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Trigger Warning: This chapter contains discussion of rape. Please read at your own discretion.

Chapter 3.

He had a hard time remembering what happened after the party. All he knew was that he woke up in the back of Olivia's SUV with her body underneath his. The sun had just come up and he couldn't believe that he was naked and pressed against the naked body of his friend.

He didn't know what happened, especially since half of the night seemed to be a blur. He slowly reached down and grabbed his pants, pulling them up as he tried not to wake Olivia.

He felt so guilty about sleeping with her that he climbed out of the back seat without even trying to explain the situation to Olivia.

He didn't know why, but he had this feeling in his gut that something went wrong last night. Something that caused him to sleep with Olivia when sleeping with her had hardly crossed his mind before.

To make sure he wasn't just sleeping with Olivia, he decided he needed a drug test. He needed to know something because he couldn't remember what had happened.

Until he knew something else, he would keep his mouth shut. He wished he could stay and wake her up. But the last thing he needed was to tell Olivia and ruin more than one relationship.

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Olivia awoke to the pain of a seat belt digging into her bare skin. She slowly opened her eyes, blinking against the harsh morning light. Once her eyes were open, she looked down at her body. She was completely naked, and there was a sticky substance on her stomach. She didn't know what had happened or who might have happened.

All she knew was that she couldn't remember if she'd had sex with anyone, why she was naked and sleeping in the back of her SUV, and that her crotch was incredibly sore.

"What happened?" Olivia whimpered to herself.

Olivia drove herself to the nearest hospital. If she had blacked out, she knew something had happened. Maybe someone had drugged her and raped her. The moment that thought crossed her mind, all she could think about was that it was happening again. Someone used her and she didn't get to fight for herself.

"Uh, I'm Olivia Benson... can someone help me?" Olivia asked as she looked down at the same dress she had worn to the party the night before.

"Captain Benson? Are you all right?" a familiar nurse asked as she turned to face Olivia. Olivia grabbed the edge of the counter as tears burned her bloodshot eyes.

"I need someone to do a rape kit... I need a full blood workup and an internal exam. Please," Olivia whispered. She was usually on the other side of things. Usually she was the one holding a victim's hand while they were being examined.

"Captain..."

"I think I was attacked last night, and I don't know by whom... I just know that I woke up naked in my car, and I'm so sore," Olivia whimpered as she shifted from side to side. She was so sore and all she wanted to know was what happened and who caused the pain.

"It's okay, Captain. Come with me, I'll take care of you," the nurse said with a faint smile.

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Olivia thought about the exam as she drove home. The nurse had found semen inside her, on her thighs, and on her stomach. She found dried saliva all over her body and a small amount of GHB.
Now she knew she had been drugged, but also raped. Or maybe she hadn't been raped, because she couldn't remember. Maybe she finally let her hair down and did something crazy. There wasn't anything crazier than having sex in a car with someone she might barely know.
All Olivia had to do was believe in the world she worked in and that the medication she was taking would prevent STDs and pregnancy.
The question remained: Who would drug her? It makes absolutely no sense.

Olivia arrived at her apartment and could not be more thankful that her building had an elevator. After the exam and her attack, she could barely walk up the front steps without screaming. She quietly unlocked her door and took a slow breath before opening it. Inside, Noah and Lucy were sitting together watching a cartoon on the living room TV.

"Mom? I thought you were asleep!" Noah spoke as soon as he heard his mother enter the apartment. Olivia bit her lip, trying to think of what to say.

"Hey, sweet boy... I got a little drunk last night so I stayed with Amanda... why don't you go back to your show? I'm going to take a shower," Olivia breathed, her voice strained. Noah jumped up and ran to his mother.
He hugged her tightly, his head against her side. The moment they parted, Olivia kicked off her heels and went into her bedroom.

"Liv, are you okay?" Lucy asked, stopping Olivia before she could close the bedroom door.
Olivia turned to face Lucy and shook her head slightly.
"Thanks for watching him, Lucy. If you want to go, he'll be fine until I finish my shower."

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Standing under the hot water of her shower helped ease the pain in her body. She took her time and used all of her favorite shower items to hopefully feel more normal. This shower made her feel like she was in control of herself for the moment, because in a few days she might not feel normal again.

As the hot water rained down her back, she replayed the night. But she couldn't remember anything after the last drink Elliot had given her. Everyone was fine and she had a beer. She knew Elliot would not drug her, but what if someone else had?