
Also spelling/grammar etc...not my strongest point. Again something to take note off.
Disclaimer-Nothing is mine.
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And on a side note, I like so many other Fanfiction Authors no longer receive notifications via email about reviews/PMs etc. So if you do send any it might be a while, if ever before I get back to you. Please keep that in mind for it is not intentional-If anyone has a fix please let me know.
Also this chapter is based more on the movie than the book, in the movie it all happens in the space of one night and so that's what's happening in this story. Rest of the time it should be a pretty even spread between the two.
And some TRIGGER WARNINGS for Bella's depression (seriously don't get me started on what that turns to in Eclipse) and Rosalie's past
Spheres Of Influences
Chapter 14-Emotionally Yours
Emmett finally lets loose his emotion. Fortunately, Rosalie is always there to catch him in the aftermath.
"It has been said time heals all wounds. I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone." Rose Kennedy
He abandoned the car and took to running and Rosalie followed saying nothing as Emmett burst into the river and then up the tall rocks to where the waterfall started. He ducked behind the stream and she followed avoiding the water. Rosalie and Emmett had this little spot behind the waterfall protected by the fall of water. He had carved out a little hollow that resembled a cave where you could stand up and lie down all at the same time and she followed biting her lip as Emmett stood there blankly looking at the sheet of clear water as it fell down, down, down below into the mass of river.
Gently he felt Rosalie touch his arm and he shifted slightly. He didn't want to be touched. He didn't know how he was going to react if he was touched. He wanted to scream and to shout and to vomit and to crash this little hidey hole down to the rubble below. It was ironic. He wanted to vomit out his emotions like his little brother used to do when he had a temper tantrum. Funny the things you remember after a traumatic event.
He was going to have to read Carlisle's books again of that he was sure.
"Emmett" she said quietly and Emmett breathed in and then he breathed out. Carefully, casually, one by one and then…
And then suddenly he broke.
It was like the red thread had snapped and he was unable to keep standing. He wanted to drown in the emotion.
And then he was shuddering out his emotion, crying hysterically and she caught him before he fell letting his head on her shoulder and she rocked him gently back and forth as he cried and cried and cried, tearless broken sobs.
He didn't know for how long he had cried on her shoulder but he felt like it was poison slowly expelling from her body. It felt like he was getting the monster that had clamped down on his heart since this whole thing had began out. It felt…oddly therapeutic. It was the only way that it worked for him. He couldn't remember the last time that he had cried, both as a human and as a vampire. It was rather liberating when you thought about it.
Rosalie shushed him softly her small hand on his massive back and her touch as light and gentle as a butterfly. Finally he was able to pull back and he scrubbed a hand down his face wishing that he would be able to feel his tears tacky and drying on his face.
"Darling?" she said softly.
"I should have been there" Emmett said thickly. "I should have been there, I should have come with you to Forks, I wanted to go with you and then I could have gone instead of you and—"
"And done what? You'd have done exactly what I would have done"
"Maybe I wouldn't have gone"
She was already shaking her head.
"You love Edward too much to allow him to die without trying to stop him" she said quietly. "As do I despite our many differences. Maybe that was why we were destined to do this together. I don't know. But I know it's over. We are all alive"
"You know I sat there and I thought…I thought you know if it's just pain I can handle that, I was actively thinking that if It was pain, Jane, all of it then I could…I could live with that and I thought…God Rose I thought if they touched you then maybe I could…I could live with that, if you came back alive, as long as you came back alive. Do you have any idea how sick that made me feel? Your my wife, my mate, your my whole fucking world and I left you to face the danger all alone and that was the Volturi and the only thing that I could think of was that if you were hurt or anything that was enough because you were alive. I feel like some fucking…MONSTER!"
Rosalie said nothing for a second and then she sighed. Emmett knew this was the moment where she got up and left him having seen him as the failure he was and he promised himself that he was going to take it like a man when in reality he was more than likely going to crawl into a ball and not move for the rest of eternity.
"Emmett" Rosalie said quietly. "Can I be honest with you?"
Oh God. Here it comes.
"Go on"
"You did NOTHING wrong. In fact if you want to blame someone for this mess then you should blame me"
Wait? What?
At his look of utter confusion she elaborated.
"I could have said no you know" she said quietly. "It's all very well and good blaming this on Alice and Edward and while they do have to share some part of the blame I have to shoulder some as well for what you have been through in the last three days or so\. I could have said no, I could have told Alice no. I went to save Edward. And so some of the blame has to be placed on me. I went knowing there was a good chance that I wasn't going to come back alive. And I went anyway"
"Yeah because you're a good sister and—"
"Emmett…you and I can sit here and debate the ins and outs of this until we are both quite simply dead…for real this time but the truth of the matter is, is that it is done. I am here, Edward is here, Bella is here. The only thing we have to do is bite the damn girl and believe you me she is more excited by that than anyone in this family. The rest of it is quite simply the rest of it. I am fine. You are fine. We are fine. I don't…this is not your fault darling anymore than it's my fault. So please don't torture yourself about it."
Was she insane?
"Rose?"
"Emmett" she said sounding a little bit more like her waspish self he noted with wry amusement. "Please do not torture yourself. What is done is done, certainly you look as if you have scared Alice half to death, throw Emmett into a tree and have done with it."
"It's not that simple" he said quietly and she sighed looking out through the water her butterscotch eyes sad and pensive as if she too was acknowledging how their lives had changed because of this.
"No it's not" she said quietly. "But it's you and me until the end of time yes?"
"Yes" he said clinging onto the truth. "But…Rose…I cannot begin to describe how—"
"I know" she said quietly. "I was thinking if it was you…if It was you that had been there…in the thick of it…I don't know how I would have managed. I would have been hysterical."
"You could have been k-killed," he choked, voice breaking as he tried to stem the agony that flowed from even thinking the words. He didn't know…he couldn't say them…he felt sick even thinking it.
Think of it? A vampire feeling sick.
"I wasn't really in any danger you know" she began but the though of her lying to try and make him feel better made him feel even sicker. Emmett turned to look at her and she shrugged and it was the self-deprecating way she did it that really did him in.
It was like she didn't realise how it would be if she had died, if she had been killed or if she had been slaughtered by those Italian scum.
" You don't have to reassure me; I can accept it. I should have been there, been there to protect you, to stand at your side. I promised you that on our first wedding day and yet I wasn't there the one time that you needed me. I take our vows as gospel Rose and I—"
"I had Edward—"
That was the wrong thing to say.
"Edward wouldn't have protected you!" he snarled violently crushing the rock underneath his fingers as he thought about his brother. "Can't you understand that, can you get that? If he'd had the choice to protect you, or Bella –" – the name was a snarl and riddled with all the disgust that Rosalie had once held for the name– "- think of whom he would have chosen! You had no one, no one, because all your protector, your mate, your pathetic husband who was supposed to protect you couldn't get to you in time! I wasn't fast enough and it nearly costs you your life—" he trailed off spitting venom over the side unable to look at her shaking his head as she looked at him expression stricken.
He was supposed to protect her. And yet Edward would have happily let his wife burn so that Bella could skip free humanity intact. To be fair deep down he knew he too would have probably made the same choice but it was thanks to Edward that they were in this mess and so he had no sympathy for her or for him. Edward had consistently said that he was prepared for this, for the eventuality that Bella would die and then he had skipped off to Italy uncaring of the consequences and Emmett was willing to bet that he still did not fully understand what he had put them through…what he had put Emmett through. Losing his brother was one thing but losing his wife was quite another.
It would take a long time to forgive.
And he wasn't even sure that he wanted to.
"Emmett…what happened while I was gone. Esme looks like she wants to cry when she looks at you and Carlisle is on the edge, he looks like he is walking on eggshells and I know that you've said somethings to Alice and Edward. Please tell me what is going on?"
For a second he was silent and then.
"I said somethings"
"Em—"
"I implied…nah to hell with it I damn well told him I believed that he didn't care for us the way that he cared for Edward, Alice and Jasper because we didn't have gifts"
To be fair when you played it back like that there was no way that you could dress it up good. It was bad and her face reflected that.
"Fucking hell Emmett" she said quietly.
"I wasn't wrong" he said on the edge and needing to defend himself. "You might not see it that way but I did…I do even and it had to be said. It was just…the way Alice was she just…she didn't understand the mistakes that she had made she thought that it was going to be all hunky dorey and I just…I snapped. Should I have blamed them for it…no perhaps but I have been feeling this way for months…years even Rose and it needed saying. There is no fucking privacy in this family, Alice sees what you do, Edward hears about it and if you step a toe out of line then Jasper snaps your emotions back into place. I just…I'm here because you begged him to turn me, I don't know why he did what he did with you but we don't have special gifts and sometimes…God help me I know the both of them love us I do but sometimes I wonder if Carlisle…I don't know. I don't…what I do know is that the blasé attitude to this entire thing is so bad that I snapped. I suppose when we get back to the house there will have to be a talk"
"Ya think?"
"Hon don't try and sound like a hick it doesn't work with you"
She playfully punched his arm and then she took his face in her hands and stared at him as if she was trying to commit his entire face to memory. He did the same and then…
"Werewolves are back"
"Wonderful. More drama"
"Oh yeah, and I may have given Bella a lesson in feminism"
"Girl needs one. It's a weak man who tries to control the woman he loves"
"And that" she said quietly with a skill and a grace that he most certainly did not possess she crawled into his lap her legs either side of his waist and her hand on his chin forcing her to look at her (like he would look anywhere else if given the chance) "Is why you are the man of my dreams Emmett McCarty"
For a second he blinked bowled over by her poise, her beauty and her grace and for the love of all that was up there in the great beyond why was a woman like that with a man like him?
He didn't know. He didn't hand to…well not God but…
But somehow she was.
"I love you" he said dragging her closer for a kiss and she giggled.
"And I love you."
"You can never…Rose never put me through this again, next time there is danger promise me we will stare it down together?"
"Always" she said softly. "It's you and me remember?"
"Forever" he said.
And despite what was waiting for them at home they carried on into their little perfect piece of stolen forever before the real work began.
And they tried to make it enough.
Nah.
It was enough Emmett thought.
It was enough.
And yeah we only have three more chapters left!
Next Chapter-Rosalie and Emmett return home to vote and Carlisle speaks to both of his children. Edward too wants to clear the air with his brother.
